General weekly reading – On the other side of patience.

General weekly reading – On the other side of patience.

Main theme (knight of swords).

The knight of swords as the main theme presents a message to you that wishes to arrive briskly, before it is too late.

You may be on the verge of manifesting or contributing to a situation that could easily take a more positive turn than the way it will unfold if intervention is not introduced, & energies suggest that for your highest good, now is the best time to take heed to any messages that seem to keep appearing to you clear as day.

When a message attempts to come to you, it will seem as if random passers by on the street are saying the exact thing you need to hear when you need to hear it, television or radio stations seem to discuss the topic at hand, or even random strangers will appear to give you the advice that you need in order to move forward in the right direction. Or sometimes, it will arrive as a random spark of intuition, as long as you are connected to your inner self.

This week, the knight of swords is particularly karmic & intervenes when we are about to experience a similar scenario to something that we experienced in the past. Like a guardian angel, the message that reveals itself to us, stops us in our tracks (4 of swords), & causes us to reconsider the direction that we have been travelling in.

I call it a karmic window of opportunity.

Has there been a message attempting to come to you for several months, or even several years that you may have ignored?

Perhaps continuous situations have played out to let you know that your attention must be drawn toward this specific area, or trait.

The knight of swords is like a shift in perception this week that allows you surrender enough to receive this message, finally.

Your guides, or your angels have been working over time to bring this message, because it is a very fitting piece in the puzzle that is the liberation of you.

Once this message has been received by you, & integration begins, you can move on with a pattern in your life that was holding you back.

Humility allows you this week to accept what you may have been avoiding.

Knowing, that this is the only true way for change.

The 4 of swords is represented by internal reflection.

Looking within can be difficult especially if we’ve become very adamant that our thoughts, feelings, & behaviours are entirely unproblematic.

The 7 of wands energy describes the fight for fights sake.

If we are so used to fighting, even when there is no fight to fight, we are likely to construct one.

If you stop & focus inward, there is a part of you that will recognise this fight within you, & this desire to set yourself up as the opponent.

The opponent to life.

The opponent to God.

The opponent to everybody else around you.

Thoughts such as, ‘nobody is on my side. No one is on my team.

It is every man for himself’.

Recognise your mind reciting similar frequencies to you & perhaps dissect how this may have related to why past opportunities or past relationships did not work out for you.

There is a particular character flaw, or a trait present, that you simply & a little lazily put down to ‘bad luck’.

The 3 of wands introduces the surrender of maladaptive behaviours, & the maturity necessary to cross over to new boarders, to acquire new knowledge, & admit that we were previously wrong, or unripened, & this message seems to reflect particularly strongly on the masculine side of things.

Strong messages appear to many men at this time about how they have conducted their position of leadership in regards to family.

The 8 of pentacles works to unwrap karmic patterns & imprints.

It is time to stop procrastinating & get the job done! Instead of stewing in what has been, attempt the role of the active manifestor..

Do not sit back & be driven.

Build a partnership with G-O-D.

Temperance this week faithfully blesses us with the discernment to know what needs to be changed, & to make the agreement to change it.

Hope is poured by our angels, into the uncomfortable parts & uncomfortable lessons, in order to help cushion the blow.

If you find you have still remained angry at parents, or held on to past bitterness regarding your childhood, your motivation should be in not repeating these cycles, & building a new, healthy family model.

This week’s divine lovers weekly focuses on a powerful intergenerational shift occurring between & for the masculine & the feminine.

You may find that those advocating for feminine equality are particularly riled this week, fed up, & refusing to take a backseat.

The divine feminine is experiencing another revolutionary awakening that sees her erupting even more of the precoded archaic, psychological assault tactics enforced upon her.

It has been that the elite, & the wickedness of the powers that be recognised that the feminine was the salvation that the earth was granted, & the harmony that has always been needed, & for this reason, programmed & built the masculine not only to distrust the feminine, but also to suppress & subjugate her, in hopes that her full gifts & power could not be recognised, & the world would perish.

This week, the feminine takes the drivers seat & learns a thing or two about her own manifestation power. It is not about the feminine seeking dominion over the masculine, neither is it about her resenting him.

Rather, this is the time that the feminine reclaims her step as apart of the HOLIEST of trinities.

Feminine.

Masculine.

And God – child – creation.

The masculine has to obliterate himself by staring into his shadow this week. The shadow that is left by the feminine’s flames, as she burns everything to the ground.

Preview —

Because of the relationships with their mothers as their nurturers, care givers, & all around angels – (yeah right, no woman is complete angel), most men expect the women in their lives & the women they choose to love to emulate their mother. That is, being selflessly giving, nurturing, careful, obedient, compassionate & lenient with them, as their mothers usually are.

Most men do not ever become aware of this expectancy & often toxic attitude towards women, until they themselves become fathers to young women, (sometimes not even then), or, when they fall in love with a woman, & their relationship becomes jeopardised by the fact that she is unwilling to play by & abide by the rules that so many women do – the unfair polarity between masculine & feminine.

– Divine lovers essay reading, The untaming of the shrew; generational sexism & baby boy syndrome.

It remains the truth that many women alive today never suffered the female suppression that the likes of our mothers or our grandmothers had to endure (and thank fuck for that), however, generational trauma means that we still very much share in their experiences, even to the point of unconscious memories, & let’s face it, we love the men who are the product of the men from our mothers/grandmothers time, who raised them.

We all have some serious unwinding & reprogramming to do, if we are to ever experience relationship harmony.. & that’s where I come in!

This week’s divine lovers weekly is a little different, as I have written it in essay form as opposed to being specific for just this week. Take a gander into the lesson that is obliterating this thing I have coined, ‘baby boy syndrome’.

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General weekly reading overview – The path to passions beyond me. The feminine & the hierarchy.

Main theme – The high priestess can speak of persecution that’s existed in the past for centuries & currently against women, or feminine energies who have been healers, visionaries, priestesses, & shamans, & this talks about not only trusting ones self, but the potential threat that also comes once you do.

How trustworthy is your knowing?

Only you can answer that for yourself.

Is your knowing so frail & fragile that if somebody else were to question what you know, your world would simply fall apart?

The high priestess is unmoving. This is what becomes when the subconscious mind no longer dictates the conscious mind – for all become one.

What realisations about yourself are currently coming to the surface – both of your own reflection, & how the world around you operates?

The high priestess relates to documents & information that arrives to you through your inner world, or deep, intense contemplation.

The judgement card is all about the wake up calls that come to you once you have made these acknowledgements, & also arrives with a willingness for change.

New found determination is born once you can recognise & accept your own weaknesses.

The chariot is not concerned with being good or bad, right or wrong – but rather self improvement/advancement. Which may include putting your ego aside in order to meet your targets.

The death card is the surrender that arrives when we stop fighting self, & others, & show a willingness for growth, no matter what it may come with.

For some of us, we may be going through changes with sexuality, & sexual libido, particularly where the full moon in Sagittarius appears causing us to refocus our priorities & where we are placing our energy.

There should be a healthy balance between following your inhibitions/natural desires, & expressions, & not being so led by them that your ego & taste for pleasure is in the drivers seat, as this is also a sure fire way to lead yourself into self destruction.

Your sense of self is not about the things that you do, but in actuality, what you believe about yourself. However, the things that you do? Are a reflection upon what you believe about yourself.

This week, be willing to be malleable.

There is also a strong sense this week that the feminine energies may be going through changes & growth spurts associated with who they are, & who they are expected to be. Through the ages almost everybody has held opinions about what it means for a woman to be a woman, albeit, successfully be a woman & how she is to go about this, & unsurprisingly many of these instructions & perceptions have come from everyone – but an actual woman herself.

A mother – The Madonna.

A whore – The Magdalene.

A child – The version.

But what happens when all three archetypes fight for dominion?

Usually? One or more are suppressed, & as we all know? Suppression leads one to illness.

Time, as well as patience should teach you moderation, as well as wisdom.

You may be trapped up in thoughts regarding doing what you want to do vs feeling shamed out of your natural expression, but understand that you have the power to control the way that you create an imprint on the world, & this has less to do with what other people say/think.

It is a mental illusion that you cannot do, or be something, because of what other people say.

The ultimate judge is yourself. Internal peace should lead you into choosing the path of least resistance.

Divine lovers weekly reading overview (purchase details available below).

This week, divine lovers divide their focus between self advancement, & advancement of their relationship goals. The full moon in Sagittarius casts a reflective & pensive light on our lovers this week as they wonder, ‘Where now?’ ‘Where do we go from here?’

Structures & foundations are changing & shifting, particularly for the divine feminine within us all who currently seeks new breath, & shudders in the face of suppression.

How will the masculine handle it this week? Allowing the feminine to discover herself in a powerful way that at times may make him appear insignificant?

Will he be along for the ride as a support system?

And how patient can she be with him in her advancements?

Preview — The feminine this week confronts her fears of pessimism, whilst helping the masculine to deal with his own. She may superficially wound him this week, but she does so in a way that helps him to break down his ego. The feminine tries to introduce the masculine to a new way of relating to this newly emerging world, but needs to be patient with herself in understanding that she is also part of this new world, & need not to at a pace that frightens her. Grounding is important.

Perhaps researching information or double checking with those who seem more experienced, will help the feminine to offer the masculine the help that he needs.

She appears to be helping him to mature, & she does this because she’s a little fed up with his reluctance, & is ready to progress to the next level/stage of her life.

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Marriage, Modernism, & me – love in the 21st century.

I couldn’t seem to shake the sense of the feeling that I had somehow been ‘saved’, and as much as it made me feel emotional with gratitude, it also made me feel very vulnerable, a little helpless, & somewhat pitiful. I don’t know. I guess what they don’t tell you about marriage in the 21st century is, as somewhat of a dying concept, you sort of feel a little cliche when doing it, ( as a woman that is), & it uncovers every single nostalgic archetype that you have about love, romance, & marriage. All of the depictions that you held as a child through television indoctrination. Most typically sitcoms or cartoons with the doting wife who seemed to be the level headed voice of the family – who cooked, & cleaned, & loved. And you admired her, for the ways that she always seemed poised and ‘done up, how everybody in the family would always look up to her – including yourself. You just never knew that this time would come all too soon.

Now personally, I do not see myself in anyway as a traditional housewife, (despite the many ways the feminist citizens of social media have referred to me as a ‘pick me).

The way I see myself is, I’m a little quirky, edgy, independent, wild & untamed. None of these descriptions strike me as relatively ‘wife material’, but in the short few months I have found out that I am about to become a wife, some shifts have seemed to take place almost instantaneously, automatically, & many of these have been very much instinctive – my priorities have shifted, & ive been welcomed lovingly into the bosom of my friends who have done this walk before me, sort of like an initiation school. They met me with happiness, congratulations, reassurance, & a sort of unspoken certification as if I have ‘made it’. Almost as if my value as a woman lied with this moment, which made me – unspeakably uncomfortable.

So in the end the question remained, could I still be just as quirky? Edgy? Independent? Wild and untamed? And what would this mean for my husband? That he had somehow failed in his masculinity in the eyes of society? Because he could not turn his bride into a subservient devotee with only him in mind?

Or could he?

I cannot deny that my priorities have shifted. As mentioned.

Ashamed to say, my career had to take a back seat these past few weeks because I was filled with gushing thoughts of being there for my husband to be – at every turn. This isn’t like every other time I have fallen in love. This is a kind of love that gives me a purpose, & everything in my bones & in my life screams that this is right. That this is for me. Yet I cannot shake the sinking feeling, that my entire world is about to change, because thats just the way that it has to be.

You become a wife, & you leave much of the old world behind.

You forfeit your last name (partially – I am opting to go double barrel), & you don a suit that many before you have adorned themselves with. It is a right of passage. A new stage of womanhood that sees you prepped & fussed over by the women who have gone in before you. There’s this sense that you are actually being given to someone, (sort of like a belonging), aside from the fact my father is actually GIVING me away, & accepting a traditional African dowry (bride price) for me – cringe on an entirely different level might I add.

But back to me theory of feeling as if I am being saved. One of the things that have stuck out to me the most within this short period of the new beginning of my life, is the vulnerability of women, & it makes me want to shed tears – many, uncontrollably. No matter how we wish to look at it within the feminine progression movement, many women are saved by men, many women are saved by marriage, as as many are destroyed by these very notions & concepts.

Many women in the modern & anti modern world do not have much of a fighting chance, talkless of the Ones from poor homes & abusive families/childhoods. The narrative of the knight in shining armour or the prince coming in & sweeping you off of your feet isn’t too far off, & my name being Cinderella seems all too much a cleverly constructed cliche.

Here comes this man into your life. Promising to give you a better world. For me, that was everything. My world was – bright, I guess. I am young. Beautiful. A successful career. With the whole world in front of me. Yet a part of me always felt empty. A long line of family trauma, & neighbourhood friends in traumatic, abusive relationships – some nights I stayed up wondering if this was it. If this was the colourless life we had all been damned to know. I clung to my career feverishly.

The reality for many of us modern women is, (even the ones who claim to choose this lifestyle), we will end up in a series of sex centric relationships, lacking the depth, vitality, authenticity, & substance that we both desire & deserve. We are living in such a hyper sexuality society that most so willingly agree to engage in frivolous sex, with values of love, marriage, respect & normality dying by the moment. HELL – utter hell for those of us who are highly empathic, emotive, & enamoured with fairytales.

In the search for love, so many of us betray ourselves & are betrayed by men, who see us as little more than a transactional scenario. You scratch my back if I scratch yours.

No matter how much we in the modernist movement like to discuss ‘free love’, & ‘sexual liberation’, the truth is – women are a little different from men, & for most of us? This type of lifestyle slowly destroys us from the inside out, leaving us feeling more & more unworthy as time proceeds.

Imagine coming from a loveless family, into the arms of a man ready & willing to love you, into the arms of his family, (who aren’t riddled with as much trauma, ready to start a family that you will love. It’s filled with such bittersweet love, & appreciation, & consideration, that it’s left me feeling so – emotional.

The good & the bad.

The everything.

And that is where life has currently taken me.

On my journey to becoming a wife.

General weekly reading – The journey that lay in wait.

General weekly reading – The journey that lay in wait.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 30th (mother energies, healing the mother wound, a new karmic rebirth for the divine feminine, born again, forgiveness, redemption, acceptance) – 6 – healing the inner child, childhood wounds, friendship wounds/complexes, healing the family wound. Leaving the past behind).

The judgement card presents a wake up to our true calling & purpose this week.

Making the divine a priority in our lives once again means detaching from earthly desires & philosophies that seemed to serve us at one point in our lives, but are now unsupportive of where we are currently headed.

The judgment card asks us to sort through what in our lives is truly important, & what has remained superficially important.

It’s easy to stray away from your purpose when you are easily distracted by lesser things on the path, but it is as if God calls you home this week.

The judgement card advises you to come as you are. It does not matter how imperfect you have been on this journey, know that you can don a new skin, & you can become somewhat ‘saved’ from the old tarnish that you have known.

Understanding that everyone deserves a second chance, as long as they can repent & acknowledge, is the most important thing.

With the 4 of cups, your faith may have been recently tested.

There is definitely more life & opportunity being offered to you, but at the same time the archetypal devil, or rather oppositional energy tries to distract you by poking you with a stick, or disorienting your life in such a way that you are left feeling hard done by, & excessively focusing upon the things & the people that keep you entrapped in cycles.

The key to freedom is mental evaluation this week. Only you can break the spell. You have the choice. To tear yourself away from the charade of these falsities.

Allow those who are fighting themselves, to continue to fight themselves. The battle is not for you to do.

Let everyone fight their own battles, it’s time to understand that you are needed elsewhere.

The page of swords is all about seizing an opportunity once it’s presented to you. It may seem as if there are those around you trying to sabotage your opportunity, or play for your throne, & the page of swords energy rises up with, ‘I know what I deserve’.

People are often misinterpreting by believing that becoming more spiritually cleansed & closer to God means becoming excessively passive. However, many scripture talks of God’s soldiers being spiritual warriors, & the page of swords is very much reminiscent of this energy.

You need to rise up against the distractions in your life this week, & the energies that attempt to keep you seeing the glass of half full, & life as all dull.

It’s time for you to develop a larger world view & image of what the world truly is, not just in relation to the battles that you have been fighting.

There is so much more life out there.

The page of swords rises up with determination, & there is very much a strong wind that is pushing us towards making this change & achieving our goals with the 8 of wands.

The 8 of wands is all about messages & symbolism alerting us that our inner impulses are indeed true, & we are not being disloyal, reactive, or disruptive by choosing to rise up against the distractions, & making the distinction between what is actually holding us back energetically.

The king of pentacles is like a future projection of yourself.

Sometimes when people know that we are destined for a great future, including great wealth, or recognition, it can cause them to feel reflective or even insecure about their current life placement. Remember, this is also not for you to be concerned about.

If you spend time fending off all of these energies, then you will be taken off track in regards to building your own empire.

You do need to remain focused on the mission & in a way see the lesser energies that are trying to distract you as juvenile & beneath you. This is the only way that it will be easier to fend them off.

Stand in your truth.

You may have to make some sacrifices to get to where you need to be, but this was always going to be a given.

If you really want the cream of the crop? The best & fastest way is to open your eyes. To protect your assets.

The page of wands prepares for the journey ahead. Get ready. But ensure that you are travelling lightly, as it seems that you are uncertain of where you are going to stop.

A new found spirit is not afraid to test new heights & to see what exists outside of their old world, as they explore lands far & great.

You may be making adjustments to the ‘vehicles’ that take you from point a to b, so likely your methods & habits are being pulled into question & tweaked.

A sense of excitement, & slight nervousness, is far better than anxiety & fear.

Know the difference.

Feel the difference.

Divine lovers weekly reading – Can you let go, & trust?

There is the opportunity for immense growth that’s presented for both divine lovers this week, but as such, there is set to be some feelings of anxiety, or any inner turmoil that we have not dealt with, rise to the surface.

Any time that we are met with opportunities for growth, we are also met with our personal blockages, these are the things that stand in the way of our growth, including our reluctance or willingness to accept new information into our lives.

The masculine in particular is presented with a challenge this week. The freedom & the reign of his inner child is put to the test, & he is either to mature, & become the great man that he is destined to become, or shun the obstacle at hand, & instead resort to lower tactics & underhand behaviours.

If he’s presented with an opportunity to grow up? Then this could mean leaving home, or dealing with his mother issues of abandonment.

It’s time for him to stop being the small child in the playground who is the last to leave because he has nothing else to do. Now he has the feminine, as a priority.

The feminine is to grow through a process of personal power this week that sees her finding the balance between fully surrendering & trusting the masculine, & also being comfortable with relying on him to always come back & always provide for her, & working on cultivating her own empire & giving to herself in the time that he is occupied with his preparations, or for some reason not available to do so.

It’s a fine line between the two. But the more that she gains trust in allowing the masculine to build her an empire, the more she also takes the time & the devotion to build up her own.

Cultivating trust at this point in the journey, is the best way that she can clear past reside of distrust, that was always met with reciprocity.

Faith is the biggest theme of the week.

In more ways than one.

General weekly reading – Eli Eli lama sabachthani? (“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

General weekly reading – Eli Eli lama sabachthani? (“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

Main themes//Numerological breakdown calculation– 9th-15th (6)

Balance, co-ordination, harmony, hermaphroditism, breaking karmic ties.

Beginning & ending of tumultuous lineages. Balance/fairness in relationships. Healing family wounds//childhood wounds – confronting the inner child.

Narcissistic/codependent unions becoming unbearable. The final cry before salvation.

Main theme – Judgement/The cross. Header – 4 of swords, Outcome – Ace of pentacles. Surrounding cards – the high priestess, page of swords, the hermit, 10 of wands – fish.

Main theme – judgement – being awoken to decisions or a decision that you must make.

The judgement card represents a wake up call to ways that we have been living, including self sabotaging and gluttonous behaviours.

How well can you interpret & understand your own intuition?

This week asks you to attempt to access your inner truth, the core of who & what you are – when all illusions are removed.

Some of us may be dealing with weight issues. Perhaps we’ve ignored physical & earthly demands too much, in habit of being lost in what we do so habitually (ethereally).

It is truly, finally time for you to change.

The habits that we take part in actually form ritual, & in many ways we can become idol worshippers; to food, sex, romantic relationships – anything that takes us away from the present moment.

Communication with God, or spirit does not have to be a grand gesture like kneeling down for prayer, routinely with candles, or praying for days, & days for something to come to you, only to have it arrive in a way less than you initially desired it.

The judgement card this week represents rejuvenating your relationship with spirit – psyche(ic) connection. We are constantly receiving signs & impulses, in the form of thought, & in many ways, this means being in a state of perpetual prayer.

Watch those thoughts!

The high priestess, & the hermit card are all about following your intuition to lead you to the places that you need to witness.

What is your darkness?

It’s not so easy going into it, or being honest about it, sometimes shadow work is the most difficult thing to do, that’s why the hermit holds up a light, to help us to see into the darkness, to help guide our steps through.

Have you been enduring a toxic, or draining situation?

The 10 of wands card refers to overcompensating, & taking on more than your fair share.

Thankfully, this week signifies the end of the road. You can no longer carry on the burden of holding all of this weight/energy on your back, & all of the sticks scatter to the floor this week, representing being at the end of your tether.

You may even find yourself telling someone/some people a piece of your mind.

Suppression of your emotions is difficult otherwise, & can cause illness.

You have a new destiny now, & new journey being gifted to you if you refuse to pick the sticks back up, possibly as you have done in the past.

If there are people surrounding you not picking up their part of the tab, or expecting you to cater to everything? Show yourself this week that you will no longer be a donkey for them.

The ace of pentacles represents a gift of instant manifestation.

Remember what I told you about your thoughts? And treating them as prayers? This relates to changing your experience about how you perceive the world, especially what you manifest to be true.

The page of swords representing the inner child deciding to stand up, & fight back, refusing to take any bullshit any longer.

Determination to slay ones dragons/demons lies as the motivation of the page of swords.

You really do want that prize don’t you?

Well you can get it.

You are supported.

Know that it is yours, & start with making decisions that are in your own best interest.

With the 8 energy, some of us may even be severing karmic attachments/behavioural ties with our family members, or some of their actions/attitudes.

Waking up is also about realising how the patterns/behaviours/values of those around you also impact your own.

The cross card represents a universal symbol of pain, & triumph over pain/death/suffering/persecution.

Particularly shadowing the period just after easter – supported by the spring themes of death/rebirth & new life.

The number 3 is also very synonymous with Christ, suggesting unity, connection, & commitment, which will be themes currently being born to you.

‘Forgive them father, for they know not what they do’.

The hermit also represents guilt & repentance.

Many are giving/guiding themselves back to God this week, or reintroducing God as a central part of any divine union.

Introducing prayer time/scheduling more focused intention helps us to be closer to where we need to be.

Divine lovers weekly preview —

This week, the wait stops.

Many divine lovers are finding that they are suddenly exhausted with the merry go round nature of things, & ready to stand up & take greater charge of their lives, & of themselves.

A time comes to break away from the nest of thy mother, & thy father, & to attach some new rules to life.

What is life as a waiting game? Constantly waiting around the corner for the next bit of happiness? Not a very enticing game at all!

Allow for us to trace our roots this week as we are uncovering even more hang ups that were borrowed to us from childhood conditioning, & parental affection – or rather lack-there of.

The time arrives to grow up, to take more control & more charge of their lives, as opposed to allowing themselves to be ruled by the unseen karma that is created when they keep a choke hold grip on their childhood.

Preview —

Part of growing up means knowing & understanding what you deserve to receive, & many divine lovers have held low & poor expectations because their parents (particularly of the opposite sex) never provided them with very much.

It’s time for us to start drawing up scripts of respect.

How are you willing to invite more respect, & less disrespect into your life?

The page of swords is the ‘enough is enough’ card, & many divine lovers, especially the feminines are putting a stop to how others have been treating them.

You are worthy.

Stand up & be accounted for.

In many ways, those who are codependent, & in codependent relationships, are actually in relationships with their parents.

Are you having an emotionally incestuous relationship with your parents? Well..your string of codependent relationships suggest you might be.

If you keep searching for the fulfilment that you never received in childhood from your partners, then you’ll likely continuously attract partners who also unconsciously seek the same from you.

Nobody can give, if everybody takes.

The trick is, to not only forgive your parents, but also to wash your hands off any expectation from them.

Accept who they are – today.

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General weekly reading – 12th-21st March 2018 – Exorcism.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 12th-21st — New karmic beginnings, the innerchild, motherhood, healing the inner child wound, healing parental damage/trauma, completion, a completion of cycles, creativity, art, humanitarianism, teaching. The wounded healer. Family. Harmony. Unity. Community. Acceptance.

The five of swords in combination with the page of cups is the fear that is born when our inner child does not feel comfortable, confident, or secure. Whatever childhood hang ups you are still holding on to that are making it difficult for you to experience freedom, particularly mental-psychological freedom.

The 5 of swords this week holds the page of cups captive, which may be the spirit reflected in the Pisces new moon.

What is the TRUTHFUL essence of your spirit?

There are things that you want to do, & chances that you hope to take, but it feels as if there is a very real fear of backlash here.

So for a lot of us this week, is about narcissistic abuse, particularly the narcissistic abuse that many of us have endured at the hands of parents, or from the wider community around us.

That is the damper on the spirit that we’ve carried with us since long ago, & this week? We get to confront that.

The 9 of swords as the outcome represents the process of de/reprogramming.

Negative thoughts have been implanted into your mind through conditioning, & most of it is not even yours, it is limitations of others, & their fears, & projections.

You may be called to spend less time around those you may perceive to have very draining energies, & perhaps draw some boundaries.

The devil card demonstrates this feeling of heaviness that may have you feeling as if you cannot escape these feelings, or this darkness, but that is what death is for – to break up this ‘pity party’.

The 6 of swords is the opportunity to heal yourself by going back in time.

Ofcourse, we can never truly or fully go back in time, or could we?

Surely this is the psychological process of healing.

We go back into old folders, & files, in order to rearrange this, & build more supportive memories.

In the 6 of swords, the individual seems to go back in time to provide both their inner child, & their (inner) mother with some support.

This does not necessarily have to do with physically healing the mother wound, (although it will for many), so much as it relates to the way that we mirror, & mother ourselves.

The 6 of swords speaks of breaking negative attachments, to attachment.

There is this fear of change, & jumping into the unknown, which relates to comforting the wounded healer in you.

What you are afraid of this week, is what will actually move you.

Do not resist the changes as they come. The wheel of fortune shows that apart of you actually welcomes change, yet you have fears surrounding letting go.

There are worries about manifesting what has already been, but the message is on focusing on building the new, & slowly integrating newer, more peaceful thoughts.

The change will not take place overnight, & you need to be patient with yourself about the process. If you are trying to do it properly.

It is about acceptance of self, & no longer making that anyone else’s responsibility/priority.

You have the answer to the solution already.

The wheel of fortune is about opportunity & taking the chance this week to actually exit the wheel, by choosing a different option, & doing things differently.

In the case that you have been here before, ask yourself, what has changed this time around.

‘Bats symbolize death and rebirth. Sometimes, they are known as the “Guardian of the Night.” It is largely misunderstood and so therefore many of its symbolic meanings are inappropriately fear-based. The bat is a symbol of rebirth and death because it is a creature that lives in the belly of the Mother (Earth). From the womb-like caves it emerges every evening at dusk. And so – from the womb it is reborn every evening’.

It is also a symbol of communication because the Native Americans observed the bat to be a highly social creature. Indeed, the bat has strong family ties. They are very nurturing, exhibiting verbal communication, touching, and sensitivity to members of their group.

The bat is also associated with medicine. Bat medicine teaches us to release fear and any pattern which no longer fits in with our pattern of growth. A new beginning, trusting one’s instincts, the bat is powerful medicine.

Source – http://symbolism.wikia.com/wiki/Bat

The 5 of swords also relates to taking a closer look at behaviours within yourself that may be toxic, or immature. It’s not about blame, or pointing the finger, so much as it is about ownership & understanding.

It can be difficult to accept the ways that our psyche has split, & filtered out certain information, but this is the only way that we can strike the ego at the heart, & arrive at the soul of a situation.

You are moving on to the second stage of the self, so it’s as if one version of you has died & you’re reaching maturation.

Just being alone with your darkness, is enough this week.

Divine lovers weekly preview —

Divine lovers weekly reading – 12th-21st March 2018′ I fought the law and I won’.

A huge emotional rebirth takes place for divine lovers this week. It’s time for the masculine to confront himself in a big way, & his shadows are being illuminated for him to see. It’s a little bit like a panic attack, or a vampire being given a soul again – literally.

The process may not be the prettiest, but it’s teaching the feminine a valuable lesson in not biting off more than she can chew.

The veil from the patriarchal promises that were never gifted to him, are shattering.

There are some masculines who are not taking this very badly, however the ones who used the original patriarchal structure of dominance via manhood to shield & protect themselves against their own weakened ego (childhood hang ups), this time will prove most uncomfortable.

If she tries to involve herself with the breakdown of the masculines lessons, & karma, she will find herself even more exhausted & depleted.

Her awakening consciousness this week is actually born from this feeling of fatigue, & oppression. Although it births a fire spirit that seeks to burn everything to the ground.

She’s fed up with the masculines antics this week, & not in a way that is blaming or shaming him, because she recognises the ways in which she has fed into it herself.

They are BOTH confronting themselves, they are BOTH dealing with the healing of the inner child, & their family’s wounds.

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This weeks reading is the most powerful of the year yet, & will kick off the set of chain events that shall see spring transform us.

General weekly reading – The wisdom that the past/paths taught – 5th-11th March 2018.

General weekly reading –

The wisdom that the past/paths taught – 5th-11th March 2018.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 5 – Change, death/rebirth, newness, freedom, open space, liberation, awakening, 11 – Spiritual awakening, masculine & feminine balance, harmony, self mastery, illumination, initiation.

The 3 of wands coming in for this week, is a major sigh of relief.

With the 3 of wands we have passed a major threshold in our lives, & we can stand back, & appreciate the bigger picture, for all that has been.

The 3 of wands is not neglectful of the pains that have occurred in the past, but is still very much grateful & thankful for this thing called endurance.

For this thing called grace.

A lot of us this week actually will be experiencing energy or memory recall, especially through dreams.

One of the parts of trauma that can cause narcissists, or rather narcissistic behaviour, is how we block out memories of painful events that we have been through, but still operate unconsciously from this place of pain, by dishing out pain to others.

And one of my ULTIMATE favourite parts of the healing journey, is actually memory of energy recall, which moves us forward in healing, by taking us backward to view, & remember the past.

This week, or this time, may see you suddenly stumbling upon smaller memories, especially painful ones of incidences were you felt neglect, or abuse.

The 3 of wands is like the overseer, so you watch these memories & situations back, however you are somewhat detached from them this week, because you know that they are gone. You are a soul/sole survivor.

And you can look back at how far you have come, & all of the trials that you have had to endure, & be merciful.

And thankful that the ride is over, for it truly is – over.

The 6 of wands alongside the 3 of wands, creates the 9 of wands, which is representative of forgiveness, & allowing the past to remain in the past.

Cross paths with the present.

The 6 of wands is the feeling we get when we re-enter our body.

This is the physical body remembering who the soul is.

‘Hello my old friend’, it is about time that you return to you.

The 6 of wands comes out of the transition this week. So a lot of karmic work & healing work has been occurring specifically to do with the family & the parents recently, & this has impacted our own internal experiences, & masculine & feminine energy greatly.

Every single template you have taken from your paternal, & maternal gene pools have come out to play in recent weeks.

Healing the karma of your parents is about recognising the model of love that they shared, the way they related to the world, & the way they related to one another.

The lovers card articulates this fresh template in love that we are currently creating. When we forgive those who have hurt us, we also forgive ourselves, because a lot of the time the partners who we attract, mirror who we were in a past life.

If we can create sympathy (not empathy) for them, then we can forgive ourselves.

When we feel empathy for them, we are actually not expressing love, but rather keeping the both of us in bondage.

The lovers card seeks to come out of the darkness that is felt in cards like the devil card energy.

The lovers energy this week exposes all of ones secrets, phobias, & indiscretions. It’s like there are no secrets this week, everything is being pulled to the surface.

For some, this does feel as if it is about moving on, & walking away, & if this is done, I must stress that to lessen cord attachment, it should not be done from a malicious perspective. Rather, we must understand how the situation presents itself to us for us to understand the aspects of our lives that are in need of healing, & security.

The 10 of swords is the martyr complex, or rather victimhood that we are breaking free from this week.

The page of swords charges in to burst ones illusions, & this may be us creating our boundaries, or giving those around us the honest truths about how we feel/think about their actions.

This card could be standing up for yourself this week, & feeling the courage to tell those around you what they need to hear.

As the narrative about the way that you see yourself changes, you stop seeing others as so helpless, & want them too to hold themselves to a higher standard of accountability.

The page of swords seems to cause the 10 of swords which is something like an artificial injury.

It will not harm the person who is receiving the news so much, as it will bruise their ego into understanding that a higher level of themselves is required of them.

I feel if you have a message for somebody this week, or for a lover, it’s either about forgiveness, or about how you recognise yourself in the mistake(s) that they’ve made, aiding you to take a non judgemental approach.

For many we are saying that we need to move on. That this phase of life is over for us, & it’s about understanding how everything is connected, & how everything has been connected, & the way to strike a different course of events, is to change.

Balance is introduced with the intwining nature of the black & white theme. Symbolising the interchanging nature of death, & rebirth, this week finds us losing more of our fears of death & the change in our surroundings.

The tower energy is never truly solid. It is never truly shaky either.

It is both, & exists in the moments in-between.

With the tower, it does not come down this week in such a shaky way as it has in the past. When all is revealed, there is no clear villain, or no clear victim.

The guardian angel of young adult places more responsibility in your hands through knowledge/wisdom.

The key that the character is holding demonstrates new found wisdom that will be used to unlock the next part of their journey.

Divine lovers — (Twin-flame) weekly preview.

Divine lovers Weekly Reading – Motherhood, death & rebirth, changing seasons – Spring brings the promise of new things – 5th-11th March 2017.

The empress & the queen of wands as the main energy display very powerful divine feminine energies that will be coming to the surface this week.

This is an entirely new take on how the feminine sees herself, & how she creates her stories. It’s like she has a guide this week, a divine feminine presence who holds her accountable, a big sister, or a mother, who guides her into initiation.

For some feminines this will be the great spiritual mother herself, & many may feel called to come into contact with a Feminine deity who calls out to them – yemoja (yemaya), Isis, Kali, or Mary Magdalene, depending on which part of her needs nurturing.

Poetry ~

Spring time always seems to arrive before I am ready.

I have not even said goodbye to you, the darkness, my love, when it becomes time to make ready for the new.

I try to hold onto the trees, as the leaves grow loose, but it is no use.

Spring time will come by noon, & with it, my darkest night too shall depart.

I miss you with all of my heart.

When we die & are reborn by midnight,

Tell me that you will not forget me.

Too soon I held on to you,

As if the days would never pass us passed,

By dear, they did last,

Till death, inevitably, incredibly, do us part.

I will not act as if I did not cherish you, every single moment that I knew you.

Cindy Anneh-bu.

The guardian angel of young adults shows the masculine being given more responsibility through this birth. Maybe he is learning how to manage his money better, or how to provide & be there for the feminine.

He definitely learns a lesson in selflessness, although the lesson may be slow to come.

The masculine has always been twice removed, fixated on something or another that caused the feminine to get lost in her thoughts wondering about him.

This could be infidelity, as well as the birth of a child through a relationship experienced outside of the union.

In the past life relationship card, the feminine reminisces over how the relationship used to be.

Something has definitely changed, especially for the feminine & she’s mourning, & experiencing every inch of this change.

The tree card symbolises the changing of seasons, & how things appear on the surface to remain the same, but day by day everything changes on a grand level, & her actions affect her past, as well as her future.

The angel of trust shows the feminine working on the side of herself that felt or feels abandoned, that feels separated from the great mother. It’s a welcoming home for the feminine.

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