In ancient times, the name Vivienne was actually the name of Merlin, (the famous wizards mistress). For this reason, the name is often associated with a woman who is strong, powerful, magic, and enchanting. She is independent, free from patriarchal dominance, and does not adhere to regular stereotypes. It can also be suggested that she is a watchful keeper, as she watches all of Merlin’s Magic, and takes notes for her own.
Romantic life path calculation.
Astonishingly, both you, and your love interest are of the life path of 8.
The life path of 8 is associated with longevity, financial success, breaking free from restriction, and oppression, and liberation.
For this reason, it is very likely for number 8’s to enjoy freedom, travel, new adventures, and also their independence. Number 8’s may appreciate change very much, although they are quite structured and prefer for things to be done a certain way.
The number 8 has a fear of failure, and a fear of vulnerability. They would rather wrap up their emotions and keep them close to their heart than share what is going on with them. A number 8 stuck in a stagnant and unfulfilling may very well just disappear, leaving their partner guessing, and leaving them wondering what happened to the relationship.
This is because the number 8’s are not one for confrontation. They may appear self assured and structured on the surface, but beneath they have long struggled with self expression, and standing up for themselves.
The number 8 is caught in a strange world. Trapped between a deep sensitivity, and a deep desire to shield this sensitivity.
I believe that your love is on the dawn of a new horizon. He is experiencing and undergoing life trials and tribulations that are causing him to look within himself and take a greater guess at who he might be. This has been a difficult year for him, with a lot of growth. I see travelling in his destiny. So perhaps if he has not yet already travelled this is something that he will be doing so.
He is feeling slightly hopeless, and boxed in. Not necessarily by you, but by forces beyond his control. His career. His finance. And his joy. He is not fully satisfied within himself, and right now his focus lies on getting himself out of this pickle. It is not that he does not want your love, rather love, is pretty much the last thing on his mind right now.
You also may be feeling on the edge, as if you are nearing a monumental life change, and this is true, you are. Sometimes, the reason why we try to cling so feverishly to the past is because we know that we are about to embark on a brand new journey, and that can be frightening by any amounts. In your heart of hearts, you are aware that you were beginning to wonder if this relationship had any particular pattern, or purpose, or if it were simply a case of breaking up, and making up, in a cycle.
Although, your familiarity and comfort ability with the scenario would have never allowed you to question your heart.
Your heart is ready to expand, to take on new imprints, places, and experiences, and it needs the safety and the reassurance of your heart to do so.
My best advice; let go.
Letting go does not necessarily mean moving onto the next person that you see, or suddenly declaring that you no longer love your lover. But letting go is all about surrendering to the universe, and to divine will.
You have issues regarding needing to control the outcome of things, and needing constant reassurance, this is a trait of the ego, and now we are trying to slip back into heart consciousness. I believe that you are very sensitive deep down and have a lot of love to give, and you probably felt as if this space that you held with him wasn’t large enough to give and receive all of the love that you desire.
Surrendering is about not holding on to one, or any outcome for that matter. Anything can happen, at any time, for any reason. And that is beauty. That is the ultimate excitement, and ONLY promise of life, – the unknown, embrace it.
I want you to live your life, I want you to be happy. I see how much it means to you to achieve your dreams, to grow, and to leave the old behind. He is apart of that ‘old’. But know, that if something is yours, it will always return, and the universe will arrange the necessary movements for them to be received. But our lives should never be put on hold, or pause at the expense of another. This habitual behaviour is unhealthy, and mentally, can be linked to the physical act of hoarding. We only hoard when we feel that we are in a position of lack, and cannot afford to lose anymore.
Your tarot reading-
What is in my heart/hearts desire?
Knight of wands.
The knight of wands is all a card about charging through, entering a situation with confidence and bravery, and exercising the strengths that we require to fulfil our dreams. You have big vision, and rightly so. You are creative, a natural leader, and can lead others into success also. You have a message that needs provision.
It is time to put your foot to the peddle and bring your plans into fruition. Currently, the only thing, and person standing in your way is you. You may find yourself continuously, and consistently on the edge, always making excuses for why now is ‘not the time’, why you are ‘not ready’, and how you are ‘not prepared’. Truly, you should know that all of this is not only utter nonsense, but just procrastination on your part. Let go of comfortable settings now, because it will not serve you any better than it has in the past.
Repeat this mantra, ‘I am ready to accept newness into my life with open arms. I will chase my dreams, no matter how far I may go, or where they may take me. I am my own safety net’.
What is in my loves heart?
The ten of swords.
The ten of swords is a card all about fulfilment, resolution, and seeing that our needs and goals are met. If one is currently undergoing a hazy, difficult, or confusing period, this card points to their deep desires to ‘make things right’, and find themselves.
The love of your life is not a bad person, no, neither is he an evil person. He may appear sometimes selfish, and inconsiderate when it comes to emotion, but this is because he has never truly learnt how to deal with these emotions, and his best response is to put them aside, much like he does with himself.
He is searching so hard for a route, for a way for him to take to escape the mental fog that he is feeling, but he does not realise that this fog persists for the very fact that he is casting his emotions aside, for it is his emotions that will lead him to his souls truth. I also gain the sense that he is here for a very special purpose, possibly to teach young men about some of the struggles that he has had to endure in his life.
Maybe even mentoring children with sport, or basketball. Though he must dig within and realise that the things that bind him also bind others just like him, and he must not be so hard on himself, or the world.
He is aware that he has a calling, he just does not know what this calling is YET, and this near enough keeps him up at night. He is ambitious, with many ideas, but none that he is necessarily sure how to implement. He sees others around him doing well, even you in his eyes, and he is just so ready to gain some sort of a foot in the doorway.
What is my greatest obstacle?
Ace of pentacles.
The ace of pentacles is the card of newness, new beginnings, new projects, and a new business or job venture that will provide long term happiness, and substantiality.
Your mind is abuzz, and your heart aflame with possible ideas, and projects. There are so many of your talents that you can merge to create something that will benefit others for generations to come. And you are not meant for mundane routine, you despise this, regardless of whether you have used it in the past to take your focus away from the emotional struggles of life.
You are still Holding onto fears about being good enough, or about making it, and thriving in a world where there is so much competition, and so much talent. Understand that your own talents are unique. And the most high blessed no two souls with the exact same knowing, or execution of such knowing. Whilst there may exist similar projects of products to those that you wish to introduce, it is you as a niche, and your marketing as an individual that will make all of the difference.
Do not be afraid of a fresh start. It is perfectly okay not to know what happens next.
What is the best course of action that I should take?
Queen of wands.
The queen of wands is balanced, happy, in control, and in charge. She has managed to balance the material realm, with the spiritual realm, and thus she is fulfilled both financially, and spiritually. It may have taken some time for her to cultivate this level of togetherness, but she learned to appreciate herself on every step of the journey, so that she was never too hard on herself.
The best course of action for you to take is self actualisation. Before you reach a period that you feel that you have gained success and happiness, it is still perfectly okay, (in fact advisable), to appreciate where you currently are on your journey. This will help to take away some of the fear that you are feeling. There is no fear of being a failure, if you recognise that you are already a success! Yes, you. All of the trials that you have endured on the way, and made your way out of, have turned you into a thriving success, and a fighter!
You must find, or rather create a profession in which you are fulfilled by all means. The life path 8 holds a ravenous appetite for financial success, and ambition, and the dangerous part is that they are often willing to sacrifice their happiness and health to achieve this. Do not be this side of the number 8. Understand that there are other things that matter just as much as financial achievement, such as soundness of mind.
What am I to learn from this relationship?
The king of pentacles.
The king of pentacles represents a man who is powerful, in charge, in control, masculine, but also generous, and giving.
When this tarot appears, it teaches you how to utilise masculine energies, those associated with power, drive, and seizing that which you desire. Often, we require life situations that challenge our growth, to knock us off our feet and focus on the areas of our life that we most need to tweak, and tune.
Instead of establishing your business ideas or chasing your goals, you may have remained stagnant instead choosing matters of the heart, and allowing this to disturb your willingness to proceed. Perhaps now with separation from your love, you can turn your passion and efforts into nurturing something that you can truly be proud of. This is also mirroring his desire to find this kind of drive and strength within himself. Understand that on the most fundamental level, the desire to be the provider, and to earn a living is more important to the male psyche than most can imagine. It is engrained into their DNA. This hunger could teach you a lot about stepping out into the world as a powerful source of change. Do not sit on your ideas, rather.. Prepare to sit on your throne.
I thoroughly hope that you have enjoyed this reading my love,
And I look forward to any comments/questions that you have for me at the end.
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