Psychosis, and confusion hypnosis; a life path 7 initiatory crisis.

  
I am going through an incredibly strange and harrowing life process. Yes, it is true that i have completed an intense spiritual journey over the short time of a year, and I have changed so much that I can barely recognise who I am anymore.

I am caught in a limbo place, Inbetween time and place. No longer a product of the past, I cannot go back there, and it feels so alien and uncomfortable to me given my new found explorations, that I cannot even think of going there.

 Then there is the future, my manifestation ability says that it looks ripe, and ready, and promising. However, it is currently intangible, and it is the steps toward getting there that keep one frozen in limbo. It is a huge responsibility, almost a burden once you acknowledge that your past experiences were gradually built by the directions that you took, and understanding that these very steps that you are taking now, will once again also form your circumstances. Spiritual perceptive gives you strength, but also immeasurable responsibility.

I am looking around, and realising that many of the friends that I began this journey with years ago are no more, and that is forcing me to hold myself up to a magnifying glass, and re-assess who I truly am, who I have always been, and what this means for me now.

Everything appears hazy, yet somehow, clearer than it has ever been.

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From a very early age, it was clear to see that my path was one paved with difference. Inspiration, intuition, and imagination gripped me long before I could find my feet. I walk the life path of 7, so I am irreversibly bound to the realm of mysticism, spiritualism, and esotericism. I do not belong to this world, for I am a 'tween', always in between worlds. I am the commander of serpents, belonging to the glorious, and forbidden 13th zodiac of ophiuchus. Hidden in secrecy, to one day return as the divine feminine awakens. Love, is my speciality, and has governed my existence. I now use a combination of intuition, natural healing ability, astrology, psychology, sociology, and numerology to bring clarity, healing, and understanding to all. With the energy of ophiuchus running through me, I could never turn away from the path of healing, nor teaching. Not only does ophiuchus represent healing, but also the crevices of the dark shadows that we must crawl through to find our path to healing, in other words, the shamanic process of death, and re-birth, which has pretty much been the summation of my existence thus far. Long gone are my days of depression, I have re-claimed my divinity, and I desire nothing more than to help you to also claim yours. Not only the seeker, I am also the lover. Part of the many trials that I have endured upon this empathic journey, are that of heart break, and abandonment consciousness. For this reason, I have become an advocate for healthy loving relationships, and the harmony between the two sexes. This has taken me on a deep quest, to uncover ancient old secrets, and deeply entrenched beliefs, about man, about woman, and what this reads about where we are to. My eternal life drive and motto revolves around this simple theory, 'Where there is an outcome, there has existed a cause'. My particular areas of interest and expertise lie with sociology, psychology, spiritualism, philosophy, and literary, and creative writing. As I have a deeply intense desire to both serve, and aid humanity, I have naturally been drawn toward topics that have provided me with a more in depth account of societal behaviour, and as it stands, human kind. My roots are as deeply rooted as they can be, stemming from Ghanaian parents, who were raised, and both skilled in the art, and knowledge of superstition, and divination wisdom, it is no surprise that the blood flowing through my veins compels me to do such work, so relentlessly. Unlike other bloggers, this work featured here is not a mere hobby, it is more than just my livelihood, it is the calling of which i cannot ignore. Another prominent focus of mine, is mental illness. Not comfortable, nor fully sold with the western idealisms of the implications of such, i seek research, personal experience, and observation to prove, that many mental illnesses hold spiritual connotation, particularly as the mind is an avid translator of spiritual energies. Follow me on this journey as i discover myself, retrace my roots, fall deeply in love with my heritage, and finally accept my awkward, unorthodox societal position. To book one of my services, and allow me to guide you back to the soul, email me via cindyanneh-bu@hotmail.co.uk I offer dream interpretation, tarot reading, therapy, numerology readings, and see through the eyes of the lover.. To contact me across all of my platforms, follow me on instagram to keep up with my latest quotes, and mystically inclined photography @spiritualpoetess_ To keep up with my snappy, sassy, and spiritually laced motivational tweets, find me on twitter @spiritualpoet_ Facebook like page https://www.facebook.com/Twinflameandshamanchronicles

2 thoughts on “Psychosis, and confusion hypnosis; a life path 7 initiatory crisis.”

  1. Hi Cindy, I just came across your post, but never seen this website earlier, I read about your psychosis and some things you describe sound very familiar. I think you did something really incredible – putting into words what you’re going through. I remember I couldn’t describe what was happening with me when I was in an episode. I remember talking about what is going on was the first step in healing myself, next step I started eating clean – lots of vegetables, fruits, smoothies, lots of water and preferably little meat or dairy. Then I decided to start walking outside everyday for 30 minutes. It was very scary at first because reality is so much different from what you expierence during an episode, but it started to feel good. Then I picked up running and eventually I could go off the meds. I went through the phase too, that everything you learned from the day you were born is sliding from beneath you and means almost nothing anymore, If you want to get that person back, it’s like pulling at a dead horse. I had to chance and build myself up from the ground. It seems impossible, but there is no other choice so you will succeed eventually. Really, the lifestyle chances helped me a lot, especially the running. Now I havent experienced an episode for 6 years now and Im now mentally stronger than I was before. Have faith that one day you will come to that point too, how unbelievable it may sound right now – have faith and take little babysteps towards improvement in your life. The episodes shifted my interests as well, I love psychology and everything related to it. I just looked at hypnoreviews.com and I’m thinking of getting into self hypnosis. Really interesting stuff. There is light at the end of the tunnel, believe it 🙂 I wish you the best, X Bianca

    1. This is the best and most beautiful advice that you could ever give me! Thank you so much for your beautiful comments/compliments and amazing insight! This has been a very difficult period of time because there are not a lot of people who you can articulate this type of thing to. It’s a mental, and largely psychological process.. I am breaking inside so that I may construct new pieces of myself from my brokenness, but everything happens with purpose! And I am ready to be stronger than ever! XXXX thank you again

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