Full Moon in Scorpio April 22nd; Home, Identity, Transition, and deep soul healing.

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Hello once again, my darlings. I am back again to provide you with the energy forecast for this week’s full moon in Scorpio, and wow has it been a tumultuous time!

Now, for those of you who do not know, Scorpio is actually one of the most psychic signs of our zodiac, many people actually call Pisces the most psychic/intuitive, but from my experience Scorpio really does just have that edge on others. The reason for this, is sensitivity. Scorpio’s are HIGHLY likely to be empaths, and as we know, an empaths ability to intuit, and channel information is directly related to their level of sensitivity, and their ever open and expansive heart chakra, so if you are feeling particularly sensitive right now, then do not judge yourself for this. Like I always say, sit with the feeling. Do not feel the compulsion to become it. Do not fixate on it. Listen to what it is trying to tell you.

As if the full moon in itself wasn’t intense enough all on its own, we have the arrival of Scorpios, deep, and dark energies to make us take a hardened look at ourselves, most likely, at our shadow selves. The questions that we spend so much of our time, and our lives escaping, are brought right up to the surface with this week’s full moon.

Who is the shadow self? How was it born? And most importantly, WHEN was it born..

This takes us on a spiritual, and internal journey back deep into the self, so deeply, that we penetrate right through the self, and arrive in-front of those who came before us. Our parents. And our karmic and genetic lineages. Yes, when I say that this full moon is all about home, I am referring to the first home that any of us ever knew. The home, that constituted of our families.

The shadow self is actually born of the imprints, and the programming that we adopt from our parents – their shadow selves, and this is how generational or karmic trauma (debt), is carried on, from generation, to generation, something that I like to call, an inter generational curse. These negative habits, or attributes shall  I say are inherited by the individual subconsciously, and allowed to manifest/stew for a remarkable number of years.

Now, in order for deep soul healing to occur, (which is actually the intended path of all Scorpio’s – should they allow it), one has to understand the roots, and the depths of their pain, so yes, this week has likely been an incredibly emotional one, and more than likely, you would have been triggered in some ways, to face your worst fears.  Whether this is abandonment, lack of reciprocation in love, or losing something of high value to you.

Childhood homes are a pretty specific theme influencing especially sensitive souls as it stands. The theme of homes in general ties into us being one with ourselves, our sense of belonging, and feeling comforted, and secure. When we talk of ‘home’, we do not mean a house, or a specific building of which we reside. We are actually talking about a place of habitual comfort, resonance, peace, happiness, and warmth. These are all of the things that this full moon is pushing us to explore, and experience.

Currently as it stands, we are all on the brink of so much change, and whilst we are in times of turmoil, we are also in times of deep, intense healing. This is the reason why so many twin flames, empaths, and light workers have incarnated at this time, and have come to us in thousands, specifically born in the 80’s, and the 90’s. The most high, the universe, source, the grand design, whatever you wish to call this omnipotent force, wanted to once again establish some balance.

Years of wars, oppression, and neglect have devastatingly tipped the scales, and we all arrive at this time, to once again bring resolution, healing, and understanding.

For some of us, this theme of coming home, will actually manifest itself physically, and alot of us will actually be experiencing physical moves over the next few weeks, or even months. I can assure you, if this applies to you, then the place that you are moving to, is calling you to settle, whilst the place that you are leaving, is metaphoric of your transition, and your progression, even though it may not initially appear that way.

On an emotional, psychological, and spiritual level, MUCH move, and change is also occurring. You may not necessarily recognise your healing, because it may arrive in a jagged form. One day, you may feel on top of the world, the next day, you may find yourself once again battling things that you thought you had buried, or that you thought no longer held you in captivity. Be patient with you. Healing is a process, a journey, and not an indefinite location.

Scorpio is ruler of the underworld, symbolising, death, rebirth, and transformation. This means, that in order for any healing, and change to take place, we most certainly HAVE to visit the underworld, (the shadow self), the dark thoughts, the dark feelings, and the things that we are most ashamed of. Consider the analogy, seeds grow best in the darkest compost. This is exactly the same with us. Our darkest places offer us the most answers, the chances to understand ourselves, and reconnect with our shadow selves, our inner child, and finally, begin to progressively, and gradually shift our conscious state of awareness.

This does not mean that our wounds, and our triggers will immediately vanish, and no longer exist. Rather, it means that we will become aware of them, present with them, and will not allow them so easily to sway us. We must understand with this full moon, that our emotions, even the darkest ones, are apart of us, but they are NOT us, and we need to stop being conjoined with our pain in this way. It is not so defining. The only thing that defines us, is US.

One of the things that Scorpio’s struggle with, is their identity in the eyes of others. So in this up coming week, and the weeks before us, another theme we will have been battling, is how we appear to those outside of ourselves, particularly lovers. Yes, Scorpio’s are very insecure, so I ask you, at this time, not to focus on how the world sees you, but to focus on the image of yourself that you project, in order to be seen.

You are unconsciously, and subconsciously, at every moment of your life creating your reality. You do not know the concrete truth. You do not know what others, are thinking, feeling, or planning. Even, we the empath, may experience flashes of insight, and internal intuition about the intentions, and feelings of others, however, we can easily be perverted by our own perversions, and distortions of the truth.

The insecure empath is still paranoid, and therefore, their gift, is neither accurate, nor healing.

The full moon occurring on the 22nd, is also no coincidence in this quest for deep soul healing. Let us consult numerology. Those who hold this life path, are INCREDIBLY sensitive, and their earthly missions are tied into this sensitivity. How they may transmute their pain into strengths, and wisdom, and not let it defeat them – because, if they were to let it defeat them, it would swallow them whole.

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Look at your parents. What was their love story? Are you adopting this to be your own? Even if it does not need to be. Are you still carrying the wounds of your mother? Of your father? And allowing this to poison your relationships today? Please. If you are to let anything die in this time, let it be your past relationships. No matter how painful, disgraceful, or shameful, let them go, let them die. Stop allowing them to define you. Stop using them to define your present love experiences. Stop poisoning your chances for happiness, by holding onto all of this trauma. It is time now, to rise, for us to re-write.

The number 2, is all about partnership, harmony, the balance of the masculine, and the feminine, so doubled, we are really being asked to centre ourselves. How can you balance your masculine with your feminine, if you still hold anger towards men? If you still hold bitterness towards women? This will manifest to you projecting trauma within yourself, dependent on the energetic embodiment that you are resisting.

Alot of us, since the start of this year, would have been confronted with heart awakening situations. Anything from heart break, to triggering of our recurring patterns. Can you identify the link? The link that is you. The part that you play in your downfall. Do you create stories in your mind of ill love, and then sit back and watch them manifest, in pain, in pity? How thick is your pain body? These are all of the questions that we need to sit with in this time. The pain that you are experiencing, is not in vain. It is asking you to be compassionate with your inner child, it is asking you, to face yourself, once, and for all, and to stop running.

If Scorpio’s are naturally empathic, and highly sensitive, then why is it that so many Scorpio’s come across as narcissistic? Avoidant? Or emotionally unavailable?

The simple answer? A fear of being vulnerable. How many of us are terrified of vulnerability? Actually, this fear, causes more blockages, and pain, and destructive manifestations, than any actual discrepancies from romantic partners. Pain is painful. This we cannot deny. But why do we spend so much time resisting this pain? Is it pressing on an already existent core wound that says, we are not good enough? So, we run away from ourselves. We run to lovers. We run to others. We want PROOF they we are good enough, that we are NOT broken, though our actions, and our thoughts, say otherwise.

Why do so many people turn to addictions? Buy bottles of spirits when their heart has been broken? Jump from relationship, to relationship for fear of being alone? Because they do not want to come home to themselves. Because they know that nobody will be home.

Don’t be so hard on yourself. One step at a time. The journey of coming home to you is difficult, especially if you’ve been absent for a while. Heart chakra awakening is so shaky.. One moment you’re elated, in a bubble of love, the next, your subconscious fears come a knocking again. This is okay. This is uncovering, layers, upon layers. Similar, but different from desensitisation. If you keep uncovering, and experiencing these same wounds, after a while, they will no longer feel so alien to you. You will come to understand them, and learn how to nourish them. Stay with yourself in that moment. ESPECIALLY in that moment. Do not judge yourself for the pain, or doubt that is coming back up. This is YEARS of pain, YEARS of trauma, GENERATIONS of blockages. The pain is not just your own. It belongs to your matriarchal line, your patriarchal line, and you are doing everybody a great service. Let that give you motivation, motivation to be so bold in this pain..It is okay.

Cast your mind back to the first time somebody made you feel less than. I promise you, they felt less than too. It is a sick curse that gets passed on, and now, you can break that chain. Everybody is in pain. Do not feel broken, wronged, or victimised. The ones who hurt you, are mirrors of their own hurt, irresponsibility, and inability to come home to their own selves. I tell you, this journey is only for the brave..

If your immediate response/reaction is pain/neglect/abandonment consciousness, then ask yourself, are my feelings rational, or irrational? Is this me talking? Or, are these the words/thoughts of my society, of my culture, of social media. The whispers of false gratification, superficiality, and egotism.

Women, feeling accomplished, and worthy if they have a boyfriend, this is an age old template, that may cause you, a woman, to feel somehow less than, if your heart is broken by a lover. You may consider, ‘Am I not worthy like these other women?’. Please, do not buy into this facade. Come home to YOU. Stop seeking outside for answers.

Men, feeling accomplished, masculine, defined, when they have a selection of partners to choose from, that may cause you, a man, to feel somehow less than, if you feel that you are vulnerable to a woman, or that a woman, is taking advantage of you. You may consider, ‘I am the one who needs to be in control here. I am the one who needs to be a man. Am I not doing this correctly? Do people not respect me?’. Please, do not buy into this social facade. Come home to YOU. Stop watching the rest of the world, stop categorising.

Tarot reading.

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Main theme – Six of swords, surrounding cards, Death, The moon, The chariot, The King of cups.

The main theme here, is everything that I discussed in the beginning of this article. I usually do not like to pull the cards until I have intuitively written what I have felt, just to exercise my own intuition, without having to rely on the cards as a prop.

So, the six of cards, is all about the journey of healing, over water, (which relates to emotions, particularly feminine emotions). This is about the journey to calmer waters, after a tumultuous period, and usually does signify that we have some support, and company on our journeys. I feel that this is universal support, and divine guidance. So if you find yourself feeling particularly alone at this time, then remind yourself of these words. You are not alone right now. This is happening on a grand scale. And you are being supported IMMENSELY at this time, even when you choose not to see it.

We are really supported in these energies by the presence of the death card. Now, this card is all about transformation, isn’t this so funnily accurate? The death of the old self, as we transition, into a lighter, more aware sense of ourselves. Death, inevitably brings mourning, but we are advised to know that this is not our final stop, and there is much more ahead of us. We cannot afford to get caught up in this transitory period, we are moving, flowing, and this, we must embrace.

The moon, speaks of feminine energies, whilst the king of cups, is a balanced masculine energy. Once again, this relates to our internal power struggles, and how they manifest themselves in our romantic relationships. Green, is representative of the heart chakra, so the masculine must really take a look at him, or herself at this time, and all of the wounds and blockages that have been accumulated over time.

The moon arrives to intensify this healing period, and to bring to light hidden, more feminine aspects, enabling us to sit with our pain this time, and not avoid it, in the ways in which we may have in the past. This is a fantastic juxtaposition, showing that this particular healing period is well rounded, as opposed to other times, we may have focused on minute portions of our pain. Now, we are being asked to consider the entire picture.

The chariot, is our go, go, go button. Once we know ourselves, and we realise how we have been self sabotaging, we create a clear path of healing for us to walk on, and we are told to look forward, to be direct, to be clear, and not to get hung up on the past. Whether this be our romantic past, or the past of our parents, or even their parents. This journey, is about constantly looking forward. We are living in babylon – literally, and the only thing that will save you, is to be you. Not what has been done to you. Not what others perceive you to be. Not what others think is correct. Not what society says needs to be done.

The chariot says, you are strong, you are bold, you are a powerful driving force. You have just lost your way a little, you have just been deceived alot. But now, slowly, gradually, you are leaving things behind on this journey, so your chariot becomes lighter, so your journey, becomes faster.

A very symbolic aspect of this particular full moon, I felt was the death of legendary artist, Prince. Not only was he born on the 7th day, but he was the life path 9, which represents completion, whilst the 7th, represents perfection. I ask us all to take comfort, in our symbol, (pun intended), of the journey that awaits us. Perfection, completion, and resolution, all in tandem with death.

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Happy healing my angels – I am with you all at this time, in faith, and in light,  but especially, in dark.

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