Excessive fatigue, and ascension. 

Honestly, I have been so incredibly exhausted with all of these shifts in consciousness, and reality occurring. It has definitely been a time of rapid change, and switching different dimensional timelines, and un-doing past life karma – enough to make anybody exhausted!

Pay particular attention to dreams during this time, especially dreams about death, as they articulate to us what we are letting go of subconsciously, energetically & etherically. 

Dreams about death do not pertain to physical death in a sense, but rather a death of the things that these persons are associated with.

Our cells are rejuvenated whilst we sleep, new brain connections are made, as old ones die. And sleep is the cousin of death, so you can be sure that all of the sleep that you are catching up on at this time is bringing you renewal, and rebirth.

You may even be experiencing psychological and physical regression – looking younger & fresher as a result of dropping harmful energies from your auric field.. This is a time of letting go, and allowing so much that has been stored within us to fall to dust. I highly suggest a heavy physical cleansing in preparation for this full moon. Cleaning the house, that attic/storage room that you dump old, irrelevant rubbish in – yes even that too must now be cleansed! Re-arrange the placement of your room, change your bed covers, dust for cobwebs – this is all related to the condition of yourself internally. Your home is an extension of yourself.
Happy clearing my babies…

Ashe.


© Seek Cindy 2016. 

Friction and opposition; The necessary stages of healing. 

It appears almost as if a cruel twist of fate.. The moment that you find yourself in a state of spiritual, emotional, mental, and psychological elevation & inspiration, is the moment that you will rub up against those who seem to be at the mouth gate of the complete opposite.

Resistance, friction – an opportunity to test, are you truly ready to move to the next level? Are you really ready to fight for yourself? To love yourself more? And to excel in ways you previously never have before?

Okay, then I will send you this test, this test that once used to rock you & shake you at the knees… And now you will see, how you handle this.. How well you fare against the kind of strife that once paralysed you.
The entities that exist as low vibration cess pits in others will recognise when your own vibration is uplifting, they will recognise the resistance that you pose to whom you once were & out of bitterness & spite, they will do everything within their power to attempt to bring you back to a place where you recognise them…

Demonic entities (low vibrational beings) absolutely HATE to be ignored, it remains them that they are unloved, not of the light & not apart of God’s graces, & they confuse the vessel that they possess that it is rather they who are unlovable.

Do not be so shaken dear one. Know that this too is apart of the process… This too is healing, challenging & changing you at the most molecular, biochemical level.


You know that you are healing, when your arguments now turn into psychological expressions of communication, and resolution.

I have absolute zero interest these days in engaging in heated disputes with anybody.. My inner child is currently dancing happily, and she seriously has no intention of being unnecessarily wounded. My shadow self is also currently doing cute things, like parenting my inner child & enduring a process of self analysation & introspection, so anybody after anything else, needs to fall all the way back, have several seats & go get a coffee with kermit & them…

As a highly sensitive person, I find that engaging in any type of back & fourth is incredibly draining & this is why so many empaths seem to avoid confrontation…

The energetic back lash after is NOT worth it..

I find the inner parent in myself now reaching out to others who try to cause conflict & trying to parent them.

I mean, there is clearly an inner child present who does not know how to appropriately & articulately express itself…

And I am tempted to ask?

‘What is it at this time that you require?’

‘What causes you such dissatisfaction that you feel the need to misconstrue my words & energy in such a manor?’

The energy of resolution, is entirely separate from the energy of conflict.

Nobody is out to get you amor, I promise you that much. Well, unless indeed you do perceive things to be this way.

And it is the enemy within, the one who has a chronic dissatisfaction with self, that perceives itself to be a target, that determines that everybody is somehow out to harm it..

Gradually, as we heal, the sometimes timid, often defeatist voice within our head that lacks reason, will cease to think that all others have an agenda, particularly energetically vampiric souls.

There is not much that you can do outside of yourself, you cannot control others, you cannot control who they are, what they do, nor their emotional reactions & responses toward you – all that you can do is attune yourself, so that you experience internal harmony.

Realise that the actions of others are a reflection of their own perception & THEIR reality, similarly, your experiences, actions, and conclusions are relative to your own perceptions and narratives.

You can CHOOSE to buy into an experience if it resonates w/ you.

If it does not? Then you can choose to drop it from your auric field. As simple as you nearly picked it up.

Each day, make a conscious decision of that which you wish to indulge in.

However, in the end, regardless of all of our dealings, of those who cause us friction, of those who rub up against the unhealed parts within us, it is important with our labelling of others, not to write them off, or paint them as the perpetual bad guys – for this creates more separation and bitterness.

Our time & experience upon this earth is limited. Why are we so disregardful & disrespectful towards others? Do we know when will be the last time that we will be given the opportunity to see them? Surely, we do not wish for our last ever words to them to have been filled with malice.

To lose somebody unexpectedly places a shift upon the ways in which you view death, loss & life.

At any moment, one can become lost to the infinite cycle that is.

This is why human life is so precious! Why we should try to rise above our own petty differences & see the beauty of humanity for what it is.. All humans are sacred. Yes even those whom we dub ‘energetic vampires’, toxic, or emotionally & energetically draining…

Even they too are sacred.

I am not under any circumstance suggesting that one should put up with their bullshit, but rather, even in establishing & strengthening boundaries, we should try to speak to the inner child in them, the wounded one that is.

Harbouring any type of hate, resentment, or ill feeling towards others burns away deeply at us, more than it affects any other..

Go to sleep every night with forgiveness on your mind, understanding that we are all human, we are all learning, we are all growing, and we all make mistakes on this path…

Hate nobody. Express grief over their actions, but please do not ever carry hate in your heart for them… Especially those who abuse you, as this prolongs the process of abuse.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016.

The polarity of feminine sexuality. 

The polarity of women’s sexuality part 1.

The more somebody suffers from low self esteem, the more likely they are to be involved in hyper sexuality + self inflicted sexual abuse. This is highly in relation to the theory of boundaries & our ability to sustain them after they have been penetrated without our permission.

More than likely that person that you refer to as a, ‘hoe’, has experienced some type of sexual abuse or sexual malfunction during their childhood. This experience(s), usually occurs before puberty, may spurn off premature puberty, and permanently alters the way in which the individual views intimacy, trust, sexual health, and relationships. If this act was committed by a trusted member of the family, or family dynamic, the individual may grow to have difficulty with establishing sexual boundaries, having been taught by their experiences to believe, that there truly are none.

The sexualisation of a child from such a young age, also stirs impulsive sexual desires, and behaviours in them that they may be desperate to act out, in attempts to seek the same ‘euphoria’ associated with the feeling of sexual arousal. As they are aware by the secrecy of their abuse that the actions that they are involved in are wrong, they may also develop unhealthy attitudes to sexual

Behaviours, believing largely, that anything goes.

As low self esteem is a trait also associated with sexual abuse, it is very likely, if not a certainty, that they will go on to have a complex relationship with sex, where their former abuse continues to re-surface, well into adulthood.

You see why, ‘slut shaming’ doesn’t work? No amount of shame can account for that which people already carry..


The polarity of women’s sexuality part 2. 

The intention that she holds in the space provided after sexual Union will reproduce itself. Whether good, or bad, it shall multiply.
Sex should strengthen the bond… If it does not? Something is wrong.. the energetic resonance is wrong.
If he falls asleep right after coitus, you have drained him of his super powers, and you are now the super hero – use it wisely.

He returns to being a mere mortal, while you…. Why, you? You can have anything that you want. That’s what religion won’t tell women.. You have to rub the back of his head/neck so he doesn’t feel bad about being a mortal again.. Be nice to him, but you can laugh in your head…

Now, you are a fucking God.

Religion will not clue you up on this.. Why? Well because the basis of patriarchal strength rooted in abrahamic religions relies upon the superiority of men, and not this type of exchange of power.

This type of sexuality based upon a woman’s strength is simply counter productive to the narrative of male ownership and dictatorship.. Rather, they should shame the woman from finding this knowledge, from awakening the alchemical processes within…

A woman’s sexuality, through self discovery and expression, is her spiritual breakthrough.

And in the opposite breath, a woman’s sexuality, through abuse, or affliction, is her greatest bondage. 

This is the polarity of feminine sexuality, of womb consciousness.

However, once damaged, this chain of causation as mentioned in part 1, is highly reversible..

As fluid as women are, we can take on many forms, many shapes, and no shape of ours is permanent.

– Cindy Anneh-bu
© Seek Cindy 2016

General weekly reading – 22nd-28th August;  breaking old boundaries, and stepping into a new, destined path.

Main theme – Ace of wands, Surrounding cards, The star, Eight of cups, Seven of swords, The hermit.

This week, sees us engaging in some deep introspection, self analysis, and self revelation, as depicted by the hermit. We are facing many of the things that we have been avoiding looking into, and avoiding healing for a while. This may include deeply embedded child hood wounds, and aspects of our shadow self that we would have previously preferred did not exist, for us to explore.

This is a process of shedding the ego self, and being entirely honest with ourselves about who we are, and about the things that still hold us back. Because of our desire this week to understand ourselves on such a great level, many of us may have been experiencing sorrow, as we are triggered to acknowledge the remainder of our issues, and psychological afflictions. This is all about the process of learning, and we must take care this week not to be too judgemental of ourselves, or of others. Likely, those that we run up against this week, will also be dealing with facing their own inner demons, and inner child wounds, and these may very well mirror our own.

The star card reminds us to keep hope, and keep our faith alive at this time, as many of the things reflected to us, may cause us discomfort, and could make us feel as if we are retracting, and digression on our healing journey instead of moving forward. Do not be mistaken. You have indeed come very far, but as I have mentioned before, this is a process of multiple layers – and you are constantly scratching further, and further beneath the surface.

The fallacy of healing is the type of healing that we do that is ‘easy’. This is much like treating superficial wounds, when actually, more harrowing, and damaging wounds exist beneath the surface. This week, has been for uncovering those wounds that are buried a little bit deeper. Our triggers to do with attachment issues, abandonment concerns, poverty consciousness, and perpetual negative thinking that leads to the manifestation of our worst fears. It is no longer time to blame those around us, or outside of us, a huge emphasis is placed this week on self responsibility.

The ace of wands is the new direction of spirit and renewed hope that is introduced to us when we take this responsibility, and actively begin to nourish our own beings, and invest in ourselves. Perhaps, we have decided to leave old narratives behind this week, and in doing so, have adopted a persona that is more in tune with who we hope to become – who we have truly always been, (away from the years of indoctrination, and emotional negligence). The eight of cups sees us leaving behind the parts of ourselves that have been holding us back, including the self defeating thoughts and behaviours. Too much is at stake at this time. We can actually see for the first time that if we were to use our gifts wisely, and place our efforts in the right direction, we would be rewarded by the universe beyond belief. We are aware now, of what we have not been able to see in the past, the fact that we are actually divinely guided, and loved, and there is no longer an excuse to dwell in lack, nor scarcity consciousness.

This new direction that beckons us asks us to be more bold, to step outside of our comfort zone, to be more social, creative, sexual, intellectual, passionate, and in charge of who we are. We are oozing sex appeal this week, and we realise how magnetic we actually are when we believe in ourselves. There is nothing that we can not do. Not a thing that we an not attract, however, this needs to be not only an attitude that we embody from now on, but the actual essence of who we are, what we practice, and what we do, on a DAILY basis.

Change is a consistent effort, we cannot abandon this new energy that is emerging, out of fear of leaving the old behind.

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

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Full Moon in Aquarius – Expansion, Karmic relations (attachments), finales, and letting go of the ‘little self’.

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It is no secret that for the past few months, (weeks especially), we have been enduring a mass, intense cleansing process, in which many of our shadow traits, and fears have been brought up to the surface. Those of us who have been caught up in a fallacy of healing, (knowing what to do to heal, but not actually digging deep enough to heal, or to know what to heal), have been hit with massive realisations, as we have been urged more, and more to confront the truthful intricacies of our wounds, and dilemmas. This has not been a time for the faint hearted, and I believe that empaths, and highly sensitives in particular have been targets, as we are homes for tremendous amounts of karmic residue, ancestral wounding, and woundings belonging to the entire collective template, specifically embodying masculine, and feminine akashic wounds, dependent upon our gender, or dominant energetic gender resonance, (masculine, or feminine energies).

And what an absolutely FANTASTIC full moon to be gifted with at this time, after our new moon in Leo, only a few weeks back. And I can tell you, the theme of expansion, being target driven, and living, and thinking big, is most certainly continued here, with our sign of intellectual goals, big dreams, and non-conventional thinking.

There is no room for the little self, the victim complex, or small thinking where the energy of Aquarius is concerned. This sign deals with service – service to humanity, and wider thoughts on a grand scale. This is a time where we ask ourselves, have i been too humble, and passive about the gifts that i posses? How can i be sure that i am applying myself to the best of my ability, and reaching as many people as possible? A calling song for the empaths, light workers, artists, creatives, and hyper sensitives who so cleverly fuse their past experiences, wounding, healing, and teachings into fruitful means for the consumption of others. This is largely all that the Aquarian seeks to accomplish – to use their big ideas, intuition, and ability to see through the strains, and the toxicities of society, and culture, to be of service – in a big way. Much like God’s right hand man, this is the energy that propels us into a place of service, and purpose. There is no way that you can STILL think at this point that you are unworthy, abandoned, unloved, or placed here for anything other than a higher purpose – so all of these old, and karmic stories you have been telling yourself, must die here, must die now, along with your old self.

Accessing a broader goal, means seeing yourself in a new light. It is true that you cannot hope to play small, or to think small of yourself, if indeed you are to achieve largely. You have to believe in yourself in order to make any dreams come true, and it is time to see your past experiences for eactly what they were – lessons, vital lessons, and directions from the most high, about how to live your life, about what needs healing, about how to heal others. Nobody said that messages would be brought to you via hawk, wrapped up in golden lined paper, and sealed with a pretty little golden bow. Nope – the most high has this almost sadistic way of gifting lessons to us through painful encounters, particularly using our family lineage, and relationships, once we get old enough to experience them. Hey, I guess source knew that this was the only way to ensure that the message was not missed – nor neglected.

Part of our evolution in this time, is using our collective lessons to be of service in some way, to point out the truths in the pains, that many of the rest of society, and the world fail to see, because they have not allowed themselves to be sensitive enough to feel so deeply, to perceive so deeply, to collect so much data, and frequency. 

It is time that we must realise, our lives are not only for us, and in this way, we can never be alone, neglected, or in the wrong place, at the wrong time. Our lives belong  to those whom we inspire, and those whom inspire us, no matter how this inspiration threads, and weaves itself. For me? I discuss narcissists alot, to quite an intricate degree, and I cannot help but thank my ex lovers, for providing me with such a heavy, and hearty body of work, and pool of knowledge. This is my growth, this is my ability to work in moderation, to take the good, with the bad, and to be grateful for the accessing of such karmic recognition. It is only in recognising our karma, that we are able to clear it. Had i not identified a pattern of being attracted to narcissists, and narcissistic abuse, i would not have recognised that something in me dances in unison to their song, that something in my family, harmonises, with this very script.

The numerological placement of this full moon alone speaks volumes of its purpose within our lives. The number 18, is a culmination of new beginnings, (1), and karmic cycles, (8), inevitably bringing us to the number 9 (1+8), which is the number of resolve, conclusion, endings, rounding things up, preparing for death/rebirth, and using the lessons that we have learnt to grow stronger, to communicate, to create. 

Tarot reading;

                                  The world, strength, the lovers, five of swords, six of pentacles.                               


The world card sees us definitely exploring themes of expansion here, believing in divine timing, and divine guidance, being at the right place, at the right time, and all of our life events and experiences being in sync to offer us the best possible chances of being perfectly suited for our roles, ambitions, and purpose. This is all about understanding that there are no coincidences, we are tied to a certain string, a certain rhytyhm, and in appreciating this, we can effectively clear our karma by showing gratitude towards the things that have hurt us in the past. For they too, were necessary. Looking back is futile at this point, particularly when we have such a grand destiny ahead of us, unfolding for us, by the second. Thinking small is a thing of the past, associated with our ancestors who could only achieve so much, only do so much, and lived in fear for the most part. This karma, is not ours to keep. Merely ours to acknowledge, appreciate, and transmute. The age of Aquarius represents a new dawn, and so shall the full moon in Aquarius. The lovers card in culmination with the strength card speaks our our ancestral karma that manifests within our relationships. It is true that our relationships are direct reflections of the patterns that we inherited from our family, ancestral lines, and most specifically parents. If we had somewhat shaky foundations, as many empaths, and light workers do, then this set us up for many dysfunctional romantic relationships later down the line. The weight of these relationships no doubt cemented the thoughts that many of us already held, that we were somehow damaged, destined to live out a life of abandonment, or unworthy in some ways. However, this is our grand opportunity, to realise, along with the world card, how even these experiences were most fated, useful, and purposeful. The five of swords represents an ending to this inner, and outer conflict, with the six of pentacles urging us to write a new script, for ourselves, and our relationships. This is representative of fairness. Knowing that fairness is truly what you deserve, that fairness exists within love, and opening ourselves up to receive it, by no longer displaying the themes of lack consciousness, and scarcity as depicted by the five of swords. The strength card is the conquering of our little self, our ego self, the beast within that constantly seeks harmful, and harsh relationships through our negative self talk. The world card is all about our responsibility to serve, realising that our past experiences are in fact bigger than us even, and expansion is the goal of such painful endings, not shrinking, not quelling, and not re-enforcing out dated mental, and internal stereotypes..

Welcome a new version of yourself, a version so prone to healing, and positive experience, that you are almost unrecognisable..Keep the faith. Monitor your self talk, slowly re-wire the expectations and connections of the mind.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

 

 

General Weekly Reading – 15th- 21st August 2016; Letting go, Letting out.

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Main theme – Nine of swords, Surrounding cards – The wheel of fortune, Three of pentacles, Four of cups, Five of cups, Queen of swords, Queen of swords.


There is a LOT of mental activity occurring for us this week, with a lot of us finding ourselves stuck in our minds, and riddled with anxiety over the past. However, fear not, as the presence of the wheel of fortune tells us that we are still dealing with our karma, specifically past karma, and this is likely our egos putting up one huge fight as we move towards expansion, and rapid manifestation, as depicted by the three of pentacles. 

Past healing, childhood healing, and learning better coping mechanisms as a response to trauma, is VITAL this week, as we are revisited by our worst fears. Our fears, of abandonment, and neglect. The five of cups does suggest this has been such a prominent theme within our lives, looking back at the past, and mourning over all of the people who have left us… We fear, will this happen again? Will this continuously happen? Is this our birth script?

As i mentioned, this time is very, very paramount for manifestation, so i do suggest seeing the bigger picture here, things are changing for you rapidly – the three of pentacles suggest financial expansion, teaming up with others who recognise your talent, and creating profitable, and inspirational things within your field. You are still so worried, and looking back at the past, but all of these things are in your head. Because the number 9 represents completion, i DO see this as you completing this cycle of worry, and stress. Apart of you DOES recognise the changes that are occurring beneath the surface, but you also feel as if things may be too good to be true, particularly based on how things turned out in the past. 

The four of cups is suggesting that you are not seeing this new beginning in its entirety, or appreciating it for what it is, likely because you are still so fearful that it will all be snatched away from you..This is where the queen of swords comes in. The reason that you become so overwhelmed with your thoughts, is because you do not express yourself enough. Vocalise. Do not be a victim of passive aggression. Let things out – create, express, let go, release, you have so many people who could benefit from your experiences, from what you have to say, from what you have been through, so why are you wallowing around in misery?

Spread the word, educate, ADVISE, be there for your fellow community members who need to hear about your experiences. Perhaps this week, you may dabble in public speaking, spoken word poetry, you may write a book, podcasts, soundcloud, ANYTHING that enables you to get your voice out there, to use your experiences in a powerful way, that heals, not only you, but those around you. 

Do not allow things to stay stuck in your mind. Get them OUT! Dance, perform, write, cry, get it all out! But one thing you must NOT do, is keep everything stuck at a mind level, giving yourself headaches, and unnecessary stress. This is all energy, recycled energy coming back to you, ancestral energy, karmic energy, energy that needs to be released somehow, so do it some justice, do us all a favour, and let this energy go.. 

Your little self is very fearful right now, and intimidated by change, so it is CLINGING on to past memories, and clinging on to perceived pains, and judging everything, and everyone that comes in its way, and creating mental blockages, and havoc, like ‘Oh no, he’s gonna be just like everybody else’., ‘I know that I said I would get out there more, and be sociable, but she only talks about herself, she;s not conscious enough for me, she’s not gonna understand me’.. Bla, bla,bla! All of this NONSENSE, attempting to stop you from venturing out, and stepping into new territory. You need to get used to it baby love..Because the karmic energy right now, is PUSHING for you to expand, manifest, and move forward, so your little self needs to just take a back seat, and fall ALL the way back, because all of this niggling fear, and doubt is not even cute anymore..We have been there and done that. You do NOT know the full story, so please, stop bs’ing yourself, and everybody else.

People are recognising you this week as somebody who has successfully broken karmic chains, and they want to know you, and they want to align themselves with you – and you better let them, because you all have things to teach one another. You can all heal together. It is really important to make strength out of all of your badness. Laugh about it. Make jokes about your anxiety, give advice to others about how they can defeat their negative self talk, just transmute, transmute, transmute! Somebody from the past may be returning to you this week with a message – to tell you why something worked out in the way that it did. They too see your progress, so do not worry about their return.. You have bigger fish to fry, like the people who are depending on you to deliver these messages, you are destined to deliver.. 

The wheel of fortune is changing gradually, so that you can see the change manifest before your very eyes, it is not going to happen at lightening speed, because it is working in tandem with you. The most high needs to see your progress.Needs to see if you really mean what you say. How far have you TRULY come? Now is your chance to show..

Calm the shit down, right now..Go meditate. Go write something. Go look in the mirror, and shake those hips to something funky…Get OUT of your mind. Let GO! Let it OUT!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 8th-14th August; Creation, destruction, and truthful Revelations.

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Main theme – Empress, What is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – Page of pentacles, Page of cups, Wheel of fortune, Feminine – The fool, Five of wands, King of wands. 

This week, with the main theme being the empress, we are dealing with energies of creation, and birthing. There is  alot of newness going on, we are dealing with very fertile soils, the ability to make almost anything, and everything manifest. What both twins are experiencing being the king of pentacles, shows some success for us in financial areas, and matters of abundance. Together, these two energies are symbolic of the divine feminine, and the divine masculine working together to create something new – like the big bang theory. There is a balancing of both energies going on within, although I feel as if the masculine is going through this transition, MUCH smoother than the feminine, who is being a little bit messy this week if I am quite honest!

This week, both sacred lovers are focusing on building, building themselves, building who they are, their self perception, and working to bring their talents out into the world. This is truly a week of self determination, and actualisation, but for some reason, it seems as if the feminine is a little bit threatened by the masculine’s desire to expand and explore. This is probably touching on a core wound that she has to do with abandonment, and she is being asked to look deeply into this wound as it is attached to one of the reasons that a lot of her past relationships have not worked out.

The fool card suggests a willful ignorance on her part. She is walking away from the masculine who seems to be walking in the other direction towards financial, and career opportunities. On his end, he is like ? ‘What’s going on? What are you talking about? What have I done wrong? I am just doing my own thing, I am just making some money. I am trying to change my fate, our destiny’ – as depicted by the wheel of fortune, and really, and truly things ARE changing for him, and the feminine should be proud of him, and happy for him, but she is quite threatened by his elevation. A part of her thinks, ‘will he still choose me?’ .. This is much more to do with her insecurities than anything, and this week we take a harsh look at the divine feminine, for her not so pretty side, and how she herself blocks union, SO much more than the concept of the masculine being the runner. In truth, she has existed as the runner for so long..

She’s like this week, ‘I’m going to go this week, and I’m going to do my own thing. Because you are not behaving in accordance with the way that I desire, and this is not making ME feel good’. Me, me me, this is her song, her battle cry.. Can you please see this week feminine, how toxic, and borderline abusive that is? Nobody lives to serve you entirely, relationships are a partnership, not just about somebody making you feel good. What about the other person?

Manifestation is at an ALL time high right now, so it is important to watch one’s thoughts, particularly for the feminine, her mind is so powerful that anything that she conjures (even the negative), will manifest, and take root – and this is what has been occurring for her for so long.

The five of wands is representative of this inner conflict within herself. Everytime that she conjures up an irrelevant argument, everytime that she is passive aggressive, what she is truly doing, is fighting herself, and manifesting this struggle outward. She needs to learn how to deal with her own emotions, or she will always drive people away from her. This is a huge lesson in love, and over coming blockages. I do not understand this week, the need for her to have so many fears, because the empress card shows that her empire too is being built, and things are also shifting for her – but alas, we get down to the nitty gritty of the problem – the feminine FEARS happiness, she FEARS change, and she FEARS success, and she is doing everything possible to make sure that she can somehow sabotage it.

However, the king of wands on the feminine side, is very strong, very determined masculine energy. Where previous partners have fallen, this masculine, is not about to take her shit lying down. He is not going to get up and desert her, because despite the abuse, he is actually far more secure, and settled within himself now. He has taken one of the wands that she is using in conflict, and set it down in the ground, and is saying, ‘I am here. I am not going anywhere’, but the real danger is…Nobody can put up with this type of behaviour, and abuse forever, and this is a call, for the divine feminine to change – to awaken.

Over on the masculine side, he comes with an offer of love, the page of cups sees him confirming, and yielding his love in his hands. There is an innocence about him, that should not be abused, he is exposing himself..He is really here saying, ‘Here, this is the love that I have to give you. Maybe it is not much, but it is what I have. I do not understand the need to fight, or argue, and it does upset me’.. Whilst he is dealing with his issues by surrendering, the feminine is FIGHTING for dear life. Perhaps centuries of the feminine template being associated with victimisation, and persecution is coming up in a major way, for release.

This is encouraging him to step up in some ways however, and to refine himself, because this woman is crazy (lol), and if he wants to be with her, he is going to need to learn some proper expression techniques, because clearly, she takes his silence for neglect, and abandonment. It is very important for her to acknowledge this week how she sets herself up for pre-meditated conflict.

Her insecurities are ravenous, and this week, she needs to turn ‘Alllllll the way, down!’.

This is a perfect opportunity however to finally identify, and bring about an end to these karmic struggles that have been occurring for as long as she can remember. This fight, exists within herself, and she needs to deal with this – not berate, and infringe upon others.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 8th-14th August; Painful endings, and accepting transition.

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Main theme: Death, Surrounding cards: Eight of swords, Nine of pentacles, Wheel of fortune, Ten of pentacles, Seven of pentacles, Five of pentacles.

Okay guys, I don’t know about you, but this week, I have been experiencing some exceptionally strange, and often uncomfortable energies, and emotions, and looking at this deck, I do not fail to see why..

I have actually picked more cards than usual this week, because I have been very desperate to find out EXACTLY what it is that we have been dealing with. I personally, know that I have been feeling funky all week, and so many themes and perspectives that I have thought that I had dealt with, have been dragged right back up, in this dramatic, dark night of the soul-esque episode!

We are currently enduring a MASSIVE cleansing process, and a massive death, and rebirth theme, so a lot of the things that we are dealing with, are in relation to endings, and new beginnings, and this process of mourning, is always painful. Let us envision physical death, it is a difficult process in which we must say goodbye to someone that means a lot to us, and the emptiness that is left over, is no different from the energy of the essence left from energetic, karmic, or emotional deaths. We are letting go of so many things, and so many people, and the wheel of fortune suggests that this is all to do with changing our karmic substance.

We will be triggered greatly this week, and this is because many of us are dealing with the last of our shadow aspects, our childhood wounds, the biggest blockages to our soul’s evolution, as we see them brought to the very surface. The things that we deny, the negative narratives, and stories that we have been holding on to for so long – we are faced with them all this week, and we are asked to let them go, to transform them, to see how they have been creating this fixed narrative within our lives.

With the five of pentacles, we are shown how our perception of lack effects and influences our life’s dealings, and decisions. There has existed for a long time within us a certain emptiness, a feeling like we are not enough, or that we do not have enough, and this week, we are challenged to face this notion within ourselves. Loneliness, victimisation, poor mental health, everything is coming to the centre of our being, to ask us the question that we truly fear… Could we really be somehow, irreversibly damaged, and or tarnished? Ofcourse, this is a fool’s question, but for somebody who has carried this notion around with them for life times long, it is a very real, and very valid ponder.

So old stories, themes from the past, life stages and familiar experiences are brought up at this time, to ask us to break this karmic cycle, and we have actually been doing shadow cleansing, and karmic revamping for several weeks now, But i do feel as if all of this has really intensified with the presence of the Lion’s gate. Perhaps our self worth, and self perceptions have also been tied into our ability to manifest money, as there are plenty pentacle cards displayed this week… This relates once again to scarcity consciousness, the thought that we do not have enough – that we are not enough.

The eight of swords is us manifesting these negative experiences and thoughts continuously. We just keep digging, and digging, I mean it is almost as if we enjoy our own detriment, but we truly get to see this week how this is something that exists first within us, and then manifests without. It is time to stop creating this negative backlash of karma, because of our beliefs tied in with pain, and negative self worth. How long can you see your life take on this consistent narrative, until you realise that it is time to wake up, that you no longer wish to feel this way..That you have the power, NOT to feel this way.

The seven of pentacles speaks of our harvest, waiting for our rewards to come in, and expecting them to come in. So it goes like this, sometimes, you do believe in yourself, you do believe in your worth, and you do believe in your ability to acquire abundance, and instant manifestation. Other times, you confuse the universe… You say one thing, but you FEEL another way, and keep in mind, it is all about the feeling – the universe works with energy. If you are saying that you are worthy and deserving, but deep down deprivation consciousness is screaming into your ego, what do you think you will see? What do you think will exist around you?

Cultivation requires persistence, so can you keep your vibration high enough, and focused enough to truly manifest the type of life that you desire? The nine of pentacles, and the ten of pentacles speak of things finally coming together for you – financially, this is your opportunity to go where you have always dreamt of going, but there are still things, self imposed that are holding you back. Could you imagine the extent of your full potential if you broke free from these chains? If you started to fully commit to yourself, and act from a place of wholeness, and belief in your own magic? Likely, you would be unstoppable. You have the recipe, and you have the ingredients for greatness, but do you have the patience, and the cultivation? If something does not work in your favor instantly, do you fall back into old habits and patterns and say, ‘ I knew it. I knew that was not going to work anyway. Nothing ever works for me. This is the way that things are?’…. Well, then you are affirming this belief. In keep in mind that this is not only limited to finances, this also spreads out into areas of our love life, family, and friends…If you feel like others are always abandoning you, you will literally search for cues to confirm your beliefs, so even if they have no intention of doing so, to you, in your mind, this will be a PROVEN reality .The mind is so powerful..It wants, what it wants, and it will find it.

Stop feeding your fears, stop feeding your sadness, for it is an insatiable beast, that continues to feast, and continue to eat, as long as you will it so. Who are you? Are you this powerful creator who can manifest greatness and lives in the eye of the most high? Or are you this meek individual who believes in victimisation, and deprivation consciousness? Make up your mind..Because for too long, you swing from one podium to the other, and something has got to give. It just does NOT make sense. You cannot be both.. You can be light, and both dark, but you cannot be both weak, and strong. You are one, or the other, and this week, you need to choose.

Everything that you want this week, that you could dream of, is on the table, the most high is like, ‘here you go’.. You can get this, you can have this, but is your energy willing to work for it? Or have you already decided…That self sabotage is your birth right?

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

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New moon in Leo; 2nd August 2016 – Setting intentions for a more direct you!

New moon in Leo: August 2nd 2016 – desires for direction.

Hello my enchiladas! I already completed a quick post on what Leo energy was all about, and what we should be expecting in this season, but I have taken the time to put together a further little piece specific for today, and the ways in which we can harness this new moon potential, in order to excel further!

What I like to do for new moons, (and full moons), is to set an intention. This intention will carry me through the remainder of the month, and is kind of like a sacrament I make with myself. I will try to honour this pledge, and be consciously aware of integrating it into my psyche, and my daily practices.

Many different websites and articles will advise you about different ways to set your intention. You can actually choose any of these ways, but really, it is just as simple as writing them down somewhere, and writing with intention, and focus.

I do like to have a new moon bath, where I soak myself in salts, but this is not entirely necessary to do – however, I do find it symbolic of cleansing, and starting anew.

I will include my little new moon ritual at the bottom.


Page of swords, Ace of cups, Two of cups, Three of cups, Three of wands.

This months new moon in Leo, arrives to us, with an energy of self expression. The page of swords encourages us to express our truths, and vocalises our likes, dislikes, wants, and preferences. This is the only way that we will be heard. This challenges creatives and empaths especially who have problems with expression, to learn to articulate themselves. Not voicing your truth leads only to two things; passive aggression, and resentment – and this is exactly what we do not want. We have been working so hard lately to rid ourselves of harsh energies, and our shadow aspects, so it is important to not get caught up in the things that create them.

Leo energy is bold, and dominant, this is the individual who will not be taken advantage of because, they will NOT take any B.S! I mean all of the Leo’s that I know, are willing to serve some serious sass if crossed – and you need to be the same. This is self respect for yourself. 

The two of cups asked you to remain balanced. Vocalising your truth is not the same as being rude, or aggressive. The lion knows when to attack. A true leader does not attack to prove a point, or to flex their strengths. You must learn to communicate in a way that is based on resolution, and truth, rather than arguments, bitterness, and anarchy.

It is also about balance – learning to take the good in life with the bad. Will bad things happen? Yes. Do you have to make it the end of the world? Internalise it? And let it poison you? Nope. Release it, express it, let it go. Go on with your day. Do not hoard informations.

The ace of cups is this new beginning, and this level of intimacy that is provided to us when we can learn to express our truthful desires. We are more open with ourselves. We are more open with others, and our friendships and relationships are far more transparent. This them becomes AUTHENTIC, our authentic truth, our authentic persona, as we come closer to the light of ourselves by clarifying what we do, and do not wish to put up with. 

The three of cups & the three of wands, is all about our creative expansion. Above all things, Leo seeks to free the inner child. This is lighter energy. Energy of grace, joy, newness, and opportunity.. There is so much out there for you should you expand your sights and visions. The world is truly your oyster & you must carry the confidence of the lion – wherever you go. Self esteem is all tied up in how we express ourselves. Bright colours, a loud voice, a creative flair, a quirky personality – these are all things that draw others to us, that light up our worlds. Stop hiding in fright, in the dark – it is time to emerge as who you are!
New moon in Leo ritual.


1. Run a relaxing bath – fill bath with scented candles, anointed oils, or bath salts.

2. Spend some time in the mirror looking at your own body, before entering the bath, and aloud; mention some things that you most appreciate about your physique.

3. Make a list of things that you vow to yourself in order to work on your self expression, particularly throat chakra activation – write about how you will express your concerns AS they arise, how you will respect yourself enough not to shrink your views for others, how your own well being, is just as vital, and worthy, and of value as that of others.

4. Create something. Write a poem. Draw a picture. Write a song. Write a letter – make sure that it is about how you are feeling at this present time. Focus on the energies leaving your body, and entering your creative piece (peace), as you do.


Happy healing my sacred beings ~