It is no secret that for the past few months, (weeks especially), we have been enduring a mass, intense cleansing process, in which many of our shadow traits, and fears have been brought up to the surface. Those of us who have been caught up in a fallacy of healing, (knowing what to do to heal, but not actually digging deep enough to heal, or to know what to heal), have been hit with massive realisations, as we have been urged more, and more to confront the truthful intricacies of our wounds, and dilemmas. This has not been a time for the faint hearted, and I believe that empaths, and highly sensitives in particular have been targets, as we are homes for tremendous amounts of karmic residue, ancestral wounding, and woundings belonging to the entire collective template, specifically embodying masculine, and feminine akashic wounds, dependent upon our gender, or dominant energetic gender resonance, (masculine, or feminine energies).
And what an absolutely FANTASTIC full moon to be gifted with at this time, after our new moon in Leo, only a few weeks back. And I can tell you, the theme of expansion, being target driven, and living, and thinking big, is most certainly continued here, with our sign of intellectual goals, big dreams, and non-conventional thinking.
There is no room for the little self, the victim complex, or small thinking where the energy of Aquarius is concerned. This sign deals with service – service to humanity, and wider thoughts on a grand scale. This is a time where we ask ourselves, have i been too humble, and passive about the gifts that i posses? How can i be sure that i am applying myself to the best of my ability, and reaching as many people as possible? A calling song for the empaths, light workers, artists, creatives, and hyper sensitives who so cleverly fuse their past experiences, wounding, healing, and teachings into fruitful means for the consumption of others. This is largely all that the Aquarian seeks to accomplish – to use their big ideas, intuition, and ability to see through the strains, and the toxicities of society, and culture, to be of service – in a big way. Much like God’s right hand man, this is the energy that propels us into a place of service, and purpose. There is no way that you can STILL think at this point that you are unworthy, abandoned, unloved, or placed here for anything other than a higher purpose – so all of these old, and karmic stories you have been telling yourself, must die here, must die now, along with your old self.
Accessing a broader goal, means seeing yourself in a new light. It is true that you cannot hope to play small, or to think small of yourself, if indeed you are to achieve largely. You have to believe in yourself in order to make any dreams come true, and it is time to see your past experiences for eactly what they were – lessons, vital lessons, and directions from the most high, about how to live your life, about what needs healing, about how to heal others. Nobody said that messages would be brought to you via hawk, wrapped up in golden lined paper, and sealed with a pretty little golden bow. Nope – the most high has this almost sadistic way of gifting lessons to us through painful encounters, particularly using our family lineage, and relationships, once we get old enough to experience them. Hey, I guess source knew that this was the only way to ensure that the message was not missed – nor neglected.
Part of our evolution in this time, is using our collective lessons to be of service in some way, to point out the truths in the pains, that many of the rest of society, and the world fail to see, because they have not allowed themselves to be sensitive enough to feel so deeply, to perceive so deeply, to collect so much data, and frequency.
It is time that we must realise, our lives are not only for us, and in this way, we can never be alone, neglected, or in the wrong place, at the wrong time. Our lives belong to those whom we inspire, and those whom inspire us, no matter how this inspiration threads, and weaves itself. For me? I discuss narcissists alot, to quite an intricate degree, and I cannot help but thank my ex lovers, for providing me with such a heavy, and hearty body of work, and pool of knowledge. This is my growth, this is my ability to work in moderation, to take the good, with the bad, and to be grateful for the accessing of such karmic recognition. It is only in recognising our karma, that we are able to clear it. Had i not identified a pattern of being attracted to narcissists, and narcissistic abuse, i would not have recognised that something in me dances in unison to their song, that something in my family, harmonises, with this very script.
The numerological placement of this full moon alone speaks volumes of its purpose within our lives. The number 18, is a culmination of new beginnings, (1), and karmic cycles, (8), inevitably bringing us to the number 9 (1+8), which is the number of resolve, conclusion, endings, rounding things up, preparing for death/rebirth, and using the lessons that we have learnt to grow stronger, to communicate, to create.
The world, strength, the lovers, five of swords, six of pentacles.
The world card sees us definitely exploring themes of expansion here, believing in divine timing, and divine guidance, being at the right place, at the right time, and all of our life events and experiences being in sync to offer us the best possible chances of being perfectly suited for our roles, ambitions, and purpose. This is all about understanding that there are no coincidences, we are tied to a certain string, a certain rhytyhm, and in appreciating this, we can effectively clear our karma by showing gratitude towards the things that have hurt us in the past. For they too, were necessary. Looking back is futile at this point, particularly when we have such a grand destiny ahead of us, unfolding for us, by the second. Thinking small is a thing of the past, associated with our ancestors who could only achieve so much, only do so much, and lived in fear for the most part. This karma, is not ours to keep. Merely ours to acknowledge, appreciate, and transmute. The age of Aquarius represents a new dawn, and so shall the full moon in Aquarius. The lovers card in culmination with the strength card speaks our our ancestral karma that manifests within our relationships. It is true that our relationships are direct reflections of the patterns that we inherited from our family, ancestral lines, and most specifically parents. If we had somewhat shaky foundations, as many empaths, and light workers do, then this set us up for many dysfunctional romantic relationships later down the line. The weight of these relationships no doubt cemented the thoughts that many of us already held, that we were somehow damaged, destined to live out a life of abandonment, or unworthy in some ways. However, this is our grand opportunity, to realise, along with the world card, how even these experiences were most fated, useful, and purposeful. The five of swords represents an ending to this inner, and outer conflict, with the six of pentacles urging us to write a new script, for ourselves, and our relationships. This is representative of fairness. Knowing that fairness is truly what you deserve, that fairness exists within love, and opening ourselves up to receive it, by no longer displaying the themes of lack consciousness, and scarcity as depicted by the five of swords. The strength card is the conquering of our little self, our ego self, the beast within that constantly seeks harmful, and harsh relationships through our negative self talk. The world card is all about our responsibility to serve, realising that our past experiences are in fact bigger than us even, and expansion is the goal of such painful endings, not shrinking, not quelling, and not re-enforcing out dated mental, and internal stereotypes..
Welcome a new version of yourself, a version so prone to healing, and positive experience, that you are almost unrecognisable..Keep the faith. Monitor your self talk, slowly re-wire the expectations and connections of the mind.
Happy healing my sacred beings ~