Divine lovers (Twinflame) Daily Reading ~ 13th-14th August 2018

Emotional stillness, peace, & a calm within the storm is articulated through the queen of cups.

The masculine energy currently recognises how delicate the feminine is, teaching him to reconcile & reconnect with this space within his own feminine energy.

She appears playful & undisturbed at this time, as if she looks to her emotions as a mother, to a child, careful not to displace herself.

Main theme – queen of cups.

Feminine – Page of pentacles.

Masculine – king of cups.

United energy – high priestess.

Father issues may be dealt with at the core at this time, as both seek to carefully & playfully nurture the little girl within.

Perhaps the feminine is ovulating, or feeling particularly emotionally heightened at this time, curtesy of the new moon.

Extra care should be taken with harsh words, sounds, thoughts, or movement.

The king of cups is the perfect husband to the queen of cups.

He is patient, understanding, & has a helping hand to offer her.

He has agreed to be initiated into the sacred mysteries of the feminine, & is more open to exploring an emotional side of himself.

Perhaps he’s more empathic today because he’s remorseful. His own repressed or blocked emotion may be the underlying factor as to why the feminine currently feels so particularly emotional.

With the page of pentacles, the feminine seems a little removed from the masculine at this time, though not out of spite, or punishment. With this page, the feminine goes on a journey to learn herself.

She may be realising that prior to this moment, she was invested in many other people, trying to heal them, trying to make the best out of them, & often neglected this task within herself.

Withdrawing her energy & pooling it back into her takes her on a journey for self, within self. And there is a lot to discover.

The high priestess as the United energy is about greater levels of ‘psychic awareness’.

People think that to be psychic means that one can see into, or predict the future, but psychic awareness is as simple as perceiving what is hidden from the ordinary everyday eye, or in laymen’s terms, ‘one’s ego’.

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Preview —

The journey of divine love this week takes us on a journey through to the feminine’s heart. We have all heard the phrase, ‘happy wife, happy life’, but what exactly does it mean?

Why, only that the key to experiencing ever lasting joy in a union lies within the feminine, as she is the gatekeeper for the two.

The masculine’s initiation into the higher mysteries is dependent upon his ability to submit to the feminine’s need of healing, so that through her, he too can recognise his wounds with emotionalism, emotional & psychological trauma, & begin to heal them.

The feminine has endured so much heart break & devastation throughout her life however, & the task for her opening up & allowing for the both of them to heal will not be easy.

A race against time sees the masculine with his back up against the wall. He absolutely has to heal for him to recognise how important it is for him to aid the feminine in her own healing. Otherwise? He will just be another notch upon her belt, another story, of healing gone array, another wound to add to her chest of secrets.

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Divine lovers (Twinflames) Daily Reading – 6th-7th August *Update* ‘For higher heights, I Seek’.

Main theme for both lovers – Temperance & you deserve love.

Masculine energies – Knight of cups.

Feminine energies – 8 of cups.

United energy – 3 of cups (reverse).

Temperance relates to a period of healing & coming into greater alignment with the reality of who they both are – individually & unified through the relationship.

And this includes getting a gage on Who we were supposed to be before all of the trauma set in.

Rewriting the psyche includes reprogramming it to be less rigid, more understanding/accommodating, & to include thoughts of love, & wellness into their conscious actions.

Taking life into their own hands means finding different means to self soothe, as to not rely on outside substances or dependencies to bring them to a harmonious state.

No victim consciousness or feeling sorry for themselves means being able to go right after what they want, with full trust & conviction that they are deserving of it.

The ‘you deserve love’ card is filled with Sagittarius, or perhaps even Leo energy – pioneering, innovative business plans or ideas that may have been in the works for a long time, going after the big dreams, goals & visions – having understood that enough time has or will be wasted if action is not taken.

The knight of cups is representative of the masculine learning to surrender to the feminine & making an offer to present her with something, or perhaps being remorseful after having analysed himself or his behaviours more closely.

The knight is a more humbled version of the masculine, but for some this will merely be short lived. It’s up to the feminine to decide whether the offer will suffice, or not.

He may be asking to be seen, asking for a chance, making a decision, or showing the willingness for change. This could also be particularly after a disagreement, or a situation that previously caused unrest.

The 8 of cups presents the feminine being tired of something being missing, & is feeling in search of some fullness, or fulfilment in some areas of her life.

Perhaps this cup the masculine is bringing to her she has been waiting for a long time, & now, she seeks to provide herself with it.

Many feminine’s may feel as if they have been waiting for the masculine to act right for so long, & now instead of looking without to receive it from him, they are looking within, to see how they can provide it for themselves.

The knight of cups need not be too little too late, if indeed his efforts are genuine.

The 3 of cups as the energy that unites the two speaks of a situation of unrest that took place within the union.

This 3rd unwelcome energy may indeed be a 3rd party, or perhaps a characteristic or trait that does not fit so well into the relationship dynamic, & must be expelled, or transformed.

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Divine lovers *DAILY* Reading Special – I’M BACK!!!

Main theme — 2 of pentacles, (balance, co-operation & changing karmic cycles. Balance, fairness, & duality.

The 2 of pentacles relates to divine lovers trying to incorporate more balance & harmony into their lives, by way of introduction to new things, particularly means of being more practical & self sufficient, so that they both bring better qualities within the union. Likely as a result of the feminine deciding she will no longer bear the grunt of taking on the most work, or doing more than her fair share to keep the relationship afloat.

Perhaps they’ve shared a discussion about what works, & who/what no longer fits into their lives, & now find themselves trying to navigate new cycles, & try methods they haven’t adopted before.

The 2 of pentacles could also relate to working together or attempting to see things from a new angle for a change.

The feminine in particular recognises that she does not want to experience the same things as the women before her, or the women around her, & has been very vocal lately to the masculine regarding this.

The infinity symbol could represent what happens when we try to see the other side of the picture – how it causes us to practice more loyalty, & balance, how the two offset one another, & are also sometimes responsible, as well as responsive to the emotions of one another.

An effort is made on both sides, to be fair & Just, though I feel as if the feminine makes this effort more to be this way toward herself, as the masculine makes an effort to be this way toward her.

The feminine learns great & deep soul lessons about self accountability at this time. And how the way that others treat her or rather mistreat her can sometimes be a byproduct of the way that she treats & relates to herself.

Though she does not come to this realisation as a victim, or even in a mournful way, there’s a sense of self empowerment surrounding it.

The 8 of pentacles shows the masculine rather dedicated to his task of establishing order.

He may have a one track mind at the moment, trying to work with & for the feminine.

He may feel his time is scarce, though he’s ready to get focused.

The queen of cups demonstrates the feminine learning to be at peace with her emotions, for her own salvation.

Recognising that the key to her inner & outer harmony is being able to sit with, & Just observe her emotions, the feminine decides to make a friend out of her wavering temperaments.

Simply by watching them do what they do.

Many feminines may have had a mood disorder in the past.

If the masculine is working on making things right, then the feminine should work on receiving, & resisting the urge to resist, & scorn at all of his offers.

Truly feminine, it isn’t so much about him, as it is how much you rely on him to feel something. Anything. Substance.

She must remember that the relationship is all about herself.

When she feels abundant within, then the masculines actions do not pull & push her so much.

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For more information on the feminine’s discoveries into her own importance/empowerment, & the masculine’s willingness, take a look at my divine lovers POWERFULLY shifting essay —

This week’s divine lovers weekly focuses on a powerful intergenerational shift occurring between & for the masculine & the feminine.

You may find that those advocating for feminine equality are particularly riled this week, fed up, & refusing to take a backseat.

The divine feminine is experiencing another revolutionary awakening that sees her erupting even more of the precoded archaic, psychological assault tactics enforced upon her.

It has been that the elite, & the wickedness of the powers that be recognised that the feminine was the salvation that the earth was granted, & the harmony that has always been needed, & for this reason, programmed & built the masculine not only to distrust the feminine, but also to suppress & subjugate her, in hopes that her full gifts & power could not be recognised, & the world would perish.

This week, the feminine takes the drivers seat & learns a thing or two about her own manifestation power. It is not about the feminine seeking dominion over the masculine, neither is it about her resenting him.

Rather, this is the time that the feminine reclaims her step as apart of the HOLIEST of trinities.

Feminine.

Masculine.

And God – child – creation.

The masculine has to obliterate himself by staring into his shadow this week. The shadow that is left by the feminine’s flames, as she burns everything to the ground.

Preview —

Because of the relationships with their mothers as their nurturers, care givers, & all around angels – (yeah right, no woman is complete angel), most men expect the women in their lives & the women they choose to love to emulate their mother. That is, being selflessly giving, nurturing, careful, obedient, compassionate & lenient with them, as their mothers usually are.

Most men do not ever become aware of this expectancy & often toxic attitude towards women, until they themselves become fathers to young women, (sometimes not even then), or, when they fall in love with a woman, & their relationship becomes jeopardised by the fact that she is unwilling to play by & abide by the rules that so many women do – the unfair polarity between masculine & feminine.

– Divine lovers essay reading, The untaming of the shrew; generational sexism & baby boy syndrome.

It remains the truth that many women alive today never suffered the female suppression that the likes of our mothers or our grandmothers had to endure (and thank fuck for that), however, generational trauma means that we still very much share in their experiences, even to the point of unconscious memories, & let’s face it, we love the men who are the product of the men from our mothers/grandmothers time, who raised them.

We all have some serious unwinding & reprogramming to do, if we are to ever experience relationship harmony.. & that’s where I come in!

This week’s divine lovers weekly is a little different, as I have written it in essay form as opposed to being specific for just this week. Take a gander into the lesson that is obliterating this thing I have coined, ‘baby boy syndrome’.

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General weekly reading – On the other side of patience.

General weekly reading – On the other side of patience.

Main theme (knight of swords).

The knight of swords as the main theme presents a message to you that wishes to arrive briskly, before it is too late.

You may be on the verge of manifesting or contributing to a situation that could easily take a more positive turn than the way it will unfold if intervention is not introduced, & energies suggest that for your highest good, now is the best time to take heed to any messages that seem to keep appearing to you clear as day.

When a message attempts to come to you, it will seem as if random passers by on the street are saying the exact thing you need to hear when you need to hear it, television or radio stations seem to discuss the topic at hand, or even random strangers will appear to give you the advice that you need in order to move forward in the right direction. Or sometimes, it will arrive as a random spark of intuition, as long as you are connected to your inner self.

This week, the knight of swords is particularly karmic & intervenes when we are about to experience a similar scenario to something that we experienced in the past. Like a guardian angel, the message that reveals itself to us, stops us in our tracks (4 of swords), & causes us to reconsider the direction that we have been travelling in.

I call it a karmic window of opportunity.

Has there been a message attempting to come to you for several months, or even several years that you may have ignored?

Perhaps continuous situations have played out to let you know that your attention must be drawn toward this specific area, or trait.

The knight of swords is like a shift in perception this week that allows you surrender enough to receive this message, finally.

Your guides, or your angels have been working over time to bring this message, because it is a very fitting piece in the puzzle that is the liberation of you.

Once this message has been received by you, & integration begins, you can move on with a pattern in your life that was holding you back.

Humility allows you this week to accept what you may have been avoiding.

Knowing, that this is the only true way for change.

The 4 of swords is represented by internal reflection.

Looking within can be difficult especially if we’ve become very adamant that our thoughts, feelings, & behaviours are entirely unproblematic.

The 7 of wands energy describes the fight for fights sake.

If we are so used to fighting, even when there is no fight to fight, we are likely to construct one.

If you stop & focus inward, there is a part of you that will recognise this fight within you, & this desire to set yourself up as the opponent.

The opponent to life.

The opponent to God.

The opponent to everybody else around you.

Thoughts such as, ‘nobody is on my side. No one is on my team.

It is every man for himself’.

Recognise your mind reciting similar frequencies to you & perhaps dissect how this may have related to why past opportunities or past relationships did not work out for you.

There is a particular character flaw, or a trait present, that you simply & a little lazily put down to ‘bad luck’.

The 3 of wands introduces the surrender of maladaptive behaviours, & the maturity necessary to cross over to new boarders, to acquire new knowledge, & admit that we were previously wrong, or unripened, & this message seems to reflect particularly strongly on the masculine side of things.

Strong messages appear to many men at this time about how they have conducted their position of leadership in regards to family.

The 8 of pentacles works to unwrap karmic patterns & imprints.

It is time to stop procrastinating & get the job done! Instead of stewing in what has been, attempt the role of the active manifestor..

Do not sit back & be driven.

Build a partnership with G-O-D.

Temperance this week faithfully blesses us with the discernment to know what needs to be changed, & to make the agreement to change it.

Hope is poured by our angels, into the uncomfortable parts & uncomfortable lessons, in order to help cushion the blow.

If you find you have still remained angry at parents, or held on to past bitterness regarding your childhood, your motivation should be in not repeating these cycles, & building a new, healthy family model.

This week’s divine lovers weekly focuses on a powerful intergenerational shift occurring between & for the masculine & the feminine.

You may find that those advocating for feminine equality are particularly riled this week, fed up, & refusing to take a backseat.

The divine feminine is experiencing another revolutionary awakening that sees her erupting even more of the precoded archaic, psychological assault tactics enforced upon her.

It has been that the elite, & the wickedness of the powers that be recognised that the feminine was the salvation that the earth was granted, & the harmony that has always been needed, & for this reason, programmed & built the masculine not only to distrust the feminine, but also to suppress & subjugate her, in hopes that her full gifts & power could not be recognised, & the world would perish.

This week, the feminine takes the drivers seat & learns a thing or two about her own manifestation power. It is not about the feminine seeking dominion over the masculine, neither is it about her resenting him.

Rather, this is the time that the feminine reclaims her step as apart of the HOLIEST of trinities.

Feminine.

Masculine.

And God – child – creation.

The masculine has to obliterate himself by staring into his shadow this week. The shadow that is left by the feminine’s flames, as she burns everything to the ground.

Preview —

Because of the relationships with their mothers as their nurturers, care givers, & all around angels – (yeah right, no woman is complete angel), most men expect the women in their lives & the women they choose to love to emulate their mother. That is, being selflessly giving, nurturing, careful, obedient, compassionate & lenient with them, as their mothers usually are.

Most men do not ever become aware of this expectancy & often toxic attitude towards women, until they themselves become fathers to young women, (sometimes not even then), or, when they fall in love with a woman, & their relationship becomes jeopardised by the fact that she is unwilling to play by & abide by the rules that so many women do – the unfair polarity between masculine & feminine.

– Divine lovers essay reading, The untaming of the shrew; generational sexism & baby boy syndrome.

It remains the truth that many women alive today never suffered the female suppression that the likes of our mothers or our grandmothers had to endure (and thank fuck for that), however, generational trauma means that we still very much share in their experiences, even to the point of unconscious memories, & let’s face it, we love the men who are the product of the men from our mothers/grandmothers time, who raised them.

We all have some serious unwinding & reprogramming to do, if we are to ever experience relationship harmony.. & that’s where I come in!

This week’s divine lovers weekly is a little different, as I have written it in essay form as opposed to being specific for just this week. Take a gander into the lesson that is obliterating this thing I have coined, ‘baby boy syndrome’.

To witness this explosive essay for the ridiculously low price of £6.66, Paypal the required amount to PayPal.me/seekcindy & send the email you would like to receive the reading at to cindyanneh-bu@hotmail.co.uk

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General weekly reading overview – The path to passions beyond me. The feminine & the hierarchy.

Main theme – The high priestess can speak of persecution that’s existed in the past for centuries & currently against women, or feminine energies who have been healers, visionaries, priestesses, & shamans, & this talks about not only trusting ones self, but the potential threat that also comes once you do.

How trustworthy is your knowing?

Only you can answer that for yourself.

Is your knowing so frail & fragile that if somebody else were to question what you know, your world would simply fall apart?

The high priestess is unmoving. This is what becomes when the subconscious mind no longer dictates the conscious mind – for all become one.

What realisations about yourself are currently coming to the surface – both of your own reflection, & how the world around you operates?

The high priestess relates to documents & information that arrives to you through your inner world, or deep, intense contemplation.

The judgement card is all about the wake up calls that come to you once you have made these acknowledgements, & also arrives with a willingness for change.

New found determination is born once you can recognise & accept your own weaknesses.

The chariot is not concerned with being good or bad, right or wrong – but rather self improvement/advancement. Which may include putting your ego aside in order to meet your targets.

The death card is the surrender that arrives when we stop fighting self, & others, & show a willingness for growth, no matter what it may come with.

For some of us, we may be going through changes with sexuality, & sexual libido, particularly where the full moon in Sagittarius appears causing us to refocus our priorities & where we are placing our energy.

There should be a healthy balance between following your inhibitions/natural desires, & expressions, & not being so led by them that your ego & taste for pleasure is in the drivers seat, as this is also a sure fire way to lead yourself into self destruction.

Your sense of self is not about the things that you do, but in actuality, what you believe about yourself. However, the things that you do? Are a reflection upon what you believe about yourself.

This week, be willing to be malleable.

There is also a strong sense this week that the feminine energies may be going through changes & growth spurts associated with who they are, & who they are expected to be. Through the ages almost everybody has held opinions about what it means for a woman to be a woman, albeit, successfully be a woman & how she is to go about this, & unsurprisingly many of these instructions & perceptions have come from everyone – but an actual woman herself.

A mother – The Madonna.

A whore – The Magdalene.

A child – The version.

But what happens when all three archetypes fight for dominion?

Usually? One or more are suppressed, & as we all know? Suppression leads one to illness.

Time, as well as patience should teach you moderation, as well as wisdom.

You may be trapped up in thoughts regarding doing what you want to do vs feeling shamed out of your natural expression, but understand that you have the power to control the way that you create an imprint on the world, & this has less to do with what other people say/think.

It is a mental illusion that you cannot do, or be something, because of what other people say.

The ultimate judge is yourself. Internal peace should lead you into choosing the path of least resistance.

Divine lovers weekly reading overview (purchase details available below).

This week, divine lovers divide their focus between self advancement, & advancement of their relationship goals. The full moon in Sagittarius casts a reflective & pensive light on our lovers this week as they wonder, ‘Where now?’ ‘Where do we go from here?’

Structures & foundations are changing & shifting, particularly for the divine feminine within us all who currently seeks new breath, & shudders in the face of suppression.

How will the masculine handle it this week? Allowing the feminine to discover herself in a powerful way that at times may make him appear insignificant?

Will he be along for the ride as a support system?

And how patient can she be with him in her advancements?

Preview — The feminine this week confronts her fears of pessimism, whilst helping the masculine to deal with his own. She may superficially wound him this week, but she does so in a way that helps him to break down his ego. The feminine tries to introduce the masculine to a new way of relating to this newly emerging world, but needs to be patient with herself in understanding that she is also part of this new world, & need not to at a pace that frightens her. Grounding is important.

Perhaps researching information or double checking with those who seem more experienced, will help the feminine to offer the masculine the help that he needs.

She appears to be helping him to mature, & she does this because she’s a little fed up with his reluctance, & is ready to progress to the next level/stage of her life.

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Marriage, Modernism, & me – love in the 21st century.

I couldn’t seem to shake the sense of the feeling that I had somehow been ‘saved’, and as much as it made me feel emotional with gratitude, it also made me feel very vulnerable, a little helpless, & somewhat pitiful. I don’t know. I guess what they don’t tell you about marriage in the 21st century is, as somewhat of a dying concept, you sort of feel a little cliche when doing it, ( as a woman that is), & it uncovers every single nostalgic archetype that you have about love, romance, & marriage. All of the depictions that you held as a child through television indoctrination. Most typically sitcoms or cartoons with the doting wife who seemed to be the level headed voice of the family – who cooked, & cleaned, & loved. And you admired her, for the ways that she always seemed poised and ‘done up, how everybody in the family would always look up to her – including yourself. You just never knew that this time would come all too soon.

Now personally, I do not see myself in anyway as a traditional housewife, (despite the many ways the feminist citizens of social media have referred to me as a ‘pick me).

The way I see myself is, I’m a little quirky, edgy, independent, wild & untamed. None of these descriptions strike me as relatively ‘wife material’, but in the short few months I have found out that I am about to become a wife, some shifts have seemed to take place almost instantaneously, automatically, & many of these have been very much instinctive – my priorities have shifted, & ive been welcomed lovingly into the bosom of my friends who have done this walk before me, sort of like an initiation school. They met me with happiness, congratulations, reassurance, & a sort of unspoken certification as if I have ‘made it’. Almost as if my value as a woman lied with this moment, which made me – unspeakably uncomfortable.

So in the end the question remained, could I still be just as quirky? Edgy? Independent? Wild and untamed? And what would this mean for my husband? That he had somehow failed in his masculinity in the eyes of society? Because he could not turn his bride into a subservient devotee with only him in mind?

Or could he?

I cannot deny that my priorities have shifted. As mentioned.

Ashamed to say, my career had to take a back seat these past few weeks because I was filled with gushing thoughts of being there for my husband to be – at every turn. This isn’t like every other time I have fallen in love. This is a kind of love that gives me a purpose, & everything in my bones & in my life screams that this is right. That this is for me. Yet I cannot shake the sinking feeling, that my entire world is about to change, because thats just the way that it has to be.

You become a wife, & you leave much of the old world behind.

You forfeit your last name (partially – I am opting to go double barrel), & you don a suit that many before you have adorned themselves with. It is a right of passage. A new stage of womanhood that sees you prepped & fussed over by the women who have gone in before you. There’s this sense that you are actually being given to someone, (sort of like a belonging), aside from the fact my father is actually GIVING me away, & accepting a traditional African dowry (bride price) for me – cringe on an entirely different level might I add.

But back to me theory of feeling as if I am being saved. One of the things that have stuck out to me the most within this short period of the new beginning of my life, is the vulnerability of women, & it makes me want to shed tears – many, uncontrollably. No matter how we wish to look at it within the feminine progression movement, many women are saved by men, many women are saved by marriage, as as many are destroyed by these very notions & concepts.

Many women in the modern & anti modern world do not have much of a fighting chance, talkless of the Ones from poor homes & abusive families/childhoods. The narrative of the knight in shining armour or the prince coming in & sweeping you off of your feet isn’t too far off, & my name being Cinderella seems all too much a cleverly constructed cliche.

Here comes this man into your life. Promising to give you a better world. For me, that was everything. My world was – bright, I guess. I am young. Beautiful. A successful career. With the whole world in front of me. Yet a part of me always felt empty. A long line of family trauma, & neighbourhood friends in traumatic, abusive relationships – some nights I stayed up wondering if this was it. If this was the colourless life we had all been damned to know. I clung to my career feverishly.

The reality for many of us modern women is, (even the ones who claim to choose this lifestyle), we will end up in a series of sex centric relationships, lacking the depth, vitality, authenticity, & substance that we both desire & deserve. We are living in such a hyper sexuality society that most so willingly agree to engage in frivolous sex, with values of love, marriage, respect & normality dying by the moment. HELL – utter hell for those of us who are highly empathic, emotive, & enamoured with fairytales.

In the search for love, so many of us betray ourselves & are betrayed by men, who see us as little more than a transactional scenario. You scratch my back if I scratch yours.

No matter how much we in the modernist movement like to discuss ‘free love’, & ‘sexual liberation’, the truth is – women are a little different from men, & for most of us? This type of lifestyle slowly destroys us from the inside out, leaving us feeling more & more unworthy as time proceeds.

Imagine coming from a loveless family, into the arms of a man ready & willing to love you, into the arms of his family, (who aren’t riddled with as much trauma, ready to start a family that you will love. It’s filled with such bittersweet love, & appreciation, & consideration, that it’s left me feeling so – emotional.

The good & the bad.

The everything.

And that is where life has currently taken me.

On my journey to becoming a wife.