13th-19th Nov – REVOLUTIONARY – The number 13, The witch, Understanding Ophiuchus & persecution consciousness.

What is persecution consciousness, & how does it effect our growth?

The number 13 somewhere along the lines in history came to be associated with bad luck, or misfortune – most notably Friday the 13th, although in other cultures it is regarded as a symbol/totem of good luck.

Whatever way we look at it, this number has been associated with so much mysticism, speculation, fascination, & like all things that contain these 3 – fear.

One of the most popular scandals & conspiracy theories with this number, is its association with Christ himself. He had 12 disciples, meaning that he would have made up the 13th number, & actually, the 13th member of his disciples has usually been dubbed as Mary Magdalene herself, Ofcourse hidden from traditional church teachings because of obvious outrage – how could a woman be one of Jesus chosen few?! Aren’t women unclean, unholy, & untrustworthy, as unfolded by Eve herself, only earlier in this bible..

For me however, the most interesting association with this number, has been its connection with the goddess, or the witch, & how this ties in with my sunsign – Ophiuchus.

Now before you all cut my head off, I know that people typically have a very love/hate connection with the idea of a 13th sign being introduced, & shoving the other signs out of the way, however, I seem to have this weird theory, (with no way of proving Ofcourse – yet), that many of the traits/characteristics held by those within the 12th zodiac Signs, are not very nearly much as affected, as Sagittarius is.

In other words, yes, likely most of you even with this inclusion, still very much embody the same traits that you always have.

The real distinction here, belongs to the Ophiuchus members, who never truly or quite felt like a Sagittarius.

Who FELT all of the freedom, & agreed with the higher learning, but never quite identify with the portrayal as consistently charismatic, fiery, & out going/sociable.

Because the deep secret, for many ‘Sagittarians’ is the fact that beneath the surface, & often hidden from the prying eyes of their infatuated audiences, there is a very broody, extremely deep, & often sullen/dark element of themselves, very generously gifted from their Scorpio traits.

Because that’s just the thing about crossing this threshold. They now become equal light, & equal dark. They ARE the fire (illumination) element that Sagittarius provides, but they are also the death & the depth that Scorpio is.

Ophiuchus removes sagittarians from just being the light/care free energetic versions, & invites them to explore the demons within not only the crevices of their unconscious/subconscious mind, but also that of the collectives.

(Note how the snakes spiralling upward also mirror the DNA helix, & can also be brought into association with the kundalini awakening serpent).

Ophiuchus IS the shadow & the shadow work. 13, is the collective darkness, & the collective darkness coming to an end, especially in association with the persecution, degradation, humiliation & eventual burning of the witch – the inner feminine occult goddess, the sacred, secret, hidden elements of womanhood, sexual persecution/perversions, & the birth of something far more encompassing of her holiness, her holy mess, the holy grail itself.

It is no coincidence that all of these stories & accusations are coming out about Hollywood directors. Hollywood is deeply entrenched in the occult, & making occult sacrifices/ritual donations for the entities & the beings that govern these changes & turnings of event. The named & shamed directors & producers are simply sacrificial tokens to the entities – usually dark, that feed off of whatever transition or exploration the universe is going through. This may be the dark side of the goddess Kali, or any other dark goddesses that may have been formed through the pain of persecution. The humiliation & public scrutiny these producers/directors face, is the great sacrifice. It’s the purge. So that the rest of the elite, can continue in their dealings. They offer others over. So that they do not have to answer to the dark goddess themselves.

What happens when light & dark meet at equal points in the sky Ophiuchus? Since you are making an appearance to us in JUST few days…

The shadow obstructs the light.

And this is the 9 of swords. The feeling that this purge? Is just TOO purgey & not enough heal-y, (indeed I just made up my own words).

The queen of pentacles is representative of nurture & growth. Being given a gift that one finds beautiful to cultivate, & find joy & pleasure in doing so.

The feminine within us all is being asked to open ourselves up to become more receptive to receiving, & allowing ourselves to feel/become blessed.

This is likely to feel very uncomfortable & to create friction because a lot of us sadly are not used to people genuinely caring for us, & making sacrifices on our behalf. And this is a very typical Ophiuchus trait, feeling betrayed, let down by, or unable to open up to others, as Ophiuchus is the burned & persecuted witch – although typically associated with the image of a serpent toting male!

She was burned for her gifts, for her ability to practice natural healing & magic, inexplicable to the male dominated patriarchal hierarchy that was beginning to sweep through like the intense, engulfing wave that is religion, Christianity to be specific.

Tucked away in the akashic consciousness of the divine feminine, is abuse, it is lack, it is persecution, it IS feeling exposed, & it is vulnerability that fears & perceives the next incoming attack.

There could be a real dichotomy that presents itself at this time between self expression/finding ones self through spiritual freedom, & the polarities of religious order, structure, & indoctrination.

For more info on that, check out my latest article – https://cindyannehbu.wordpress.com/2017/11/15/help-i-am-damned-for-eternity-how-do-i-cope-a-spiritual-initiatory-cross/

It is the feminine feeling abandoned by the masculine. Where was he whilst she was being burnt, raped & persecuted? How did the Scorpio king allow her to face death in such a way that he now holds deep seated guilt, & feelings of insecurity & inadequacy, for not being able to protect the feminine?

It can ONLY be a happy family if the feminine exists there. The whole is not whole at all without her, & many people may begin to feel as if they are longing for ‘the one’, or their soulmate, because of this internal desire for the masculine & the feminine within us all to experience unity & healing once again. The empress oversees everything that happens within the 10 of cups. Divine mother holds so much power & honour as the true head of the house hold. The masculine has to release this illusion of control. No, he does not truly have it. He never does. Because control itself is an illusion to a universe built on chaos & unpredictability.

But if he accepts the feminine, & honours her just as she is, it is only ripe fruits she will bear.

The 6 of swords is the journey of healing that sees the entire family moving toward a new calmer state.

Both counterparts are tired of fighting with one another, but the king of pentacles must know that his financial stability means nothing, if there is nobody for him to share it with, with love.

He needs to learn to work for the feminine, & not just for himself, seeing her as an extension of himself, & when he does, the feminine will feel secure enough to give, & give, & give…

‘It is safe for you to love’.

So much of the heavy work you have been doing, is done. You do not have to display the same level of burden, or heaviness that you used to. The 4 of pentacles is simply an energy of doing too much. There is over attachment or a sense of loss present. It’s rigidity, a fear of movement & acceptance. It is the masculine fear. If I let go, I lose everything.

It is holding on too tightly because sometimes we believe that things will just leave anyway.

This is a contrast to the queen of pentacles who sees multiple avenues opening up just from nurturing this ONE thing.

The 3 of pentacles negotiates with new parties. We become more comfortable to accept community support, & responsibility.

A life of handling everything in isolation is far too draining, because this isn’t the way that we are to live.

Greater responsibility is given to us through the divine with the king of pentacles, especially the accountability that we have shaded ourselves from in the past.

The 10 of cups & the empress speaks of matriarchal responsibility.

Welcoming the feminine back into the collective bosom.

Back into her home to attain harmony once again.

She watches over the community as it grows & blossoms, adding her own nurturing, to both self & others.

It is the end of sacrificial donations.

As much as it is attracting, it is also allowing.

You can only be in a position to give, if you are receiving.

The 6 of swords meeting the 6 of pentacles talks about a shift in the way that we relate to others. Accepting more means holding yourself accountable to what you do & do not allow from others in your life.

Divine lovers weekly reading — 13th-19th November – Shame, possession, & Karmic residue. (LATEST UPDATES).

The 5 of wands is the card of, who knows best? Has it been all of the voices outside of us? Or has it been us? Who knows us best? Who OWNS us best? There is a part of the journey unfolding that is challenging both divine lovers to stand up in truth & decide the rest of the journey for themselves. There are likely many outside theories & forces at this time attempting to guard the journey for them, particularly those who represent the old world & the old fixed structures & routines, but in their very pioneer natures, they are being challenged to discover what the true voice of reason is & has been..

Further shadow work inspires them to take greater action on the decisions made. What is brought to them at this time is knowledge of what has not worked & why. The feminine may likely revisit themes of obsession, addiction & darkness as the new moon in Scorpio brings to the surface her worst fears – all of the things the centuries of persecution accused her of being. Alone. Unlovable. Faulty. Whilst the masculine is presented with a huge life lesson that shakes & awakens him, to slow down, to think twice, to know that the divine is far mightier than he could ever be. Humility at its finest.

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Help. I am Damned for eternity. How do I cope? A spiritual initiatory cross.

Perhaps this piece had been a long time coming, & I had wilfully buried it underneath the surface.

I don’t know. But I felt it was needed at this time, even though so many things were brewing underneath the surface, for quite a while.

Long before I picked up my first set of tarot cards, or ever held a crystal to my name, I had to deal with the sometimes concealed, sometimes very outspoken, blunt, hard, & disregardful comments that were passed down from people in my family, about how awful my lack of belief in ‘God’ was.

Now, this was problematic for a few different reasons, yet at the time I did not understand why I felt so outcast, so shameful, & so sinful.

Whenever an organisation or an entity seeks to do its bidding on earth, not only does it place seeds that ensure the growth of enslavement will be rampant for generations, but it also hands out mindframes & ideologies that ensure that the citizens of the earth will carry out its message & different modes of oppression, so that the entity or organisation in itself, does not have to do much work.

Just like any business man, it has recruited others to do the work for it.

I do not mean to offend anyone with my words. And it needs to be noted that I am a gnostic. I do not claim religious is bogus or has no truth. Neither am I in any way shape or form an atheist. The thing that many religious people & Christians especially find hard to understand, is that none of my reservations about the teachings come from a lack of belief in God.

I very, very much believe in God, and have dedicated my life to doing so.

I am an avid prayer who prays daily, if not momentarily with my meditative thoughts.

I fast, as I believe in the power of fasting, & not only do I study the bible & other religious texts, but I also quote it in order to teach my students even more about the nature of the divine.

However, I am not a slave.

I am not a slave to the idea that every single thing quoted in the context of the bible, taught my Sunday preachers, or passed down in religious mythology is the ultimate truth, should never be questioned, & can be held up in the court of law as indisputable.

I have never been able to live in this way. And it is perhaps the reason that after several schools/colleges, I finally realised that this entire thing was not for me.

Structure.

Order.

Indoctrination.

Routine.

Suppression.

Expectation.

Conformity.

Regulation.

And group thinking.

And this is not me trying to sound like some new age pseudo intellect. Like ‘oh, look at me. I am so cool. I abandoned religion, & replaced the word God with ‘universe’ & believe mental illness can be cured with positive quotes & loced hair’.

And oh yeah – by the way I’m not a prude who judges that type either, (she says half believing herself).

The point is, this isn’t about slating religion, or even believing it. This is about the way that religion, (the one thing supposed to be indicative of God’s love), is used as a hierarchy, & form of superiority to bash those who cannot or will not conform.

You are going to hell.

You’re a devil worshiper & a sinner.

And I’m better than you because I’ve interpreted sacred texts literally, & visit a building every week that strips of my autonomy.

Hey – I don’t knock church. If I found one that generally broke down bible concepts & did not have a west African pastor who was sleeping with multiple members of his congregation, I would probably totally join – (probably). Well, I don’t do routine, but I would at least turn up few times per month!

Some people prefer a medium to God.

That’s okay, and everybody’s different.

Which is the point I am trying to stress.

When I first began to become ‘conscious’ of the idea that there was more beyond the veil than we had been taught, I began rejecting traditional ideals about God & religion. Particularly because mixed with culture, it had its roots in being dangerously & devastatingly sexist, & my body & emotions were just coming into the realisation that most of the trauma that had been inflicted on me over the years was very much gender based, & rooted in concepts about female inferiority, & shaming.

So forgive me if I sounded a little ‘anti Christ’. But the reaction of my family members as I attempted to discover myself, was more than enough to have me creep into the shell I had crawled out of.

Luckily, I wasn’t about to be beat down that easily – & the divine had a plan for me.

I was berated, laughed at & mocked for being ‘ignorant’. It was all, ‘poor her – if only she knew’, with head shakes & the kind of pity that could make your rib cage lurch forward from your stomach, & crumble in a pit before you.

It was stomach turning. The fact that in my dedication to free myself from years of trauma & abuse, I was being further abused by being informed that my methods for salvation were wrong, & that it was because I didn’t have enough knowledge or sense that I began to think these things.

I was traded in, very casually & automatically for my other sisters, who decided to take the very conventional route of being dedicated to bible bashing, condemning anything remotely indigenous spiritually system seeming, & prided themselves on saying astrology, crystals & sage were down right evil.

Not of God.

And not for Godly women.

And then there’s me…

Who has made a very successful life of reading taro cards, & teaching people about spiritual based concepts very south of traditional religious concepts.

And damn proud of it too –

I mean the fight has not been easy. And anybody going through this same transition, I must stress that there’s no immediate need to tell your family members about your new discoveries, or how you feel about the old teachings.

You’re perfectly justified to keep it to yourself.. At least until you feel well versed enough to explain it.

I’ve had my alter mocked. Been accused of my buddhas housing evil spirits, (yes really), & been told the reason for my excessive thoughts was because I was dealing with too many ‘spirits’ in the taro industry. Yes really.

And yes, a lot of this has been hurtful because for the first time in my life I found something that gives me meaning, joy, & purpose, but it has also taught me that the spiritual journey is very much about you, & nobody else.

It’s very much personal to you as a person, & perhaps sometimes is not meant to be shared by a large congregation of people, or even those who you grew up with.

As a sexual assault survivor, one of the things that have helped me deal with my trauma immensely has been learning about chakra work, learning about sacred sexuality, & also about unblocking my creative power centres, (associated with sexual expression), in order to free myself of the psychological restrictions that sexual assault places upon you – very similar to that of religious indoctrination. And actually one of the punishments for women who would not succumb to what man wrote to be ‘God’s rule’, actually did used to be rape.

So it does sit down very uncomfortably with me when I have to have conversations with my cousin about how ‘evil’, & wrong ‘fornication’ is – in other words, enjoying sex outside of the confines of legally recognised, governmentally approved marriage:

Yes.

Your sexual life is only sanctified if the government have it on record that you are declaring that you & somebody else are legally entitled to own one another.

Beautiful.

Romantic.

Artistic.

Sarcastic?

Yes.

And you may wonder, why am I writing this? I’ve been on this spiritual journey for years, surely all of these things cropped up before. And you would be right.

But as we delve further into the depths of what I can only consider to be true spirit & soul discovery, it becomes painfully excruciating to sit by & see these archaic myths be perpetuated.

Everybody is entitled to their own thoughts & feelings, AND beliefs, & I never come for religious folk.. But somehow their hierarchal ego always sees them coming for me – especially when I’m minding my own goddamn business lmao.

I love my family, deeply. And I won’t deny that our intuitive & perceptive gifts arrive by lineage, & religious devotion has not cut them off to prophetic dreams or unconventional methods of ‘knowing’, but I cannot deny that around them, I am a fraction of my truest self.

As I’ve grown more comfortable in both my spiritual & physical body, I have opened the door for not only them but others to see closer traces of who I fully am as this being, but the traces of oppression, & judgement that trail in the air with such intense religious devotion, is far too intoxicating not to inhale, furthermore exhale.

The death of the inner child, healing family issues & a timeline overhaul – *Current* Last weeks energetic revelations.

The children oracle & the death card are symbolic of a transition that took place in regards to the inner child this week.

The numerological aspects of this week speak volumes about this transition that takes place & that portal that opens to excrete the last & the most potent of our childhood wounds.

‘Your love life is being affected by children’ can manifest as an energy in one of two ways.

Main theme – (Children/Death), 9 of swords, 7 of swords, 6 of swords, queen of cups, Crowning – I let go of all pain & tension as I float in the sea of divine love, Outcome – 8 of wands.

Numerological breakdown calculation- 6-12 6 – Childhood, innerchild, mother wound, motherhood, lovers, past life karma, 12 (3) – the holy trinity, understanding, acceptance, oneness, family, community, creativity, communication.

Overall (9) – Healing, abandonment consciousness, the wounded healer, service, completion, resolution, endings, conclusion.

For many of us, a relationship has ended, or is ending that includes the children that we have produced as a result of the relationship, & this is hitting many of us hard as far as our concerns about not recreating the childhood we wish we had are concerned.

There are likely to be fear, doubts, worries & anxities about the nature of this ending, suggested by the 9 of swords.

Perhaps we held on to this situation longer than we knew was necessary because we had an idealised fantasy of what we wanted the truth to be, & the death card arrived to penetrate that fantasy, & bring us back to the reality that is ourselves.

Our inner child.

Our raw, vulnerable & honest self. The duty no longer belongs to anybody, & it becomes our responsibility to parent ourselves.

Especially those of us who have still been holding the past accountable for why we are the way that we are now.

You cannot get much done with the mentality that because of your childhood life does not allow you to move forward. And this enables you to stare death in the face, as well as the prospect of endings.

The 6 of swords suggests that the healing of ideas & beliefs built during childhood are main orchestrating factors in this stage of your journey.

It’s vital for you to concentrate on the nature of your thoughts, specifically focusing on what is conjured in the present moment, as opposed to the past, or the future.

It is the way that we motion in the presence, & the way we write others in our script that reflects our overall mood state.

The 7 of swords is common avoidance from making the unconscious & subconscious parts of our mind – conscious. This is the energy of an individual or a group who continuously avoid doing emotional labour, as the queen of cups does.

She sits with her emotions. She does not run from them, neither does she over analyse or try to attribute reason or cause to them. She just exists inside of them, and honours her own sensitivity.

Perhaps because of societal structures & beliefs about what it means to be emotional, emotionally sensitive, empathic, or intuitive, many of us have hidden this very sacred & tender part of ourselves, only to have situations during the course of our lives bring this very raw nature to the surface – usually in ways that cause us embarrassment or franticness.

This is what tends to happen with a shadow self. It is the dark part of our subconscious mind that takes all of our experiences & traits that we deem undesirable for societal eyes, & it hides them. It’s like a compartment in our mind that documents a file of the things that we cannot do & say, that we are not to let others in on, for it is shameful.

But the 7 of swords only fools himself. Just because that part is ‘hidden’ from everybody else, does not mean it does not manifest in often emotionally unsettling ways – anxiousness, rage, emotional outbursts, victimhood, abandonment consciousness, BDP symptoms – JUST to name a few.

The 8 of wands is a message that strikes the heart hard & fast, almost like cupids arrows.

This is answers that seem to come all at once, some to questions that we did not even know we had.

The 7 of swords may have held an idealised vision of childhood, or children, & it is the part of us that frequently finds ourselves revisiting the past & asking, ‘why couldn’t this go this way?’ Or, ‘why did this have to happen?’

But as you can see, these types of thoughts only hold the figure back, as their head is tilted towards the back of them, although they ‘appear’ to be moving forward.

The death card actually presents a gift to the queen of cups, an ending that brings her emotional satisfaction, & wellness.

It could be an ego death, as death is like her knight in shining armour this week, almost courting her for her affections, & she gives in to him this week. She does not resist. She honours her new emotions & looks into them as a gift.

Death is pleased with her acceptance, & carefully moves on..

For many this represents the feminine nature of our inner child dying off, & experiencing a rebirth. The purity of a child. The clear understanding, of a child.

Still, death is not something to be feared.

Maturity, is death.

Written on 9/11..

Today will be a deeper entrance into this weeks portal opening for the recognition of karmic/childhood/family wounds – 9/11 a date periodically symbolic of entering new worlds, diminishing old stories, & allowing the past to remain in the past.

We then move on to 10/11… By this date, we have already begun to experience the benefits of living a life w/ less expectancy, & greater focus on being present… 10/11 puts our nearly learned skills to practice – 111

Culminating in 11:11 – the portal that exposes us to awakening. Many will unite in love on this day, especially if they’ve followed the time table of the week, learning, releasing, as we go along. 11111 – 5 (change). 7/11 – the universal pattern/lesson is learned (9) – 8/11 – the lesson begins integration by the vessel learning of cause & effect (10) – 9/11 – the pattern is identified. The vessel is ready to move into a new timeline/to shift realities/perceptions & enter the new body/ (11). People ask me why I’m obsessed with 7/11.. well there are endless reasons. I find the life path 7, & 11 to be insanely similar (FIRST OF ALL), for the simple fact that both of their lives are marked by spiritual illumination after every harsh lesson.

They are both shamans, either challenged or rewarded by their ability to perceive Godly truth & revelation in their circumstances. Their life isn’t theirs. It belongs to the collective. They sort of have to move out of the way, & allow spirit to happen.

They both represent the powerful dynamics of masculine & feminine energy working in unison (7) – 3 (feminine) + 4 (masculine), whilst 11 represents the vaginal walls – birth (composed of both – masculine & feminine). 7 is the death (once the lesson has been learnt & the individuals ego has been penetrated enough for them to give way to more soul), whilst 11 represents the rebirth. The walkthrough from the old self, to the new self. You’ll typically find those with these lifepath numbers meet at pivotal points in their journey.

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Divine lovers weekly (those who have already ordered are still within the processing of receiving).

This week, the inner child faces annihilation at this time, in the face of union/separation & how the two are forever intwined.

‘Separation’ can only exist in the idea of union, & if the idea of ‘union’ exists.

Not following?

In order for us to perceive there is separation from our love, we must first become attached to it & become attached to the idea that it is something that can be lost.

I know that does not necessarily make sense. Things can be lost, can’t they? Things are frequently lost.

Well yes, & no.

Things do morph yes, & take on new form, & inner child work this week shows how our inner child is still very much alive in us & motivates most of our movements.

When we begin to identify with something or someone & the way that this thing outside of ourselves should relate to us, we block ourselves off from its full experience & capacity.

What does union look like to you? Constant interaction, & connection?

It seems our divine love may actually be keeping us away from our inner child work, especially if we’re still holding onto fears about being lost, & left behind, instead of embraced.

The masculine toys with power displays & the fear of being toppled, or compressed by the feminine energy – internally & externally, whilst the feminine works on healing the family issues & disputes that keep her from experiencing freedom & joy in her life. Who is the feminines ‘self’ not centred around this constant, perpetual journey of healing.

Healing that does not look like a trial, or is not met with resistance from generational curses.

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Last weeks spiritual updates//energetic lessons: Full moon in Taurus – The waiting game, sacred spiritual marriage, & the breakdown of karma trauma.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 30 – Birth, creation, acceleration, Big Bang theory, 5th – Change, exploration, freedom, adventure, breath, newness.

The main theme this week, chemistry & the 3 of pentacles sees an alchemical process taking place, that is guided by the impact of Monday, the 30th. This day represents another giant spiritual reboot, similar to the one received on 10/10/10.

The 4 of cups being at the root of the reading is suggestive of the nature that we are in, when we are disconnected or unattached to our Godly nature. The switch from victim consciousness to empowerment consciousness has been ripe these past few months, & the 4 of cups sees a perspective change that stops us wondering why our lives do not look the way we would like them to, & takes us on a journey to creating this life that we do desire…

With the 4 of cups, you were very much focused on a stagnant situation, & for this reason not much shifted, or was changed.

The chemistry card talks about what happens when there is a sacred & sexual marriage between the two energies – masculine & feminine, culminating in something new being created. A third energy, which is often discussed by me in my twinflame (divine love readings), & in my twinflame novel.

You can see the figures in this card looking on lovingly at this energy

I feel the feminine opening up her heart more & allowing herself to be more vulnerable, (which leads to powerful manifestation).

It’s like she’s holding this thing in her hand & she’s showing it to the masculine & he’s looking at how delicate it is & they both admire it. This is the feminine in her most authentic, most natural body – however, it is also what offers her so much strength.

It’s like in the day, or the night, these 2 – masculine & feminine meet up & confess their love to one another.

But by day, they need to get up & work, they need to get up, & to graft.

They must create.

This week very beautifully presents the balance between love, & stability, duty & joy, masculine & feminine.

The feminine especially this week, many seem to be waiting for a message, either from the masculine, or about a job, & it appears that the key is believing in your own magic this week.

The marriage between you, & the self.

The feminine energy within us all this week needs to develop the kind of self safety, & security that allows us to be at our most vulnerable self, safely, yet freely.

You see how she adorns a red robe, red symbolising both bravery, danger, & the root chakra.

If there is something special we’ve been working on, then we need to get confident with sharing it with the world.

This is also about building new ideas about love, & the world around us.

A strong message regarding soul mates is also relevant here.

A message relating to the past, & past relationships, potentially even a past life, where there was too much ‘chemistry’ – a reaction of chemicals – physical, sexual, emotional, or mental, & not enough 3 of pentacles – which is reasoning, diplomacy, understanding, & grounding.

A message of self love that follows this weeks powerful full moon in Taurus that encourages a type of beauty & love that is untapped.

Remember that the 3 of pentacles is not void of this light, or of this spark of energy that’s present in the chemistry, or in the lovers, or in the balance, OR in the love, it is a COMBINATION, or the accumulation of the chemistry & the discipline, coming together.

It is a sacred, sexual, & chemical union.

And it asks you to take this 3rd energy out into the world, to do something with this 3rd energy,

It’s not just present so that you & your lover can sit there, & kiss all day, & be cute.

It’s so that you can create something, it’s so that you can use this spark to come alive.

And this very well could signify creative work.

In the 3 of pentacles, this light is being turned back on the two – the lovers, by this 3rd figure who appears to be impartial yet involved in their affairs.

This is like a Godly figure for many who appears to be intervening in day to day life in order to bring order & realisation to what demands our attentions.

What are your past relationships shining a light on for you at this time?

In the 3 of pentacles there’s negotiation with our higher self.

What are you willing to do to experience the harmony that exists when you do not deny parts of yourself.

And for many of us, the 4 of cups exists because we have been put in this momentary pause & many of us are sulking this week, or finding ourselves finding out just that much more about own perceptions & projections.

It’s like spirit days, ‘if I gave you this chemistry, or this love, what would you do with it? How would you put it to work?’

The 5 of wands stands as the fight, between us, & our best selves.

Between what is natural, & what we attempt to control.

It could be you attempting to change or shape events & feeling insecure or dissatisfied because you have all of these external voices in your mind.

Patience is a valuable & highlighted lesson to us now according to both the 7 of pentacles, & the temperance card, suggesting behaviour modification.

You have to stand still in order to bear witness.

The 5 of wands truly is the ego battling finally against itself, instead of outside forces.

There is also a strong indication here that we should be mindful of prioritising our romantic relations over our relationship with self/ with God, or more than you honour your relationship with the physical.

The interconnectedness of the 3.

The higher intellect of the temperance energy knows that there is a divine, non moving stream between the realm of the physical/material, & the spiritual/emotional.

This energy may seem somewhat detached, however it is more so a reluctance to become lost in a sea of hopeless emotion.

The 6 of cups articulates a past grievance that is brought to our attention to be corrected this week.

There is likely past life & childhood issues that are corrected with forgiveness.

Yes, we have experienced soulmates & they have played valuable & vital roles in our lives, but it’s time to let many of them go.

It could be a conversation this week with a soul mate who particularly hurt you, (even if only telepathically), to say, ‘I am sorry. I did not know better’.

Divine lovers weekly preview — To live a life, sublime.

This lack of faith is the foundation of all of our scarcity & poverty consciousness, & stretches far beyond just our romantic relationships, however, as twinflames lead so much from the heart space to do their work, it is essential that we look at how our interpersonal relationships are affected by this lack of trust that we have.

Perhaps we learned at an early age that we cannot trust those around us. That we cannot be open & forthcoming & disclose the deepest most intimate parts of ourselves.

We may have been told who we have to be from a very young age, & identity or identity loss is a big theme for us this week.

It is indeed time to lose your identity.

But not in that terrifying way that is suggestive of BPD, (borderline personality disorder), or having no clue who you are.

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General weekly reading – 23rd-29th October 2017 – The shadow presents (Scorpio’s lament)..

Main theme – Release your ex/You deserve love, 2 of cups, 7 of cups, the tower, 4 of pentacles, Crowning – The guardian angel of faith, Outcome – The devil.

This weeks energies are urging us to make the necessary changes & decisions to move forward from a toxic situation.

At the root of the matter, is the devil card, along with the main theme, ‘release your ex’ suggesting that a clearing of your energetic partnerships is vital to your progress this week.

Usually, when the release your ex card appears, it’s not always necessarily the actual person that must release, (although it could be), as it is the beliefs that keep us attached to this person & to this energy.

Fatigue, mental exhaustion, & anguish seem to be an inevitable experience as long as we hold on to the confusion that this partnership brings.

The four of pentacles holds on so tightly to its own shadow self in fear of falling apart.

It’s almost as if we do not know who we are when we are not playing our smallest self.

Life offers an experience this week if you can let go of this stagnant energy you’ve been holding on to.

The devil card is as much a concept as you would like it to be. Sure, there are ‘darker’ energies at work & Scorpio season entices this plunge into the darkness that we take, but this devil energy this week is actually about choice.

The entrapment is the illusion.

In the ‘you deserve love energy’, you actually grow very tired towards the end of this week, with routine.

It’s like a 360, where you turn around & suddenly realise that the only person keeping you entrapped, is yourself.

Perhaps your fears about lack, loss of control, & loss of identity are dragged to the surface, & a sink or swim dynamic is introduced.

It could be the underlying feeling of not being enough, or not having enough that causes you to hold on to a situation that the tower energy has hit before.

The tower is a foundation that can easily be struck & brought down, & usually is by your own subconscious.

The gnawing feeling that you are better & can do better doesn’t leave you so easily, especially not as the cracks continue to present themselves.

The figure in the ‘ release your ex’ card seems to hold a list, & it is upon checking this list that she feels exhausted & put upon.

A specific message to highly sensitive healers or empathic beings to no longer live feeling so obliged to cater to everyone, especially at the expense of themselves.

Scorpio energy comes through very strongly here, as Scorpios are often known for their withdrawal tactics – better known as survival Methods.

It appears that there are usually two descriptions of the Scorpio energy – as either too attached (possessive & obsessive), or completely cold, detached – usually leaving those on the receiving end of Scorpios fluctuating mood confused, in a daze, & feeling quite uncertain of themselves.

This reminds us of the empath, who often takes in so much energy that they do not know where to shut off, & usually have to go to the extreme of completely blocking someone or some things out in order to concentrate.

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Balance is found this week when we no longer force ourselves to take in just any & everything around us.

The 7 of cups invites us to tighten our boundaries, & not spend so much time caught in between several different pictures at once.

Focus is needed like the arrow that the figure in the ‘you deserve love’ card sports.

Many of us find ourselves completely bombarded by the lessons & revelations of this illusion shattering reality presented to us this week.

Hiding amongst the shadows becomes less & less enticing..

The angel of faith/trust encourages us to take the leap in this situation, & the 2 of cups likely represents the chance of a new love connection, or a romance/new friendship brewing outside of the karmic templates you’re experiencing.

One step at a time. Be gentle with yourself.

Remember you’re still undoing centuries worth of karmic beliefs & understandings about yourself & the world.

Trust & intimacy is built slowly here, not hot & heavy as it may have been in the past.

The 7 of cups could also warn of exaggerated day dream. When we fear that we do not have enough information our mind can begin to conjure its own stories – once again leaning towards the devil energy; fears, doubts & worries about the devil card manifesting once again.

Remember that the devil energy is a state of mind, & can be over come by us choosing to perceive things through a different lens. Strike a change in whatever you have witnessed that you always do.

Go for something that exposes your wounds even more. Push yourself to the limit this week.

Divine lovers Weekly preview — *latest energetic update* — No enemy within, no demon without (Scorpios lament).

A powerful week this week sees BOTH divine lovers leaving karmic attachments behind – partners, belief systems, familiar patterns, & the past.

Scorpio season truly provides divine lovers with the visibility that they seek this week. At the root of the issue with the moon, our ego is cleared out of the way so that we may see the truth.

The knight of pentacles & the 2 of wands this week shows divine lovers at two separate stages in their journey.

The feminine appears to have crossed a threshold & she looks outward, thinking about expanding her world & all that her new world will have to offer her, but ofcourse she still wonders where the masculine is, or how far along he is on his journey to arrive.

With the knight of pentacles he has a fixed goal in mind – but for the feminines who are learning to work with their own energy, as opposed to frequently dipping into the masculines, they will not see this as a separation. It will simply appear as both of them expanding their territory.

The feminine holds a certain fear, yet excitement about this new stage in her journey, yet the 5 of cups shows that she is still dealing with mourning some attachment issues.

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General weekly reading – 16th-22nd October – Feminine acceleration, redefining the culture of patriarchal substance, letting go, & the dynamics of control.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 16th (7) – Spirituality, universal consciousness, psychic ability, mental expansion, problem solving, seeking, research, God consciousness, 22 – master builder, problem solver, creativity & the arts, intuition, broad vision, goal setting, accomplishments, legacies.

The 4 of pentacles points to rigidity & a desire to hold on to things longer than we have to, often because we fear change & we fear that change means abandonment.

This week asks us to take a closer look at the ways in which we view change & our ideas about freedom. Once again, we find ourselves diving deep into the depth of the death that is the old polarity battle – this week us taking a look at what it really means for ‘the patriarchy’ to crumble.

Could it be the habits, people or places that we hold on to longer than we should because the idea of change & freedom (although very enticing) strikes immediate fear inside of us.

Perhaps we fear we do not actually have what it takes to be free & careless in this way… It’s not nexesssrilh the type of carelessness that is chaotic, but the type that allows us to let go of control issues – internally & externally.

The fearful ego will come up with so many reasons why we cannot let go & why we are weary to try new things & we may find this as apart of our family line. Perhaps we had one or two parents who held fear or shame consciousness about stepping out into the world in a major way, & we may have inherited many of these fears, but now it is time for us to step outside of that consciousness, to open our hearts & our minds to all that life may have to offer us… Whatever that may be.

Unrequited love challenges you to say no or say goodbye to the things that are no longer you. You may have to take a bold stand against that which you feel is a false mask or is not deep enough for the oceans that you are attempting to swim. Yes this could relate to offers of love & relationships, but I do see it expanding into several areas of our lives, including that which keeps us small.

This is a big week for the feminine to be brave & step outside the mask & the mould & not be afraid of what’s waiting for her on the other side of the curtain.

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The 4 of pentacles this week is also representative of this patriarchal structure & how its effects currently continue to dictate how we feel we need to live our realities.

Letting go of the old world & its clutch to the seams of the false illusions may see us letting go of some friendships, or those who refuse to successfully make the change into the new data..

It appears as if when she tries to leave & see for herself what is available, she is held back & kept captive by energies of fear. Whoever it is who remains on this side of the curtain with her is terrified of the real world themselves & they may manipulate her or play games in order for her not to ever experience what it is on the other side.

This doesn’t usually only represent one person, but beliefs, ideologies & principles about it being taboo to stray too far from the village, or to do things on her own.

Not necessarily relating alone to a woman, this could also describe our fears about making the effort in love, fearing we will not have enough to offer our partners, thinking they may be more experienced or advantageous than us in some ways.

We have to remember that’s where the route of fear comes from, especially when we try to hold on so tightly to something – we essentially fear abandonment, & this week can highlight to us our fears of abandonment & codependent natures that keep us small.

You may stay in a stagnant situation longer than you need to because it is comfortable. Because it minimises the chances of abandonment.

The strength card tears our ego away from a situation in which we may be tempted to act from our lower selves. This is the lesson in responsibility that time has taught. You do not always need to give a reaction, & getting triggered just also shows how tightly you are still holding onto your wounds. Instead, the strength card asks you to recognise a pattern here.

What is it that seems to continuously manifest in your life as a result of these fears & phobias that you have of expansion?

The 4 of pentacles could also represent you marinating on past love experiences that have not turned out how you may have preferred them to.

The 2 of swords is a choice & a decision that you can make this week that will alter the flow of things & cause you to experience life in a different way for once. The world card suggests no looking back. Allowing yourself to leave something behind that you may have only kept around because it boosts or strokes your ego.

You have to make a decision now because you’ve reached a pivotal point where the wall is no longer pulled over your eyes. You see & know better now.. & the ace of cups as an energy actually waits to be presented to you once you take the time to appreciate the world around you & live in the moment.

The world card represents a peaceful death, & a peaceful transition, once we finally & fully let go – whilst the guardian angel of children represents a rebirth – a new start to our lives that is a self promise to experience more joy, wonder & most importantly, ambiguity.

The best parts of life happen when you stop trying to make them happen.

Divine lovers weekly reading – ‘The collapsing of polarity, time & space as we know it – why the separation phase NEVER existed.

This week, divine lovers learn just a little bit more about what it means to be present, & how presence, leads to patience. We have tried in the past, to speed things into existence, often displaying a choke hold level of expectation & control, & it has brought us nowhere. We have tried before, to entirely let things go, to pretend that we do not care about how the world unfolds, only to be reminded later that this is one of the most anxiety ridden things. So what do we learn this week? The art of truly letting go. The art of the knowing & the knower. The knowledge that at any time divine love is at play, so too is divine timing.. It’s not for us to manipulate the future, but to manifest it, in every waking breath.

The feminine this week learns a vital lesson about patience, & the purpose of allowing the divine to be received by her. Openness, & trusting, whilst the masculine makes several decisions that alter the course of his destiny.. He moves towards his goal post with precision, & it is time that reveals to him, where he must go.

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General weekly reading – 9th-15th October 2017 – ‘MASSIVE SPIRITUAL AWAKENINGS, DNA UPGRADES, DESTRUCTION OF THE OLD ORDER, NEW WORLDS & GLOBAL REBIRTH.

Numerological breakdown calculation

9 – childhood wounds, healing family issues, completion, endings, resolution, wholeness, understanding, creativity through pain, 15 (6) – mother wound, lovers, community healing, past life regression.

The main theme presenting itself as ‘religious factors’ & the knight of wands shows this absolutely massive & monumental COLLECTIVE spiritual awakening that is currently occurring right before our very eyes.

Gone are the days when it was just yoga pants wearing, loc sporting, twitter mentoring, self proclaimed hippies who are banging on about the end times, new vibrations, spiritual understanding & religious indoctrination…

NOW, we are in times where you will find people spreading this good word almost EVERYWHERE that you go, those you once thought may never awaken, are awakening..

Family members, old partners, your neighbour down the street, everybody everywhere is feeling a buzz about this new wave of spiritual energy that is bringing illumination… Such a powerful time, & a powerful change to be apart of!

The knight of wands is the passion that a lot of religious sects took away from us. It may be sexual, creative or even self expansion & exploration that is causing for so many of us to awaken from our slumber.

Our old spiritual & religious beliefs, those taught by our families & community are no longer seeming to resonate & the knight of wands is this fire BURSTING through, as we recognise the thinning of the illusions… Ever closer to All Hallows’ eve.

Notice the figure in the angel oracle, she is surrounded by a pink luminescent light – this light is belonging to Archangel Metatron, who I spoke on last week.

He presents himself, to bring healing in the form of knowledge to the masses. Who is he? He is the keeper of the book of life. As we stray away from conventional teachings, we wonder what his book may have to offer us.

Esoteric knowledge. Occult knowledge. Things we dare not have spoken of growing up.

We now see, & begin to feel with the presence of the moon card. The moon card represents the antithesis of all of our emotions & emotional knowing.

It sees us existing in the astral realms & planes just a little bit more & just a little bit longer. See how easy it is to communicate without words.

See how easy it is to FEEL the truth. Empaths rise us, your time is now. For so long you may have judged that which you felt but had no way to prove, when the moon card arrives this week, to let you know that you were right… That you are always right!

And a lot of people this week will be hearing from their divine counterparts – twinflames & soul mates, because this is just the nature of soul expansion & growth – you are drawn towards what feels pure & authentic, you realise who has taught you what, & why they were placed on your path & WHAT they had & still have to teach you – read more about this weeks twinflame reading at the end –

The 9 of wands looking back at the moon card may represent some self pity on our part – which is not entirely discouraged, because we have been through a lot, but just remember not to get stuck there!

The 9 of wands represents the energy from our past & may represent a time where our intuition was always trying to communicate with us, but we just chose not to listen to it. It is easy to frown upon past mistakes & grievances when we know better. We become like a parent to our past child like self, scorning at them for not knowing any better, but how were they supposed to? They were operating under old archaic, outdated & disruptive programming, this however is an entirely new operation, so please remember to be gentle with ALL past selves.

There is this huge uproar & uprooting of the foundations of our lives with the world card. I sense some people picking up & entirely moving to new locations because something just compels them to. This spiritual something that provokes them into a death & rebirth response that may look insane to those around them.

Stay on your path. The change may not be easy because of how big it is but this is so very necessary for your souls evolution. I see things blowing up so it’s really the end of your world. Something major comes to a close that no longer agrees with you, & you’re taking all of these soul lessons with you.

Enough is enough. You watched. You waited. You tried to fit in & grow accustom to this world, but it kept being destroyed because it wanted you to notice – this is just not for you.

It may have been you obeying laws that were man made or of the ego – depictions about how you should be & who you should be with, whereas now you’re very much concerned with obeying the laws of nature, spiritual law, karmic law & the orders of powers higher up than our own.

When you ascend, you don’t really need to take anything with you – just your soul, your body becomes anew, & this is why 3 separate figures on this card are naked. They are not bound by clothes or earthly rules. Remember that clothes became for us when we realised we were naked in the garden of Eden, AFTER & not before our transgressions. To be naked means to be unashamed, pure, free.

FOUR major arcana… I mean it’s absolutely out of this world – LITERALLY, I am so lost for words at the power of this week. So let’s take a look at these major arcanas – they all point to celestial events & astrological placements that are really assisting our shift – the sun, the moon, the star, the world – it appears the entire universe is with us, asking to be born again.

This is the Christ archetype. The sun represents freedom from childhood restraint. Any of us who had abusive or narcissistic parents, this freedom JUST TO BE speaks to us.

Whilst the moon is healing of the unconscious, the sun is the product of what that healing brings to our physical reality, whilst the star works inbetween – on the subconscious parts of our brain – guiding us to the knowledge & the information we may seek to let us know we are on the right path.

The star card is all about coincidence & carefully placed synchronicity. ‘Everyday magic’ that only seems to intensify, everyday.

Some of us this week will be leaving our partners because they may not understand our new found spiritual paths, or we may realise our vibration is no longer in sync with theirs.

The angel of creativity represents the abundance of creative ideas & essence that flows through us, the more we embrace the gateway to these talents & abilities. & the more we discover new gateways & dimensions within ourselves.

It’s an amazing time to be alive! Make the BEST use of your soul! It’s only up from here….

Divine lovers weekly reading – 9th-15th October 2017 -‘Let me back in – to the garden of Eden’ is now available for purchase — Anything that imprisons you, offers you an indication of what you must master.

The devil card in the taro (featured in this weeks twinflame reading) is the PRIME example of this.

Belief.. Those w/ heavy shadow work are actually those with the most capacity to see & become the light. Your shadow self is a gateway to your healing.What is it that weakens you? sexual promiscuity? Addictions? Fear? Insecurity? Then these are what you must conquer in yourself.

Once you become a master of these things within yourself, you’re pretty much like superman if he destroyed kryptonite for good.

The entrapment of the couple by the devil figure is merely an illusion. If they truly desired so, with will & force, they could break free.

There’s a cyclical nature to entrapment. Which means whatever entrails them has been occurring for life times, in countless life situations, It does not NEED to happen. It happens because they do not exercise the will against themselves. There is no outta devil with no inner devil.

The masculine has this POWERFUL AWAKENING this week – like staring directly into God’s light, even when it blurs the eyes… whilst the feminine learns how to operate in the darkness.

She has a plan, a plot, a theory or a narrative this week that she feels will break them both out of peril & she begins to actually have fun with this mission work.

What do you do when you begin to know that you are chosen?

That you only battle because you’re battle worthy?

You start to have fun with it… You begin to not take the path so seriously, so severely… You begin to sense God’s sense of humour.. The sense, that it is all nonsense, attempting to make sense.

He cannot pretend this mediocre life is suitable any longer. He cannot pretend to smile as he realises he’s apart of the Truman show.. There’s a life that exists outside of the fence that he peers over. He has to realise there is no comfort in his comfortability.. It’s really quite deceiving not to be ripped open actually. And his heart chakra is his last obstacle.. He must open to it, entirely, oh how it engulfs.

It is INSANITY to continuously do the same thing, & so this week her perspective MUST shift. It’s time to do the work in a way that’s lighter.

NOTHING that you were born to do should feel that heavy. There’s a real acknowledgement growing that life isn’t supposed to feel cloudy & if ever it does… Then we are CHOOSING this.

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Masculine Mayhem –

The third party situation that often follows divine lovers is back once again.. & this week it’s the masculines turn to make a make or break decision. And boy is he being broken down! A shaking of his beliefs throws him into the spiritual world & the awakening the feminine first experiences around 2014/2015 is NOW being experienced by him.

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