General weekly reading – 12th-21st March 2018 – Exorcism.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 12th-21st — New karmic beginnings, the innerchild, motherhood, healing the inner child wound, healing parental damage/trauma, completion, a completion of cycles, creativity, art, humanitarianism, teaching. The wounded healer. Family. Harmony. Unity. Community. Acceptance.

The five of swords in combination with the page of cups is the fear that is born when our inner child does not feel comfortable, confident, or secure. Whatever childhood hang ups you are still holding on to that are making it difficult for you to experience freedom, particularly mental-psychological freedom.

The 5 of swords this week holds the page of cups captive, which may be the spirit reflected in the Pisces new moon.

What is the TRUTHFUL essence of your spirit?

There are things that you want to do, & chances that you hope to take, but it feels as if there is a very real fear of backlash here.

So for a lot of us this week, is about narcissistic abuse, particularly the narcissistic abuse that many of us have endured at the hands of parents, or from the wider community around us.

That is the damper on the spirit that we’ve carried with us since long ago, & this week? We get to confront that.

The 9 of swords as the outcome represents the process of de/reprogramming.

Negative thoughts have been implanted into your mind through conditioning, & most of it is not even yours, it is limitations of others, & their fears, & projections.

You may be called to spend less time around those you may perceive to have very draining energies, & perhaps draw some boundaries.

The devil card demonstrates this feeling of heaviness that may have you feeling as if you cannot escape these feelings, or this darkness, but that is what death is for – to break up this ‘pity party’.

The 6 of swords is the opportunity to heal yourself by going back in time.

Ofcourse, we can never truly or fully go back in time, or could we?

Surely this is the psychological process of healing.

We go back into old folders, & files, in order to rearrange this, & build more supportive memories.

In the 6 of swords, the individual seems to go back in time to provide both their inner child, & their (inner) mother with some support.

This does not necessarily have to do with physically healing the mother wound, (although it will for many), so much as it relates to the way that we mirror, & mother ourselves.

The 6 of swords speaks of breaking negative attachments, to attachment.

There is this fear of change, & jumping into the unknown, which relates to comforting the wounded healer in you.

What you are afraid of this week, is what will actually move you.

Do not resist the changes as they come. The wheel of fortune shows that apart of you actually welcomes change, yet you have fears surrounding letting go.

There are worries about manifesting what has already been, but the message is on focusing on building the new, & slowly integrating newer, more peaceful thoughts.

The change will not take place overnight, & you need to be patient with yourself about the process. If you are trying to do it properly.

It is about acceptance of self, & no longer making that anyone else’s responsibility/priority.

You have the answer to the solution already.

The wheel of fortune is about opportunity & taking the chance this week to actually exit the wheel, by choosing a different option, & doing things differently.

In the case that you have been here before, ask yourself, what has changed this time around.

‘Bats symbolize death and rebirth. Sometimes, they are known as the “Guardian of the Night.” It is largely misunderstood and so therefore many of its symbolic meanings are inappropriately fear-based. The bat is a symbol of rebirth and death because it is a creature that lives in the belly of the Mother (Earth). From the womb-like caves it emerges every evening at dusk. And so – from the womb it is reborn every evening’.

It is also a symbol of communication because the Native Americans observed the bat to be a highly social creature. Indeed, the bat has strong family ties. They are very nurturing, exhibiting verbal communication, touching, and sensitivity to members of their group.

The bat is also associated with medicine. Bat medicine teaches us to release fear and any pattern which no longer fits in with our pattern of growth. A new beginning, trusting one’s instincts, the bat is powerful medicine.

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The 5 of swords also relates to taking a closer look at behaviours within yourself that may be toxic, or immature. It’s not about blame, or pointing the finger, so much as it is about ownership & understanding.

It can be difficult to accept the ways that our psyche has split, & filtered out certain information, but this is the only way that we can strike the ego at the heart, & arrive at the soul of a situation.

You are moving on to the second stage of the self, so it’s as if one version of you has died & you’re reaching maturation.

Just being alone with your darkness, is enough this week.

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Divine lovers weekly reading – 12th-21st March 2018′ I fought the law and I won’.

A huge emotional rebirth takes place for divine lovers this week. It’s time for the masculine to confront himself in a big way, & his shadows are being illuminated for him to see. It’s a little bit like a panic attack, or a vampire being given a soul again – literally.

The process may not be the prettiest, but it’s teaching the feminine a valuable lesson in not biting off more than she can chew.

The veil from the patriarchal promises that were never gifted to him, are shattering.

There are some masculines who are not taking this very badly, however the ones who used the original patriarchal structure of dominance via manhood to shield & protect themselves against their own weakened ego (childhood hang ups), this time will prove most uncomfortable.

If she tries to involve herself with the breakdown of the masculines lessons, & karma, she will find herself even more exhausted & depleted.

Her awakening consciousness this week is actually born from this feeling of fatigue, & oppression. Although it births a fire spirit that seeks to burn everything to the ground.

She’s fed up with the masculines antics this week, & not in a way that is blaming or shaming him, because she recognises the ways in which she has fed into it herself.

They are BOTH confronting themselves, they are BOTH dealing with the healing of the inner child, & their family’s wounds.

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General weekly reading – The wisdom that the past/paths taught – 5th-11th March 2018.

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The wisdom that the past/paths taught – 5th-11th March 2018.

Numerological breakdown calculation – 5 – Change, death/rebirth, newness, freedom, open space, liberation, awakening, 11 – Spiritual awakening, masculine & feminine balance, harmony, self mastery, illumination, initiation.

The 3 of wands coming in for this week, is a major sigh of relief.

With the 3 of wands we have passed a major threshold in our lives, & we can stand back, & appreciate the bigger picture, for all that has been.

The 3 of wands is not neglectful of the pains that have occurred in the past, but is still very much grateful & thankful for this thing called endurance.

For this thing called grace.

A lot of us this week actually will be experiencing energy or memory recall, especially through dreams.

One of the parts of trauma that can cause narcissists, or rather narcissistic behaviour, is how we block out memories of painful events that we have been through, but still operate unconsciously from this place of pain, by dishing out pain to others.

And one of my ULTIMATE favourite parts of the healing journey, is actually memory of energy recall, which moves us forward in healing, by taking us backward to view, & remember the past.

This week, or this time, may see you suddenly stumbling upon smaller memories, especially painful ones of incidences were you felt neglect, or abuse.

The 3 of wands is like the overseer, so you watch these memories & situations back, however you are somewhat detached from them this week, because you know that they are gone. You are a soul/sole survivor.

And you can look back at how far you have come, & all of the trials that you have had to endure, & be merciful.

And thankful that the ride is over, for it truly is – over.

The 6 of wands alongside the 3 of wands, creates the 9 of wands, which is representative of forgiveness, & allowing the past to remain in the past.

Cross paths with the present.

The 6 of wands is the feeling we get when we re-enter our body.

This is the physical body remembering who the soul is.

‘Hello my old friend’, it is about time that you return to you.

The 6 of wands comes out of the transition this week. So a lot of karmic work & healing work has been occurring specifically to do with the family & the parents recently, & this has impacted our own internal experiences, & masculine & feminine energy greatly.

Every single template you have taken from your paternal, & maternal gene pools have come out to play in recent weeks.

Healing the karma of your parents is about recognising the model of love that they shared, the way they related to the world, & the way they related to one another.

The lovers card articulates this fresh template in love that we are currently creating. When we forgive those who have hurt us, we also forgive ourselves, because a lot of the time the partners who we attract, mirror who we were in a past life.

If we can create sympathy (not empathy) for them, then we can forgive ourselves.

When we feel empathy for them, we are actually not expressing love, but rather keeping the both of us in bondage.

The lovers card seeks to come out of the darkness that is felt in cards like the devil card energy.

The lovers energy this week exposes all of ones secrets, phobias, & indiscretions. It’s like there are no secrets this week, everything is being pulled to the surface.

For some, this does feel as if it is about moving on, & walking away, & if this is done, I must stress that to lessen cord attachment, it should not be done from a malicious perspective. Rather, we must understand how the situation presents itself to us for us to understand the aspects of our lives that are in need of healing, & security.

The 10 of swords is the martyr complex, or rather victimhood that we are breaking free from this week.

The page of swords charges in to burst ones illusions, & this may be us creating our boundaries, or giving those around us the honest truths about how we feel/think about their actions.

This card could be standing up for yourself this week, & feeling the courage to tell those around you what they need to hear.

As the narrative about the way that you see yourself changes, you stop seeing others as so helpless, & want them too to hold themselves to a higher standard of accountability.

The page of swords seems to cause the 10 of swords which is something like an artificial injury.

It will not harm the person who is receiving the news so much, as it will bruise their ego into understanding that a higher level of themselves is required of them.

I feel if you have a message for somebody this week, or for a lover, it’s either about forgiveness, or about how you recognise yourself in the mistake(s) that they’ve made, aiding you to take a non judgemental approach.

For many we are saying that we need to move on. That this phase of life is over for us, & it’s about understanding how everything is connected, & how everything has been connected, & the way to strike a different course of events, is to change.

Balance is introduced with the intwining nature of the black & white theme. Symbolising the interchanging nature of death, & rebirth, this week finds us losing more of our fears of death & the change in our surroundings.

The tower energy is never truly solid. It is never truly shaky either.

It is both, & exists in the moments in-between.

With the tower, it does not come down this week in such a shaky way as it has in the past. When all is revealed, there is no clear villain, or no clear victim.

The guardian angel of young adult places more responsibility in your hands through knowledge/wisdom.

The key that the character is holding demonstrates new found wisdom that will be used to unlock the next part of their journey.

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Divine lovers Weekly Reading – Motherhood, death & rebirth, changing seasons – Spring brings the promise of new things – 5th-11th March 2017.

The empress & the queen of wands as the main energy display very powerful divine feminine energies that will be coming to the surface this week.

This is an entirely new take on how the feminine sees herself, & how she creates her stories. It’s like she has a guide this week, a divine feminine presence who holds her accountable, a big sister, or a mother, who guides her into initiation.

For some feminines this will be the great spiritual mother herself, & many may feel called to come into contact with a Feminine deity who calls out to them – yemoja (yemaya), Isis, Kali, or Mary Magdalene, depending on which part of her needs nurturing.

Poetry ~

Spring time always seems to arrive before I am ready.

I have not even said goodbye to you, the darkness, my love, when it becomes time to make ready for the new.

I try to hold onto the trees, as the leaves grow loose, but it is no use.

Spring time will come by noon, & with it, my darkest night too shall depart.

I miss you with all of my heart.

When we die & are reborn by midnight,

Tell me that you will not forget me.

Too soon I held on to you,

As if the days would never pass us passed,

By dear, they did last,

Till death, inevitably, incredibly, do us part.

I will not act as if I did not cherish you, every single moment that I knew you.

Cindy Anneh-bu.

The guardian angel of young adults shows the masculine being given more responsibility through this birth. Maybe he is learning how to manage his money better, or how to provide & be there for the feminine.

He definitely learns a lesson in selflessness, although the lesson may be slow to come.

The masculine has always been twice removed, fixated on something or another that caused the feminine to get lost in her thoughts wondering about him.

This could be infidelity, as well as the birth of a child through a relationship experienced outside of the union.

In the past life relationship card, the feminine reminisces over how the relationship used to be.

Something has definitely changed, especially for the feminine & she’s mourning, & experiencing every inch of this change.

The tree card symbolises the changing of seasons, & how things appear on the surface to remain the same, but day by day everything changes on a grand level, & her actions affect her past, as well as her future.

The angel of trust shows the feminine working on the side of herself that felt or feels abandoned, that feels separated from the great mother. It’s a welcoming home for the feminine.

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General weekly reading Alchemical transformation, New wave of downloads, & Financial Freedom; When God gives one a second chance.

General weekly reading

Numerological breakdown calculation – 22 – Master builder, legacy, creative enterprise, community business, visionary, bridge, intuit, 31 – Order, structure, strategy, calculation, new life, security, assets, opportunity.

Alchemical transformation, New wave of downloads, & Financial Freedom;

When God gives one a second chance.

Judgement alerts us to the truth, & may very well point to a truth or several truths that we may not have wanted to witness.

Growth comes in all shapes, & sizes, & this week, it comes in the form of surrender.

Judgement as an energy checks us on our ego trips, & any truths that are ultimate, & beyond our control.

We are asked to know that there is a higher power calling the shots, & if it is time for the trumpet to sound, then at once we must leave what we were doing behind, & pay attention to the nature of the call.

This is very much like Noah’s arc. You receive the divine signalling that the rest of the world, (the old world), is about to be destroyed, & you are given the chance to be a participant in building the new, however, you have to utilise the tools given to you for self improvement, if you wish to make it onto the other side.

Has something been blocking your destiny these past few years? Or at least, does it appear that way?

Perhaps a relationship, or relationSHIPS that have kept you isolated, stranded in a sea of emotions, away from the divine/God.

This weeks energies call for us to once again learn how to mind our own business.

You’ve likely been getting so distracted by matters on earth, that you’ve neglected, or are neglecting your higher calling & path – which CAN also generate income, in the case that you are worried about being taken care of materially.

Whatever has seemed to distract you, or be a halt in your destiny, is beginning to be removed from your life this week, how? Not by some huge, magic grandiose force, but by you. You when you awaken to the reality of how everything has been conspiring to ensure that you do not fulfil the destiny required for you.

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A truth is presented & revealed to you this week, in a way that cannot allow you to go back to old habits.

Responsibility is a primary factor in facing head on, the issues or truths that you have been refusing to see.

The 7 of swords indicates that in this situation, on a subconscious level, you knew that all was not well within the spirit, however, uncovering this truth for you probably meant or means dealing with some other grey areas in your life, that you were not so willing to look in to.



Personal value.

Our relationship to PERSONAL responsibility is highlighted this week.

How in tune are you with catering to your own needs?

Many of us are receiving the call to somewhat isolate ourselves during this time. The energies are very intense right now, & it’s normal to feel raw & exposed. You may feel as if energies around you can be too harsh or clouding of the current epiphanies you are receiving, & in many ways this is true. The reason that these other energies feel so harsh is because your energetic boundaries have been put down. For new information to come in, & old information to come out, there must be an entrance.

This can also be used to explain any digestive issues, or flu symptoms we may be experiencing in conjunction to these changes.

A portal opening of sorts.

You may be recognising just how dense the energies of others around you are, & attempting to stabilise yourself through all of that.

It is easy to cater to the needs & the demands of others, especially if this is a programmed/learned behaviour.

But what happens when you have to get used to placing yourself first, for the first time?

The 6 of pentacles attempts to even the score here.

You’ve been treating yourself as if you were a peasant, or somehow not worthy, & your higher self arrives this week to offer you a fair payout.

You NEED to get comfortable with accepting more into your life, & know that you are worthy of receiving these gifts, because abundance really is based on your belief system.

Do you believe you are deserving?


Do you truly see that you have earned everything that you have around you?

That you do not necessarily have to ‘earn’ everything, sometimes things are simply a good will gesture to you, acknowledgement, or homage to your craft, & what you do, simply by ways of being.

This is largely about understanding that your very existence is valid, especially if you grew in a household that made you feel responsible for others, as if you had to earn your right to be loved.

If you perceive yourself to be continuously unlucky, then your waking life will continue to reflect this.

It’s almost like the baby boy (wounded masculine, & baby girl (wounded feminine) dynamic that I’ve been discussing lately in my posts, & in my new book — found here

It is comfortability in playing smaller than you are, because of fears to self actualise or operate in the ‘real world’.

The judgement energy asks you to see what you have tried to avoid, in attempts to protect your illusion from dismantling. But it’s time for you to face the music.

The 8 of pentacles bridges the gap between himself, & the king of pentacles. It’s as if you have this vision of who you would like to be, & where you would like to be, & it’s only the ghosts of the past that still stand in your way.

The 8 of pentacles represents a dedication to skill.

So this requires taking some time out, perhaps to hone your practice enough to begin making profit from it.

You have to take pride in your work. It cannot simply be a side hustle, treat your craft, & ability, with the utmost respect & reverence.

It may be lonely at the top.

Perhaps you are the only one in your clique who is dedicating themselves so religiously to breaking financial habits, & generational curses. But neither should that deter you.

You don’t need company with you who does not wish to walk alongside you.

Some of your sacrifices may have to be you lessening the time/attention spent with/on friends, or those who still remain comfortable in a lack mentality.

Focus is crucial at this point.

Your current financial situation has a lot to do with your organisation.

The king of pentacles has many roles to play, because he is at the top of his game.

But he could easily ‘fall off’, if he does not take the time to see to his multiple projects.

So you have to be willing to move this week.

Even if the movement appears slow initially. It’s like an ever growing seed that’s likely to fully blossom by spring.

The tower is like a warning, or a potential looming symbol this week. It’s not so much an occurrence, as it is a template.

It represents the energy & aftermath of destruction.

Everything that is rushed, not carefully thought through, a foundation, (or lack of), that has existed for a long time with you.

It could be your childhood foundation.

It could be the foundation that your father had, but I am receiving the message that it has a lot to do with being stuck in survival mode, for fear of what thriving would mean.

Not everybody gets a fair trial/start in life, but note that you are in charge of what happens from here on.

The unrequited love card talks of partnerships, friendships, relationships that will begin to deteriorate this week.

It’s as if you are trying to hold on to something, but one of you has grown more than the other, or seems to be moving in an alternate direction. Likely the one who has understood & began to process the ‘judgement’ energy already.

The angel of mercy helps to ease us into any realisations that may seem painful or unsettling.

The core truths to a lot of self sabotaging behaviours are a lack of self love, & it can be painful to view the ways we haven’t been self reflecting/respecting, but the 8 of pentacles definitely represents a desire to ‘work on things’ from the ground up.

A strong desire is shown this time to want to be more dedicated, to practice things with more effort, & precision.

Divine lovers weekly reading – Redemption, resurrection, & the fina(cia)l (re)call – 22nd-31st January 2018.

This weeks divine lovers reading takes us on this journey of healing, & what happens when we can have forgiveness in our hearts, without making ourselves the perpetual Martyrs. It’s about celebrating love, even in the times that love just does not look or feel like love. It’s about overcoming the darkness, & the feminine is at the forefront of this movement. She’s very challenged by these archaic wounds & battles via the divine masculine that are coming up at this time. There’s been lifetimes worth of suppression of pain & many women are just wondering, when is it going to end?

The masculine is also being pulled apart this week into finding his own glories. He begins to recognise the very powerful place in his community, what happens when there IS no divine masculine holding down the forte? This week, it becomes clear to him..

This is a true test of the limits or limitedness, of their self love journeys.

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The inner child who is still wounded by the things that they witnessed their parents lack, or struggle with, now has to make the journey of freeing themselves of karma that is not theirs.

An opportunity is presented for both divine lovers to fully begin to experience & live their lives, rather than the live the lives of those before them – parents, grandparents, cultural conditioning etc.

The father wound is highlighted to us in depth this week. Along with the way that it sees the feminine aka the mother wound manifest.

Many masculines who have been avoiding their responsibility may find themselves returning ‘home’, or seeking to return home, where ever home is, in order to find redemption.

‘Home’, as we know, is the concept of the divine feminine.

If your masculine previously walked out on you with little explanation, or is aware of treating you badly in the past, the thing that is keeping him away may be confusion about how to approach you, & begin the process of forgiveness.

Our inner feminine must work on feeling safe enough to receive.

Whilst our inner masculine feels safe enough to try, to do, & to explore.

The 2 of wands energy appears to push us out of our comfort zone this week, & offers us a glimpse over the horizon, if we should not be fearful to take the leap.

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Baby boy syndrome – The women who love him: Spiritual warfare – *BOOK preview* Purchase details.

I am so happy to announce the arrival of my much awaited second book. Writing this for me has been an incredibly emotional experience, & I can already attest to the fact that it is the beginning of an emotional cleansing for myself, & many women/femmes alike who are coming out of an arduous, confusing, & spiritually challenging time of our lives.

It has happened to the best of us, particularly in our prime. These sweep you off of your feet, whirlwind romance, once in a life time dream come true, until everything comes crashing painfully up – & then down again, romances.

But what is the science behind them? And those who have had their fair share, (like myself), what is the science behind THEM? Who amongst us can understand how we continue to find ourselves in these situations, even though we have sworn we learnt from the last, even though we have sworn that we are strong & dedicated entirely to our path.

Why does it seem like every time we are on track, & every time that we have healed from one painful scenario, another seems to crop up almost instantaneously.

Well, I took the time to determine & define JUST that. What is it that causes so many highly spiritual & empathic women to find themselves in the grasp of narcissist, after narcissist? Why is there such an influx in google searches about this feverish narcissist & empath dynamic?

I have spent the past 5 years knowingly, & unknowingly on the path to discovering this truth, & though my knowledge is never complete, the end of my karmic journey would be even more incomplete if I did not share with you all in my own harrowing words, what I have found to be true about this dynamic. About these men.

Now before I move on to the details about how to acquire this dazzling piece, I must say that this is not another man bashing book. Far from it for that matter. Though a majority of this book is catered to seeing the masculines eyes through the feminines understanding, this book is very much open for healing with both men, & women.

And men, there is a lot that you can teach yourself in here, & finally understand. Although much of it won’t be very pleasant, it’s the perfect beginning for you to embark upon a potent healing journey.. Don’t shy away.

If I would have read this book 6 years ago, it would have changed my life. Perhaps I wouldn’t have been so broken on the way. Perhaps I would have healed sooner, but I do not regret the processes that took me undercover, in the dark world, to bring you these truths. – Cindy Anneh-bu

This is the book that EVERY mother should read to her daughter. And EVERY father should read to his son. And I do not say that lightly.

In this book I have managed to piece together the ancient knowledge necessary for you to free yourself from deeply embedded karmic bonds & chains. This, along with the healing the masculine ritual, is my offering to the world before my soul leaves. This is the closing of this karmic debt & chapter for me, & many others too.

I have spent the last several years of my life researching, & falling into my own pits of Trances & despair in order to bridge the gap & the ever so significant bridge between spirituality & modern medicine, especially our interpretations of mental illness. This essentially, is what my practice is all about, & this piece is the perfect anecdote of that.

Compiled with quotes & references from renowned psychologists, in this book I bring you both the psychology, & the parapsychology of the mind of the afflicted man known, as the baby boy.

Narcissism is becoming a dying concept. It is far too rigid & many ’empaths’ are recognising that they too carry narcissistic traits.

Well, if you care to dig deeper, & you care to know more, beyond these rigid calculations,

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What is baby boy syndrome you ask?

Well, just that. A ‘condition’, in which a man over the age of (roughly 18) – adulthood refuses to acknowledge that he has crossed a threshold age where he must be responsible for his actions, become self sustainable, and inject conscious awareness into his thoughts, feelings, and actions.

In other words, a man who appears to embody a man on the outside, but on the inside, hasn’t the slightest clue how to navigate in this world, as an independent, and reliable force.

Anytime the masculine fails to offer you that security of knowing that whatever you pour into the relationship will be safe, he robs her, essentially, of the opportunity to experience the very best of her reality.

If you wouldn’t allow this to happen to inanimate objects, then why would you allow for it to take place within your own soul?

Another reason for a woman being attracted to the lack of stability in a baby boy, is because she has never known true stability.

Through the countless accounts I have observed of women who are with these types of men, they almost always have had some type of drama going on at home with their families, some type of instability that they are attempting to run from, only to recreate this scenario with a partner.

Whatever is going on at home, you have to heal from the affects of it. You cannot run from it. Or you will surely find it again. As the highs & the lows that a baby boy offers provides a distraction from whatever upheaval the woman is already experiencing at home.

‘Thinking that you are unlovable. That you’re lucky that he chose you, even with all of your damaging’.

Control is a big factor with the baby boy, & he does seem it in anyway that he can get it. Although he rarely ever maintains it – & that’s just the problem.

This is why the opening line of my masculine ritual reading is, ‘ You cannot have control, without chaos’.

It is the chaotic nature of the feminine herself, that gives the masculine the opportunity to control something.

In many ways, he makes an attempt at the role of a father, perhaps much like her own, scattered in his ways.

He will alert her of her ways that are destructive, & dysfunctional, as they are plentiful.

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13th-19th Nov – REVOLUTIONARY – The number 13, The witch, Understanding Ophiuchus & persecution consciousness.

What is persecution consciousness, & how does it effect our growth?

The number 13 somewhere along the lines in history came to be associated with bad luck, or misfortune – most notably Friday the 13th, although in other cultures it is regarded as a symbol/totem of good luck.

Whatever way we look at it, this number has been associated with so much mysticism, speculation, fascination, & like all things that contain these 3 – fear.

One of the most popular scandals & conspiracy theories with this number, is its association with Christ himself. He had 12 disciples, meaning that he would have made up the 13th number, & actually, the 13th member of his disciples has usually been dubbed as Mary Magdalene herself, Ofcourse hidden from traditional church teachings because of obvious outrage – how could a woman be one of Jesus chosen few?! Aren’t women unclean, unholy, & untrustworthy, as unfolded by Eve herself, only earlier in this bible..

For me however, the most interesting association with this number, has been its connection with the goddess, or the witch, & how this ties in with my sunsign – Ophiuchus.

Now before you all cut my head off, I know that people typically have a very love/hate connection with the idea of a 13th sign being introduced, & shoving the other signs out of the way, however, I seem to have this weird theory, (with no way of proving Ofcourse – yet), that many of the traits/characteristics held by those within the 12th zodiac Signs, are not very nearly much as affected, as Sagittarius is.

In other words, yes, likely most of you even with this inclusion, still very much embody the same traits that you always have.

The real distinction here, belongs to the Ophiuchus members, who never truly or quite felt like a Sagittarius.

Who FELT all of the freedom, & agreed with the higher learning, but never quite identify with the portrayal as consistently charismatic, fiery, & out going/sociable.

Because the deep secret, for many ‘Sagittarians’ is the fact that beneath the surface, & often hidden from the prying eyes of their infatuated audiences, there is a very broody, extremely deep, & often sullen/dark element of themselves, very generously gifted from their Scorpio traits.

Because that’s just the thing about crossing this threshold. They now become equal light, & equal dark. They ARE the fire (illumination) element that Sagittarius provides, but they are also the death & the depth that Scorpio is.

Ophiuchus removes sagittarians from just being the light/care free energetic versions, & invites them to explore the demons within not only the crevices of their unconscious/subconscious mind, but also that of the collectives.

(Note how the snakes spiralling upward also mirror the DNA helix, & can also be brought into association with the kundalini awakening serpent).

Ophiuchus IS the shadow & the shadow work. 13, is the collective darkness, & the collective darkness coming to an end, especially in association with the persecution, degradation, humiliation & eventual burning of the witch – the inner feminine occult goddess, the sacred, secret, hidden elements of womanhood, sexual persecution/perversions, & the birth of something far more encompassing of her holiness, her holy mess, the holy grail itself.

It is no coincidence that all of these stories & accusations are coming out about Hollywood directors. Hollywood is deeply entrenched in the occult, & making occult sacrifices/ritual donations for the entities & the beings that govern these changes & turnings of event. The named & shamed directors & producers are simply sacrificial tokens to the entities – usually dark, that feed off of whatever transition or exploration the universe is going through. This may be the dark side of the goddess Kali, or any other dark goddesses that may have been formed through the pain of persecution. The humiliation & public scrutiny these producers/directors face, is the great sacrifice. It’s the purge. So that the rest of the elite, can continue in their dealings. They offer others over. So that they do not have to answer to the dark goddess themselves.

What happens when light & dark meet at equal points in the sky Ophiuchus? Since you are making an appearance to us in JUST few days…

The shadow obstructs the light.

And this is the 9 of swords. The feeling that this purge? Is just TOO purgey & not enough heal-y, (indeed I just made up my own words).

The queen of pentacles is representative of nurture & growth. Being given a gift that one finds beautiful to cultivate, & find joy & pleasure in doing so.

The feminine within us all is being asked to open ourselves up to become more receptive to receiving, & allowing ourselves to feel/become blessed.

This is likely to feel very uncomfortable & to create friction because a lot of us sadly are not used to people genuinely caring for us, & making sacrifices on our behalf. And this is a very typical Ophiuchus trait, feeling betrayed, let down by, or unable to open up to others, as Ophiuchus is the burned & persecuted witch – although typically associated with the image of a serpent toting male!

She was burned for her gifts, for her ability to practice natural healing & magic, inexplicable to the male dominated patriarchal hierarchy that was beginning to sweep through like the intense, engulfing wave that is religion, Christianity to be specific.

Tucked away in the akashic consciousness of the divine feminine, is abuse, it is lack, it is persecution, it IS feeling exposed, & it is vulnerability that fears & perceives the next incoming attack.

There could be a real dichotomy that presents itself at this time between self expression/finding ones self through spiritual freedom, & the polarities of religious order, structure, & indoctrination.

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It is the feminine feeling abandoned by the masculine. Where was he whilst she was being burnt, raped & persecuted? How did the Scorpio king allow her to face death in such a way that he now holds deep seated guilt, & feelings of insecurity & inadequacy, for not being able to protect the feminine?

It can ONLY be a happy family if the feminine exists there. The whole is not whole at all without her, & many people may begin to feel as if they are longing for ‘the one’, or their soulmate, because of this internal desire for the masculine & the feminine within us all to experience unity & healing once again. The empress oversees everything that happens within the 10 of cups. Divine mother holds so much power & honour as the true head of the house hold. The masculine has to release this illusion of control. No, he does not truly have it. He never does. Because control itself is an illusion to a universe built on chaos & unpredictability.

But if he accepts the feminine, & honours her just as she is, it is only ripe fruits she will bear.

The 6 of swords is the journey of healing that sees the entire family moving toward a new calmer state.

Both counterparts are tired of fighting with one another, but the king of pentacles must know that his financial stability means nothing, if there is nobody for him to share it with, with love.

He needs to learn to work for the feminine, & not just for himself, seeing her as an extension of himself, & when he does, the feminine will feel secure enough to give, & give, & give…

‘It is safe for you to love’.

So much of the heavy work you have been doing, is done. You do not have to display the same level of burden, or heaviness that you used to. The 4 of pentacles is simply an energy of doing too much. There is over attachment or a sense of loss present. It’s rigidity, a fear of movement & acceptance. It is the masculine fear. If I let go, I lose everything.

It is holding on too tightly because sometimes we believe that things will just leave anyway.

This is a contrast to the queen of pentacles who sees multiple avenues opening up just from nurturing this ONE thing.

The 3 of pentacles negotiates with new parties. We become more comfortable to accept community support, & responsibility.

A life of handling everything in isolation is far too draining, because this isn’t the way that we are to live.

Greater responsibility is given to us through the divine with the king of pentacles, especially the accountability that we have shaded ourselves from in the past.

The 10 of cups & the empress speaks of matriarchal responsibility.

Welcoming the feminine back into the collective bosom.

Back into her home to attain harmony once again.

She watches over the community as it grows & blossoms, adding her own nurturing, to both self & others.

It is the end of sacrificial donations.

As much as it is attracting, it is also allowing.

You can only be in a position to give, if you are receiving.

The 6 of swords meeting the 6 of pentacles talks about a shift in the way that we relate to others. Accepting more means holding yourself accountable to what you do & do not allow from others in your life.

Divine lovers weekly reading — 13th-19th November – Shame, possession, & Karmic residue. (LATEST UPDATES).

The 5 of wands is the card of, who knows best? Has it been all of the voices outside of us? Or has it been us? Who knows us best? Who OWNS us best? There is a part of the journey unfolding that is challenging both divine lovers to stand up in truth & decide the rest of the journey for themselves. There are likely many outside theories & forces at this time attempting to guard the journey for them, particularly those who represent the old world & the old fixed structures & routines, but in their very pioneer natures, they are being challenged to discover what the true voice of reason is & has been..

Further shadow work inspires them to take greater action on the decisions made. What is brought to them at this time is knowledge of what has not worked & why. The feminine may likely revisit themes of obsession, addiction & darkness as the new moon in Scorpio brings to the surface her worst fears – all of the things the centuries of persecution accused her of being. Alone. Unlovable. Faulty. Whilst the masculine is presented with a huge life lesson that shakes & awakens him, to slow down, to think twice, to know that the divine is far mightier than he could ever be. Humility at its finest.

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Help. I am Damned for eternity. How do I cope? A spiritual initiatory cross.

Perhaps this piece had been a long time coming, & I had wilfully buried it underneath the surface.

I don’t know. But I felt it was needed at this time, even though so many things were brewing underneath the surface, for quite a while.

Long before I picked up my first set of tarot cards, or ever held a crystal to my name, I had to deal with the sometimes concealed, sometimes very outspoken, blunt, hard, & disregardful comments that were passed down from people in my family, about how awful my lack of belief in ‘God’ was.

Now, this was problematic for a few different reasons, yet at the time I did not understand why I felt so outcast, so shameful, & so sinful.

Whenever an organisation or an entity seeks to do its bidding on earth, not only does it place seeds that ensure the growth of enslavement will be rampant for generations, but it also hands out mindframes & ideologies that ensure that the citizens of the earth will carry out its message & different modes of oppression, so that the entity or organisation in itself, does not have to do much work.

Just like any business man, it has recruited others to do the work for it.

I do not mean to offend anyone with my words. And it needs to be noted that I am a gnostic. I do not claim religious is bogus or has no truth. Neither am I in any way shape or form an atheist. The thing that many religious people & Christians especially find hard to understand, is that none of my reservations about the teachings come from a lack of belief in God.

I very, very much believe in God, and have dedicated my life to doing so.

I am an avid prayer who prays daily, if not momentarily with my meditative thoughts.

I fast, as I believe in the power of fasting, & not only do I study the bible & other religious texts, but I also quote it in order to teach my students even more about the nature of the divine.

However, I am not a slave.

I am not a slave to the idea that every single thing quoted in the context of the bible, taught my Sunday preachers, or passed down in religious mythology is the ultimate truth, should never be questioned, & can be held up in the court of law as indisputable.

I have never been able to live in this way. And it is perhaps the reason that after several schools/colleges, I finally realised that this entire thing was not for me.









And group thinking.

And this is not me trying to sound like some new age pseudo intellect. Like ‘oh, look at me. I am so cool. I abandoned religion, & replaced the word God with ‘universe’ & believe mental illness can be cured with positive quotes & loced hair’.

And oh yeah – by the way I’m not a prude who judges that type either, (she says half believing herself).

The point is, this isn’t about slating religion, or even believing it. This is about the way that religion, (the one thing supposed to be indicative of God’s love), is used as a hierarchy, & form of superiority to bash those who cannot or will not conform.

You are going to hell.

You’re a devil worshiper & a sinner.

And I’m better than you because I’ve interpreted sacred texts literally, & visit a building every week that strips of my autonomy.

Hey – I don’t knock church. If I found one that generally broke down bible concepts & did not have a west African pastor who was sleeping with multiple members of his congregation, I would probably totally join – (probably). Well, I don’t do routine, but I would at least turn up few times per month!

Some people prefer a medium to God.

That’s okay, and everybody’s different.

Which is the point I am trying to stress.

When I first began to become ‘conscious’ of the idea that there was more beyond the veil than we had been taught, I began rejecting traditional ideals about God & religion. Particularly because mixed with culture, it had its roots in being dangerously & devastatingly sexist, & my body & emotions were just coming into the realisation that most of the trauma that had been inflicted on me over the years was very much gender based, & rooted in concepts about female inferiority, & shaming.

So forgive me if I sounded a little ‘anti Christ’. But the reaction of my family members as I attempted to discover myself, was more than enough to have me creep into the shell I had crawled out of.

Luckily, I wasn’t about to be beat down that easily – & the divine had a plan for me.

I was berated, laughed at & mocked for being ‘ignorant’. It was all, ‘poor her – if only she knew’, with head shakes & the kind of pity that could make your rib cage lurch forward from your stomach, & crumble in a pit before you.

It was stomach turning. The fact that in my dedication to free myself from years of trauma & abuse, I was being further abused by being informed that my methods for salvation were wrong, & that it was because I didn’t have enough knowledge or sense that I began to think these things.

I was traded in, very casually & automatically for my other sisters, who decided to take the very conventional route of being dedicated to bible bashing, condemning anything remotely indigenous spiritually system seeming, & prided themselves on saying astrology, crystals & sage were down right evil.

Not of God.

And not for Godly women.

And then there’s me…

Who has made a very successful life of reading taro cards, & teaching people about spiritual based concepts very south of traditional religious concepts.

And damn proud of it too –

I mean the fight has not been easy. And anybody going through this same transition, I must stress that there’s no immediate need to tell your family members about your new discoveries, or how you feel about the old teachings.

You’re perfectly justified to keep it to yourself.. At least until you feel well versed enough to explain it.

I’ve had my alter mocked. Been accused of my buddhas housing evil spirits, (yes really), & been told the reason for my excessive thoughts was because I was dealing with too many ‘spirits’ in the taro industry. Yes really.

And yes, a lot of this has been hurtful because for the first time in my life I found something that gives me meaning, joy, & purpose, but it has also taught me that the spiritual journey is very much about you, & nobody else.

It’s very much personal to you as a person, & perhaps sometimes is not meant to be shared by a large congregation of people, or even those who you grew up with.

As a sexual assault survivor, one of the things that have helped me deal with my trauma immensely has been learning about chakra work, learning about sacred sexuality, & also about unblocking my creative power centres, (associated with sexual expression), in order to free myself of the psychological restrictions that sexual assault places upon you – very similar to that of religious indoctrination. And actually one of the punishments for women who would not succumb to what man wrote to be ‘God’s rule’, actually did used to be rape.

So it does sit down very uncomfortably with me when I have to have conversations with my cousin about how ‘evil’, & wrong ‘fornication’ is – in other words, enjoying sex outside of the confines of legally recognised, governmentally approved marriage:


Your sexual life is only sanctified if the government have it on record that you are declaring that you & somebody else are legally entitled to own one another.






And you may wonder, why am I writing this? I’ve been on this spiritual journey for years, surely all of these things cropped up before. And you would be right.

But as we delve further into the depths of what I can only consider to be true spirit & soul discovery, it becomes painfully excruciating to sit by & see these archaic myths be perpetuated.

Everybody is entitled to their own thoughts & feelings, AND beliefs, & I never come for religious folk.. But somehow their hierarchal ego always sees them coming for me – especially when I’m minding my own goddamn business lmao.

I love my family, deeply. And I won’t deny that our intuitive & perceptive gifts arrive by lineage, & religious devotion has not cut them off to prophetic dreams or unconventional methods of ‘knowing’, but I cannot deny that around them, I am a fraction of my truest self.

As I’ve grown more comfortable in both my spiritual & physical body, I have opened the door for not only them but others to see closer traces of who I fully am as this being, but the traces of oppression, & judgement that trail in the air with such intense religious devotion, is far too intoxicating not to inhale, furthermore exhale.

The death of the inner child, healing family issues & a timeline overhaul – *Current* Last weeks energetic revelations.

The children oracle & the death card are symbolic of a transition that took place in regards to the inner child this week.

The numerological aspects of this week speak volumes about this transition that takes place & that portal that opens to excrete the last & the most potent of our childhood wounds.

‘Your love life is being affected by children’ can manifest as an energy in one of two ways.

Main theme – (Children/Death), 9 of swords, 7 of swords, 6 of swords, queen of cups, Crowning – I let go of all pain & tension as I float in the sea of divine love, Outcome – 8 of wands.

Numerological breakdown calculation- 6-12 6 – Childhood, innerchild, mother wound, motherhood, lovers, past life karma, 12 (3) – the holy trinity, understanding, acceptance, oneness, family, community, creativity, communication.

Overall (9) – Healing, abandonment consciousness, the wounded healer, service, completion, resolution, endings, conclusion.

For many of us, a relationship has ended, or is ending that includes the children that we have produced as a result of the relationship, & this is hitting many of us hard as far as our concerns about not recreating the childhood we wish we had are concerned.

There are likely to be fear, doubts, worries & anxities about the nature of this ending, suggested by the 9 of swords.

Perhaps we held on to this situation longer than we knew was necessary because we had an idealised fantasy of what we wanted the truth to be, & the death card arrived to penetrate that fantasy, & bring us back to the reality that is ourselves.

Our inner child.

Our raw, vulnerable & honest self. The duty no longer belongs to anybody, & it becomes our responsibility to parent ourselves.

Especially those of us who have still been holding the past accountable for why we are the way that we are now.

You cannot get much done with the mentality that because of your childhood life does not allow you to move forward. And this enables you to stare death in the face, as well as the prospect of endings.

The 6 of swords suggests that the healing of ideas & beliefs built during childhood are main orchestrating factors in this stage of your journey.

It’s vital for you to concentrate on the nature of your thoughts, specifically focusing on what is conjured in the present moment, as opposed to the past, or the future.

It is the way that we motion in the presence, & the way we write others in our script that reflects our overall mood state.

The 7 of swords is common avoidance from making the unconscious & subconscious parts of our mind – conscious. This is the energy of an individual or a group who continuously avoid doing emotional labour, as the queen of cups does.

She sits with her emotions. She does not run from them, neither does she over analyse or try to attribute reason or cause to them. She just exists inside of them, and honours her own sensitivity.

Perhaps because of societal structures & beliefs about what it means to be emotional, emotionally sensitive, empathic, or intuitive, many of us have hidden this very sacred & tender part of ourselves, only to have situations during the course of our lives bring this very raw nature to the surface – usually in ways that cause us embarrassment or franticness.

This is what tends to happen with a shadow self. It is the dark part of our subconscious mind that takes all of our experiences & traits that we deem undesirable for societal eyes, & it hides them. It’s like a compartment in our mind that documents a file of the things that we cannot do & say, that we are not to let others in on, for it is shameful.

But the 7 of swords only fools himself. Just because that part is ‘hidden’ from everybody else, does not mean it does not manifest in often emotionally unsettling ways – anxiousness, rage, emotional outbursts, victimhood, abandonment consciousness, BDP symptoms – JUST to name a few.

The 8 of wands is a message that strikes the heart hard & fast, almost like cupids arrows.

This is answers that seem to come all at once, some to questions that we did not even know we had.

The 7 of swords may have held an idealised vision of childhood, or children, & it is the part of us that frequently finds ourselves revisiting the past & asking, ‘why couldn’t this go this way?’ Or, ‘why did this have to happen?’

But as you can see, these types of thoughts only hold the figure back, as their head is tilted towards the back of them, although they ‘appear’ to be moving forward.

The death card actually presents a gift to the queen of cups, an ending that brings her emotional satisfaction, & wellness.

It could be an ego death, as death is like her knight in shining armour this week, almost courting her for her affections, & she gives in to him this week. She does not resist. She honours her new emotions & looks into them as a gift.

Death is pleased with her acceptance, & carefully moves on..

For many this represents the feminine nature of our inner child dying off, & experiencing a rebirth. The purity of a child. The clear understanding, of a child.

Still, death is not something to be feared.

Maturity, is death.

Written on 9/11..

Today will be a deeper entrance into this weeks portal opening for the recognition of karmic/childhood/family wounds – 9/11 a date periodically symbolic of entering new worlds, diminishing old stories, & allowing the past to remain in the past.

We then move on to 10/11… By this date, we have already begun to experience the benefits of living a life w/ less expectancy, & greater focus on being present… 10/11 puts our nearly learned skills to practice – 111

Culminating in 11:11 – the portal that exposes us to awakening. Many will unite in love on this day, especially if they’ve followed the time table of the week, learning, releasing, as we go along. 11111 – 5 (change). 7/11 – the universal pattern/lesson is learned (9) – 8/11 – the lesson begins integration by the vessel learning of cause & effect (10) – 9/11 – the pattern is identified. The vessel is ready to move into a new timeline/to shift realities/perceptions & enter the new body/ (11). People ask me why I’m obsessed with 7/11.. well there are endless reasons. I find the life path 7, & 11 to be insanely similar (FIRST OF ALL), for the simple fact that both of their lives are marked by spiritual illumination after every harsh lesson.

They are both shamans, either challenged or rewarded by their ability to perceive Godly truth & revelation in their circumstances. Their life isn’t theirs. It belongs to the collective. They sort of have to move out of the way, & allow spirit to happen.

They both represent the powerful dynamics of masculine & feminine energy working in unison (7) – 3 (feminine) + 4 (masculine), whilst 11 represents the vaginal walls – birth (composed of both – masculine & feminine). 7 is the death (once the lesson has been learnt & the individuals ego has been penetrated enough for them to give way to more soul), whilst 11 represents the rebirth. The walkthrough from the old self, to the new self. You’ll typically find those with these lifepath numbers meet at pivotal points in their journey.


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This week, the inner child faces annihilation at this time, in the face of union/separation & how the two are forever intwined.

‘Separation’ can only exist in the idea of union, & if the idea of ‘union’ exists.

Not following?

In order for us to perceive there is separation from our love, we must first become attached to it & become attached to the idea that it is something that can be lost.

I know that does not necessarily make sense. Things can be lost, can’t they? Things are frequently lost.

Well yes, & no.

Things do morph yes, & take on new form, & inner child work this week shows how our inner child is still very much alive in us & motivates most of our movements.

When we begin to identify with something or someone & the way that this thing outside of ourselves should relate to us, we block ourselves off from its full experience & capacity.

What does union look like to you? Constant interaction, & connection?

It seems our divine love may actually be keeping us away from our inner child work, especially if we’re still holding onto fears about being lost, & left behind, instead of embraced.

The masculine toys with power displays & the fear of being toppled, or compressed by the feminine energy – internally & externally, whilst the feminine works on healing the family issues & disputes that keep her from experiencing freedom & joy in her life. Who is the feminines ‘self’ not centred around this constant, perpetual journey of healing.

Healing that does not look like a trial, or is not met with resistance from generational curses.

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