Excessive fatigue, and ascension. 

Honestly, I have been so incredibly exhausted with all of these shifts in consciousness, and reality occurring. It has definitely been a time of rapid change, and switching different dimensional timelines, and un-doing past life karma – enough to make anybody exhausted!

Pay particular attention to dreams during this time, especially dreams about death, as they articulate to us what we are letting go of subconsciously, energetically & etherically. 

Dreams about death do not pertain to physical death in a sense, but rather a death of the things that these persons are associated with.

Our cells are rejuvenated whilst we sleep, new brain connections are made, as old ones die. And sleep is the cousin of death, so you can be sure that all of the sleep that you are catching up on at this time is bringing you renewal, and rebirth.

You may even be experiencing psychological and physical regression – looking younger & fresher as a result of dropping harmful energies from your auric field.. This is a time of letting go, and allowing so much that has been stored within us to fall to dust. I highly suggest a heavy physical cleansing in preparation for this full moon. Cleaning the house, that attic/storage room that you dump old, irrelevant rubbish in – yes even that too must now be cleansed! Re-arrange the placement of your room, change your bed covers, dust for cobwebs – this is all related to the condition of yourself internally. Your home is an extension of yourself.
Happy clearing my babies…

Ashe.


© Seek Cindy 2016. 

Friction and opposition; The necessary stages of healing. 

It appears almost as if a cruel twist of fate.. The moment that you find yourself in a state of spiritual, emotional, mental, and psychological elevation & inspiration, is the moment that you will rub up against those who seem to be at the mouth gate of the complete opposite.

Resistance, friction – an opportunity to test, are you truly ready to move to the next level? Are you really ready to fight for yourself? To love yourself more? And to excel in ways you previously never have before?

Okay, then I will send you this test, this test that once used to rock you & shake you at the knees… And now you will see, how you handle this.. How well you fare against the kind of strife that once paralysed you.
The entities that exist as low vibration cess pits in others will recognise when your own vibration is uplifting, they will recognise the resistance that you pose to whom you once were & out of bitterness & spite, they will do everything within their power to attempt to bring you back to a place where you recognise them…

Demonic entities (low vibrational beings) absolutely HATE to be ignored, it remains them that they are unloved, not of the light & not apart of God’s graces, & they confuse the vessel that they possess that it is rather they who are unlovable.

Do not be so shaken dear one. Know that this too is apart of the process… This too is healing, challenging & changing you at the most molecular, biochemical level.


You know that you are healing, when your arguments now turn into psychological expressions of communication, and resolution.

I have absolute zero interest these days in engaging in heated disputes with anybody.. My inner child is currently dancing happily, and she seriously has no intention of being unnecessarily wounded. My shadow self is also currently doing cute things, like parenting my inner child & enduring a process of self analysation & introspection, so anybody after anything else, needs to fall all the way back, have several seats & go get a coffee with kermit & them…

As a highly sensitive person, I find that engaging in any type of back & fourth is incredibly draining & this is why so many empaths seem to avoid confrontation…

The energetic back lash after is NOT worth it..

I find the inner parent in myself now reaching out to others who try to cause conflict & trying to parent them.

I mean, there is clearly an inner child present who does not know how to appropriately & articulately express itself…

And I am tempted to ask?

‘What is it at this time that you require?’

‘What causes you such dissatisfaction that you feel the need to misconstrue my words & energy in such a manor?’

The energy of resolution, is entirely separate from the energy of conflict.

Nobody is out to get you amor, I promise you that much. Well, unless indeed you do perceive things to be this way.

And it is the enemy within, the one who has a chronic dissatisfaction with self, that perceives itself to be a target, that determines that everybody is somehow out to harm it..

Gradually, as we heal, the sometimes timid, often defeatist voice within our head that lacks reason, will cease to think that all others have an agenda, particularly energetically vampiric souls.

There is not much that you can do outside of yourself, you cannot control others, you cannot control who they are, what they do, nor their emotional reactions & responses toward you – all that you can do is attune yourself, so that you experience internal harmony.

Realise that the actions of others are a reflection of their own perception & THEIR reality, similarly, your experiences, actions, and conclusions are relative to your own perceptions and narratives.

You can CHOOSE to buy into an experience if it resonates w/ you.

If it does not? Then you can choose to drop it from your auric field. As simple as you nearly picked it up.

Each day, make a conscious decision of that which you wish to indulge in.

However, in the end, regardless of all of our dealings, of those who cause us friction, of those who rub up against the unhealed parts within us, it is important with our labelling of others, not to write them off, or paint them as the perpetual bad guys – for this creates more separation and bitterness.

Our time & experience upon this earth is limited. Why are we so disregardful & disrespectful towards others? Do we know when will be the last time that we will be given the opportunity to see them? Surely, we do not wish for our last ever words to them to have been filled with malice.

To lose somebody unexpectedly places a shift upon the ways in which you view death, loss & life.

At any moment, one can become lost to the infinite cycle that is.

This is why human life is so precious! Why we should try to rise above our own petty differences & see the beauty of humanity for what it is.. All humans are sacred. Yes even those whom we dub ‘energetic vampires’, toxic, or emotionally & energetically draining…

Even they too are sacred.

I am not under any circumstance suggesting that one should put up with their bullshit, but rather, even in establishing & strengthening boundaries, we should try to speak to the inner child in them, the wounded one that is.

Harbouring any type of hate, resentment, or ill feeling towards others burns away deeply at us, more than it affects any other..

Go to sleep every night with forgiveness on your mind, understanding that we are all human, we are all learning, we are all growing, and we all make mistakes on this path…

Hate nobody. Express grief over their actions, but please do not ever carry hate in your heart for them… Especially those who abuse you, as this prolongs the process of abuse.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016.

Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 8th-14th August; Creation, destruction, and truthful Revelations.

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Main theme – Empress, What is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – Page of pentacles, Page of cups, Wheel of fortune, Feminine – The fool, Five of wands, King of wands. 

This week, with the main theme being the empress, we are dealing with energies of creation, and birthing. There is  alot of newness going on, we are dealing with very fertile soils, the ability to make almost anything, and everything manifest. What both twins are experiencing being the king of pentacles, shows some success for us in financial areas, and matters of abundance. Together, these two energies are symbolic of the divine feminine, and the divine masculine working together to create something new – like the big bang theory. There is a balancing of both energies going on within, although I feel as if the masculine is going through this transition, MUCH smoother than the feminine, who is being a little bit messy this week if I am quite honest!

This week, both sacred lovers are focusing on building, building themselves, building who they are, their self perception, and working to bring their talents out into the world. This is truly a week of self determination, and actualisation, but for some reason, it seems as if the feminine is a little bit threatened by the masculine’s desire to expand and explore. This is probably touching on a core wound that she has to do with abandonment, and she is being asked to look deeply into this wound as it is attached to one of the reasons that a lot of her past relationships have not worked out.

The fool card suggests a willful ignorance on her part. She is walking away from the masculine who seems to be walking in the other direction towards financial, and career opportunities. On his end, he is like ? ‘What’s going on? What are you talking about? What have I done wrong? I am just doing my own thing, I am just making some money. I am trying to change my fate, our destiny’ – as depicted by the wheel of fortune, and really, and truly things ARE changing for him, and the feminine should be proud of him, and happy for him, but she is quite threatened by his elevation. A part of her thinks, ‘will he still choose me?’ .. This is much more to do with her insecurities than anything, and this week we take a harsh look at the divine feminine, for her not so pretty side, and how she herself blocks union, SO much more than the concept of the masculine being the runner. In truth, she has existed as the runner for so long..

She’s like this week, ‘I’m going to go this week, and I’m going to do my own thing. Because you are not behaving in accordance with the way that I desire, and this is not making ME feel good’. Me, me me, this is her song, her battle cry.. Can you please see this week feminine, how toxic, and borderline abusive that is? Nobody lives to serve you entirely, relationships are a partnership, not just about somebody making you feel good. What about the other person?

Manifestation is at an ALL time high right now, so it is important to watch one’s thoughts, particularly for the feminine, her mind is so powerful that anything that she conjures (even the negative), will manifest, and take root – and this is what has been occurring for her for so long.

The five of wands is representative of this inner conflict within herself. Everytime that she conjures up an irrelevant argument, everytime that she is passive aggressive, what she is truly doing, is fighting herself, and manifesting this struggle outward. She needs to learn how to deal with her own emotions, or she will always drive people away from her. This is a huge lesson in love, and over coming blockages. I do not understand this week, the need for her to have so many fears, because the empress card shows that her empire too is being built, and things are also shifting for her – but alas, we get down to the nitty gritty of the problem – the feminine FEARS happiness, she FEARS change, and she FEARS success, and she is doing everything possible to make sure that she can somehow sabotage it.

However, the king of wands on the feminine side, is very strong, very determined masculine energy. Where previous partners have fallen, this masculine, is not about to take her shit lying down. He is not going to get up and desert her, because despite the abuse, he is actually far more secure, and settled within himself now. He has taken one of the wands that she is using in conflict, and set it down in the ground, and is saying, ‘I am here. I am not going anywhere’, but the real danger is…Nobody can put up with this type of behaviour, and abuse forever, and this is a call, for the divine feminine to change – to awaken.

Over on the masculine side, he comes with an offer of love, the page of cups sees him confirming, and yielding his love in his hands. There is an innocence about him, that should not be abused, he is exposing himself..He is really here saying, ‘Here, this is the love that I have to give you. Maybe it is not much, but it is what I have. I do not understand the need to fight, or argue, and it does upset me’.. Whilst he is dealing with his issues by surrendering, the feminine is FIGHTING for dear life. Perhaps centuries of the feminine template being associated with victimisation, and persecution is coming up in a major way, for release.

This is encouraging him to step up in some ways however, and to refine himself, because this woman is crazy (lol), and if he wants to be with her, he is going to need to learn some proper expression techniques, because clearly, she takes his silence for neglect, and abandonment. It is very important for her to acknowledge this week how she sets herself up for pre-meditated conflict.

Her insecurities are ravenous, and this week, she needs to turn ‘Alllllll the way, down!’.

This is a perfect opportunity however to finally identify, and bring about an end to these karmic struggles that have been occurring for as long as she can remember. This fight, exists within herself, and she needs to deal with this – not berate, and infringe upon others.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Monthly Life Path Reading For All Life Path Numbers; Liberation, and inspiration. – June 2016.

Hello my lovelies! Because this reading is so late, I have changed the focus question from what should we be expecting this month? – To what themes, perspectives, lessons and messages should we take from this month in order to make next month better.

If you do not know your life path number yet, then just try my trusted method.

Add your entire birth date together, until you reach a single digit number, unless the sum of your birth date comes up to the numbers 11, 22, or 33, in which case – you do not need to simplify them once more because you are one of the master numbers.

Example – 10 December 1992

(10+12+1992) =  2014.

2+0+1+4 = Life path number 7.

General monthly reading – What was our focus for this month of June?

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Queen of swords, King of swords, Eight of swords.

Wow, so this month we were in our mind space ALOT. With two powerful representatives sat side by side, the queen of swords, and the king of swords shows that this month was really a bout liberating ourselves mentally, especially from this theory of entrapment that continues to manifest itself within our lives. This is about balancing, the marriage of the oppositional minds – You cannot escape your mind, so you have to find some harmony in there, somehow. The king of swords represents this clarity – knowing what to do to lift, and relieve your mental suffering, which is through being clear in your actions, and intentions, and expectations of others. This also represents growth, and maturity, you understanding that you cannot control the actions of others, or outcomes, you can only control the ways that you react to it. You got to know your shadow self a little bit better this month, and this does help you to keep an eye on your negative traits, and habits, including making things far worse within your mind than they need to be.

The queen of swords also suggests that this month you learned the importance of self expression. If you do not voice your truth, then how will others know how to respect you, and how not to cross boundaries? You cannot keep things trapped within yourself, because this is how negative experiences manifest. This also represents the balancing of the intuitive mind, with the rational, and logical mind. You realise the importance of both, so you really wish to organise yourself in this way. If you were once too harsh, this month saw you softening up a little, if you were once too soft, this month saw you sticking up for yourself a little more./

 

Life path 1(0). 

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Ten of cups, Two of pentacles, Justice.

This month life path 1, you were hit with some much needed realisations, and home truths. You spent a lot of this month realising, and sorting through what is really important. At heart, you are a family person, the heart of your community, and you take pride in standing up and caring for others in this way, but that has really taught you that you must be somewhat selfless in your actions – something that you were not so ready, and willing to own up to before. The ten of cups speaks of your desire to cultivate a happy family home, and to find some type of happiness that is deeper than day to day chores, and responsibilities. You need balance in your life. Perhaps you realise that your focus on money has driven you to neglect other areas of your life, including who, and what is important to you, and now you are determined to do things by the book. Justice speaks of your willingness to make a few tweaks and changes to yourself in order to become a better person, and to be a better provider, listener, or carer to those who depend on, and love you. This is nothing more important than family, and loved ones, and you are really coming to this realisation, and break through this month.You are asking yourself the bigger questions, What really matters? Who am I? And what am I doing to make sure that I am creating harmony, and balance, and not allowing my mind to get the better of me. This is a time where you are very desperate to play by the book. You are done with sneaky, underhand, or suspicious roles, and you just really want to balance your mental/material desires, with what is right, and what your heart speaks to you.

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Queen of wands, King of swords, Ten of pentacles.

This month, my darling number 2, you really do NOT want to be the push over anymore. You do not wish to be the one who blindly accepts everything, and you realise the importance of voicing your truth, and speaking about what really matters to you. The queen of wands is this sense of awakening that arises within you once you learn to be vulnerable in the RIGHT ways. Yes you are very sensitive, but this does not have to be an ailment. You realise with the king of swords that as long as you express your needs, and wants, and you are clear about what they are, then there is no reason for wires to be crossed, or for people to take advantage of you. You are growing a little more comfortable with that balance in the sense that you can tap into your intuitive side, and you can gain access to your rational mind, without compromising the two. Balance has been the most important for you this month. This is also about no longer being afraid to ask for help, or admit that in the building stage, everybody does require some assistance. Perhaps you held fears about others coming in to your life to introduce instability, but now you have realised that actually? It takes more than one to build something of substance. You may be healing fears, and issues that you have about members of the opposite sex (opposite energetic attraction), and perhaps you are now looking for somebody to share your success with. Success is boring alone. You need to be more balanced. You need to admit that sometimes you do need taking care of, even though you are highly independent, and there is no shame in that.

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Ten of cups (reversed), Knight of wands, Nine of cups.

Life path 3 – Do you feel as if you keep hitting the goal, but missing the target? Are things not moving fast enough for you? Have more patience my love. The 9 of cups does suggest that in the back ground all is well, and you are reaching a period of resolution, and fulfilment, perhaps you just want all of your eggs, in one basket, and you want it now.You have been feeling highly motivated, and inspired this month, and that is great, and that is beautiful, but you need to take time in remembering that not everything falls together at once. Appreciate things now because they are in that process of working out, do not be so hasty to have everything mapped out – nothing works like that. And this may even be a divine lesson in patience. For some reason, whatever you have been building, whatever doors you have been knocking on, spirit says that you are still just not ready, and that is why these things have not come to you – not because they are not GOING to come. You have to direct your enthusiasm in the right way, or you will become overly cynical, jealous, and critical of others who are walking through doors that you believe you should be walking through. For next month, I truly suggest that you take a step back, wait, take some time to do more planning, strategise more, learn from others in similar fields, and do not take this as a blow to your self worth, or your capabilities. Remember, that every great person once started somewhere.

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Ace of pentacles, King of pentacles, Ace of wands.

Lovely number 4 – You have been quite fortune this month haven’t you? Quite the journey that you have been on. This planning, and organisation thing, you truly have down to nearly a T. Something that you had been working on for a long time, gave you some results this month, and you are truly feeling yourself because of it. You started an entirely new journey, and this mirrors not only your financial pockets, but also how you are feeling inside. You are feeling much more hopeful because of this, and you must know that this is a new beginning, and in order to maintain it, you have to remain true to your spirit. The money, and the abundance will grow as long as you are doing what you enjoy, and as long as the focus is not only on the money. Your status, and your wealth is changing, and improving, and whilst you are enjoying this, do not forget about the ‘little people’ who helped make this a reality. Do not get too big for your boots, remember this is the beginning, and if you are careless with what you have, you may not see longevity. This could be a new job, new business venture, a raise, a promotion, or a project that has absolutely taken off. You currently have the power in your hands, but I do advise you to delegate it appropriately. Like I said, do not get ahead of yourself, do not belittle anyone because of your new found success, and remember, that it takes a team to build a house on solid ground.

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Six of cups, Ten of pentacles, Nine of wands.

This month number 5, it seems as if you may be healing financial wounds, and fears about not being good enough, or not being deserving, that stem from childhood. The six of cups sees you revisiting childhood for some reason. Maybe the loss of somebody from childhood, or the triggering of a childhood memory, has caused you to take a look at your journey. How far you have come, and who you are now. The six of cups and the 10 of pentacles outlines your desire to create a shift from who you were in the past, to who you can be in the future. You really do want financial freedom, but this is only so that you can ensure that you paint the life that you have always desired. You are reaching the ending of a cycle, and you can manifest an entirely new life now, but you will need to be honest with yourself about the things that are holding you back. you claim to want this freedom, but are you free first within yourself? Or, are you still a prisoner of the past, and of your mind?

You could be receiving inheritance from a family member that passed away, and the 9 of wands may be encouraging you to stay strong on this beaten path.You could be experiencing a much needed break from all of the trouble, and the struggle that you have been through by landing a new job role. If so, it is really important for you to gain ever greater independence. You have been thinking about your own family structure lately, and you are quite determined to create the happiness, and the togetherness that you yourself have not known. Perseverance is your mission. You have goal, you have drive, you have determination, you just need to ensure that you are not letting the past interfere with you.

life path 6 june

Knight of wands, Wheel of fortune, Seven of cups.

This month, number 6, you have some changes, and shifts occurring for you. Maybe life long dreams are becoming more apparent, and more tangible for you to see. The wheel of fortune is spinning in your favour, and you have had all of these options, and realisations being made apparent to you. Perhaps you have been in the midst of spiritual transition, and awakening, as your path and your purpose becomes more clearer for you. The knight of wands is all about your drive and your determination to see manifest your deepest goals, and desires, whilst the wheel of fortune is the universe cheering you on in your quest. You have had this illumination, where so much has become clear to you, and where you once felt a little trapped, now you are realising how much is actually at your disposal, should you want it. Stop at absolutely nothing. This is the making of you, and after all that you have been through? My do you deserve all of this.. It is important for you at this time to be focused, and plan each step of the way. If you get a little bit too overwhelmed with all of the options being presented to you, you may just end up not hitting any targets, or not reaching for anything. Do not be aimless in your desire for success, and happiness, know where you are going, and go there with joy, and enthusiasm in your heart. I feel that this is karmic pay back arriving to you for much of the good work that you have been putting in, for yourself, and for others.

 

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King of swords, Four of swords, Six of pentacles.

This month, my fellow 7’s and I, had a lesson in CLARITY. The king of swords assisted us to realise just how poisonous it is to be passive aggressive. We have had a lot of internal fights, and conflicts this month, and this was mostly because of our issues with expressing ourselves appropriately. We may be known for being loners, but that does not mean that we have to push everyone away, just because we do not know how to deal with them. We spend so much time stuck in our head, that we can often forget to be grounded, so this month, did not tell us to get outside of our heads, but told our heads, to get outside of us! Say what we really mean. Voice our truth. Our mind can be a danger zone when we make up theories, and expect people to know what we truly mean. If our needs are not met, we can not blame anybody else but ourselves, if we have not clearly dictated these means, and boundaries. This month was about speaking up, or practising the unleashing of our throat chakras. The four of swords indicates that what we really needed to do this month, was to rest, and contemplate. Fighting ourselves, and fighting others is futile, and only leads to mental exhaustion. We have healing that needs to take place, in the form of just calming it down, and toning it down, not everything has to be an ultimate battle for survival. We will only find the stability that we need, if we first have stability within ourselves. The 6 of pentacles addresses our give, and take relationship. With the four of swords, this talks about not being a push over, but not being overly domineering either. It is important for us to find that specific balance. Know when to speak up, but do not feel so reactionary, that you always have to pick a fight. Learn to express, without being venomous.  Share with others, and allow them to care for you. Do not shut the world out, but do not let too much in.

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The sun, Two of pentacles (reversed), Knight of swords.

Life path 8, this month, you are all about taking matters into your own hands, and creating your OWN happiness. You are sick of being and feeling imbalanced, internally, and externally. You have devoted so much time to acquiring wealth, and making sure that you are financially stable, that often you have forgotten to nurture yourself emotionally, and mentally. The sun card arrives to tell you to be a little more care free. Do not be so worried about instability. This comes from a place of fear, and you will find yourself working even when working does not fill you with joy – just so you do not have to face the demon that is LACK. Well..Surprise, surprise, what you are doing, is still deriving from that exact demon of LACK. You are fearful about not being enough, so you work yourself to the bone. Calm down. Enjoy the sun, Summer is coming, so maybe let your hair down a little, book a holiday, and actually see it through. Do not cancel because somehow you believe it will cut into your working time, or interfere with your career. Stop being boring – life really is for living. The knight of swords is all about you charging forward with actions once you realise what it is that you have to do. You realised this month, that you have to find some balance, because you have been over worked. Now that you know what it is, you need to ensure that you make some vital changes.

 

life path 9 june

Judgement, Knight of pentacles, Six of pentacles.

So this month, number 9, you had the chance to really look at your TRUTH. Who are you really? The good,.and the bad. You may have become aware of certain aspects of your shadow self that you were trying to suppress. The judgement card indicates this stripping of you so that you can come to see the reality of your situation, and your actions. Were there fears that you held about not becoming good enough, that actually kept you from expanding, and excelling yourself in many ways? Now, with the knight of pentacles, you are really looking toward a new horizon in terms of finance, and career. You have had a little boost of energy, and inspiration since you have done this soul searching, and realised what it is that you need to accomplish. You really want to be involved in service work, whatever you do, you want to feel like you have EARNED your money, and you are making a difference. In order to nurture others, you do need to nurture yourself, but not to the point of being oblivious to others needs, and wants. You need to be very honest with yourself at this time about your inability to be fully open, and receiving. You could be shutting off some of your blessings by being reluctant to be vulnerable to the truth of who you are. Your work purpose likely lies with healing, but you cannot step into this role fully, unless and until you are willing to heal the part of yourself that has doubts about who you really are, and what you should be doing.

life path 11 june

Seven of swords, Three of wands, The moon.

I am very proud of you this month number 11! You are making that LEAP into adulthood. The seven of swords suggests that even though you still may be looking back, you are only looking back in order to gain clarity about what is ahead of you. You have been mature enough this month to look at yourself in a light that puts yourself on blast. This is honesty about why your life situations, and experiences played out a certain way. Likely, you were not being fully true, or honest with yourself, about who you are, what you have been through, and what you truly want. The three of wands speaks of manifestation, and broadening your horizons. You have worked through a lot of the fears that you had about being too small, or being stuck in a sense. You may be booking a holiday, going travelling, or stepping outside of your comfort zone in some way. You are no longer interested in depriving yourself of life, and all that life has to offer, and this truly WILL reward you. The moon card suggests that you are getting rid of a lot of the delusions that you had about yourself, and the world. You are very powerful. And the world is not unjust. You create it, as you want it. This also speaks of your feminine nature becoming more conscious. You are allowing yourself to be loved more, and treated better by others, by loving and also treating yourself better. Perhaps this new chapter in your life has actually been triggered by you making peace with your more emotional nature. Emotions do not have to be bad. Your intuition is actually your best friend. Listening to your subconscious mind is healthy, especially when you make it conscious enough to heal you, and bring you truth. It is the suppression of this vital aspect of yourself that has previously kept you entrapped. Well done to you!

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The fool, Judgement, Seven of cups.

This month, number 22, you embarked on a new journey, and this journey was all about self realisation, and working through your karma. Whereas you previously may have shied away from working on your karma because you felt it would be too painful, you have been so much more honest with yourself this month, and it is paying off, because of how many doors that it is opening for you. Thank God you are a breath of fresh air away from the time where you once thought that you were cursed, and the universe was out to get you. Now, you are realising that what you thought was this curse, was really your own self perpetuated habits, and belief systems. This new journey that you are on, is going to allow you to see that life is full of enchantment, and wondrous things. You have the ability, and the opportunity to construct this life that you desire. You are the MASTER builder, please do not forget this because of stains of the past. You have to walk away from the past, and walk into the truth of who you really are. Look at yourself in a profound light. Do you really offer yourself the services that you wish others would offer you? Do you use your intense brain power to build, manifest, and motivate, or do you steer it toward mourning over the past, and looking back at what no longer is. You just need to be honest especially in terms of relationships, and past painful relationships. Why did they happen? What role did you play in their happenings? There is no victim of circumstances here. Rather energies were at play for specific reasons. The seven of cups arrives to show you that you can have a new beginning in life, and in love the moment that you want it, you just have to come out the other side of your realisations, and REALISE this.. There is so much on offer for you.

 

life path 33

The magician, Eight of swords, Ten of swords.

Life path number 33 – This month, you are arriving at the realisation that you do have the power to pull yourself out of your funk – and the universe has been showing you this using synchronicities, and signs that will make sense to you. You are the magician, powerful beyond belief, and capable of intense manifestation, yet you choose to play small sometimes, and just want to stay in your mind getting hung up on the things that you think that you cannot do, or cannot achieve. You are wasting valuable time, and with the 10 of swords, it appears that this is because of how unlucky you have been in love. In some ways, you have always sort of struggled with self esteem, and this relationship, or partnership has not helped in making you feel less than. Please know, that if you perpetuate these feelings, then you will manifest experiences that do back this up. Your powerful manifestation can go either ways. You can create great things, including yourself, or you can destroy yourself. You need to get up, and out of this victim, and poor me narrative. There is only one way to go when your heart has been pierced so severely, and that is up. But you must be willing to pull yourself up, and see your life blossom in these ways. Do you even believe that this is possible? Because if you do not, then nothing will really change. You do have this power. There are signs, and symbols everywhere for you to follow, so do not say that you have no idea where to start. You start with you. It all starts with you.

 

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Forgive yourself once more; How making a mistake does not automatically signify regression.

I have found that on the journey of healing, and self progression, a lot of us tend to be very hard on ourselves, and the choices that we make.

We often become so one dimensional in our desperate attempts to not repeat the same actions of the past, and to instantly view immediate results of our new found awareness, that we fail to be compassionate toward ourselves, and remember that we are still on a journey. We want to be better than we were before, we want to ensure that we do not allow ourselves to slip beneath our own radars, so we become self dictators in a sense, offering strict regimes to what is, and what is not, allowed.

We have to remember that the ultimate factor in the journey of healing is self compassion, self understanding, and self love. Where does self love fit in whilst you are constantly berating yourself for not doing something as perfectly as the ‘new you’, should do? The old you is not completely dead yet, do not forget that, so it is normal, expected even for you to experience low moments, moments where you may still be acting out of ego, unresolved pain, or wounds of the past.

What you absolutely must remember also, is that all of the actions associated with your lower self, that you are so desperate to get rid of, are actually all still coming from a place of unhealed pain, the scared, yet sacred inner child within you, who has already had their fair share of trauma, and blame, and does not need any more from you.

So, you may not be as perfect as the self declared righteous spiritual gurus on the internet. Who cares? Even they are not as righteous, and holier than thou as they appear to be.

I myself, have conjured quite the image of being the spiritual spokesperson, and I want to admit that, regardless of this, I do still battle my way through complex trauma flare ups, and I do still become increasingly overwhelmed in some public settings. The truth of the matter is, there is no quick fix.

And I try to offer this compassionate hand during my readings, yes, I say, ‘you do need to work on self love, and you do need to face issues of conflict from the past’, and this will be painful, and this will take some time, and no, this is not going to magically happen when you click your fingers.

The entire process of healing is a journey, and not a destination, so please do not be put off if you think that you are regressing, of if you still exhibit behaviours associated with a perceived lesser version of yourself.

Let us be honest, life gets tough, INCREDIBLY tough. Let us be honest, life gets painful, INCREDIBLY painful. This is something that most self help gurus will not tell you, for fear of losing potential clientèle. If they paint life as consistently hippy dippy, and eerily dreamy, you will want to purchase whatever anecdote that they are claiming offers this sort of lucid state.

But this is wrong. This is not what healing is about. Yes, there is going to be what you may consider, ‘regression’, for a large part of the journey, this is because nobody is  perfect, and these behaviours, and these wounds were not formed over night, so why on earth would they be banished over night?

We live in a hyper critical, and judgemental society, and social media does not exactly serve to make it any better. It is so easy to fall into a trap of comparing yourself to other’s, their lives, and their experiences, but one must remember, that everybody’s life consists of timelines – -timelines of ups, timelines of downs, and step, by step movement.

If your life has remained seemingly the same for years on end, then this is an issue that you need to identify with, within yourself. Because life does get down sometimes, ofcourse it does, and this is apart of the ebb, and flow, but life also gets up, and your life should be somewhat a mediumship, of these two states of existence.

Just because you witness somebody on social media who appears to have the exact life that you would desire, does not mean that this person has not been hit with their own set of downs in life, or that they will never meet a period of disappointment at another interval in their life.

It is not about how many times you fall, it is not about how difficult life gets, it is all about the ways in which you adjust to these difficulties that life presents.

If you suffer from a complex form of trauma, persistent depression, anxiety, or post traumatic stress disorder, then please be more than patient with yourself. Do not hold yourself up in accordance to society’s standards, and themes, most of society, is not suffering outwardly with these conditions, so of-course their achievements, abilities, and experiences will be vastly different from  your own.

Progress is a very intimate, and subjective experience.

 

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The dark side of spirituality..

shadow

 

Alot of meta-physicians, and energy workers tend to focus on ‘the light’, and ‘positivity’ within their brand of teaching, and often stray away from the topics that constitute to one needing to fathom light, and positivity.

In one particular brand of shamanism, a person cannot become an initiate until they have graduated from a certain level/depth of suffering.
In other spiritual philosophies, we call this, ‘the dark night of the soul’.

This is an intense period right before the break through of spiritual elevation and evolution, and can last any time in-between a few days, a few months, and a few years.
It all depends on the ability of the initiate to travel deeply into their own unconscious darkness, and retrieve the lost fragments of their soul.
In other words, to heal, to understand, and the revive an anecdote for healing, to be shared with the rest of the community.

I believe that i endured this same period when I was going through what i would call the most intense moments of my depression.
What felt like depression, and was actually described as such by Western medics, was in my now opinion, the offset of a triggering.
A spiritual triggering, that could no longer cope with my blatant disregard of my spiritual abilities.

I had also absorbed much of the energy of my community, family, and society, which was associated with stagnant, pollutant, and toxic energies.
All of this boiling to the brink inside of me caused something similar to a psychological break down.
I did not feel at home in my own body, for i was not.
I had company.
I was being invaded.

Some people may refer to this as dark spirits/dark energy.
And one night in-fact, when my cousin who is a regular attendant of the Christian church came to check how i was doing, she actually brought a ministry along with her, who did declare that i was suffering from some sort of ‘possession’.
Though not the type that you see perhaps on ‘The Amityville horror’, or, ‘The conjuring’..

 

 

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