Channeled message from the divine masculine – 12th February 2017.

Channeled message from the divine masculine – 12th February 2017.

It is only in my darkest, & most humble moments that I seek to reach out to you.

Not because that is the only time I think of you. But because that is the only time that I am still enough to truly think of you. You exist in the silence & in the darkness. When I pull myself away from everyone & everything & find a moment to explore my own truth.

Who I have been.

How far on this journey that I have travelled only to realise that I have gone nowhere at all.

In my desires not to become like my father, I have found myself in his image.

Being just as deceitful to you as I have watched him be to me.

I will bide my time before making any bid to you too big to compromise.

I wonder if you will digest my words, as I myself am unsure how long I will feel this way.

It is difficult at times to feel in the heart yet be contradicted by the mind, & I haven’t told you much but rejection is the thing that I fear the most.

I have been on unstable ground since I can remember. So when I tell you that I feel for you & then I pull my love away.. I am always, almost, just as confused as you.

– Divine masculine.

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading 9th-15th January 2017; The end to procrastination, the integration of new habits, and heights previously unseen.

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Main theme – The chariot, What is occurring for both twins – 9 of pentacles, Masculine – Two of swords, Eight of wands, Three of wands, Feminine – The emperor, Two of wands, Page of pentacles.

Numerological break down calculation – 9th – Childhood wounding, past life patterns, leaving pains of the past behind, creating something that allows you to channel your pain, healing others whilst healing yourself, profound creative work – 15th – (6) – Family issues, family karma, being apart of, or accepted into a community, children, maternal affairs, and bonding.

The main theme presenting itself as the chariot cards talks of forward movement, progress, and acceleration in the lives of both twins. Being a major arcana, this definitely points to transition, and change in terms of a life style movement, or alteration. Previous procrastination is abandoned, as the energy of determination is kicked into gear, and both twins attempt to gain control of their lives. This is conscious manifestation, realising that for the past few years, your life actually has not been steered by you at all, but in-fact by your unconscious decisions, presenting itself as your ‘karma’. 

There is a sense of clarity now, about what must be done, so likely, the fog of the previous few months have cleared, or is beginning to clear. It appears there were spiritually binding forces at work before, making twins feel as if they could not move forward for some reason, no matter how much they tried to strike change. An ending to cyclical behaviour is marked by a desire to step out of routine, in a very New year, new energy – esque fashion! A desire for change, and balance is the quickest motivator to enable us to choose a destination, and choose it fast..

The 9 of pentacles represents things coming together on a physical level. Perhaps there is a move to a new location, the desire to acquire financial gains through new career changes. The chariot in conjunction with the 9 of pentacles suggests that if our current career offers us no satisfaction, we are more determined than ever now to fall into alignment with an occupation that fulfills us. If you have planted a seed of growth, whether in the form of a project, investment, or job application, expect to hear good news about this, as change comes fast your way.

Knowing what you want, is getting what you want. This is proven time, and time again with creative visualisation, and the energy, and the efforts that we place towards success. Having your eye on the prize makes it so much easier to conjure that which you desire, so make sure to map out a plan of what you envision, a step by step guide that offers a focus to work toward.. Your karma is shifting toward a state of accomplishment, and achievement now. No looking back is required now, for you have taken all that the past has to offer. There is also no need to wait for confirmation, you are your own confirmation – so make those necessary adjustments, if there is anybody that you need to chase up about final details, do so. Do not play stick in the mud now, not when there is so much at stake, and so much to be gained. The refreshing energy of a new year pushes us even further to create new patterns, and visions for our self. And finally coming into the knowledge that you are worth it? Forget about it! What more conviction is there than that?

The two of swords suggests that the masculine this week is still battling with indecisiveness about which direction to take, although the chariot does suggest that he is ready to move forward now, the only issue is – which direction should he move in? He operates with a powerful force at this time, knowing that any direction he makes will have a powerful impact.. It is his mind that causes him confusion at this time, knowing what he wants, but still pondering the consequences of his actions. Life has brought him to this point here, but he knows that the next stage of development is in his hands. There is a greater appreciation for karma now, so caution is used. He could be picking up on signs, symbols, and information about the feminine that suggests that he should reach out to her – but still, exists the part of his mind that wonders if he is ready, to once again travel down that route.. For twins who are already in union, there is a suggestion that the masculine is pondering ways to improve himself, and to make better choices, and decisions in regards to himself, and the way that he handles his daily affairs.

The 8 of wands represents fast movement, revelations coming to him fast that require him to take action, and make the necessary changes. If he is moving towards the feminine this week, then indeed he does so pretty quickly, and swiftly, with no restraint, knowing that this is the correct path for him to take. The indecision experienced earlier in the week will not be enough to hold him back from these spirit messages. As the number 8 relates to karma, there is a lot of karma turn around occurring for him this week. When messages flood him about ways to create a new pathway for himself, and about what he must do to ignite change, he is incredibly ready, and willing to listen to them. Ideas about how to establish financial freedom, and the confidence to move forward with his plans, is a promise. 

His visions, waking, and nightly are plagued by his deepest desires. The things that he wants more than anything, and the full moon in Cancer adds a touch of sentimentality to his yearnings. Perhaps he reflects back to simpler times with the feminine, this could be when they first met, or when things were simpler for them.. The 6 of cups in the general weekly reading found here

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– also suggests that he has spent alot of time digging through the past lately, thinking about how things turned out, and likely feeling remorseful for past actions, and the way that things played out.

There is a chance here for him to be a hero, in a way, by making contact, even if it is to make an apology, or to let the feminine know that he is somehow still around for her. The 8 of wands can symbolise outward messages, just as much as it symbolises inward coming messages, so undoubtedly, many masculine twins will be reaching out to their love, to express something, something that needs to be gotten off their chest. Of-course there is still fears about stepping into the 5th dimension – a point of existence in which manifestation is almost rapid because we are taking control of our actions -. When you enter the 5d, if you mess up, there is nobody to blame but yourself, because you step out of a powerless role, and admit to being a co-creator in your life. You stop blaming karma, your surroundings, and your circumstances, and yes that is pretty frightening for somebody who has lived a life of baby boy-ism *see here* 

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There may be fears surrounding what he is going to say to the feminine, if she will even respond, how she will respond, and what he will say if she does. A more innocent, child like, and uncertain version of himself is unfolded with the presence of the full moon in Cancer, whom is powerful to ignite the divine feminine spark in anyone! Regardless of energetic gender identity!  A lot of fear seems to also present itself in the form of external perceptions.. He is still afraid of being judged, or shunned in some way by society, and community. He too carries the sting of persecution consciousness – if this union is somehow taboo, or was at once secret, then his struggle to pick a destination in the beginning of this week will be tied into this. 

The three of wands represents expansion. He is almost ready to set sail, but before he leaves, he looks around his old world one last time – to truly ponder what he is leaving behind. This card can speak of travel, he may be travelling to, or from somewhere, metaphorically, or physically. He may have been away physically, and returns because of this pressing message that he has to deliver, or, he could be moving somewhere in order to create a fresh start for himself.. If his old world fell apart in a pretty chaotic way, then the 3 of wands is the desire to re-establish a sense of balance, order, and authority..

He is not alone this week in his desire to establish this sense of authority, as the feminine fully steps into her power with the emperor. A life style change to do with taking more responsibility of her own life, and being more organised and calculated is described for her here. The opposite of being too fluid, too unshaped, too flexible, and too easily molded. Finally, taking a stand towards building the reality that she desires – the feminine is both very much determined, and very encouraged with leadership energy. Something has awakened her to the fact that she actually has a lot to offer the world, and others, and herself, and she is happy to step into this position, now that she knows who she is a little bit more. This also represents healing issues that she has in relation to masculine energy, including father wounds. She may have once felt that this energy was too harsh, or too rigid, yet now she sees how it is necessary to get things done, and how an unwavering position is actually an ally, in establishing boundaries. 

This is all about learning to take the good, with the bad – the balance, that recognises that the empress, actually needs the emperor ( internally, more so). Her change, and dedication could also subconsciously be inspiring the masculine this week to also take control of his life, and his finances, and to reach a stage of maturity. Much is at stake, including thinking about the future, and how they will do things differently.. The energy of parent-hood is ripe here. 

If considering business plans, or a move, then the emperor indicates that the feminine is taking very serious steps towards ensuring that these areas of her life are falling into line now. She has no interest in simply just day dreaming about what is to come, but BECOMING the change that she needs. This is really about stepping out of her head, and stepping into action.  With this energy, there is no way she will stand for, or continuously attract lovers afflicted with baby boy syndrome. This is a woman ( feminine energy) who takes CHARGE!

The two of wands is an awakening that sees the feminine contemplating the next part of her journey. The understanding exists that she is entering a different time period, that may indeed bring its own set of challenges, relating to her having to step outside of her comfort zone. This may indeed present fears for her, as well as striking up worries, and doubts about being shut down for her gifts, and her talents, or not being taken serious enough. BUT, this is not enough to stop her this week, as she will still be making the leap full circle. This could be a moment to catch her breath, to fully realise, and appreciate the steps that it has taken to get here. The balance that it will require – to juggle, and maintain all of this new energy. There is no way she is returning to how, or who she was in the past, but just as the masculine takes a moment to ponder his new territory, ( as a bachelor would the night before his wedding), the feminine also pauses to asses how she will cope in this next stage of evolution. 

Doors are opening for her at this time, specifically as the 9 of pentacles suggest a conclusion to a project, or something that she has been working patiently towards. Because she is so willing to do things differently, she does see these results manifest as opportunities, and chances.. But she absolutely must be willing to keep up momentum. This is not something that is built, or done in a day. But worked at consistently, which challenges her to remain in the present moment. Thank God – because I am sure all of that excessive day dreaming was driving her crazy!

The limitations only exist inside of our minds, and now she receives a glimpse into the future, a breath of fresh air away from her old stories, and the confines of her bruised egoic mind. There is more to life than pain.. There is so much newness that cyclical behaviour, and karmic loops are thrown to the wind! As is she.. When we view life from the lens of the past, we stay trapped in stagnant energy.. It is time to invite fresh energy in.. Move… Plan, clean, get rid of old unwanted items, and with it, old stagnant energies too do leave.

The page of pentacles represents a willingness to apply herself, and to be a beginner in this stage of her manifestations.. Even though she is skilled in many areas, there are still areas in relation to her dreams that she needs to learn more information about. She needs to brush up on her skills and knowledge, and she could be re-entering education, purchasing online courses, or taking the initiative to watch youtube videos, in order to be more informed. She definitely shows pride in herself, and her efforts by wanting to invest more in what she does, and what she loves doing.. Because the page is a youthful energy, this can also suggest a childhood passion of hers, or inspiration that comes directly from her past life/childhood, in order to bless her with ideas, and abundance at this specific time. See? Cyclical behaviour can be good too.. If the cycle perpetuated is HEALTHY. 

The determination in her efforts suggests she says to herself, ‘Even if I am not experienced enough, I am willing to learn along the way’. Baby steps go so much further than we believe in tying up the loose ends. She chips away at her craft enthusiastically this week, because there is a renewed sense of value, and worth, in herself, first and foremost. 

The three of wands is a leap forward.. The masculine could be returning from holiday, or a period of rest, after much thought, and contemplation about the feminine, and about what he wants.. New experiences, and a more positive outlook on life brings more opportunities knocking on his door. He is expanding on a conscious, and spiritual level – past poverty consciousness, past past programming.. Who he is, and what direction he wishes to move into in his journey to maturity, places him in the perfect position for the creation of new habits.. A breath of fresh air in the form of expanded consciousness. The energy that he now sends out, is returned to him, in bountiful ways.

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Cindy Anneh-bu 2016.

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Twin Flames (Divine love) Weekly reading 26th September- 2nd October; Awakenings, and role reversals.

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Main theme – King of wands, What is occurring for both twins – Eight of pentacles, Masculine – Three of swords, Ace of swords, The high priestess, Feminine – Three of pentacles, Two of wands, Justice.

Numerological break down of the week – 26 (2+6=8) – The number of karma, abundance, and breaking karmic patterns – 2 – The number of balance, co-operation, lovers, and resolution.

With the main theme being the king of wands, this week, both divine lovers are experiencing spiritual growth, and maturity, and opening themselves up to both admit, and receive the gifts that they have to bear. They are presenting themselves and their talents to the world this week, and no longer holding reservations about who they are, or what they have to offer. Going after their dreams, and proceeding in the direction of that which once seemed impossible, is the end goal for them this week.

The king of wands is bold in his endeavors. There is not a thing that he is unwilling to try, an obstacle, that he is unwilling to climb, and his creative influence is absolutely infectious, inspiring those who he meets along the way. With the eight of pentacles as what is occurring for both twins this week, this week, sacred lovers are most concerned with bringing something into existence. This is most likely something of financial prosperity, and something that enables them to put their creative talents, and abilities to good use. This may be the leap in faith that they have been waiting for – the go ahead to release that new project, finish writing that new book, or go after that brand new job opportunity. Whatever is occurring for them financially at this time, is truly happening on a spirit level. Once they break the chains that once caused them to play small, and be doubtful, the world is their oyster, everything is available to, and for them. Including the vital resources, and support along the way to ensure that their dreams actually do come true.

The number eight is also representative of karma, and breaking karmic restraints. This week sees divine lovers not only become aware of their karma, but also begin to re-direct, and personally alter the course of their energetic directions. Generating finance, new experiences, and showing the world the fruits of their mission. 

The king of wands no longer holds any guilt nor reserve about the spiritual gifts that he, or she has – a re-evaluation of persecution consciousness, no longer allowing the opinions, or judgement of others to stand in the way of their dreams. This may also be representative of the masculine fully stepping into his role as the divine masculine – embracing his fiery intuitive nature, and taking charge of situations that he once felt powerless in. This could see him displaying a sense of sensitivity & vulnerability by learning to yield it with empowerment consciousness – rather than allowing it to engulf, or destabilise him. No longer being ashamed, or repressive of his carrying of this unique, divine template.

With the three of swords on the side of the masculine, this week, he is experiencing some stress, worry, anxiety, and over thinking. Perhaps he perceives that the feminine is ignoring him, over him, does not want him anymore, or is not as interested in his advances. Although it may appear this way, actually, over on her side, with the three of pentacles, she is really focused on expansion, the expansion of her journey, on a physical, material, mental, and emotional level. She is just extremely about her career this week, and busy working on ways to establish her platform, and her portfolio. Perhaps in recent weeks, he has been the one distant, or ignoring her, and this has inspired her to take matters into her own hands, take control of her own dreams, and draw her focus towards something that she actually CAN control – her future. The feeling of helplessness that she has come to know, is no longer something that she is willing to entertain, nor put up with.

This is the role reversal we have been feeling happening on an unconscious level.

He could be making a gesture – proposal to the feminine this week, and may be worried, or slightly reluctant as he fears rejection, at the sight of her seeming lack of interest. The ace of swords is representative of this mental breakthrough that he will be experiencing. He has been stuck in victim consciousness quite a lot over these past few weeks, thinking excessively, pondering things over time, and time again, and giving himself unnecessary amounts of stress and confusion. This week, will see him snapping himself out of these mental loop holes, by instantly knowing what to do. Perhaps this is in relation to the feminine, returning to her once he has cleared his mind, and is thinking more in accordance with who he is, and what he wants. In deciding what he wants, he makes a gesture to articulate this to the divine feminine. 

Over on the feminine side, this gesture that has been made to her enables her to make a decision. She stands at a crossroads with the two of wands – decisions must be made, stay or go? The masculine returns from his slumber with a message, once he has acknowledged that this is what he wants, ‘This is how I feel. This is what I want. This is why I have been distant’. And although the divine feminine is still feeling him, and still feels the same about him, she wonders this week whether she can base her future on his seeming inconsistency – particularly as her focus now resides in stability, and longevity. 

He has spent the past few weeks beating himself up about his own decisions, and pondering his own future, and now he has finally decided, will it all be too late?

The feminine says, ‘Okay, that’s great that you’re ready. But I’ve taken this time to focus on myself, to cease co-dependent behaviours – to do other things’. This is all about the feminine facing a new journey that is ahead of her, endless possibilities are available to her as she opens herself back up to the world, and she will need to decide if this contains the masculine, or not, whether she can take him to the next stage with her – or not. 

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The Justice card on the side of the feminine is an indication of just how much the new moon in Libra will be effecting her this week..This is all about inner balance, the understanding of self, the re-writing of karma, the uniting of lovers, and achieving a steady equilibrium. She wants to do things by the book this time – in recognising her old karmic themes, she is very, very conscious this week of ensuring that things do not travel down old pathways. If she does end up accepting this gesture from the masculine, it is because she wants to, and not because she NEEDS to. She HAS been thinking of him, but he is no longer her only focus, as she becomes more concerned with asserting self sustainability, and ending the runner/chaser dynamic, through no longer running from herself, or ignoring her own intuition. ‘I do not NEED to always be chasing you. I would like to chase my dreams’.

The high priestess on the side of the masculine is symbolic, both of his thoughts of the divine feminine, and the internal alchemy that is occurring within him. He is embracing the divine feminine, this week internally, and externally, realising finally that he cannot quite escape her, or her clutches, no matter what he tries. He may see her name pop up, or synchronous reminders of her in the most seemingly random places, and something within him will tell him that this is not at all a coincidence. This is the realisation that on a deep unconscious level his soul truly wants this union, his mind is only just recently allowing itself to accept this, and catch on to its truth. 

If he is indeed still worrying about this 3rd party situation, then this week he will finally shut it down, and make a decision about things. His third eye is truly expanding, and I do feel as if this will be magnified by the appearance of the new moon, as there is a moon crescent present in the high priestess card. Not only is he recognising this week how truly powerful the feminine is, but he is also beginning to appreciate the union for what it is. His worry, and doubt over the past few weeks have simply been his resistance trying to manifest, as he became opened to a whirlpool of the spiritual, highly accelerated, and emotionally heightened world that was the divine feminine – and everything that she opened him up to. 

The justice card on the side of the feminine symbolises the balance that is being re-introduced into her life. Financially, her work is being recognised, and she is being appreciated finally for what she brings to the table. The scales are evening out, so she is learning not to give more than she receives, and simultaneously, to receive all that comes to her for her efforts. The justice card may also signify a divorce, which may represent the masculine leaving the third party situation he was previously involved in, (threes a crowd). 

She may consider moving this week for financial reasons, and perhaps this is what triggers the masculine to reach out to her. She is seeing things from a heightened perspective, and so is he, aside from he is experiencing this spiritually, and she is experiencing this materially. The world is literally her oyster. 

There is also a vital lesson in love that she is learning this week. The masculine is drawn to her, the more she is aligned to her goddess power. These were the natural roles before the interruption of polarity/patriarchal restrictions, and power struggles, feminine imbalances etc.. The feminine is the way shower. So when she directs towards herself, she also directs the masculine towards herself..

 

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General Weekly Reading – 26th September-2nd October; Shifting states of consciousness, and the journey to balance.

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Main theme -Seven of wands, Surrounding cards – The wheel of fortune, Ten of cups, Three of swords, The world.

This week, for us all, marks an absolutely tremendous change! And I am sure that we have all felt it coming for a long time..So much shadow work has been occurring for us within these past few weeks, and especially this entire month in general, and what a magnificent way to wrap it all up! Libra season; all about balance, particularly the balance of the two inner wolves, and the month of October, the number 10 – signifying the ultimate balance, between life, and death, creation, and creator, masculine, and feminine! Boy, are we in for a ride! But we have done all the work! Why not enjoy it? For we have definitely endured it!

Numerological break down of the week – 26 (2+6=8) – The number of karma, abundance, and breaking karmic patterns – 2 – The number of balance, co-operation, lovers, and resolution.

The main theme being the seven of swords relates to us experiencing a final spiritual break through this week, cultivated around our resilience, and the lessons and the wisdom that we have gained through our trials and tribulations. We are coming up this week much stronger than we have ever been, and this is actually because we have not tried to fight our way out of our struggles, as we have in previous years, and our desire to succeed shows this!  Spiritual strength is apparent to us this week, as we have braved the many storms, and the often chaotic lessons that September has tried to articulate to us.

We are not bruised, or beaten down as one would think – rather we have developed a new widened perception from our experiences, and we are truly coming into alignment with the hum of the universe – the fact that everything does indeed happen for a reason! Particularly the not so pleasant things. This is all about internal change, and internal growth, and emerging a more determined and structured version of ourselves. 

Finally, we are granted the opportunity to see why, where, and how we have been going wrong, with the wheel of fortune, which symbolises a recognition of karma. Perhaps we have been involved in a romantic situation this week, or a painful family situation this week that highlighted to us some of the karma that we have both been creating or perpetuating. We are much at an advantage when we become aware of our karmic bonds, because then we can effectively work to break the cycle, and re-program the parts of our brain where they exist – which is exactly what the month of September (9) was all about! This is MAJOR awareness of past life karma, maybe somebody held up a perfect mirror to us, of who we were, of our own darkness, and shadow self, and the ways that we have been holding our own selves back.

The three of swords represents us transcending old wounds, past painful karma, and releasing stories that no longer serve us. For so long, we have been OBSESSED with this story of pain, we have clung onto it for dear life, and made it the basis of all of our life’s themes, and experiences!  This week sees us healing these ancient and primal wounds of abandonment, and neglect, by realising how we have been abandoning, neglecting, and depriving ourselves, first and foremost. We really are creators, particularly creators of our own destiny, so there is no longer the desire to ask, ‘Why has God forsaken us?’, when we are actually playing God when it comes to the direction, and the beliefs in our own lives! The true question stands, why have YOU been forsaking YOU?

Breaking karmic chains, means opening ourselves up to abundance with the presence of the 10 of cups – the number 10 represents balance, both endings, and new beginnings, when we become aware of the detriment of one cycle, we open ourselves up to a new journey, and a new beginning. This is the process of allowing abundance, and good faith to come to us by believing that we deserve it. Expansion on a mental level breathes space for expansion on an energetic, spiritual, emotional, physical, and financial level also! When we play small, and entrap ourselves in stories about being undeserving, we will actually live a life that re-affirms this back to us!

The world card continues with the theme of ending one cycle, and beginning another, so this week is definitely symbolic of a mass karmic turn around! Opening ourselves up to all that the world has to offer, saying goodbye to a cycle of pain and deprivation, and allowing a rebirth to occur. The image in the world card seems to be transcending this earthly plane through balance, and entering a new dimension – which is actually very similar to what we are all experiencing this week, on a mental, and spiritual level! Entering 5 dimensional consciousness, – unity with the all that is, and the exiling of separation consciousness. As your awareness expands, so does your spiritual experiences, and capability. You are opening doors for anything, from enlightenment, to spiritual guidance to occur! The gateways are now WIDE open! 

The 10 of cups also represents the confidence, and the willingness to go after what you want!You are now focused with establishing strong foundations for the future, so that the past does not repeat itself! 

The three of swords indicates that you may indeed experience some heart chakra activation, awakenings, or openings this week, that may feel uncomfortable, or mimic heart break, worry, anxiety, or sorrow. This is just your emotional, and energetic awareness center expanding, and is like the final phase of the initiatory crisis! The final battle cry of the wounded soldier, before they surrender to death. Think of Christ calling out one last time, as he lay on the cross, before surrendering himself to death, and inevitably re-birth.

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 8th-14th August; Creation, destruction, and truthful Revelations.

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Main theme – Empress, What is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – Page of pentacles, Page of cups, Wheel of fortune, Feminine – The fool, Five of wands, King of wands. 

This week, with the main theme being the empress, we are dealing with energies of creation, and birthing. There is  alot of newness going on, we are dealing with very fertile soils, the ability to make almost anything, and everything manifest. What both twins are experiencing being the king of pentacles, shows some success for us in financial areas, and matters of abundance. Together, these two energies are symbolic of the divine feminine, and the divine masculine working together to create something new – like the big bang theory. There is a balancing of both energies going on within, although I feel as if the masculine is going through this transition, MUCH smoother than the feminine, who is being a little bit messy this week if I am quite honest!

This week, both sacred lovers are focusing on building, building themselves, building who they are, their self perception, and working to bring their talents out into the world. This is truly a week of self determination, and actualisation, but for some reason, it seems as if the feminine is a little bit threatened by the masculine’s desire to expand and explore. This is probably touching on a core wound that she has to do with abandonment, and she is being asked to look deeply into this wound as it is attached to one of the reasons that a lot of her past relationships have not worked out.

The fool card suggests a willful ignorance on her part. She is walking away from the masculine who seems to be walking in the other direction towards financial, and career opportunities. On his end, he is like ? ‘What’s going on? What are you talking about? What have I done wrong? I am just doing my own thing, I am just making some money. I am trying to change my fate, our destiny’ – as depicted by the wheel of fortune, and really, and truly things ARE changing for him, and the feminine should be proud of him, and happy for him, but she is quite threatened by his elevation. A part of her thinks, ‘will he still choose me?’ .. This is much more to do with her insecurities than anything, and this week we take a harsh look at the divine feminine, for her not so pretty side, and how she herself blocks union, SO much more than the concept of the masculine being the runner. In truth, she has existed as the runner for so long..

She’s like this week, ‘I’m going to go this week, and I’m going to do my own thing. Because you are not behaving in accordance with the way that I desire, and this is not making ME feel good’. Me, me me, this is her song, her battle cry.. Can you please see this week feminine, how toxic, and borderline abusive that is? Nobody lives to serve you entirely, relationships are a partnership, not just about somebody making you feel good. What about the other person?

Manifestation is at an ALL time high right now, so it is important to watch one’s thoughts, particularly for the feminine, her mind is so powerful that anything that she conjures (even the negative), will manifest, and take root – and this is what has been occurring for her for so long.

The five of wands is representative of this inner conflict within herself. Everytime that she conjures up an irrelevant argument, everytime that she is passive aggressive, what she is truly doing, is fighting herself, and manifesting this struggle outward. She needs to learn how to deal with her own emotions, or she will always drive people away from her. This is a huge lesson in love, and over coming blockages. I do not understand this week, the need for her to have so many fears, because the empress card shows that her empire too is being built, and things are also shifting for her – but alas, we get down to the nitty gritty of the problem – the feminine FEARS happiness, she FEARS change, and she FEARS success, and she is doing everything possible to make sure that she can somehow sabotage it.

However, the king of wands on the feminine side, is very strong, very determined masculine energy. Where previous partners have fallen, this masculine, is not about to take her shit lying down. He is not going to get up and desert her, because despite the abuse, he is actually far more secure, and settled within himself now. He has taken one of the wands that she is using in conflict, and set it down in the ground, and is saying, ‘I am here. I am not going anywhere’, but the real danger is…Nobody can put up with this type of behaviour, and abuse forever, and this is a call, for the divine feminine to change – to awaken.

Over on the masculine side, he comes with an offer of love, the page of cups sees him confirming, and yielding his love in his hands. There is an innocence about him, that should not be abused, he is exposing himself..He is really here saying, ‘Here, this is the love that I have to give you. Maybe it is not much, but it is what I have. I do not understand the need to fight, or argue, and it does upset me’.. Whilst he is dealing with his issues by surrendering, the feminine is FIGHTING for dear life. Perhaps centuries of the feminine template being associated with victimisation, and persecution is coming up in a major way, for release.

This is encouraging him to step up in some ways however, and to refine himself, because this woman is crazy (lol), and if he wants to be with her, he is going to need to learn some proper expression techniques, because clearly, she takes his silence for neglect, and abandonment. It is very important for her to acknowledge this week how she sets herself up for pre-meditated conflict.

Her insecurities are ravenous, and this week, she needs to turn ‘Alllllll the way, down!’.

This is a perfect opportunity however to finally identify, and bring about an end to these karmic struggles that have been occurring for as long as she can remember. This fight, exists within herself, and she needs to deal with this – not berate, and infringe upon others.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading 1st-7th August 2016; Karmic work, soul deaths, and shadow healing.

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Main theme: Two of swords, Wheel of fortune, Justice, The sun, Temperance.

First of all, I must say, that August is going to be an absolutely phenomenal month for us all, should we do the work required – although this is something that I will go into with my monthly life path readings for August – those should be up and available within a few days!

August, being the 8th month in numerology, means that a lot of KARMA, and karmic relations will make themselves apparent this month. Expect a lot of things to return to you, and a lot of things that you may have started previously, even a few years ago, to reap their benefits within this month. You see the shape of the number 8? It very much resembles the infinity symbol, this is the symbol of life’s eternal nature, that things have a certain to, and fro, ebb, and flow, a cause, and effect. This is the month, and specifically the week of lessons learnt. We must keep an eye on our own karma, and the things that we manifest within ourselves, and without ourselves, whether good or bad, we have a lot of power, ESPECIALLY this month. We are dealing with new beginnings, that are not really new beginnings, because they carry a specific theme, themes that have been present to us throughout our journeys, although now, we will see how we have the power to change the course of our destiny… Second chances? Yes, something like that.

With the main theme this week being the two of swords, we will be taking a look at our decisions. This is the decisions that we have to make, and the decisions that we have made in our past. We are going to be feeling very reflective this week..And we may even find ourselves feeling nostalgic, we are searching for answers, and we are actually getting a lot of these answers, when we can still ourselves enough to listen.

We understand this week that the choices that we have made have accumulated our karma, and brought us to this stand point here. Where we currently are. Whether we like where we are or not, we will come to understand that we brought ourselves here, and we can take ourselves out. We have a very strong desire this week to put things right – whatever that means, we really want to do things by the book, the JUSTICE card speaks of our desire to attain balance, to seek truth, to speak truth, and to live in truth.

We are very conscious of the way that we treat others this week, and the effect that we have on the world around us – because of this, I do see the universe rewarding us, with some good karma. We have definitely worked for it, and worked at it, these recent weeks with all of the shadow work clearing that we have been doing. Do not worry if you feel that you still have a lot of ‘cleaning out your closet’ to do, we all do, but I assure you, that most of the efforts that you have put in recently, are about to be paid back to you.

The sun card is representative of the Leo energy that will be pouring in on the 2nd, with the new moon in Leo. This new moon is all about letting go of vital aspects of the shadow self, as Leo energy represents the sun, the light, and the fire shining through to pierce any darkness that still exists. This is very much a purification process, and the energy after this new moon has passed should be much lighter, more playful, more creative, and more blissful. This is the effect of the shadow self being torn down, the inner child can have more of an opportunity to shine through, and we can show our true selves.

If people from the past do return this week, or you are the person from the past returning to express your remorse to somebody, then you can be sure that you will be talking directly to this persons inner child. And they will have done a lot of clearing, and energetic work on themselves.

The wheel of fortune, in conjunction with the justice card talks about the wheel of fortune spinning in our favour. What you are experiencing now, what you are doing, and what you are working towards, was always meant to be for you. If your business is growing, if your career is taking off, if you are engaging with like minded people, this was all apart of your birth script. You are exactly where you should be at this moment, connecting with the people that you should be connecting with, and doing the great work that you were chosen to do. Things are coming together for you. You are getting closer to that which is the truth of your divine destiny, and all because of the shifts in perspective, and emotion that have taken place in these past few weeks.

This week, we are dealing with the themes of balance, once again as presented by the temperance card, which has made an appearance a few time in the previous weeks. This is much to do with the internal and energetic work that has been going on. We have been desperately working towards integrating our shadow self as a core, and useful aspect of ourselves. It is there to guide us, toward what we do not wish to be, and what we do not wish to manifest. Patience, and balance go hand in hand, as not all is given to us at one sitting, and not all is revealed to us at one go. This is minor revelations that will unfold gradually, as the week progresses.

The temperance card reminds us to have faith during the darker times of soul, and shadow healing, and encourages us to trust in the process, and not to get caught up in the messy parts of our soul evolution, which may very well mirror dark nights of the soul. The karmic wheel is actually turning in your favour despite how you may feel, and you are finally standing up to and confronting wounds that have been embedded within you since childhood.

The themes of right, and wrong, also present themselves to you clearly, as you are guided towards making the right decisions, this directly confronts your shadow self, because your shadow self holds an addiction towards steering you in the wrong ways, and hurting yourself, and others in the process.

This week, you must learn that your karma, is very much rooted in the choices, and decisions that you make. You may have a very important choice to make this week, or multiple choices that hold value to you, and you will be asked by spirit to choose the option that resonates with the light in your spirit, and not succumb to your shadow fears, or illusions of the self. You are far bigger than your wounds. Far greater than your darkness, and it is finally time for you to lay some ancient stories to rest.

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

 

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