Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 8th-14th August; Creation, destruction, and truthful Revelations.

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Main theme – Empress, What is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – Page of pentacles, Page of cups, Wheel of fortune, Feminine – The fool, Five of wands, King of wands. 

This week, with the main theme being the empress, we are dealing with energies of creation, and birthing. There is  alot of newness going on, we are dealing with very fertile soils, the ability to make almost anything, and everything manifest. What both twins are experiencing being the king of pentacles, shows some success for us in financial areas, and matters of abundance. Together, these two energies are symbolic of the divine feminine, and the divine masculine working together to create something new – like the big bang theory. There is a balancing of both energies going on within, although I feel as if the masculine is going through this transition, MUCH smoother than the feminine, who is being a little bit messy this week if I am quite honest!

This week, both sacred lovers are focusing on building, building themselves, building who they are, their self perception, and working to bring their talents out into the world. This is truly a week of self determination, and actualisation, but for some reason, it seems as if the feminine is a little bit threatened by the masculine’s desire to expand and explore. This is probably touching on a core wound that she has to do with abandonment, and she is being asked to look deeply into this wound as it is attached to one of the reasons that a lot of her past relationships have not worked out.

The fool card suggests a willful ignorance on her part. She is walking away from the masculine who seems to be walking in the other direction towards financial, and career opportunities. On his end, he is like ? ‘What’s going on? What are you talking about? What have I done wrong? I am just doing my own thing, I am just making some money. I am trying to change my fate, our destiny’ – as depicted by the wheel of fortune, and really, and truly things ARE changing for him, and the feminine should be proud of him, and happy for him, but she is quite threatened by his elevation. A part of her thinks, ‘will he still choose me?’ .. This is much more to do with her insecurities than anything, and this week we take a harsh look at the divine feminine, for her not so pretty side, and how she herself blocks union, SO much more than the concept of the masculine being the runner. In truth, she has existed as the runner for so long..

She’s like this week, ‘I’m going to go this week, and I’m going to do my own thing. Because you are not behaving in accordance with the way that I desire, and this is not making ME feel good’. Me, me me, this is her song, her battle cry.. Can you please see this week feminine, how toxic, and borderline abusive that is? Nobody lives to serve you entirely, relationships are a partnership, not just about somebody making you feel good. What about the other person?

Manifestation is at an ALL time high right now, so it is important to watch one’s thoughts, particularly for the feminine, her mind is so powerful that anything that she conjures (even the negative), will manifest, and take root – and this is what has been occurring for her for so long.

The five of wands is representative of this inner conflict within herself. Everytime that she conjures up an irrelevant argument, everytime that she is passive aggressive, what she is truly doing, is fighting herself, and manifesting this struggle outward. She needs to learn how to deal with her own emotions, or she will always drive people away from her. This is a huge lesson in love, and over coming blockages. I do not understand this week, the need for her to have so many fears, because the empress card shows that her empire too is being built, and things are also shifting for her – but alas, we get down to the nitty gritty of the problem – the feminine FEARS happiness, she FEARS change, and she FEARS success, and she is doing everything possible to make sure that she can somehow sabotage it.

However, the king of wands on the feminine side, is very strong, very determined masculine energy. Where previous partners have fallen, this masculine, is not about to take her shit lying down. He is not going to get up and desert her, because despite the abuse, he is actually far more secure, and settled within himself now. He has taken one of the wands that she is using in conflict, and set it down in the ground, and is saying, ‘I am here. I am not going anywhere’, but the real danger is…Nobody can put up with this type of behaviour, and abuse forever, and this is a call, for the divine feminine to change – to awaken.

Over on the masculine side, he comes with an offer of love, the page of cups sees him confirming, and yielding his love in his hands. There is an innocence about him, that should not be abused, he is exposing himself..He is really here saying, ‘Here, this is the love that I have to give you. Maybe it is not much, but it is what I have. I do not understand the need to fight, or argue, and it does upset me’.. Whilst he is dealing with his issues by surrendering, the feminine is FIGHTING for dear life. Perhaps centuries of the feminine template being associated with victimisation, and persecution is coming up in a major way, for release.

This is encouraging him to step up in some ways however, and to refine himself, because this woman is crazy (lol), and if he wants to be with her, he is going to need to learn some proper expression techniques, because clearly, she takes his silence for neglect, and abandonment. It is very important for her to acknowledge this week how she sets herself up for pre-meditated conflict.

Her insecurities are ravenous, and this week, she needs to turn ‘Alllllll the way, down!’.

This is a perfect opportunity however to finally identify, and bring about an end to these karmic struggles that have been occurring for as long as she can remember. This fight, exists within herself, and she needs to deal with this – not berate, and infringe upon others.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 8th-14th August; Painful endings, and accepting transition.

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Main theme: Death, Surrounding cards: Eight of swords, Nine of pentacles, Wheel of fortune, Ten of pentacles, Seven of pentacles, Five of pentacles.

Okay guys, I don’t know about you, but this week, I have been experiencing some exceptionally strange, and often uncomfortable energies, and emotions, and looking at this deck, I do not fail to see why..

I have actually picked more cards than usual this week, because I have been very desperate to find out EXACTLY what it is that we have been dealing with. I personally, know that I have been feeling funky all week, and so many themes and perspectives that I have thought that I had dealt with, have been dragged right back up, in this dramatic, dark night of the soul-esque episode!

We are currently enduring a MASSIVE cleansing process, and a massive death, and rebirth theme, so a lot of the things that we are dealing with, are in relation to endings, and new beginnings, and this process of mourning, is always painful. Let us envision physical death, it is a difficult process in which we must say goodbye to someone that means a lot to us, and the emptiness that is left over, is no different from the energy of the essence left from energetic, karmic, or emotional deaths. We are letting go of so many things, and so many people, and the wheel of fortune suggests that this is all to do with changing our karmic substance.

We will be triggered greatly this week, and this is because many of us are dealing with the last of our shadow aspects, our childhood wounds, the biggest blockages to our soul’s evolution, as we see them brought to the very surface. The things that we deny, the negative narratives, and stories that we have been holding on to for so long – we are faced with them all this week, and we are asked to let them go, to transform them, to see how they have been creating this fixed narrative within our lives.

With the five of pentacles, we are shown how our perception of lack effects and influences our life’s dealings, and decisions. There has existed for a long time within us a certain emptiness, a feeling like we are not enough, or that we do not have enough, and this week, we are challenged to face this notion within ourselves. Loneliness, victimisation, poor mental health, everything is coming to the centre of our being, to ask us the question that we truly fear… Could we really be somehow, irreversibly damaged, and or tarnished? Ofcourse, this is a fool’s question, but for somebody who has carried this notion around with them for life times long, it is a very real, and very valid ponder.

So old stories, themes from the past, life stages and familiar experiences are brought up at this time, to ask us to break this karmic cycle, and we have actually been doing shadow cleansing, and karmic revamping for several weeks now, But i do feel as if all of this has really intensified with the presence of the Lion’s gate. Perhaps our self worth, and self perceptions have also been tied into our ability to manifest money, as there are plenty pentacle cards displayed this week… This relates once again to scarcity consciousness, the thought that we do not have enough – that we are not enough.

The eight of swords is us manifesting these negative experiences and thoughts continuously. We just keep digging, and digging, I mean it is almost as if we enjoy our own detriment, but we truly get to see this week how this is something that exists first within us, and then manifests without. It is time to stop creating this negative backlash of karma, because of our beliefs tied in with pain, and negative self worth. How long can you see your life take on this consistent narrative, until you realise that it is time to wake up, that you no longer wish to feel this way..That you have the power, NOT to feel this way.

The seven of pentacles speaks of our harvest, waiting for our rewards to come in, and expecting them to come in. So it goes like this, sometimes, you do believe in yourself, you do believe in your worth, and you do believe in your ability to acquire abundance, and instant manifestation. Other times, you confuse the universe… You say one thing, but you FEEL another way, and keep in mind, it is all about the feeling – the universe works with energy. If you are saying that you are worthy and deserving, but deep down deprivation consciousness is screaming into your ego, what do you think you will see? What do you think will exist around you?

Cultivation requires persistence, so can you keep your vibration high enough, and focused enough to truly manifest the type of life that you desire? The nine of pentacles, and the ten of pentacles speak of things finally coming together for you – financially, this is your opportunity to go where you have always dreamt of going, but there are still things, self imposed that are holding you back. Could you imagine the extent of your full potential if you broke free from these chains? If you started to fully commit to yourself, and act from a place of wholeness, and belief in your own magic? Likely, you would be unstoppable. You have the recipe, and you have the ingredients for greatness, but do you have the patience, and the cultivation? If something does not work in your favor instantly, do you fall back into old habits and patterns and say, ‘ I knew it. I knew that was not going to work anyway. Nothing ever works for me. This is the way that things are?’…. Well, then you are affirming this belief. In keep in mind that this is not only limited to finances, this also spreads out into areas of our love life, family, and friends…If you feel like others are always abandoning you, you will literally search for cues to confirm your beliefs, so even if they have no intention of doing so, to you, in your mind, this will be a PROVEN reality .The mind is so powerful..It wants, what it wants, and it will find it.

Stop feeding your fears, stop feeding your sadness, for it is an insatiable beast, that continues to feast, and continue to eat, as long as you will it so. Who are you? Are you this powerful creator who can manifest greatness and lives in the eye of the most high? Or are you this meek individual who believes in victimisation, and deprivation consciousness? Make up your mind..Because for too long, you swing from one podium to the other, and something has got to give. It just does NOT make sense. You cannot be both.. You can be light, and both dark, but you cannot be both weak, and strong. You are one, or the other, and this week, you need to choose.

Everything that you want this week, that you could dream of, is on the table, the most high is like, ‘here you go’.. You can get this, you can have this, but is your energy willing to work for it? Or have you already decided…That self sabotage is your birth right?

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading 1st-7th August 2016; Karmic work, soul deaths, and shadow healing.

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Main theme: Two of swords, Wheel of fortune, Justice, The sun, Temperance.

First of all, I must say, that August is going to be an absolutely phenomenal month for us all, should we do the work required – although this is something that I will go into with my monthly life path readings for August – those should be up and available within a few days!

August, being the 8th month in numerology, means that a lot of KARMA, and karmic relations will make themselves apparent this month. Expect a lot of things to return to you, and a lot of things that you may have started previously, even a few years ago, to reap their benefits within this month. You see the shape of the number 8? It very much resembles the infinity symbol, this is the symbol of life’s eternal nature, that things have a certain to, and fro, ebb, and flow, a cause, and effect. This is the month, and specifically the week of lessons learnt. We must keep an eye on our own karma, and the things that we manifest within ourselves, and without ourselves, whether good or bad, we have a lot of power, ESPECIALLY this month. We are dealing with new beginnings, that are not really new beginnings, because they carry a specific theme, themes that have been present to us throughout our journeys, although now, we will see how we have the power to change the course of our destiny… Second chances? Yes, something like that.

With the main theme this week being the two of swords, we will be taking a look at our decisions. This is the decisions that we have to make, and the decisions that we have made in our past. We are going to be feeling very reflective this week..And we may even find ourselves feeling nostalgic, we are searching for answers, and we are actually getting a lot of these answers, when we can still ourselves enough to listen.

We understand this week that the choices that we have made have accumulated our karma, and brought us to this stand point here. Where we currently are. Whether we like where we are or not, we will come to understand that we brought ourselves here, and we can take ourselves out. We have a very strong desire this week to put things right – whatever that means, we really want to do things by the book, the JUSTICE card speaks of our desire to attain balance, to seek truth, to speak truth, and to live in truth.

We are very conscious of the way that we treat others this week, and the effect that we have on the world around us – because of this, I do see the universe rewarding us, with some good karma. We have definitely worked for it, and worked at it, these recent weeks with all of the shadow work clearing that we have been doing. Do not worry if you feel that you still have a lot of ‘cleaning out your closet’ to do, we all do, but I assure you, that most of the efforts that you have put in recently, are about to be paid back to you.

The sun card is representative of the Leo energy that will be pouring in on the 2nd, with the new moon in Leo. This new moon is all about letting go of vital aspects of the shadow self, as Leo energy represents the sun, the light, and the fire shining through to pierce any darkness that still exists. This is very much a purification process, and the energy after this new moon has passed should be much lighter, more playful, more creative, and more blissful. This is the effect of the shadow self being torn down, the inner child can have more of an opportunity to shine through, and we can show our true selves.

If people from the past do return this week, or you are the person from the past returning to express your remorse to somebody, then you can be sure that you will be talking directly to this persons inner child. And they will have done a lot of clearing, and energetic work on themselves.

The wheel of fortune, in conjunction with the justice card talks about the wheel of fortune spinning in our favour. What you are experiencing now, what you are doing, and what you are working towards, was always meant to be for you. If your business is growing, if your career is taking off, if you are engaging with like minded people, this was all apart of your birth script. You are exactly where you should be at this moment, connecting with the people that you should be connecting with, and doing the great work that you were chosen to do. Things are coming together for you. You are getting closer to that which is the truth of your divine destiny, and all because of the shifts in perspective, and emotion that have taken place in these past few weeks.

This week, we are dealing with the themes of balance, once again as presented by the temperance card, which has made an appearance a few time in the previous weeks. This is much to do with the internal and energetic work that has been going on. We have been desperately working towards integrating our shadow self as a core, and useful aspect of ourselves. It is there to guide us, toward what we do not wish to be, and what we do not wish to manifest. Patience, and balance go hand in hand, as not all is given to us at one sitting, and not all is revealed to us at one go. This is minor revelations that will unfold gradually, as the week progresses.

The temperance card reminds us to have faith during the darker times of soul, and shadow healing, and encourages us to trust in the process, and not to get caught up in the messy parts of our soul evolution, which may very well mirror dark nights of the soul. The karmic wheel is actually turning in your favour despite how you may feel, and you are finally standing up to and confronting wounds that have been embedded within you since childhood.

The themes of right, and wrong, also present themselves to you clearly, as you are guided towards making the right decisions, this directly confronts your shadow self, because your shadow self holds an addiction towards steering you in the wrong ways, and hurting yourself, and others in the process.

This week, you must learn that your karma, is very much rooted in the choices, and decisions that you make. You may have a very important choice to make this week, or multiple choices that hold value to you, and you will be asked by spirit to choose the option that resonates with the light in your spirit, and not succumb to your shadow fears, or illusions of the self. You are far bigger than your wounds. Far greater than your darkness, and it is finally time for you to lay some ancient stories to rest.

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

 

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The fallacy of healing.

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For those of us who have endured any type of deeply entrenched psychological, physical, emotional, or energetic trauma at some point in our lives, it is fair to say that we will always be ‘altered’ in some way. To be altered does not necessarily mean to remain faulty, as we are sometimes perceived as, as we battle with the after effects of trauma; depression, anxiety, insomnia, reclusiveness, in-expression, or otherwise.

To always be altered simply means that we will belong to a different category of people throughout our lives. A category of people who are perhaps more careful with their words, savour experiences a little longer, love a little harder, and bruise a little easier. But this should not always be looked at as an ailment. So, we are highly observant, so, we may  be a little too highly observant, and we may actually make mountains out of mole hills sometimes for the way that we search so deeply into things.

Can it not be said that we are gifted with divine vision? The ability to pick the ordinary  apart, and in it find something rather extraordinary? Well, truth be told, we are never exactly going to be normal, no matter how hard we try, no matter how many smiles we adorn, no matter how many normal people we can fool within a set time frame..

At the end of the day, once we return to our place of solitude, we will once again be these super sensitive souls, who hold on to our analytical, and intellectual ability as if our life depends on it. Likely, we have spent a lot of time alone, whether intentionally, or unintentionally, and we are rather attached to the way that things exist within our minds, and the perceptions that we hold about the way that the world exists.

This can be our ally, providing us with deep, introspective, philosophical, and highly perceptive insight into life’s greatest mysteries, but it can also render us too rigid, unwilling to accept new information that comes our way, or judging new situations, by old outcomes, and experiences.

I do not say that we cannot heal. However, I say  that healing can be difficult unless we are willing to release some of the perceptions that we have locked and bolted tightly away within our minds. For instance, the perception that somebody will always hurt us, or that somebody is always trying to insult, offend or undermine us.

Sure, perhaps for a lot of our lives, whilst we have shrunk ourselves, and played the victim, indeed others have latched on to this and exploited our lack of self esteem, but things do not always have to be this way. Not everything that somebody says is somehow intended to bring you down, or disarm you in some way.

Learn to separate constructive criticism, and caring advice, from belittling, and manipulation. However, if you have a gut instinct, (and not just an ego instinct), go with it.

It has taken me a long time to arrive at a place where I can let go of some of my anger, suspicion, and hostility, and hear what others around me have to say, truly HEARING them, and not just listening to the bits and pieces that I am searching for. If i recognise within myself an insatiable spirit, that just wants to be right, or just wants to be wounded, I separate myself from the conversation, and the situation, and give myself some time to view things from all perspectives.

However, some people may say that because I can still be triggered in old ways, I have not fully healed. And is this true?

Well, yes, and no..

In actual fact, I conceive that I have healed because I have a fully developed understanding, and acknowledgment of my shadow self – the part of myself that craves attachment to pain, and drama.. I am able to recognise almost instantaneously when I am acting from a place of the shadow, and pull myself back from this, and approach things from a different angle, or, if worst comes to worst, I am not afraid of damage control – being open, and honest about where I went wrong, and expressing my apologies. It is important to be honest when we make mistakes, or express moods, and  outbursts that can be energetically draining to others.

However, I view healing as something of a journey, rather than a destination, as I am constantly learning, unlearning, relearning, programming, and de programming parts of myself. Every day that passes me by, I learn more about myself. Honestly, especially within the past few days, I almost feel as if everyday is a quickening, a chance for redemption, and sweet revelation, and it is.

You cannot run away from the path of healing. Even when you claim to be fully healed, you will learn next week of something that still triggers you, of something that you have not yet fully dealt with, of something that you have carried through your childhood memories with you. The fallacy of healing is that it happens all at once, because the truth is, it does not.

Healing is truly a journey, and I do not believe that you ever stop unravelling parts of yourself in a quest to retrieve your lost soul fragments, and neither should you feel like any less of a warrior because you are not emotionally dead inside.

Our deepest sensitivities are our super powers. They are what grant us the ability to produce the potent art that we do, to create the love stories that only we could know.

Edgar Allen Poe was severely depressed, he would also go down as one of the greatest, and most intricate poets in history..

It is no secret that Carl Jung explored so deeply the concept of the shadow self, and owning one’s darkness, so could it be that he too fell into the same fate that plagues so many great, and wondrous minds?

There is something to be said about creative talent, and psychological affliction, and this is not me in anyway whatsoever glorifying mental illness. Because to be afflicted with the spirits of self doubt, negative thoughts, and traumatic memories is absolutely no gift. But, it is what is within us, even beyond all of our pain and suffering that is a gift.

I cannot say for certain what came first, the illness, or the passion – but I can say that in a cruel twist of fate, so cliche of the divine nature of balance, the two are intrinsically linked. And we have to do what we have to do. We cannot say that we wish to shut our eyes, and no longer receive intuition, inspiration, or beauty, so how can we say that we will away the things that push us to create, to excel, to destroy, and to become?

Do not allow people to make you feel guilty for mourning. You may experience your best day today, and crash once again tomorrow, this does not mean that you are not healing – this simply means that you are collapsing into your self, learning more about yourself, and how to make peace with your psyche. It is the struggle up against yourself to listen to your demons, being ever so compassionate with them, asking them, ‘What is it that you want now?’

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 25th-31st July 2016; Journey to inner God/Goddessa.

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Main theme: Temperance, Surrounding cards, Ace of pentacles, Three of swords, Three of wands, The high priestess.

This week, our focus is entirely with achieving emotional, balance, and mental, and material stability, as we recognise the importance of the trio going hand in hand.

Temperance is our theme relates to our need to balance, both our emotions, and our mental input. It is vital that we keep track of the thoughts that enter our mind, and their penetrating factor. Nothing is so important right now as having faith, as we have reached a very crucial and pivotal moment in our life’s journey. The three of swords suggests that although things may be in the process of coming together financial, we still hold worries, and anxieties about the future. Perhaps we cannot see the full truth of who we are, or who we will be, and the uncertainty of our day to day moods, threatens to destabilise us, and thwart everything that we have worked so hard to achieve.

Balance is a large requirment at this time, in silencing the mind, and the thoughts that it conjures, we can listen to the internal nature of our truth – the high priestess, the part of us that knows where we are going, and knows that we will indeed arrive there safely. Everyday, we are stepping more, and more into the truth of who we truly are, and of course it can cause all types of anxiety to ponder an existence so different from the one which we currently own. You have stated that you wanted change to arrive in your life for so long, now that it is finally here, it appears quite scary? And the quick pace of everything may be throwing you entirely off balance.

The high priestess is the inner voice that guides you, that you need to learn to tune up, instead of tuning out. This will steer you to make the right decisions, for yourself, and for your career path. You may be given the opportunity this week to expand upon your career, this can be anything from a business idea, to somebody trying to bring you in on a new partnership. As your social circle expands, so do your career opportunities. Make sure to take note of the things that may come your way, as you are not the only one at this time capable of rapid manifestation. If somebody offers you a chance to get in on their scheme or idea this week, thoroughly consider what this could mean for you, they could possibly be embarking on a financially worthy project – one that will benefit both you, and them mutually.

Your ships are setting sale, and you are moving away from who you were in the past, and this is always going to feel quite unsettling. Do not worry about the people that you feel may not make it on the journey with you. Those that were supposed to come with you, will find their way to board with you, those who are not supposed to embark on the next part of your journey, will be removed in due time,  in a specific way. That is not for you to be concerned about. The weight of the things that no longer serve you may indeed be getting you down, but I promise you, that this is just the shedding process. You have a bigger vision, and a bigger destiny ahead of you now, do not be afraid to tap into your highest order.

If the shadow self is pulling at your hinges and asking you to worry and stress about everything, talk to it in the same way that you would soothe your inner child, tell it that you have got this, and there is nothing at all to worry about..

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

 

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading – 25th -31st July; Transformative flames.

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Main theme – five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – ten of cups, Masculine – Strength, Nine of cups, The sun, Feminine – King of cups, Eight of swords, King of pentacles.

Before I begin, I would just like to note once again, that this reading is not limited to those who identify with the term twin flames alone, and high level soul mates should find great solace in these readings. Once again, the terms masculine, and feminine are actually interchangeable, and not always dependent on one’s gender. A woman may identify with the masculine side, perhaps because she is the masculine energy in the relationship, and vice versa.

This week, we may find ourselves engaged in several arguments, conflicts, disagreements, and flares of the egoic self. We have reached a point within our journeys where we are ready for change, and bursting to excel, so the only left plausible response, is to rub up against our shadow selves.  The only problem is, we find ourselves in conflicts and disagreements with the shadow selves of others – the shadow nature of theirs, that mimics ours.

You need to check in with yourself seriously this week, when you find yourself engaged in a back and fourth tug, as depicted by the five of swords. All you want to do is to make that journey accross to the light, but the law of balance dictates that you are not merely a light being, you are also very much shadow (ego), and this still causes you some discomfort. The trick is to never get rid of your ego self, but rather to become aware of your shadow self, which is like the bruised part of your ego, so that you can bring to it some illumination, and healing.

Be very observant of who you find yourself in conflict with this week. Is it your mother, your brother, your sister, or your father? Perhaps take some time to look at the ways in which you are much like them. Do you have a habit of taking on more than you can handle and then playing the victim? Are you passive aggressive, holding on to thoughts, feelings, and then poisoning others with your bitterness as a result? Are you guilty of co-dependency? Perhaps relying too greatly on others for your own happiness, and self satisfaction, and then when they cannot provide you with the support that you need, you drown into the depths of despair?

It is important to become conscious this week of your self perpetuated habits and patterns of defeat. More than likely, it is these specific patterns, and templates that cause drama and friction within your highly developed soul mate (twin flame) union.  The five of swords can also represent an internal battle within yourself, and to shift your thoughts. 

Both twins this week, are very sick and tired of battling themselves, and housing their own demons within their minds. Enough is enough. This is the week of getting down to the root of the problem, and trying to kill it. The ego will always exist, but the shadow self, does not have to. The ten of cups being what occurs for both twins this week, suggests that even though they are battling the last remains of their shadow consciousness, their sights are still very much set of emotional satisfaction, and long term achieved goals, and happiness. This is actually the basis of their clearing out this week. They are able to pull themselves back much more easily, and check in with themselves to acknowledge when they are acting out of programmed patterns, or the lower self. This makes re-union far more reachable, as it is these underlying patterns that restrict us from accepting love, and giving love in a way that is more free, and independent of past wounding. 

Over on the side of the masculine, the inner conflict within him, is allowing him to emerge more victorious. He is gaining greater control over his emotional impulses, and reactions, because he is balancing himself out, and recognising where they arise from. His battle has been long, and hearty, but becoming honest with himself about his lower nature, and his own insecurities, is providing him with the exact liberation that he required as depicted by the sun card. This is his inner child, learning to run, free, and wild, without judgement. Many of those carrying largely masculine energies spend most of their lives trapped within their minds, worrying about being logical, making the right decision, and appearing a certain way, as not to get taken advantage of. Ironically, the biggest struggle of all, is the battle within their own minds, and the battle to conquer their own lower nature, it is the inner beast that poses a threat, and this threat that manifests in the outside world. The strength card shows his dominance. Perhaps strength has come to take on a new form – resilience, self awareness, and honesty with the self, a new kind of freedom, and strength that he is embracing, because he has worked very hard for it to come.

The nine of cups shows the sense of completion that comes with him figuring himself out, and becoming more honest with himself. He is free to be who he wants to be, because he does not have so many pre-conceived notions about what it means to be masculine, and what it means to be strong. This is a much lighter energy presenting itself to him, things are getting better, he is finding that he is completing his old cycle, and beginning an entirely new one – one in which he is more in control, because he is more in charge of his emotions. The only thing that he can hope to control is himself, and this gives him a greater satisfaction than trying to control everything around him. He is learning that his behaviour has a direct influence on the world around him, and what he sees. 

This week, he has learnt a vital lesson in self acceptance. 

Over on the feminine side, we see that not only has she grown more accepting of the masculine traits within herself, but she is also still very much thinking of her masculine twin. The king of cups represents harmony with the masculine side that exists within, and without her. Emotional balance, acceptance, and equilibrium. The king of cups is both masculine, and feminine – at his best. Perhaps the feminine once feared confrontation, particularly confrontation of her own habits, and self defeating beliefs, because this would mean facing the possibility that she was a ‘bad person’. Now, her consciousness level has elevated, and she has freed herself mentally by accepting that to look deeply into her darker nature, does not mean to accept that she is a bad person… We all have a dark side, and the very thought of not being as well rounded, friendly, or perpetually polite as people expect females to be, once caused her mental anguish, and conflict between who she was.

She is learning this week the importance of speaking your truth, voicing your concerns, and not keeping everything so trapped within the mental realm, and boarded up in her mind, because this leads to passive aggression, conflict, emotional, irrational outbursts, and taking things far more seriously than they need to be taken. When you voice your concerns, as they appear, you are not necessary being confrontational, and aggressive, but you are valuing yourself as a human, and also valuing the person who you are expressing yourself to, enough to be honest with them. There must exist a healthy balance however, as presented by the king of cups, one must be able to express their concerns in a way that is not riddled with blame, shame, or guilt. This is the, ‘I appreciate you, and I love you, but I felt this way when you acted like this..I would appreciate it if next time you could….That would really make me happy’, instead of, ‘Why do you always do this? I am so sickened and hurt by you..This is just like that time last year when you… This is not fair… I do not deserve to be treated in this way..’ See the difference?

With the king of pentacles, the balancing of the masculine energy – drive, determination – raising to the challenge, is paying off in a major way, because her finances are about to take a turn for the better. She is gaining recognition for who she is, her sheer determination, and her desire to persevere and succeed no matter what. She is done with playing games, with being overly passive, and letting life happen to her – she is ready for this new dawn, this dawn of taking responsibility, and taking accountability of her life. Perhaps this also relates to healing a father complex. If she had a father who was once emotionally detached and always working, she may have associated such drive, and ambition with selfishness, egotism. Now, she knows that a healthy balance of self preservation, and self motivation is most necessary – regardless of how others may perceive this change in her. This is who she is now, and she is not about to let anybody compromise this empire that she is building.

She knows that this journey will come with hurdles, she knows that people will try to knock her down the harder she climbs, but this is all to do with learning that conflict can be healthy, and the true meaning of conflict, is to find resolve, no matter the circumstance. Conflict is all about crafting together a better version of yourself, only if one can be honest enough with themselves, to breathe fire through the friction. Fire transforms us, makes us bold, resilient, and wiser. She is willing to fight for herself, for her truth, and for her voice, now she knows who she is. She may still have moments of fear, and doubt, but this is just her clearing away the last parts of her shadow voice – because she is learning that it is nothing more than a hazardous spirit. Perhaps this week, she is finally feeling confident or prepared to go through with business ideas that she has held on to for quite a while.  Her views about the masculine are changing, she no longer views masculinity as so harsh, or penetrating, but rather, as the fragile, and sensitive being that he truly is at his center. Whilst she is learning to up her fight, he is learning to drop his, because he is no longer in constant conflict with the self. This is the balancing, and exchanging of the two energetic templates.

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~ 

 

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