Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.


Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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The structural break down of the family, modern day feminism, television, hip hop, and the psychology of culture.

Have you ever noticed how the structure of the family is broken down, consistently, and subliminally before our very eyes?
Look at most of the television shows that are available to us now. How many propose the narrative of a happy and secure family network? I am not talking about alienating, or ignoring the fact that even couples, and married people who are happy have the occasional arguments, and disagreements, but I mean a family dynamic in which both partners actually work at cultivating consistency.

And how about the shows that popular culture currently can not get enough of. ‘Reality’ TV shows, that are about as realistic and proportional to our lives as dinosaurs, a particular one that springs to mind is, ‘love and hip hop’.

Now frankly, I haven’t really had the chance to sit down and watch it myself, (which is probably extremely dangerous to proceed to talk about in journalism world, but anyway), from what I have heard, this is all about a show of cliches and stereotypes. The sassy black woman, who appears not to take any ‘bs’, Is Fiercely ‘independent’, (boarder line obnoxious), and strong, ‘portrayed as, irrationally angry’.

Whilst it features the stereotypical black male, as propagated by the main media outlets, suffering from a serious case of baby boy-ism, (a psychological condition that I have coined relating to the male psyche’s reluctance to accept his passing of age, and with this the coming of responsibilities, including reliability).

So the whole show spells train wreck to me, and as somebody who has had to take years to mentally decolonize from layers of the stereotypes, and subliminal programming of television, I have every idea how dangerous these perceptions and stereotypes are, and can be..

You see, it is not necessary what they represent, as it is the ways that they glorify what they represent.

The dawn of the divine feminine rising is upon us. And I believe that those in power knew very well that this time would come, so as they do, they tried their best to manipulate these energies, so even when they did arrive, they would be interpreted in a way that was not beneficial, or natural to the masses.

Example – main stream ‘feminism’.

Now, I place the term feminism in quotes here, because I am no longer sure of exactly what feminism is. Since arriving as a mass, sub movement, (to the assumed movement outside of the world of social media), the word feminism has taken on several sub denominations, and has become more of a cultural shift, than an actual movement.

Yes, many women everywhere are now completely taking charge of their bodies, of their rights for expression, and their desires to not only be seen, but heard.

But what exactly is the message that they are conveying?

Is it equality of a social, hirearchal, and cultural spectrum?

Well, I believe that it should be..

Or is it a ray of hurled abusive slogans, and the aggressive use of the female body to make some sort of statement about sexuality and power, that is often missed by the presence of faux pro-feminist men who are really just perverse undercovers, or by the next generation of impressionable young women who think that baring the flesh is the best way to claim your feminine sexual power.

Sure, in the eyes of many that is one way to view it. And after several thousands of years of oppression, perhaps it is even quite understandable that the femme wants to come back out in this way.

But where are the female empowerers who teach women to claim back their sexual power using the psychological reconstruction of the mind? And not just the image of the flesh. As sexual malice, and sexism is psychological, and in – fact not of the flesh at all.

Let’s face it, the sexualisation of the female body is not only engrained in a sexist society, but is also engrained in biology. Shouldn’t the focus be on the matters that truly silence a woman’s divine essence? Such as those who have been sexually abused or manipulated. Some of whom no longer have the comfort within their own body to bare themselves in the name of self empowerment. And even if they did, wouldn’t this sort of take away from the whole, ‘my body is mine, and I am taking it back’ theory?

Sexual passive aggression, which essentially this is, is not to be mistaken for sexual empowerment. There is a clear difference. 

So how does this relate to the break down of the family?

Ah yes, so traditionally women have been the home, and the peace makers, keeping everything together – some may argue that marriage even disadvantaged them in this way, and is no longer necessary, but human beings are social animals, we thrive on our ability to be able to build, and sustain stable communities. It is imperative for the survival of man kind. So what does this mean for man kind?

Sexual liberation is fantastic, it means the potential for  kundalini awakening, and healing. But what about when it is used to prove a point? That, ‘I can do exactly as men do’. ‘ I can adopt a masculine approach, and my inability for submission is strength’.

Now, let us not get me wrong, submission is healthy and necessary by both males and females in any Union, but once again, biologically, men are the hunters, and the chasers, and women tend to surrender to those who they deem a fit, and suitable mate. If the traditionally accepting, and surrendering counterpart refuses to submit, then who teaches the man to?

Who leads who?

Let’s talk about hip hop culture, which is now pretty much ‘THE culture’, and has possibly the largest influence on the societal and cultural distinctions of the entire world. It is popular culture, and thus manifests itself in various forms. It is the most profitable market as it stands, because it has become the definitive voice for what is cool, and what isn’t.

How does hip hop culture degrade the sanctity of the family?

What family? Since hip hop itself has cashed in on its own materialistic profitability, it’s message has slowly transformed from political, social, and cultural activism and education, to social, cultural, and mental annihilation, indoctrinating the youth with messages of superficiality, promiscuity, a disrespect for women, and a hazardous hyper masculinity!

Even if these men are going back home to their wives every night, by the time that they have finished recording, and airing their boisterous lyrics, much of the damage has already been done! And they become a daily, weekly chant for young impressionable minds who very often do not have other male remodels to shape, and influence their beings. Thus, the powerful effects of music, become self explanatory, and the narrative of these songs, become the narratives of their lives.

Hypermasculinity knows nothing of submission. In-fact hyper masculinity  is largely in relation to, and in fact, to blame for the version of main stream feminism that also refuses to submit! It is a classic game of tit for tat. And no side shall ever successfully win, until they realise that the resolution lies with integration, and not segregation.

The hyper masculine man refuses to take on the liberal woman, whilst the liberal woman refuses to accept everything that the hyper masculine man stands for – yet they are both fairly psychologically disturbed!

This may come as a surprise to some, but due to my own observations, those who have such an intense desire to be free from control and restriction, and use such overt means, are still carrying with them the pain, and the bitterness of times where they have felt, and have been powerless. In this instance, this movement is not based on healing, or taking charge, and is instead based on the consistent triggering of an unhealed wound.

Much is similar of those suffering from hyper masculinity. The majority are also the product of a severely old fashioned, patriarchal, emotionally submissive environment where they were taught to believe that emotions associated with women, and femininity were not allowed, or perceived as weaknesses, which is incredibly dangerous to the human psyche! We all feel pain, and we should all be allowed to access, and express that pain.

A society that raises men to believe that certain emotions are feminine, and inherently weak, is a society that teaches men that women’s emotions are invaluable, invalid, inferior, and a liability.

Let’s not forget to mention the subtle jokes, and hints that always seem to creep their way into films, media, and sitcoms. The stereotypes that marriage is one huge unhappy experience, that married people no longer make love, and that this unhappiness leads inevitably to infidelity.

Marriage is not a death sentence. Love is not a death sentence. The break down of the family network leaves everybody far more suceptible and vulnerable to separation/division tactics, and also to the subtle insecurities projected of abandonment, and neglect, that are already so deeply embedded into the consciousnesses of man.

Perhaps soon, the ideal family template will be a thing of the past altogether. Children will no longer be born into the sanctity of a loving mother and father’s bond, who teach them not only what love is, and how to love, but that they are worthy of love itself, by default. 

Statistics show that the implementation of a healthy family structure at a young age, helps in developing future adults who know how to build healthy, and successful community networks, whilst thriving as an active member of their own societies.

We are already witnessing hook up culture take precedence over relationships, the idea of monogamy being questioned, (severely), and the topic of having a ‘side’ partner, weaned slowly, strategically, and satirically into everyday casual acceptance .

Cindy Anneh-bu © 2015

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A letter, from a father, to his daughter; much, much later. 

“I give you the world,
On a silver platter,
And I say that there is not a thing in this universe that I treasure more than you.
But already, that isn’t fair.
And I have placed so much glory, and storage on your head, and I expect you to live up to these false ideals.
I watch you closely as you play,
So delicate,
That every time that you step a little out of line, or I fear that you may be bruised, I swarm in, and I take you, and I keep
And in doing so, I teach you to be afraid of the world.
You watch the others, your brothers,
And you see how they play untamed,
Unscathed by the battles of the playground,
Free, to dance around and move as one with the breeze, grazing their knees, and rising to their feet with ease,
But when you try,
I ask you to come back, to stand by me.
And that is where you will always be.
If not by me, then in the grips of another man who will expect much the same of you, to keep away from the dangers of the world, to be frightened, to be his.

I tell you that you are precious,
And there is this thing between your legs that you must guard with all of your life,
And keep yours till somebody make you a wife,
And only then will you know glory,
I tell you only then, will your story be worthy.
With this same sacredness, I give you shame.
I pass you blame.
I tell you to cover your arms, more discretely, straighten out your skirt more nearly, and close your legs,
For men are watching,
I teach you to be prey.

And at the end of the day,

I return, and turn around,
And call you my precious little girl.

A letter, from a father, to his daughter.”

Cindy Anneh-bu


© 2015
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