Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.

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Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 3rd-9th October 2016; Awakenings, Subconscious revelations & Facing karma head on.

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Main theme – (Eight of swords), Four of swords, Five of swords, The sun, The star.

Numerological break down calculation – 3 – Creation, manifestation, communication, Birthing – 9 Resolution, karmic closure, Closing chapters, Healing abandonment consciousness, Duty & service to others through past experiences.

With the eight of swords as the main theme this week, & many swords cards prevalent, it appears that this week, we may be embarking on a depth of thinking, with a lot of mental activity, and pondering taking place.

Have you been particularly stuck in your thoughts lately? Unable to exist in the presence, and fighting a thousand thoughts per second? This is a pretty volatile time, you are on the precipice of change, much has changed, yet much still appears to remain the same. The eight of swords is a very karmic card, and can represent being trapped in our ego self – we have the feeling of being trapped this week with this card, only if we cannot elevate our consciousness a little bit higher to see that there is actually a lesson being presented to us with all of this over thinking. What appears to be over thinking is actually us trying so hard to break our karma, our karmic chains, and make sense of the experiences that have recently been highlighted to us to have been re-occurring.

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The sun card represents our AHA moment, & our desire for liberation from our past karma this week. We have been lucky enough to have been made aware of our cycles, and the ways in which we have played a helping hand in our karmic situations, & the mental chatter presented with the five of swords, is likely us fighting with ourselves about the parts of ourselves that we do not quite like, or do not know how to accept. As we dig into our shadow selves, and even deeper into our wounds, we find a lot of resistance, so it is important to be patient with ourselves this week about what we are discovering.

We are so desperate for the truth, because the hold that we have on the truth, is slowly breaking away, and deteriorating. New philosophies, concepts, ideas, and awakenings, have brought us to a stand still. So, what was all of that about before? Why couldn’t I figure this stuff out any sooner? What am I going to do now? And how do I make sure my life changes from here, and never goes back to the way that it used to be?

The four of swords represents intense contemplation, you may find yourself a little withdrawn from society or from others this week – and that is perfectly understandable. Watch out for headaches, and sleepless nights because of all of this worrying, & stress in the form of depth of thinking. It is advised to you at this time to try to get as much rest as possible, so that you do not suffer burn out. In your resting period, more information will come to you, particularly in the form of dreams, meditation, or quiet time. It is vital for you to actually find the answers that you seek within, and not from conversing with those who do not understand the monumental life period that you have arrived at. This is for you to decipher, it is time for you to learn to trust your own intuition.. This karma is for you to clear, for you to deal with, not anybody else.

There is definitely some harshness this week provided by the five of swords, and there may be a strong feeling that you need to cut some things away, or walk away from certain situations, & you may be conflicted about this, about what is actually good for you at this point in your journey, & you may find yourself toying with some ideas that previously caused you discomfort – this is highly normal as your awareness & consciousness expands.

The sun card is all about growth, & vitality, you are leveling up, a light is being shone on your darkness, & thought uncomfortable, it offers you the opportunity to re-arrange yourself, & bring harmony to your thoughts, so that you are no longer a prisoner of your ego self, karmic voice, or the shadow aspects, & wounds of the ones who came before you.

The star card, is all about having hope. Presented alongside the sun card, this projects the image of complete & total awareness, balance between light & dark, what we know to be true, & what we do not know, are actually merging. The lines of polarity are slowly blurred & this should help you to loosen attachment on the things that you hold so closely to your heart to be true. There is little point over thinking or obsessing over matters – you will never know everything, you will never have all sides to the story, & you are not supposed to. You are not God, you are not in control, you are only here to experience & to enjoy the journey ahead.

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The star card suggests that though things may appear bleak or dark right now, they will even out & find resolution over the next few weeks, the night is always darkest before the dawn. We are exploring the depths of our subconscious, & this is quite like a dark night of the soul, so it is absolutely so important to not resist all of the changes that are occurring, despite how uncomfortable they may seem. Think of the sun card as the rebirth & resurrection – Christ consciousness; no longer judging yourself or others, because you have come to the realisation that ‘sins’, or rather the dark side of yourself, & others, is a very necessary part of existence in itself. Holding onto old philosophies is so futile – be aware of negative self talk that is not actually yours, but speaks of abandonment, & low self worth, as this is likely translating to you templates & wounds that have existed within your ancestral DNA for centuries..This is what you must clear. You change your karma by realising it does not belong to you. It belongs to the matrix, & is only a product of fear.

The more fear that you have, the more karma that you own. 

You will find yourself slipping in & out of the conscious & the subconscious mind this week – so do try to remember to stay conscious when you return, because you will probably have made sense of something through your meditative, or exploratory state of being.

The 3D grip that the world once had on you is loosening, as you quickly realise that conflict arises from within, & manifests outward as your experiences. This is not a time to feel powerless, but rather to rise from victim consciousness. Whatever has brought you out of this illusion has not been intended to hurt you – but rather to open your eyes. 

This week, your focus should remain on walking away from the fight or flight response. Instead of feeling the immediate compulsion to run away from the thoughts that you do not like, why not instead face them & face your fear of feeling fear. Your perception needs a complete revamp, & the sun card arrives to liberate you from yourself. A new self is created through the abandonment of the smaller self – the societal self – the fearful self. A more awakened you knows that destruction & creation is now like a drug. Harmonising your shadow self with your light offers you a burst of creative energy because it clears intuitive blocks that are caused through fear & suppression. This is the inner child tasting freedom, being allowed to come out of itself a little, & feel the sun on its shoulders. 

Why so fearful? When the world is so abundant..It is better to live the life that you always imagined yourself living in childhood – free from restriction, before all of the programming that you inherited. The star card is also indicative of balance – balancing your earthly duties (financial matters & ego self), with your spiritual duties, (understanding the voice of the soul & nurturing the feminine desire to heal).

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy.

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Society; smoke and mirrors, the unspoken silences.

  
I say that, life is a stage+everyday we wake up+prepare to brave the outside world, we are actively taking apart in theatrics. This is the very way of society. The person that you are when you are alone w/ yourself in the evenings, is not the same person that you are when you are among your societal peers, or members of the general public. + why is this? Well, if you felt that you could be the same person that you are whilst you were home alone, then you would be that person. The very notion that we have to alter, mould+trim parts of ourselves for acceptance is indicative of the fact that we are not truly at home with ourselves in society, because society does not allow you to.

We all have our darknesses+our sadnesses, but what separates us is the way in which we deal with these traumas. Some people choose to hide behind multiple masks.The greater the facade, the lesser the chance of being identified as wounded it seems. So in order to hide the bruised soul, must become more ego, greater ego, louder ego. The soul screams, ‘I am hurt. I am unsure in myself’. The ego echoes, ‘I will buy this clothes. I will take these pictures. + the world will know of my beauty. The world will think that I am the best’. It is a viscous cycle of seclusion. We seclude the facets of ourselves that really demand our attention. We silence them+shove them into a bottomless pit day by day, gracing the world w/ expensive clothes, with laughter, with grandiose delusions.+ this creates a society who are ran by a dog eat dog mentality. If you are to be the best+the most beautiful+the most worthy, then ofcourse, you must annihilate all competition. In order to do so, to be the alpha of the pack, you step on the backs of those who you perceive to be beneath you. If they look like the fool, then you do not have to. This is how a bully’s mentality is born, another vicious cycle. ‘The bully’ archetype begins very early on, as early as nursery school. This individual experiences malicious behaviours at home from their care givers, but instead of responding to their own pains, mimics the evils that they see, + carries them out into the world.
I myself am not perfect, but nothing means more to me than being a good person..The focus shouldn’t always be on where you are, who you are, or who you have been, so much as it should be who you strive to be & the efforts that you so tirelessly lend to being that person..Day by day. Minute by minute. Hour by hour, you are creating yourself, you are creating ripples within the universe, that send ripples of equivalent energy back toward you.. The laws of change/ exchange, as above so below, the very balance that keeps existence in order. Because nobody can hope to be entirely perfect, or free from their own delusions – it is a request non fathomable, unconquerable.

Don’t let people make you feel bad because you are not perfect, or have not lived a perfect life & have behaved in less than perfect ways… This is the story of human kind – imperfect by nature, because perfection is an illusionary, elusive & rather grandiose concept if you ask me. If we want to speak of true perfection, which I perceive to be a thing without flaw, or worthy criticism, then I think of the divine.. The most high, who we are all a reflection of, but who we are NOT.

People & society in particular attempt to control you using your imperfections & your mistakes like a dark cloud looming over you.. Never allowing you to dare to dream or be more than what you are.. God forbid that you realise you are a divine sparkle of the most divine essence & energy.. No longer will you be so easily manipulated or indoctrinated by the powers that be. So they make it so that your past mistakes & your ‘karma’ will continuously be held over you, & roll off the tongues of those who speak of you.. But it is all a fallacy, because they too are filled to the brink with illegitimacy, & inherent evils of the paths on their trials..

This does not make them bad, no. This makes them human. To be human is to journey, to grow, to learn.. For the ones who are granted old age, it is in our ‘wise years’ that we grow most humble, most loving, most accepting.. It is when we are closest to reconnecting with our maker, that we realise all at once.. The only truth is love & the only gain, is knowledge.

Forgive yourself. This minute. For all of your evils – no matter how evil. Start from there.

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To progress, is to leave behind, to say, goodbye.


Isn’t evolution the most amazing thing ever? Though we can sometimes find ourselves in confusion, as we drift away from people, and wonder what this means for us. This is a sign of progression. When we raise our frequency, the frequency of the past will begin to cause friction with our new found enlightenment. Once you change your surroundings change. When you find the love in yourself, all of those who do not love you will become apparent, very fast!

This may appear confusing, at first, and your ‘better’ (egoic) judgement will probably tell you that you are being disloyal, or too hasty, but your soul knows that this is just what you require for both peace of mind, and mental, emotional, and spiritual expansion.

Think of it in terms of energy, those associated with the energy that you once embodied, can only vibrate at a certain frequency, almost as if they are programmed to do so, when with them, naturally, your frequency will try to align with their own, in order for both frequencies to harmonise, (understand, and know one another), in this instance this is you making yourself smaller, and minimising the true capacity of your energetic vibration.
You are allowed to be brand new..

And do not ever allow anybody to tell you differently.

When we allow ourselves to grow, and to change, we begin to discover new parts of ourselves that we were not even aware existed. Mental and spiritual evolution can not occur unless one constantly removes themselves from their place of comfort, and explores greater depth.

I am a firm motivator, and a believer in the phrase, ‘know thyself’, but once one has come to know themselves, I believe it is their great duty to embark on a journey of self improvement. Now you know, you know what works, and you know what doesn’t, so it is time to place emphasis on what does, and slowly begin to tweak out, what does not.

It may be painful, and even stir anxiety at first to ponder the prospect of leaving behind what you know, but think of it this way, this world of 7 billion is thriving, and there are souls spread out across the entire galaxy who hold clues to who you truly are, and who you should be in this time, and this place.

You must expand your boarders far and wide, spreading your infections, and contagious energy to all of those who so desperately require your hand. There is love yet to be discovered. There is happiness yet to be uncovered. And all of this awaits you keenly to stumble across it.

You can leave the mistakes of the past behind. They can become a mere figment of your imagination if you just allow them to.

If you come from traumatic, or troubled beginnings, why do you think that this must be your story? Why do you think that you must stay here? You must’nt.

Your consciousness, is your reality.


If you were to move today, to an island, thousands of miles from where you are now, and you were met with warm sea air, and sweat trickling playfully down your back, and friends sat surrounding you and an open flamed fire, how painful would your past be? How annoyed would you be over the friend who betrayed you two years ago? The narcissistic lover who broke your heart?

My guess is, not very. And why? Because your reality, is your consciousness.

Your consciousness, is your reality.

At that moment, you will only be conscious of paradise, of the new friends that you have made, and the sea that sits Infront of your view.

This is what I mean when I describe leaving the old behind, and embracing new frequencies, frequencies that match your own temperament.

If your consciousness consists of the old friends who were caught in a loop of your old traumas, then so shall be your reality.

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