To love one; who belongs to another..

I still find myself being too drunk on love – the one thing that is never enough, that there is never enough of.

And I do not want to lose myself, to the many hells that we call vulnerability, but somehow, on some level, I know that it is not meant to be – I know that it could never just be you, and me.

We are so young, so rebellious… We have the entire world ahead of us;

Inconsistencies, at our disposal.

Love, good love – I did not want to fall in love when I met you; I wish that you would not have come too soon, for my heart; it is so harsh,

It is so greedy, so needy, and now that I have clutched you in my seems, I should want to make dreams of you… But you leave, because you have an entire world outside of us – and you will never be for us… The God Lord, he prophesied his belief in the holy trinity, man, wife, and child – nowhere in there, did he speak of infidelity…

We are scorned, before our love is even born. – Cindy Anneh-bu

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Twin Flame (Divine love) Weekly Reading 18th-24th July; Ships coming in.

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Main theme – Three of cups, What both twins are dealing with – Four of swords, Masculine – Six of pentacles, Ten of pentacles, King of cups, Feminine – Temperance, Nine of pentacles, Four of cups.

Before I begin, I would just like to note once again, that this reading is not limited to those who identify with the term twin flames alone, and high level soul mates should find great solace in these readings. Once again, the terms masculine, and feminine are actually interchangeable, and not always dependent on one’s gender. A woman may identify with the masculine side, perhaps because she is the masculine energy in the relationship, and vice versa.

This week, it appears as if both twins are in for a break, a period of some fun, laughter, sunshine, happiness, and time spent with loved ones. The three of cups is a card of community, communication, creativity, and manifestation. This being the MAIN theme for both parties this week, does show that there is a desire to live life on the more lighter side of things. The energy is clearer this week, far less dense, so it enables both twins  to be able to enjoy themselves a little more. The four of swords, as ‘What are both twins experiencing’, is all about the twins deciding that they no longer wish to carry so much heavy karmic debt within their minds. The four of swords speaks of rest, mental rest most importantly, and allowing the psyche to heal, and make peace with what is, and what was. There is a strong desire this week to create the type of happiness that they seek, instead of just waiting for it to fall inside of their laps.

Perhaps, they have been a little secluded for a while, and now they are ready to unveil themselves unto the world again, including all of the gifts, and the magic that they have to offer. The three of cups may mean that they are realising just how valuable they are in terms of playing a role, and being apart of the community spirit. Things are going GREAT for them this week, people are in awe of them, they are looking more beautiful, they are more pleasant to be around, and because of this, they attract much more goodness, and grace, and happiness, and abundance into their lives.

So, this week, both twins are kind of going through the exact same thing. With the six of pentacles on the side of the masculine, we see that he is getting some kind of compensation, or pay back for some hard work that he has been putting in. Life is finally being fair to him, he is less worried this week than he was last week about his financial payout, and stability.

The ten of pentacles shows JUST how stable he is this week. He is working on building some type of solid foundation, and with this foundation, he can get ready to embrace a new start, and this new start can include within it, anything that he wants it to. This is the ending of his financial troubles, and the beginning of a new period of abundance for him, and this is likely what enables him to be able to re-enter his community, and have all of these fun times, and happy ventures. Perhaps he was so closed off before because he was so worried about his financial situation. He did not know what he was going to do, or which way he was going to turn, so how could he have fun?

I feel that this marks a period for him also where he can be more giving, more loving, and more affectionate to others, as shown by the King of cups. This king, is a very balanced king..Financially, emotionally, mentally, he is not clouded, and he is able to provide, because he is provided for. This is what we have always wanted for the masculine, but when somebody is strained, or stressed about money, and about who they are, there is no way that they can be in a position to be giving, or open at all..

Now, he can relax, and he can be a little bit more vulnerable, he can be a little bit more of himself because he believes in himself more. Money is very important to the masculine’s image of self identity, and this is healing a bruise within that he had about his self image. He is much more fulfilled this week, more generous, sweet, open, and much like his old self. I feel this is a more playful version of him, one who is more in contact with his heart, and his intuition.

Over on the feminine side, she too is striking luck with some financial abundance! The 9 of pentacles is very similar to the 10 of pentacles, and actually, is just but a breath away! The only thing that separates these two cards is, whilst the 10 of pentacles suggests the ending of one cycle, and the beginning of another, (likely to do with finance), the 9 of pentacles is more like a rounding up, or a summing up, rather than an ending, and a beginning. This is the culmination of something that the feminine has been working very hard towards, and now it is finally all coming together.

Perhaps this was her vision, of her future, of her career, of her finances, of her long term goals, and achievements, but she is really excelling this week! Finally, she is getting some recognition that she deserves, and this is making her feel very good about herself. She is proud of herself, because she knows JUST how hard she has worked, even if nobody else knows it. This is her reward for the service that she has been putting in, and in this 9 year, I feel that this speaks of much more to come for her. This is also related to karma, she has really earned this good strike of luck through making internal changes, and changing her fortune. This is the type of abundance that has come from going on a journey, picking up lessons along the way, and staying on the intended path.

The four of cups cards suggests that, even though she is having all of these fun times with friends/family/social settings (three of cups), she is STILL missing something, still thinking of something, and still looking to something – And I believe that this something, is her masculine twin. She is longing for him this week, yes, the noise of his energy is even louder than all of the praise, and attention that she is getting. The cup held by the king of cups, is actually the cup that she is waiting for.

She is like, ‘Hey, now, I have my life in order..I can FEEL that you have yours in order, so what are we waiting for? We need to just come together, and see what we can build’. She is really thinking about love this week, young love, playful love, intimate love, because now she is more at home with herself, she is in a far better position to love in the RIGHT ways, and she has a lot of love to give. Things are going wonderfully, and she just wants to share this, and magnify the beautiful elated feelings that she has been feeling..

The temperance card arrives to ask her to have faith in divine order, and guidance. The angel presented in this card too presents a cup, of fresh beginnings, love and fantasy, but I do not see that he is quite ready to give it. He wishes for the feminine to stay on her path of hard work, and creativity, because it has more to give her. If she were to stray now, or potentially lose sight of her focus, she could be placing everything she has worked so hard for in jeopardy. So, at this time, she is asked to listen to her intuition, because it is guiding, and comforting her every second, and actually..This longing that she has, is giving her extra fire, and fuel for her creative work, she is channeling the masculine, they are both tapping into one another, and providing each other with that JUICE, that fire! When everything does come together, as a whole, it is going to be beautiful, so do not stress that, but do not stress divine timing either.

She has JUST been given a reward in terms of her karmic, and financial destiny, yet she STILL wants all of her Christmases to come at once..Lady, haven’t you learned anything? The 9 of pentacles shows the beauty of progression, of waiting for the harvest, this is what makes this all that much more enjoyable, and worth while. Why do you want all of your ships to come in at once? Don’t you want to savour, and enjoy them, individually?

I think that because she is focusing so much on the lack of this specific cup returning to her, she is magnifying its distance, when truly..The distance is not that great, and she knows this – deep down, it is closer than ever! She has cups being offered to her from every single direction, yet still, her eyes are wondering, and her faith is wavering. She just needs to learn to TRUST!  She has worked on everything else, but this..

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

 

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading 11th-17th July; An offer, of growth, Feminine Interventions.

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Main theme -Page of cups, What both twins are dealing with – The emperor, Masculine – seven of wands, The star, Four of cups, Feminine – Ace of wands, Six of pentacles, Temperance.

Look how far the twins have come, this week!

With the main theme presenting itself as the page of cups, we can be prepared for a highly emotive week, of intuition, and revelation alike. This week is pretty much centered around the masculine twin, his embracing sensitivities, and his emotional tug of war.

Yes, there is a war this week occurring within the divine masculine, and the feminine feels this tug all too well. Whatever it was, a memory, a fleeting glimpse, an odd sound or synchronicity, something has reminded him this week of his beloved, and he is counting the ways that he may have wronged her, or wronged himself.

The seven of wands is indicative of this internal struggle, and tug of war within him. One part of him desperately wishes to reach out to her, and offer some sort of solace, but the other part of him things, What will I say? What will she say? What will come of this? Am I ready? Is this even the right time?

He is a bag of nerves this week as he contemplates what a return would mean, and if indeed there is even anything left to return to..Highly emotive this week, the feminine may not necessarily understand where her looming dissatisfaction is coming from. Something deep within her is stirring, it does not feel right, and somehow, she knows that it has something to do with her twin, yet she can not quite figure out what it is.

Perhaps synchronicities that disappeared for a long time are now returning, familiar dreams of the masculine, or playful jittery heart fluctuations that take her back to a time with him..Nostalgia rears its ugly head heavily in this week, and starting off with an 11 day, there may be a very strong pull to initiate some type of contact with one another, or check one another’s social media handles..

The emperor occurring for both twins this week suggests how heavily both twins are focused on turning their lives around, and getting everything in order for themselves. Both twins know that in order to be valuable assets to any relationships, be thy personal, platonic, or romantic, they must cultivate a certain inner strength, independence, and stability, as shown by the presence of the emperor. This week is very much about tying up lose ends, and stepping into the role of the victor, the conqueror, the one who exhibits spiritual strengths.

The hope card arrives to assist the masculine with his inner tug of war, he is far too focused on negativity and everything that can go wrong in his mind, rather than just taking action, and seeing where his intuition leads him. The four of cups speaks of his inner mourning, solitude period, and reluctance to look at the bigger picture. Traditionally, the figure in the four of cups card is focused on three cups in-front of him, and misses the huge cup of emotional fulfillment, and new beginnings that is being offered to him by the hand of opportunity.

This speaks of the masculine this week focusing on the irrelevant matters of the situation.  Perhaps there are three parties somehow involved in this union, and he considers how it would effect each, and every one of them. If only he would turn his head to see that his decision to go forward could potentially lead to a new beginning in love for the both of them, then he would take the initiation necessary

to move forward.

Perhaps he is worried that he can not offer her enough growth, that he has not yet built himself into a sustainable source, and will not be able to provide for her in the ways in which he desires. He is looking over at the feminine who is presented this week by the ace of wands, and the six of pentacles, and seeing just her how renewal of spirit is serving her in most profound ways.

The six of pentacles in combination with this card is all about the feminine finally reaping the rewards of all of the hard work and effort that she puts in. This is not only in regards to her career path, and her sense of self worth, but also her ability to motivate herself in the right directions, and use her gifts to aid her, rather than to weigh her down..How inspiring she looks to him who still wonders somehow if he could ever be enough for her graces..

The six of pentacles represents FAIRNESS, no longer putting in more than she gets out, the feminine this week is learning all about stability, and the in put, and the out put of life. Moving away from the martyr complex has allowed her to take on responsibilities that can aid to her growth, abandoning things that offer her little reward, or too much stress. She has learnt how to value herself, and this was all that the masculine needed, to regain faiths in her..

The temperance card also arrives this week to further offer the feminine the assistance of balance, and moderation.  Everything that is to come to her will do so, as she comes to herself. This is a lesson in understanding, and appreciating the type of love that she attracts. If she nourishes herself first, and focuses on her own well being, others will recognise, and acknowledge the amount of love, and respect that she deserves, and treat her accordingly.

Self love and self respect is the gift that she is reclaiming this week, and channeling all of her messages, and emotions in the right direction. She is learning what works for her, and how to make it work for her. Balancing her earthly responsibilities, with her motherly duties, and self care duties. Even if she has no children, she is the eternal divine mother to all of creation, and she is connected to all things, great and small..This allows her to no longer feel so disconnected from her purpose, or her place in the world.. This is all about others standing up for her, because she has finally learnt how to stand up for herself.

All along, this journey was about loving herself..

 

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Monthly Life Path Reading For All Life Path Numbers; Liberation, and inspiration. – June 2016.

Hello my lovelies! Because this reading is so late, I have changed the focus question from what should we be expecting this month? – To what themes, perspectives, lessons and messages should we take from this month in order to make next month better.

If you do not know your life path number yet, then just try my trusted method.

Add your entire birth date together, until you reach a single digit number, unless the sum of your birth date comes up to the numbers 11, 22, or 33, in which case – you do not need to simplify them once more because you are one of the master numbers.

Example – 10 December 1992

(10+12+1992) =  2014.

2+0+1+4 = Life path number 7.

General monthly reading – What was our focus for this month of June?

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Queen of swords, King of swords, Eight of swords.

Wow, so this month we were in our mind space ALOT. With two powerful representatives sat side by side, the queen of swords, and the king of swords shows that this month was really a bout liberating ourselves mentally, especially from this theory of entrapment that continues to manifest itself within our lives. This is about balancing, the marriage of the oppositional minds – You cannot escape your mind, so you have to find some harmony in there, somehow. The king of swords represents this clarity – knowing what to do to lift, and relieve your mental suffering, which is through being clear in your actions, and intentions, and expectations of others. This also represents growth, and maturity, you understanding that you cannot control the actions of others, or outcomes, you can only control the ways that you react to it. You got to know your shadow self a little bit better this month, and this does help you to keep an eye on your negative traits, and habits, including making things far worse within your mind than they need to be.

The queen of swords also suggests that this month you learned the importance of self expression. If you do not voice your truth, then how will others know how to respect you, and how not to cross boundaries? You cannot keep things trapped within yourself, because this is how negative experiences manifest. This also represents the balancing of the intuitive mind, with the rational, and logical mind. You realise the importance of both, so you really wish to organise yourself in this way. If you were once too harsh, this month saw you softening up a little, if you were once too soft, this month saw you sticking up for yourself a little more./

 

Life path 1(0). 

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Ten of cups, Two of pentacles, Justice.

This month life path 1, you were hit with some much needed realisations, and home truths. You spent a lot of this month realising, and sorting through what is really important. At heart, you are a family person, the heart of your community, and you take pride in standing up and caring for others in this way, but that has really taught you that you must be somewhat selfless in your actions – something that you were not so ready, and willing to own up to before. The ten of cups speaks of your desire to cultivate a happy family home, and to find some type of happiness that is deeper than day to day chores, and responsibilities. You need balance in your life. Perhaps you realise that your focus on money has driven you to neglect other areas of your life, including who, and what is important to you, and now you are determined to do things by the book. Justice speaks of your willingness to make a few tweaks and changes to yourself in order to become a better person, and to be a better provider, listener, or carer to those who depend on, and love you. This is nothing more important than family, and loved ones, and you are really coming to this realisation, and break through this month.You are asking yourself the bigger questions, What really matters? Who am I? And what am I doing to make sure that I am creating harmony, and balance, and not allowing my mind to get the better of me. This is a time where you are very desperate to play by the book. You are done with sneaky, underhand, or suspicious roles, and you just really want to balance your mental/material desires, with what is right, and what your heart speaks to you.

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Queen of wands, King of swords, Ten of pentacles.

This month, my darling number 2, you really do NOT want to be the push over anymore. You do not wish to be the one who blindly accepts everything, and you realise the importance of voicing your truth, and speaking about what really matters to you. The queen of wands is this sense of awakening that arises within you once you learn to be vulnerable in the RIGHT ways. Yes you are very sensitive, but this does not have to be an ailment. You realise with the king of swords that as long as you express your needs, and wants, and you are clear about what they are, then there is no reason for wires to be crossed, or for people to take advantage of you. You are growing a little more comfortable with that balance in the sense that you can tap into your intuitive side, and you can gain access to your rational mind, without compromising the two. Balance has been the most important for you this month. This is also about no longer being afraid to ask for help, or admit that in the building stage, everybody does require some assistance. Perhaps you held fears about others coming in to your life to introduce instability, but now you have realised that actually? It takes more than one to build something of substance. You may be healing fears, and issues that you have about members of the opposite sex (opposite energetic attraction), and perhaps you are now looking for somebody to share your success with. Success is boring alone. You need to be more balanced. You need to admit that sometimes you do need taking care of, even though you are highly independent, and there is no shame in that.

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Ten of cups (reversed), Knight of wands, Nine of cups.

Life path 3 – Do you feel as if you keep hitting the goal, but missing the target? Are things not moving fast enough for you? Have more patience my love. The 9 of cups does suggest that in the back ground all is well, and you are reaching a period of resolution, and fulfilment, perhaps you just want all of your eggs, in one basket, and you want it now.You have been feeling highly motivated, and inspired this month, and that is great, and that is beautiful, but you need to take time in remembering that not everything falls together at once. Appreciate things now because they are in that process of working out, do not be so hasty to have everything mapped out – nothing works like that. And this may even be a divine lesson in patience. For some reason, whatever you have been building, whatever doors you have been knocking on, spirit says that you are still just not ready, and that is why these things have not come to you – not because they are not GOING to come. You have to direct your enthusiasm in the right way, or you will become overly cynical, jealous, and critical of others who are walking through doors that you believe you should be walking through. For next month, I truly suggest that you take a step back, wait, take some time to do more planning, strategise more, learn from others in similar fields, and do not take this as a blow to your self worth, or your capabilities. Remember, that every great person once started somewhere.

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Ace of pentacles, King of pentacles, Ace of wands.

Lovely number 4 – You have been quite fortune this month haven’t you? Quite the journey that you have been on. This planning, and organisation thing, you truly have down to nearly a T. Something that you had been working on for a long time, gave you some results this month, and you are truly feeling yourself because of it. You started an entirely new journey, and this mirrors not only your financial pockets, but also how you are feeling inside. You are feeling much more hopeful because of this, and you must know that this is a new beginning, and in order to maintain it, you have to remain true to your spirit. The money, and the abundance will grow as long as you are doing what you enjoy, and as long as the focus is not only on the money. Your status, and your wealth is changing, and improving, and whilst you are enjoying this, do not forget about the ‘little people’ who helped make this a reality. Do not get too big for your boots, remember this is the beginning, and if you are careless with what you have, you may not see longevity. This could be a new job, new business venture, a raise, a promotion, or a project that has absolutely taken off. You currently have the power in your hands, but I do advise you to delegate it appropriately. Like I said, do not get ahead of yourself, do not belittle anyone because of your new found success, and remember, that it takes a team to build a house on solid ground.

life path 5 june

Six of cups, Ten of pentacles, Nine of wands.

This month number 5, it seems as if you may be healing financial wounds, and fears about not being good enough, or not being deserving, that stem from childhood. The six of cups sees you revisiting childhood for some reason. Maybe the loss of somebody from childhood, or the triggering of a childhood memory, has caused you to take a look at your journey. How far you have come, and who you are now. The six of cups and the 10 of pentacles outlines your desire to create a shift from who you were in the past, to who you can be in the future. You really do want financial freedom, but this is only so that you can ensure that you paint the life that you have always desired. You are reaching the ending of a cycle, and you can manifest an entirely new life now, but you will need to be honest with yourself about the things that are holding you back. you claim to want this freedom, but are you free first within yourself? Or, are you still a prisoner of the past, and of your mind?

You could be receiving inheritance from a family member that passed away, and the 9 of wands may be encouraging you to stay strong on this beaten path.You could be experiencing a much needed break from all of the trouble, and the struggle that you have been through by landing a new job role. If so, it is really important for you to gain ever greater independence. You have been thinking about your own family structure lately, and you are quite determined to create the happiness, and the togetherness that you yourself have not known. Perseverance is your mission. You have goal, you have drive, you have determination, you just need to ensure that you are not letting the past interfere with you.

life path 6 june

Knight of wands, Wheel of fortune, Seven of cups.

This month, number 6, you have some changes, and shifts occurring for you. Maybe life long dreams are becoming more apparent, and more tangible for you to see. The wheel of fortune is spinning in your favour, and you have had all of these options, and realisations being made apparent to you. Perhaps you have been in the midst of spiritual transition, and awakening, as your path and your purpose becomes more clearer for you. The knight of wands is all about your drive and your determination to see manifest your deepest goals, and desires, whilst the wheel of fortune is the universe cheering you on in your quest. You have had this illumination, where so much has become clear to you, and where you once felt a little trapped, now you are realising how much is actually at your disposal, should you want it. Stop at absolutely nothing. This is the making of you, and after all that you have been through? My do you deserve all of this.. It is important for you at this time to be focused, and plan each step of the way. If you get a little bit too overwhelmed with all of the options being presented to you, you may just end up not hitting any targets, or not reaching for anything. Do not be aimless in your desire for success, and happiness, know where you are going, and go there with joy, and enthusiasm in your heart. I feel that this is karmic pay back arriving to you for much of the good work that you have been putting in, for yourself, and for others.

 

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King of swords, Four of swords, Six of pentacles.

This month, my fellow 7’s and I, had a lesson in CLARITY. The king of swords assisted us to realise just how poisonous it is to be passive aggressive. We have had a lot of internal fights, and conflicts this month, and this was mostly because of our issues with expressing ourselves appropriately. We may be known for being loners, but that does not mean that we have to push everyone away, just because we do not know how to deal with them. We spend so much time stuck in our head, that we can often forget to be grounded, so this month, did not tell us to get outside of our heads, but told our heads, to get outside of us! Say what we really mean. Voice our truth. Our mind can be a danger zone when we make up theories, and expect people to know what we truly mean. If our needs are not met, we can not blame anybody else but ourselves, if we have not clearly dictated these means, and boundaries. This month was about speaking up, or practising the unleashing of our throat chakras. The four of swords indicates that what we really needed to do this month, was to rest, and contemplate. Fighting ourselves, and fighting others is futile, and only leads to mental exhaustion. We have healing that needs to take place, in the form of just calming it down, and toning it down, not everything has to be an ultimate battle for survival. We will only find the stability that we need, if we first have stability within ourselves. The 6 of pentacles addresses our give, and take relationship. With the four of swords, this talks about not being a push over, but not being overly domineering either. It is important for us to find that specific balance. Know when to speak up, but do not feel so reactionary, that you always have to pick a fight. Learn to express, without being venomous.  Share with others, and allow them to care for you. Do not shut the world out, but do not let too much in.

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The sun, Two of pentacles (reversed), Knight of swords.

Life path 8, this month, you are all about taking matters into your own hands, and creating your OWN happiness. You are sick of being and feeling imbalanced, internally, and externally. You have devoted so much time to acquiring wealth, and making sure that you are financially stable, that often you have forgotten to nurture yourself emotionally, and mentally. The sun card arrives to tell you to be a little more care free. Do not be so worried about instability. This comes from a place of fear, and you will find yourself working even when working does not fill you with joy – just so you do not have to face the demon that is LACK. Well..Surprise, surprise, what you are doing, is still deriving from that exact demon of LACK. You are fearful about not being enough, so you work yourself to the bone. Calm down. Enjoy the sun, Summer is coming, so maybe let your hair down a little, book a holiday, and actually see it through. Do not cancel because somehow you believe it will cut into your working time, or interfere with your career. Stop being boring – life really is for living. The knight of swords is all about you charging forward with actions once you realise what it is that you have to do. You realised this month, that you have to find some balance, because you have been over worked. Now that you know what it is, you need to ensure that you make some vital changes.

 

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Judgement, Knight of pentacles, Six of pentacles.

So this month, number 9, you had the chance to really look at your TRUTH. Who are you really? The good,.and the bad. You may have become aware of certain aspects of your shadow self that you were trying to suppress. The judgement card indicates this stripping of you so that you can come to see the reality of your situation, and your actions. Were there fears that you held about not becoming good enough, that actually kept you from expanding, and excelling yourself in many ways? Now, with the knight of pentacles, you are really looking toward a new horizon in terms of finance, and career. You have had a little boost of energy, and inspiration since you have done this soul searching, and realised what it is that you need to accomplish. You really want to be involved in service work, whatever you do, you want to feel like you have EARNED your money, and you are making a difference. In order to nurture others, you do need to nurture yourself, but not to the point of being oblivious to others needs, and wants. You need to be very honest with yourself at this time about your inability to be fully open, and receiving. You could be shutting off some of your blessings by being reluctant to be vulnerable to the truth of who you are. Your work purpose likely lies with healing, but you cannot step into this role fully, unless and until you are willing to heal the part of yourself that has doubts about who you really are, and what you should be doing.

life path 11 june

Seven of swords, Three of wands, The moon.

I am very proud of you this month number 11! You are making that LEAP into adulthood. The seven of swords suggests that even though you still may be looking back, you are only looking back in order to gain clarity about what is ahead of you. You have been mature enough this month to look at yourself in a light that puts yourself on blast. This is honesty about why your life situations, and experiences played out a certain way. Likely, you were not being fully true, or honest with yourself, about who you are, what you have been through, and what you truly want. The three of wands speaks of manifestation, and broadening your horizons. You have worked through a lot of the fears that you had about being too small, or being stuck in a sense. You may be booking a holiday, going travelling, or stepping outside of your comfort zone in some way. You are no longer interested in depriving yourself of life, and all that life has to offer, and this truly WILL reward you. The moon card suggests that you are getting rid of a lot of the delusions that you had about yourself, and the world. You are very powerful. And the world is not unjust. You create it, as you want it. This also speaks of your feminine nature becoming more conscious. You are allowing yourself to be loved more, and treated better by others, by loving and also treating yourself better. Perhaps this new chapter in your life has actually been triggered by you making peace with your more emotional nature. Emotions do not have to be bad. Your intuition is actually your best friend. Listening to your subconscious mind is healthy, especially when you make it conscious enough to heal you, and bring you truth. It is the suppression of this vital aspect of yourself that has previously kept you entrapped. Well done to you!

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The fool, Judgement, Seven of cups.

This month, number 22, you embarked on a new journey, and this journey was all about self realisation, and working through your karma. Whereas you previously may have shied away from working on your karma because you felt it would be too painful, you have been so much more honest with yourself this month, and it is paying off, because of how many doors that it is opening for you. Thank God you are a breath of fresh air away from the time where you once thought that you were cursed, and the universe was out to get you. Now, you are realising that what you thought was this curse, was really your own self perpetuated habits, and belief systems. This new journey that you are on, is going to allow you to see that life is full of enchantment, and wondrous things. You have the ability, and the opportunity to construct this life that you desire. You are the MASTER builder, please do not forget this because of stains of the past. You have to walk away from the past, and walk into the truth of who you really are. Look at yourself in a profound light. Do you really offer yourself the services that you wish others would offer you? Do you use your intense brain power to build, manifest, and motivate, or do you steer it toward mourning over the past, and looking back at what no longer is. You just need to be honest especially in terms of relationships, and past painful relationships. Why did they happen? What role did you play in their happenings? There is no victim of circumstances here. Rather energies were at play for specific reasons. The seven of cups arrives to show you that you can have a new beginning in life, and in love the moment that you want it, you just have to come out the other side of your realisations, and REALISE this.. There is so much on offer for you.

 

life path 33

The magician, Eight of swords, Ten of swords.

Life path number 33 – This month, you are arriving at the realisation that you do have the power to pull yourself out of your funk – and the universe has been showing you this using synchronicities, and signs that will make sense to you. You are the magician, powerful beyond belief, and capable of intense manifestation, yet you choose to play small sometimes, and just want to stay in your mind getting hung up on the things that you think that you cannot do, or cannot achieve. You are wasting valuable time, and with the 10 of swords, it appears that this is because of how unlucky you have been in love. In some ways, you have always sort of struggled with self esteem, and this relationship, or partnership has not helped in making you feel less than. Please know, that if you perpetuate these feelings, then you will manifest experiences that do back this up. Your powerful manifestation can go either ways. You can create great things, including yourself, or you can destroy yourself. You need to get up, and out of this victim, and poor me narrative. There is only one way to go when your heart has been pierced so severely, and that is up. But you must be willing to pull yourself up, and see your life blossom in these ways. Do you even believe that this is possible? Because if you do not, then nothing will really change. You do have this power. There are signs, and symbols everywhere for you to follow, so do not say that you have no idea where to start. You start with you. It all starts with you.

 

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading; 20th-26th June – Powerful healing and acknowledgement.

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Main theme – Four of cups, What both twins are going through – Eight of cups, Masculine – Eight of wands, King of wands, Seven of cups, Feminine – Two of cups, The star, The chariot.

Before I begin, I would just like to note once again, that this reading is not limited to those who identify with the term twin flames alone, and high level soul mates should find great solace in these readings. Once again, the terms masculine, and feminine are actually interchangeable, and not always dependent on one’s gender. A woman may identify with the masculine side, perhaps because she is the masculine energy in the relationship, and vice versa.

This week, both twins find themselves delving a little bit deeper into themselves, still. The four of cups is all about this period of self assessment, and self analysis. This is tuning out of the world, and dialling into one’s self. If the twins have previously been running from themselves, and running from their truth, then this week, is the week that they will finally face their own selves, their selves in totality – their darkness, their demons, and their light. This is no longer focusing on one aspect of the self, but rather the full version of the soul, and all of the things that the soul comes with. This is getting to know themselves on the most intimate level, so thankfully – this is the one thing that will bring them healing. Deep contemplation WILL bring overall understanding.

Such deep contemplation, and focus on the shadow aspects will lead both twins this week to mentally and emotionally sort through everything that no longer serves them, enabling them to let go. The eight of cups is the process of abandoning everything that is energetically binding, for negative reasons. The twins CAN see a new dawn on the horizon right now, and nothing is about to stop them from achieving this. They both want freedom at this point, and freedom looks like leaving the BS behind, and after everything they have been through? They are more than ready, and willing to do this – to go to battle FOR themselves.

The masculine this week has SO much information, and news rushing to him – this is all as a result of his self reflection, and self studying. He is beginning to piece together the bigger picture, the huge puzzle – why things have been as they are, and what he needs to do to get himself into the role of the king of wands. He is beginning to believe in himself again, and awakening to the reality of his spiritual heritage. The seven of cups is all about his spiritual process of finding, and identifying with himself. Delving deep into the self, and realising that he is pretty powerful all in his own right. The king of wands is awakening of the chakras, and aligning of each chakra. His sexual centres, are merging with his heart centre, (masculine, and feminine balance), and he is realising that this integration is most vital to his healing process, and also very vital in terms of his career.

Over on the feminine side, we can see with the presence of the two of cups that she is ALSO this week balancing her masculine side, with her feminine side, for a long time she has been what we would call hyper feminine, and this actually kept her from actualising her goals, and becoming the best version of herself, particularly career, and self image wise.

It was the masculine who triggered this balance, and awakening within her, but she is now becoming a power house all on her own, and taking that drive, and determination to be better, to the next level. She knows what she has to do now, and the chariot asks her to go RIGHT ahead, there is nothing holding her back anymore, not even herself, so with the chariot by her side, she is in control of her life now, she is in the steering seat, and she can go anywhere, accomplish anything, and make of her dreams what SHE wants. Yes, this is a very powerful position that she finds herself in this week, and I have never been happier for her..

The star card symbolises her sense of renewed hope. Things no longer appear so bleak, so cloudy, and so out of reach. She can see now that this was all a product of her mental state, and the limitations that she was placing upon herself. This is about breaking free from anxiety, and ACTUALLY challenging depression and low vibrational energies, as opposed to just allowing them to seep through, and merge with her..

 

Happy healing my sacred beings!

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General Weekly Reading 6th-12th June; Death, birth, journey to success.

 

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Main theme: Death, Surrounding cards – Page of pentacles, King of swords, The empress, Nine of swords.

This week, my dear lovers, we are dealing once again with the theme of death. Now, usually the death card does not speak of death in a literal sense, and actually points to life transitions, but this month, and this week in particular, I believe that this card serves a dual purpose. And we actually are too looking at themes of dealing with human death, physical death, and making peace with the people who we have lost in our lives. This period is very much about accepting divine flow, the ebb, and the flow of life, and coming to acknowledge how everything works in harmony with everything, even whilst it does not appear that way.

We may have lost people that we care about to physical death around this time last year, or perhaps it is that the fear of the topic of death is being slowly eradicated, as it is forced down our throats practically with all of the celebrity deaths this year!

However, we ARE also going through major life changes, and transitions at this point, especially to do with our shadow selves. We are leaving behind a lot of the thoughts, principles, and behaviours that keep us in lower vibration because we are finally coming into the awareness of how they control, and motivate our lives. In order to accept newness, and to bless fresh joy into our leaves, we need to free our palms by letting go of what already has been, and the desire to control what is. This is essentially what death teaches us – that we have no control. And this needs to be a way of life. This needs to be okay.

With the 9 of swords present, it appears as if we still have some fears, worries, and doubts about letting go, and about letting life flow in its natural sense. We fear that if we are to let go, there may not be any tight rope waiting to catch us, or we fear that our worst nightmare (loneliness), will reap its ugly head, and stay. So, this week is just about confronting that instead of fear, our shadow self can give into feelings of vulnerability. Feeling lonely is about to start not feeling so lonely..Especially when we realise that we are never alone. We have an entire universe inside of us, and we may do with it what we please. All of the angst and the worry about being too much, being seen, and being accounted for, will melt away this week. You have big dreams, big goals, and big visions, and you have to throw fear out the window in order to step into these super size shoes!

The page of pentacles speaks of this fire power that you have. You have the manifestation potential to be just as powerful as you have always dreamt of being. You already have the seed of an idea planted, you just need to stop procrastinating, and let your intuition guide the way. Voices in your head are telling you where the real success is it, where you should invest, and how you should expand your business. Listen to this, this is all to do with this process of transition and transformation that you are starting to experience.

Hey, if you want to stop playing small..Then you’re going to want your bank account to stop playing small! The page of pentacles may also be news you are receiving, or a sign of how well your business venture, career enterprise is actually going at this time. This may be the well needed recognition that you have been waiting for, or maybe this week, you will be told by the right person that you have just what is needed for their company/business! Think big, and go right ahead!

The king of swords represents this clarity that is with you at this time whilst you are figuring out who you are. You are beginning to see what serves you, what holds you back, and what people, and places contribute to your moods, and belief systems. In this way, you can eliminate previous aspects of your ‘karma’, because you actively avoid feeding into old scenarios, and stereotypes. You know what you need to do. And you know where you need to go, the only person that can really trip you up on this journey now, is yourself.

The empress can be representative also of birth, and life, fertility, once again playing on the theme of death inviting newness, and higher states of awareness. Birth is a shamanistic experience, that truly does elevate a woman’s consciousness.

But judging by the authoritative presence of both the king of swords, and the empress, you actually are fast coming into the belief that you are somewhat royalty, somebody of prestige, deserving of special treatment, or recognition, and sure enough, you are willing to work to prove this. You may be purchasing some new clothes this week, truly feeling yourself, or perhaps you want to experiment with your hair, your make-up, your physical features, all in attempts to physically articulate the internal and mental changes that are taking place…You go right ahead baby! THIS IS YOUR REBIRTH.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings..

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The secrets of love; Why do we do it?

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We all want love. It is the one thing that keeps us all awake at night..Even if we do not know consciously, that it is love that we seek. The absence of love, is pain. So, before we are even old enough to recognise, we mould, and we merge ourselves in order to be receiving, and deserving of this kind of love.

I find that those who have come from abusive backgrounds, tend to carry the years of trauma, neglect, and abuse that sit on their shoulders with them throughout their lives, because their psyche cannot make understanding of the fact that they were denied something so vital, especially to such tender years of one’s life. Not only do we all want love, but we all NEED love.

So, what does that mean? Do we all NEED to be in a relationship? Do we all NEED a partnership? When the fruits of our parents love is no longer (or never was), significant enough, what does that mean for us in love? Are humans by nature destined to be coupled, consistently, and consecutively?

Well, my answer is..Somewhere in between no, and possibly. I do not believe that we always need to be in relationship with somebody, even as a highly sensitive, love infused empath. And actually, I believe that this theory that we, (especially women), must always be part of a partnership, is very damaging to our self worth, self love, and right to be autonomous in this world. Sure, relationships do shape you, in a major way, and you grow, and come to realise more about who you are from romantic relationships, but I also have found that you can lose yourself, to your own desire to be accounted for.

A relationship should not define who you are. Some marriages, and romantic connections do last ‘forever’, the duration of your life time, but about 50% of them, will go bust at one point, and what will you be left with then?

I am not saying that just because a relationship did not work out, means that it was useless, pointless, or a waste of time, because far from it actually – It is our disconnections with romance that cause us to really delve deeply within, and figure out more about who we are, and what we want from life. What I am saying is, you can not rely on a relationship to prove that you are worthy of love, worthy of appreciation, or worthy of recognition.

For a long time, as I ran away from myself, and ran into the arms of numerous other lovers, I thought that I was learning about love. I thought that I was learning how to love myself. My self love was dependent on the men that could love me, if they could. If they did, or showed me something reminiscent at least of love, I would conclude that this was because I was valuable somehow, and them recognising this in me, allowed me to also recognise this in myself. This is the classic story for so many insecure women, and people battling with their own self esteem. Like I said, we all want love. We all need love. And if we have been deprived of it, in anyway, we will set out to seek for it, and we will always set out to understand why it was not previously granted to us. This is the make up model of abusive relationships, and how dysfunction in love perpetuates itself.

Even when the abused are abused, or treated far less than they should ever be, it is their one single quest to understand why this is happening to them..Why this has been happening to them, that keeps them tied so tightly to this illusion of what it means to be loved.

We settle in love when we do not know who we are. We do not necessarily care who they recipient is, as long as there is somebody to project our love on to. This is NOT love. Especially not on our part, and this is what we need to realise, whilst we are still insecure, and uncertain of ourselves. We wonder why we love others, and they do not love us back? This is because, we do not love others..We only think that we do.

We want them to prove to us that we are worthy of love, so from the minute that the relationship is off the ground, it is not about, ‘us’, it is not about, ‘we’, it is not about ‘them’, it becomes, about you. It becomes selfish love. And there is nothing about love that can remotely be selfish.

It is such an interesting term and a concept love, isn’t it? The way that we throw it about in everyday ordinary life. Giving it so much power yet simultaneously so much triviality and sensationalism. But how many of us even know what it truly means? I sure do not..I know that it exists.  But like all things mystical, spiritual, and not of a tangible frequency, it exists in feeling, in thought, in knowing, and not in proof, or logistics or measurements. This is what makes it so special. There is no seeing is believing.. There just is. And that is what is so frightening about it.

Most of us do not know how to love because we have never been taught how to love, but this does not stop us from trying anyway, so on we trod, with our hopeless idealisms, dreams for a better tomorrow, and stereotypical television depictions of what we should be doing..Ah, I adore humans, I love human kind.. We have not a clue, but we are so determined to..

Anyway, so on we trod, projecting our unmet issues, and unresolved family history/karma on to other unsuspecting souls, for the most part, even unbeknownst to us. So, we destroy a few hearts in the process, damage a few people on our journey, and near enough dent ourselves past the point of recognition, and for what? What does it all mean? What is it worth in the end? In the end, when you have to let go anyway?

It is worth, you. It is for, you. Love is the greatest teacher, the greatest lesson that you will ever know. And I will not be here today and tell you to be strong, to move on, to stop missing the ex’s who made such a huge impact on your entire being. Why, I have not. So why would I advise you to? If I were over all of them completely, if I had forgotten every single last trace of them, I promise you, I would not write the way that I do today..

They taught me, practically gave me my spirituality. Made it so that I needed no books to teach as I do now, all I need was a memory bank. If you are raw, bruised, and cut open over love, be this way.. I guess, in your own special, sordid way, it is your destiny. Not to be hurt, not to be abused. But to learn from the instances where you are hurt, and you are abused.

Let us hope, you will become so desensitised to the idea of being unlovable, that you will begin to heal. Because, there is only so much that a person can tell themselves that they are unworthy, before they grow sick of their own lies.

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