Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.

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Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 26th September-2nd October; Shifting states of consciousness, and the journey to balance.

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Main theme -Seven of wands, Surrounding cards – The wheel of fortune, Ten of cups, Three of swords, The world.

This week, for us all, marks an absolutely tremendous change! And I am sure that we have all felt it coming for a long time..So much shadow work has been occurring for us within these past few weeks, and especially this entire month in general, and what a magnificent way to wrap it all up! Libra season; all about balance, particularly the balance of the two inner wolves, and the month of October, the number 10 – signifying the ultimate balance, between life, and death, creation, and creator, masculine, and feminine! Boy, are we in for a ride! But we have done all the work! Why not enjoy it? For we have definitely endured it!

Numerological break down of the week – 26 (2+6=8) – The number of karma, abundance, and breaking karmic patterns – 2 – The number of balance, co-operation, lovers, and resolution.

The main theme being the seven of swords relates to us experiencing a final spiritual break through this week, cultivated around our resilience, and the lessons and the wisdom that we have gained through our trials and tribulations. We are coming up this week much stronger than we have ever been, and this is actually because we have not tried to fight our way out of our struggles, as we have in previous years, and our desire to succeed shows this!  Spiritual strength is apparent to us this week, as we have braved the many storms, and the often chaotic lessons that September has tried to articulate to us.

We are not bruised, or beaten down as one would think – rather we have developed a new widened perception from our experiences, and we are truly coming into alignment with the hum of the universe – the fact that everything does indeed happen for a reason! Particularly the not so pleasant things. This is all about internal change, and internal growth, and emerging a more determined and structured version of ourselves. 

Finally, we are granted the opportunity to see why, where, and how we have been going wrong, with the wheel of fortune, which symbolises a recognition of karma. Perhaps we have been involved in a romantic situation this week, or a painful family situation this week that highlighted to us some of the karma that we have both been creating or perpetuating. We are much at an advantage when we become aware of our karmic bonds, because then we can effectively work to break the cycle, and re-program the parts of our brain where they exist – which is exactly what the month of September (9) was all about! This is MAJOR awareness of past life karma, maybe somebody held up a perfect mirror to us, of who we were, of our own darkness, and shadow self, and the ways that we have been holding our own selves back.

The three of swords represents us transcending old wounds, past painful karma, and releasing stories that no longer serve us. For so long, we have been OBSESSED with this story of pain, we have clung onto it for dear life, and made it the basis of all of our life’s themes, and experiences!  This week sees us healing these ancient and primal wounds of abandonment, and neglect, by realising how we have been abandoning, neglecting, and depriving ourselves, first and foremost. We really are creators, particularly creators of our own destiny, so there is no longer the desire to ask, ‘Why has God forsaken us?’, when we are actually playing God when it comes to the direction, and the beliefs in our own lives! The true question stands, why have YOU been forsaking YOU?

Breaking karmic chains, means opening ourselves up to abundance with the presence of the 10 of cups – the number 10 represents balance, both endings, and new beginnings, when we become aware of the detriment of one cycle, we open ourselves up to a new journey, and a new beginning. This is the process of allowing abundance, and good faith to come to us by believing that we deserve it. Expansion on a mental level breathes space for expansion on an energetic, spiritual, emotional, physical, and financial level also! When we play small, and entrap ourselves in stories about being undeserving, we will actually live a life that re-affirms this back to us!

The world card continues with the theme of ending one cycle, and beginning another, so this week is definitely symbolic of a mass karmic turn around! Opening ourselves up to all that the world has to offer, saying goodbye to a cycle of pain and deprivation, and allowing a rebirth to occur. The image in the world card seems to be transcending this earthly plane through balance, and entering a new dimension – which is actually very similar to what we are all experiencing this week, on a mental, and spiritual level! Entering 5 dimensional consciousness, – unity with the all that is, and the exiling of separation consciousness. As your awareness expands, so does your spiritual experiences, and capability. You are opening doors for anything, from enlightenment, to spiritual guidance to occur! The gateways are now WIDE open! 

The 10 of cups also represents the confidence, and the willingness to go after what you want!You are now focused with establishing strong foundations for the future, so that the past does not repeat itself! 

The three of swords indicates that you may indeed experience some heart chakra activation, awakenings, or openings this week, that may feel uncomfortable, or mimic heart break, worry, anxiety, or sorrow. This is just your emotional, and energetic awareness center expanding, and is like the final phase of the initiatory crisis! The final battle cry of the wounded soldier, before they surrender to death. Think of Christ calling out one last time, as he lay on the cross, before surrendering himself to death, and inevitably re-birth.

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Dreams, & ascension.


Dreams & ascension.

Why are dreams so important particularly during periods of immense growth, new beginnings & ascension towards ones soul missions?

Our conscious awareness is limited – vastly limited. Everytime that I explain that the ego & mental perceptions deter us from recognising the truth of what our soul needs us to recognise, I am trying to elaborate that the things that are known & cannot be taught to us, already exist within our subconscious.

Our subconscious knows all, & the dream world will reveal to us through vital symbolism, everything that we are missing from the bigger picture & everything that we must incorporate to heal ourselves. 

Through decoding what our dream worlds & subconscious minds are telling us, we can effectively implement the type of change that is required.

Documenting dreams through times of change will show us how far we are on this journey, & why we are experiencing what we are experiencing.

For instance, dreams about death during this time, highlight to us that we are shedding old skins & letting go of ancient stories about ourselves.

Particular animal totems reveal to us what archetypes our soul is trying to integrate – eg cats, reveal to us our feminine energy is under transformation.

Understanding these themes means understanding what aspects of you are either resisting, or embracing this change.

Dreams at this time will be particularly vivid, slightly confusing, adventurous, & will likely contain some very random faces – but what we must decipher, is WHAT & who these faces represent to us & how they are challenging us to access our higher selves. 

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General Weekly Reading – 15th- 21st August 2016; Letting go, Letting out.

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Main theme – Nine of swords, Surrounding cards – The wheel of fortune, Three of pentacles, Four of cups, Five of cups, Queen of swords, Queen of swords.


There is a LOT of mental activity occurring for us this week, with a lot of us finding ourselves stuck in our minds, and riddled with anxiety over the past. However, fear not, as the presence of the wheel of fortune tells us that we are still dealing with our karma, specifically past karma, and this is likely our egos putting up one huge fight as we move towards expansion, and rapid manifestation, as depicted by the three of pentacles. 

Past healing, childhood healing, and learning better coping mechanisms as a response to trauma, is VITAL this week, as we are revisited by our worst fears. Our fears, of abandonment, and neglect. The five of cups does suggest this has been such a prominent theme within our lives, looking back at the past, and mourning over all of the people who have left us… We fear, will this happen again? Will this continuously happen? Is this our birth script?

As i mentioned, this time is very, very paramount for manifestation, so i do suggest seeing the bigger picture here, things are changing for you rapidly – the three of pentacles suggest financial expansion, teaming up with others who recognise your talent, and creating profitable, and inspirational things within your field. You are still so worried, and looking back at the past, but all of these things are in your head. Because the number 9 represents completion, i DO see this as you completing this cycle of worry, and stress. Apart of you DOES recognise the changes that are occurring beneath the surface, but you also feel as if things may be too good to be true, particularly based on how things turned out in the past. 

The four of cups is suggesting that you are not seeing this new beginning in its entirety, or appreciating it for what it is, likely because you are still so fearful that it will all be snatched away from you..This is where the queen of swords comes in. The reason that you become so overwhelmed with your thoughts, is because you do not express yourself enough. Vocalise. Do not be a victim of passive aggression. Let things out – create, express, let go, release, you have so many people who could benefit from your experiences, from what you have to say, from what you have been through, so why are you wallowing around in misery?

Spread the word, educate, ADVISE, be there for your fellow community members who need to hear about your experiences. Perhaps this week, you may dabble in public speaking, spoken word poetry, you may write a book, podcasts, soundcloud, ANYTHING that enables you to get your voice out there, to use your experiences in a powerful way, that heals, not only you, but those around you. 

Do not allow things to stay stuck in your mind. Get them OUT! Dance, perform, write, cry, get it all out! But one thing you must NOT do, is keep everything stuck at a mind level, giving yourself headaches, and unnecessary stress. This is all energy, recycled energy coming back to you, ancestral energy, karmic energy, energy that needs to be released somehow, so do it some justice, do us all a favour, and let this energy go.. 

Your little self is very fearful right now, and intimidated by change, so it is CLINGING on to past memories, and clinging on to perceived pains, and judging everything, and everyone that comes in its way, and creating mental blockages, and havoc, like ‘Oh no, he’s gonna be just like everybody else’., ‘I know that I said I would get out there more, and be sociable, but she only talks about herself, she;s not conscious enough for me, she’s not gonna understand me’.. Bla, bla,bla! All of this NONSENSE, attempting to stop you from venturing out, and stepping into new territory. You need to get used to it baby love..Because the karmic energy right now, is PUSHING for you to expand, manifest, and move forward, so your little self needs to just take a back seat, and fall ALL the way back, because all of this niggling fear, and doubt is not even cute anymore..We have been there and done that. You do NOT know the full story, so please, stop bs’ing yourself, and everybody else.

People are recognising you this week as somebody who has successfully broken karmic chains, and they want to know you, and they want to align themselves with you – and you better let them, because you all have things to teach one another. You can all heal together. It is really important to make strength out of all of your badness. Laugh about it. Make jokes about your anxiety, give advice to others about how they can defeat their negative self talk, just transmute, transmute, transmute! Somebody from the past may be returning to you this week with a message – to tell you why something worked out in the way that it did. They too see your progress, so do not worry about their return.. You have bigger fish to fry, like the people who are depending on you to deliver these messages, you are destined to deliver.. 

The wheel of fortune is changing gradually, so that you can see the change manifest before your very eyes, it is not going to happen at lightening speed, because it is working in tandem with you. The most high needs to see your progress.Needs to see if you really mean what you say. How far have you TRULY come? Now is your chance to show..

Calm the shit down, right now..Go meditate. Go write something. Go look in the mirror, and shake those hips to something funky…Get OUT of your mind. Let GO! Let it OUT!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading 1st-7th August 2016; Karmic work, soul deaths, and shadow healing.

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Main theme: Two of swords, Wheel of fortune, Justice, The sun, Temperance.

First of all, I must say, that August is going to be an absolutely phenomenal month for us all, should we do the work required – although this is something that I will go into with my monthly life path readings for August – those should be up and available within a few days!

August, being the 8th month in numerology, means that a lot of KARMA, and karmic relations will make themselves apparent this month. Expect a lot of things to return to you, and a lot of things that you may have started previously, even a few years ago, to reap their benefits within this month. You see the shape of the number 8? It very much resembles the infinity symbol, this is the symbol of life’s eternal nature, that things have a certain to, and fro, ebb, and flow, a cause, and effect. This is the month, and specifically the week of lessons learnt. We must keep an eye on our own karma, and the things that we manifest within ourselves, and without ourselves, whether good or bad, we have a lot of power, ESPECIALLY this month. We are dealing with new beginnings, that are not really new beginnings, because they carry a specific theme, themes that have been present to us throughout our journeys, although now, we will see how we have the power to change the course of our destiny… Second chances? Yes, something like that.

With the main theme this week being the two of swords, we will be taking a look at our decisions. This is the decisions that we have to make, and the decisions that we have made in our past. We are going to be feeling very reflective this week..And we may even find ourselves feeling nostalgic, we are searching for answers, and we are actually getting a lot of these answers, when we can still ourselves enough to listen.

We understand this week that the choices that we have made have accumulated our karma, and brought us to this stand point here. Where we currently are. Whether we like where we are or not, we will come to understand that we brought ourselves here, and we can take ourselves out. We have a very strong desire this week to put things right – whatever that means, we really want to do things by the book, the JUSTICE card speaks of our desire to attain balance, to seek truth, to speak truth, and to live in truth.

We are very conscious of the way that we treat others this week, and the effect that we have on the world around us – because of this, I do see the universe rewarding us, with some good karma. We have definitely worked for it, and worked at it, these recent weeks with all of the shadow work clearing that we have been doing. Do not worry if you feel that you still have a lot of ‘cleaning out your closet’ to do, we all do, but I assure you, that most of the efforts that you have put in recently, are about to be paid back to you.

The sun card is representative of the Leo energy that will be pouring in on the 2nd, with the new moon in Leo. This new moon is all about letting go of vital aspects of the shadow self, as Leo energy represents the sun, the light, and the fire shining through to pierce any darkness that still exists. This is very much a purification process, and the energy after this new moon has passed should be much lighter, more playful, more creative, and more blissful. This is the effect of the shadow self being torn down, the inner child can have more of an opportunity to shine through, and we can show our true selves.

If people from the past do return this week, or you are the person from the past returning to express your remorse to somebody, then you can be sure that you will be talking directly to this persons inner child. And they will have done a lot of clearing, and energetic work on themselves.

The wheel of fortune, in conjunction with the justice card talks about the wheel of fortune spinning in our favour. What you are experiencing now, what you are doing, and what you are working towards, was always meant to be for you. If your business is growing, if your career is taking off, if you are engaging with like minded people, this was all apart of your birth script. You are exactly where you should be at this moment, connecting with the people that you should be connecting with, and doing the great work that you were chosen to do. Things are coming together for you. You are getting closer to that which is the truth of your divine destiny, and all because of the shifts in perspective, and emotion that have taken place in these past few weeks.

This week, we are dealing with the themes of balance, once again as presented by the temperance card, which has made an appearance a few time in the previous weeks. This is much to do with the internal and energetic work that has been going on. We have been desperately working towards integrating our shadow self as a core, and useful aspect of ourselves. It is there to guide us, toward what we do not wish to be, and what we do not wish to manifest. Patience, and balance go hand in hand, as not all is given to us at one sitting, and not all is revealed to us at one go. This is minor revelations that will unfold gradually, as the week progresses.

The temperance card reminds us to have faith during the darker times of soul, and shadow healing, and encourages us to trust in the process, and not to get caught up in the messy parts of our soul evolution, which may very well mirror dark nights of the soul. The karmic wheel is actually turning in your favour despite how you may feel, and you are finally standing up to and confronting wounds that have been embedded within you since childhood.

The themes of right, and wrong, also present themselves to you clearly, as you are guided towards making the right decisions, this directly confronts your shadow self, because your shadow self holds an addiction towards steering you in the wrong ways, and hurting yourself, and others in the process.

This week, you must learn that your karma, is very much rooted in the choices, and decisions that you make. You may have a very important choice to make this week, or multiple choices that hold value to you, and you will be asked by spirit to choose the option that resonates with the light in your spirit, and not succumb to your shadow fears, or illusions of the self. You are far bigger than your wounds. Far greater than your darkness, and it is finally time for you to lay some ancient stories to rest.

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

 

To book your own personalised/private reading with me..Just send me an email at cindyanneh-bu@hotmail.co.uk and I will be yours in a flash! Readings can be received via email, skype, or face to face for those living in the area of London.

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The fallacy of healing.

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For those of us who have endured any type of deeply entrenched psychological, physical, emotional, or energetic trauma at some point in our lives, it is fair to say that we will always be ‘altered’ in some way. To be altered does not necessarily mean to remain faulty, as we are sometimes perceived as, as we battle with the after effects of trauma; depression, anxiety, insomnia, reclusiveness, in-expression, or otherwise.

To always be altered simply means that we will belong to a different category of people throughout our lives. A category of people who are perhaps more careful with their words, savour experiences a little longer, love a little harder, and bruise a little easier. But this should not always be looked at as an ailment. So, we are highly observant, so, we may  be a little too highly observant, and we may actually make mountains out of mole hills sometimes for the way that we search so deeply into things.

Can it not be said that we are gifted with divine vision? The ability to pick the ordinary  apart, and in it find something rather extraordinary? Well, truth be told, we are never exactly going to be normal, no matter how hard we try, no matter how many smiles we adorn, no matter how many normal people we can fool within a set time frame..

At the end of the day, once we return to our place of solitude, we will once again be these super sensitive souls, who hold on to our analytical, and intellectual ability as if our life depends on it. Likely, we have spent a lot of time alone, whether intentionally, or unintentionally, and we are rather attached to the way that things exist within our minds, and the perceptions that we hold about the way that the world exists.

This can be our ally, providing us with deep, introspective, philosophical, and highly perceptive insight into life’s greatest mysteries, but it can also render us too rigid, unwilling to accept new information that comes our way, or judging new situations, by old outcomes, and experiences.

I do not say that we cannot heal. However, I say  that healing can be difficult unless we are willing to release some of the perceptions that we have locked and bolted tightly away within our minds. For instance, the perception that somebody will always hurt us, or that somebody is always trying to insult, offend or undermine us.

Sure, perhaps for a lot of our lives, whilst we have shrunk ourselves, and played the victim, indeed others have latched on to this and exploited our lack of self esteem, but things do not always have to be this way. Not everything that somebody says is somehow intended to bring you down, or disarm you in some way.

Learn to separate constructive criticism, and caring advice, from belittling, and manipulation. However, if you have a gut instinct, (and not just an ego instinct), go with it.

It has taken me a long time to arrive at a place where I can let go of some of my anger, suspicion, and hostility, and hear what others around me have to say, truly HEARING them, and not just listening to the bits and pieces that I am searching for. If i recognise within myself an insatiable spirit, that just wants to be right, or just wants to be wounded, I separate myself from the conversation, and the situation, and give myself some time to view things from all perspectives.

However, some people may say that because I can still be triggered in old ways, I have not fully healed. And is this true?

Well, yes, and no..

In actual fact, I conceive that I have healed because I have a fully developed understanding, and acknowledgment of my shadow self – the part of myself that craves attachment to pain, and drama.. I am able to recognise almost instantaneously when I am acting from a place of the shadow, and pull myself back from this, and approach things from a different angle, or, if worst comes to worst, I am not afraid of damage control – being open, and honest about where I went wrong, and expressing my apologies. It is important to be honest when we make mistakes, or express moods, and  outbursts that can be energetically draining to others.

However, I view healing as something of a journey, rather than a destination, as I am constantly learning, unlearning, relearning, programming, and de programming parts of myself. Every day that passes me by, I learn more about myself. Honestly, especially within the past few days, I almost feel as if everyday is a quickening, a chance for redemption, and sweet revelation, and it is.

You cannot run away from the path of healing. Even when you claim to be fully healed, you will learn next week of something that still triggers you, of something that you have not yet fully dealt with, of something that you have carried through your childhood memories with you. The fallacy of healing is that it happens all at once, because the truth is, it does not.

Healing is truly a journey, and I do not believe that you ever stop unravelling parts of yourself in a quest to retrieve your lost soul fragments, and neither should you feel like any less of a warrior because you are not emotionally dead inside.

Our deepest sensitivities are our super powers. They are what grant us the ability to produce the potent art that we do, to create the love stories that only we could know.

Edgar Allen Poe was severely depressed, he would also go down as one of the greatest, and most intricate poets in history..

It is no secret that Carl Jung explored so deeply the concept of the shadow self, and owning one’s darkness, so could it be that he too fell into the same fate that plagues so many great, and wondrous minds?

There is something to be said about creative talent, and psychological affliction, and this is not me in anyway whatsoever glorifying mental illness. Because to be afflicted with the spirits of self doubt, negative thoughts, and traumatic memories is absolutely no gift. But, it is what is within us, even beyond all of our pain and suffering that is a gift.

I cannot say for certain what came first, the illness, or the passion – but I can say that in a cruel twist of fate, so cliche of the divine nature of balance, the two are intrinsically linked. And we have to do what we have to do. We cannot say that we wish to shut our eyes, and no longer receive intuition, inspiration, or beauty, so how can we say that we will away the things that push us to create, to excel, to destroy, and to become?

Do not allow people to make you feel guilty for mourning. You may experience your best day today, and crash once again tomorrow, this does not mean that you are not healing – this simply means that you are collapsing into your self, learning more about yourself, and how to make peace with your psyche. It is the struggle up against yourself to listen to your demons, being ever so compassionate with them, asking them, ‘What is it that you want now?’

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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