Full moon in libra – A balance between extremes, chasing natural highs.

Full moon in Libra -A balance between extremes.

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11th April 2017.

Numerological significance – The number 11 is much like a door way, or a connection to a higher state of being. Where ever the number 11 appears, so does an awakening, and an opportunity for us to learn even more about ourselves through past lessons. The number 11 can sometimes be lessons learned through pain, more often than not, and it can highlight to us where we may be out of balance, and sync with ourselves, or those who mirror aspects of us.

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Libra ruling balance, co-operation & harmony reminds us of the justice card in the taro.
Getting things in order financially, laying the soil, & the groundwork for what is to come.

Libra in terms of relationships can see us engaged in further self analysis.

In order to create a sense of equilibrium, we need to understand the part that we play.

It is almost as if time freezes, & the offset of mercury retrograde causes even further engagement in self observation.
Finding yourself in a meditative state does not always have to mean sitting on the floor w/ your legs crossed, & your index finger curved towards your thumb.

Meditation can be the thoughts that come to you when you refrain from acting on your impulses.

If your relationships have adopted a similar narrative for a while, then this full moon inspires you to assess why.
You may be triggered by, or encounter an experience that allows you to see where your peace is being shaken, or war models within you that make peace, internally & externally, difficult to maintain.

Logical thinking & critical analysis allows us to make mental improvements that benefit our emotional experiences.

The ultimate yin & yang, the libra is able to make unbiased decisions.

This full moon could highlight to us areas in our lives where we need to maintain balance between our escapism, and or idealism. Idealism is very different from escapism, because idealism can conjure plans, recipes, and ideas for greatness, whereas escapism can become the place that we go to to hoard all of these grand inventions, without ever actually seeing them through.

It could be time with this full moon illuminating to put yourself first, and focus on your own better interests, however, you are also reminded how going it alone can be performed to your own detriment. You will need the support and help of others along the way, however this manifests, it is important not to shut the world out. Co-operation is needed. You may not be best friends with everybody in the world, but this does not mean that you should not have allies.

Do not let your professional work suffer because you chase emotional highs in love. Perhaps it is highlighted to you how often you allow romantic relationships to get the better of you because you make them the sole basis of your own happiness.

However, since Libra is so keen on relationships, you are being guided to find the right balance, between catering to yourself, and not shutting yourself off from those who wish to cater to you.

As full moons focus on releasing, you may want to sift through the ways that you hold on to any resentment towards others, or any relationships that you could be holding on to that need to be altered so that there is more balance involved. Maybe you are too co-dependent, maybe you are too unattached, and this full moon is showing you that.

Pleasure, beauty, and grace is needed to appreciate life, but once again, we are also asked to consider that there are more trying times in life that will also require navigation. It is important to be able to remain clear headed and level headed enough not to be taken under by every slight occurrence, or every emergence of trouble.

Full moon releasing ritual –

You will need a journal to complete this ritual that I have come up with for this full moon in Libra.

Seeing as Libra rules balance, fairness, and justice in relationships, and areas of life pertaining to a community, or social group, single out one of your past relationships this week to analyse.

Write down the name of the individual you wish to analyse, and why you have chosen them. This works better if this was an ex that you were in love with.

Write about your feelings for them now.

Write about your feelings for them during the relationship.

Write about your feelings for them after the relationship had ended.

What made it end?

How did you react to it ending?

How did they react to it ending?

And what was your NEXT relationship like?

Likely, the person you would have chosen is somebody who had quite a significant impact on your life, and you may be thinking of them now.

Once you have journaled these things down, you also need to journal and recite to yourself that you release all of the painful lessons associated with this relationship, including some of the beliefs that it left you with about love.

You may write a letter of forgiveness to them, or even a note if you do not wish to divulge so much energy to them. Once this is completed, you may either burn, or rip up the note, signifying your willingness to depart from whatever energy the experience stored within, and for you.

Repeat as you see fit. – Perhaps there are few people you need to do this with.

Thoughts//affirmations to consider –

I am not the same person as I was when I loved this person.

I am not somehow less deserving of harmonious relationships than anybody else.

Though I am not faulty, I am willing to take an open and honest look at myself.

If I harm or misunderstand others, I do so to myself, therefore, I try to be objective when I need to be.

Happy full moon 🔮

Seek Cindy 2017 ©

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Twin Flame ( Divine lovers) Weekly Reading 24th-30th October; Back down to reality, Karmic bonds, The loss of love & the love of loss.

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Main theme ( Five of cups), What is occurring for both divine lovers (Ten of wands), Masculine – The lovers, King of swords, The chariot, Feminine – Four of pentacles, Four of cups, Justice.

Extra card – The empress – The empress is the birthing, and the creation of a new self this week, as divine counterparts have successfully completed one of their many missions. The alchemical process of exchanging energies. 

The terms masculine and feminine in this case refer to energetic templates, and are not gender specific. Interpret where applicable. Please note also, even though the title is described as twin flames, high level soul mates, (empaths) existing in soul mate connections), may also find these readings useful.

Numerological break down calculation – 

24th (6) – Childhood, past life, maternal care, parental care, abandonment consciousness – 30th (3) Magnified – Creation, manifestation, creativity, unity between the masculine, the feminine, and the shadow.

Alot of sacred lovers lately have found themselves caught in 4d consciousness, moments of spiritual awareness, and spiritual expansion that may have left us feeling almost as if we were living in a dream world – with our dreams being particularly eruptive! Insomnia, over sleeping, illness, and mental confusion was likely also a major part of your recent experiences. This week, we are clawing off the misty lenses of our spiritual specs, and coming back down to what is 3D consciousness. Still the same as it was when we left it – only one, we will not be able to exhibit the same models we practiced once before…

The 5 of cups represents emotional loss, disappointment, and mourning over recent events. Perhaps there was a recent break up, or a sudden break down in communication. We may be feeling cheated because of a situation that has not worked out the way we thought that it would, or this may pertain to some dishonesty – potentially the third party situation described in previous readings, (as the five of cups represents mourning over three spilled cups). We may be focusing heavily this week on the past, and resisting the changes that have presented themselves to us. Perhaps we became too attached to the idea of something supporting our emotional well being, only to realise that we have been neglecting our priorities, and emotional responsibilities to self. The five of cups may also represent shame, as the individual appears to hang their head low over the scattered situation. For this reason, forgiveness is a big theme for both divine lovers this week. Forgiveness of themselves, and forgiveness of their union counterpart.

The ten of wands describes a situation that became too much to handle. This is a defining point in our lives where we draw the line, and declare that enough, is enough. As the number 10 is symbolic of endings, transitions, and new beginnings, this could represent the month of October in which we have come to the realisation that we need leave certain behaviours, influences, and things behind. This may be in relation to the sacred union – in which one party felt that they were carrying all of the strain, and called time, or space on the situation. The ten of wands also represents letting go of internal baggage, and releasing our addictions to victimisation, or martyrdom. The ten of wands is about no longer being able to carry on in the direction that you were going, doing the things that you were doing. We have to drop some of the burden that we have been holding on to, and some of the ways that we have adopted, if we are to develop peace of mind, and truly gain access to a new beginning. It is not simply enough to beckon, or attempt to attract a new beginning – rather, it requires, and consists of participation, and some effort on your part. Change your internal, and your external will reflect who you are, what you allow, and what you experience. 

The feminine here may be shining the light for both divine partners to experience a karmic overhaul. Perhaps this is a wake up call for the masculine, as he recognises that there actually has been some loss here, and it is time for a change on a profound level. The number 10 stops us dead in our tracks, and we are forced to examine the extremes in our life. Nothing should be done to excess, but when we have no balance, we do not know the difference between enough, and too much. 

A more honest way of living is introduced here, as we recognise that this is one of the healthiest ways to live. Health is a major concern to us this week also, perhaps we are just over coming illness, or there have been health scares concerning our previous ways of living. It is true that it is time for change on many spectrums, and the way that we treat ourselves is under intense scrutiny.

The five of cups is also a card of change. As things change, and seasons fade, it is often common to dwell on the past, what might have been, and what could be. Winter represents a period of this type of darkness, where we are to be still, and accept the next stage of our lives as it confronts us. Putting up a fight is futile.. Change, like death, is inevitable.

Detachment is the practice this week. Finding balance between the things that we love, and the things that we can do.. Being a hero for your heart means sometimes, placing your mind above your emotional chaos. Unconditional love is the highest form of love to practice, and this goes with unconditional love for yourself. This is forgiving the self, and understanding the necessary growing pains that must occur in order for us to move on with our lives, and adapt to the demands for a purer way of being. All souls who are on the path of awareness must always face such monumental moments. 

Perhaps the masculine is abandoning his struggle with juggling too much. Too many issues, too many women, too much baggage.. Etc

The lovers on the side of the masculine speaks of his thoughts this week residing with this spiritual union of his. Perhaps he cannot shake the weight of guilt on his part. If there was a loss in this union, and the feminine tore herself away from him, then he is definitely dealing with the repercussions of her actions – although, somehow, a part of him admires the part of her that was finally able to be honest with him. He did not need the martyred version of you at that moment. It was a hero in love he sought.  The recognition of what has taken place here, and how he has played a part in it, is causing a stir in his spiritual awakenings, and foundations. The ego version of himself is being pulled into question. How much the ego can cancel out love. And how so often we allow it to..

The king of swords takes us into his reluctance to allow himself to be an emotional mess this week. He is still very much holding onto the part of him that wishes to experience his emotions through rational thought, and not through burdening himself with uncomfortable feelings. This is his resistance still to allowing himself to go too deeply, and too dark into the abyss. Yes, he is still dealing with his version of spiritual ‘karma’, but he is attempting to search for solutions, and using this as an opportunity to clear his mind. This means alienating the space that exists for his shadow self to operate, and focusing on getting the things done that must be done.

The feminine on the other side, appears with the four of pentacles. This suggests that instead of allowing herself to become entirely engilfed in the hardships of this period, she is attempting to turn her focus towards financial gain, and preserving her business ideas. Nurturing her career, is one of the ways in which she will practice self love this week – as this is a direct investment in herself, and her growth. She is not using work so much as an escape, but rather a reason to keep going, and to break out of the self imposed victimhood that she engaged in not long before.

The number four appearing twice for her;again with the four of cups is suggestive of the idea that the feminine seeks order, structure, and strong foundations at this point in her life. It is the only way that security of some sort can be grounded, if she first establishes this for herself. The four of cups represents many moments this week where she may find herself dwelling negatively on the situation, escaping into day dream over what occurred, and failing to see the positives in the situation that is before her.

Perhaps she is beating herself up about what she did wrong, and right, and how all of the events transpired. She may still find herself too caught up in 4D this week – the realm of over thinking, and over imagination, so, it is important to remember the four of pentacles for balance when this occurs. It is okay to find epiphanies through allowing your mind to wander about this romantic situation, but still, there are things that must be done, and things that must be built. There is definitely a new beginning being presented to her by the fourth cup extended in the traditional four of cups taro – however, the feminine will not be able to see this if she keeps getting lost in the details of what happened. There is a bigger picture at play here – even whilst it cannot be seen.

The chariot suggests an eagerness, and a willingness on the masculine to make a move. But what will this move be? I want to challenge my followers to something a little different this week.. As we are practicing the theme of detachment, I have decided to allow you all to discover your OWN individual outcomes for this week.. Alot of the ways in which we create attachment, and subsequently disappointment in situations, is because we attempt to weave ourselves around one specified outcome, and fall apart if this does not become our truth. The truth is  – there are several truths. Some divine masculine counterparts this week, will use the force of the chariot to continue pushing forward, and trying to keep the feminine by their side. The others? Will use the energy of the chariot to finally turn away – change direction, and embark on a new story…Sometimes, the heroine lies with the one who chooses to walk away, especially when too much damage has been done.

The justice card is the feminines final call for karmic balance. She says, ‘I did not even want to leave you’ ‘I did not even want to fall out of love with you’. ‘ I JUST want balance in my life! This is all about having ENOUGH, and not living on scarcity, internally, or externally. There has to be some sort of ebb, and flow, or life is completely out of wack, and this is a lesson that both divine lovers are learning this week. And the feminine, either directly, or indirectly, has triggered this state of awareness, and recognition within the divine masculine.

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy.

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Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.

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Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 3rd-9th October 2016; Awakenings, Subconscious revelations & Facing karma head on.

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Main theme – (Eight of swords), Four of swords, Five of swords, The sun, The star.

Numerological break down calculation – 3 – Creation, manifestation, communication, Birthing – 9 Resolution, karmic closure, Closing chapters, Healing abandonment consciousness, Duty & service to others through past experiences.

With the eight of swords as the main theme this week, & many swords cards prevalent, it appears that this week, we may be embarking on a depth of thinking, with a lot of mental activity, and pondering taking place.

Have you been particularly stuck in your thoughts lately? Unable to exist in the presence, and fighting a thousand thoughts per second? This is a pretty volatile time, you are on the precipice of change, much has changed, yet much still appears to remain the same. The eight of swords is a very karmic card, and can represent being trapped in our ego self – we have the feeling of being trapped this week with this card, only if we cannot elevate our consciousness a little bit higher to see that there is actually a lesson being presented to us with all of this over thinking. What appears to be over thinking is actually us trying so hard to break our karma, our karmic chains, and make sense of the experiences that have recently been highlighted to us to have been re-occurring.

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The sun card represents our AHA moment, & our desire for liberation from our past karma this week. We have been lucky enough to have been made aware of our cycles, and the ways in which we have played a helping hand in our karmic situations, & the mental chatter presented with the five of swords, is likely us fighting with ourselves about the parts of ourselves that we do not quite like, or do not know how to accept. As we dig into our shadow selves, and even deeper into our wounds, we find a lot of resistance, so it is important to be patient with ourselves this week about what we are discovering.

We are so desperate for the truth, because the hold that we have on the truth, is slowly breaking away, and deteriorating. New philosophies, concepts, ideas, and awakenings, have brought us to a stand still. So, what was all of that about before? Why couldn’t I figure this stuff out any sooner? What am I going to do now? And how do I make sure my life changes from here, and never goes back to the way that it used to be?

The four of swords represents intense contemplation, you may find yourself a little withdrawn from society or from others this week – and that is perfectly understandable. Watch out for headaches, and sleepless nights because of all of this worrying, & stress in the form of depth of thinking. It is advised to you at this time to try to get as much rest as possible, so that you do not suffer burn out. In your resting period, more information will come to you, particularly in the form of dreams, meditation, or quiet time. It is vital for you to actually find the answers that you seek within, and not from conversing with those who do not understand the monumental life period that you have arrived at. This is for you to decipher, it is time for you to learn to trust your own intuition.. This karma is for you to clear, for you to deal with, not anybody else.

There is definitely some harshness this week provided by the five of swords, and there may be a strong feeling that you need to cut some things away, or walk away from certain situations, & you may be conflicted about this, about what is actually good for you at this point in your journey, & you may find yourself toying with some ideas that previously caused you discomfort – this is highly normal as your awareness & consciousness expands.

The sun card is all about growth, & vitality, you are leveling up, a light is being shone on your darkness, & thought uncomfortable, it offers you the opportunity to re-arrange yourself, & bring harmony to your thoughts, so that you are no longer a prisoner of your ego self, karmic voice, or the shadow aspects, & wounds of the ones who came before you.

The star card, is all about having hope. Presented alongside the sun card, this projects the image of complete & total awareness, balance between light & dark, what we know to be true, & what we do not know, are actually merging. The lines of polarity are slowly blurred & this should help you to loosen attachment on the things that you hold so closely to your heart to be true. There is little point over thinking or obsessing over matters – you will never know everything, you will never have all sides to the story, & you are not supposed to. You are not God, you are not in control, you are only here to experience & to enjoy the journey ahead.

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The star card suggests that though things may appear bleak or dark right now, they will even out & find resolution over the next few weeks, the night is always darkest before the dawn. We are exploring the depths of our subconscious, & this is quite like a dark night of the soul, so it is absolutely so important to not resist all of the changes that are occurring, despite how uncomfortable they may seem. Think of the sun card as the rebirth & resurrection – Christ consciousness; no longer judging yourself or others, because you have come to the realisation that ‘sins’, or rather the dark side of yourself, & others, is a very necessary part of existence in itself. Holding onto old philosophies is so futile – be aware of negative self talk that is not actually yours, but speaks of abandonment, & low self worth, as this is likely translating to you templates & wounds that have existed within your ancestral DNA for centuries..This is what you must clear. You change your karma by realising it does not belong to you. It belongs to the matrix, & is only a product of fear.

The more fear that you have, the more karma that you own. 

You will find yourself slipping in & out of the conscious & the subconscious mind this week – so do try to remember to stay conscious when you return, because you will probably have made sense of something through your meditative, or exploratory state of being.

The 3D grip that the world once had on you is loosening, as you quickly realise that conflict arises from within, & manifests outward as your experiences. This is not a time to feel powerless, but rather to rise from victim consciousness. Whatever has brought you out of this illusion has not been intended to hurt you – but rather to open your eyes. 

This week, your focus should remain on walking away from the fight or flight response. Instead of feeling the immediate compulsion to run away from the thoughts that you do not like, why not instead face them & face your fear of feeling fear. Your perception needs a complete revamp, & the sun card arrives to liberate you from yourself. A new self is created through the abandonment of the smaller self – the societal self – the fearful self. A more awakened you knows that destruction & creation is now like a drug. Harmonising your shadow self with your light offers you a burst of creative energy because it clears intuitive blocks that are caused through fear & suppression. This is the inner child tasting freedom, being allowed to come out of itself a little, & feel the sun on its shoulders. 

Why so fearful? When the world is so abundant..It is better to live the life that you always imagined yourself living in childhood – free from restriction, before all of the programming that you inherited. The star card is also indicative of balance – balancing your earthly duties (financial matters & ego self), with your spiritual duties, (understanding the voice of the soul & nurturing the feminine desire to heal).

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy.

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Twin Flames (Divine love) Weekly reading 26th September- 2nd October; Awakenings, and role reversals.

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Main theme – King of wands, What is occurring for both twins – Eight of pentacles, Masculine – Three of swords, Ace of swords, The high priestess, Feminine – Three of pentacles, Two of wands, Justice.

Numerological break down of the week – 26 (2+6=8) – The number of karma, abundance, and breaking karmic patterns – 2 – The number of balance, co-operation, lovers, and resolution.

With the main theme being the king of wands, this week, both divine lovers are experiencing spiritual growth, and maturity, and opening themselves up to both admit, and receive the gifts that they have to bear. They are presenting themselves and their talents to the world this week, and no longer holding reservations about who they are, or what they have to offer. Going after their dreams, and proceeding in the direction of that which once seemed impossible, is the end goal for them this week.

The king of wands is bold in his endeavors. There is not a thing that he is unwilling to try, an obstacle, that he is unwilling to climb, and his creative influence is absolutely infectious, inspiring those who he meets along the way. With the eight of pentacles as what is occurring for both twins this week, this week, sacred lovers are most concerned with bringing something into existence. This is most likely something of financial prosperity, and something that enables them to put their creative talents, and abilities to good use. This may be the leap in faith that they have been waiting for – the go ahead to release that new project, finish writing that new book, or go after that brand new job opportunity. Whatever is occurring for them financially at this time, is truly happening on a spirit level. Once they break the chains that once caused them to play small, and be doubtful, the world is their oyster, everything is available to, and for them. Including the vital resources, and support along the way to ensure that their dreams actually do come true.

The number eight is also representative of karma, and breaking karmic restraints. This week sees divine lovers not only become aware of their karma, but also begin to re-direct, and personally alter the course of their energetic directions. Generating finance, new experiences, and showing the world the fruits of their mission. 

The king of wands no longer holds any guilt nor reserve about the spiritual gifts that he, or she has – a re-evaluation of persecution consciousness, no longer allowing the opinions, or judgement of others to stand in the way of their dreams. This may also be representative of the masculine fully stepping into his role as the divine masculine – embracing his fiery intuitive nature, and taking charge of situations that he once felt powerless in. This could see him displaying a sense of sensitivity & vulnerability by learning to yield it with empowerment consciousness – rather than allowing it to engulf, or destabilise him. No longer being ashamed, or repressive of his carrying of this unique, divine template.

With the three of swords on the side of the masculine, this week, he is experiencing some stress, worry, anxiety, and over thinking. Perhaps he perceives that the feminine is ignoring him, over him, does not want him anymore, or is not as interested in his advances. Although it may appear this way, actually, over on her side, with the three of pentacles, she is really focused on expansion, the expansion of her journey, on a physical, material, mental, and emotional level. She is just extremely about her career this week, and busy working on ways to establish her platform, and her portfolio. Perhaps in recent weeks, he has been the one distant, or ignoring her, and this has inspired her to take matters into her own hands, take control of her own dreams, and draw her focus towards something that she actually CAN control – her future. The feeling of helplessness that she has come to know, is no longer something that she is willing to entertain, nor put up with.

This is the role reversal we have been feeling happening on an unconscious level.

He could be making a gesture – proposal to the feminine this week, and may be worried, or slightly reluctant as he fears rejection, at the sight of her seeming lack of interest. The ace of swords is representative of this mental breakthrough that he will be experiencing. He has been stuck in victim consciousness quite a lot over these past few weeks, thinking excessively, pondering things over time, and time again, and giving himself unnecessary amounts of stress and confusion. This week, will see him snapping himself out of these mental loop holes, by instantly knowing what to do. Perhaps this is in relation to the feminine, returning to her once he has cleared his mind, and is thinking more in accordance with who he is, and what he wants. In deciding what he wants, he makes a gesture to articulate this to the divine feminine. 

Over on the feminine side, this gesture that has been made to her enables her to make a decision. She stands at a crossroads with the two of wands – decisions must be made, stay or go? The masculine returns from his slumber with a message, once he has acknowledged that this is what he wants, ‘This is how I feel. This is what I want. This is why I have been distant’. And although the divine feminine is still feeling him, and still feels the same about him, she wonders this week whether she can base her future on his seeming inconsistency – particularly as her focus now resides in stability, and longevity. 

He has spent the past few weeks beating himself up about his own decisions, and pondering his own future, and now he has finally decided, will it all be too late?

The feminine says, ‘Okay, that’s great that you’re ready. But I’ve taken this time to focus on myself, to cease co-dependent behaviours – to do other things’. This is all about the feminine facing a new journey that is ahead of her, endless possibilities are available to her as she opens herself back up to the world, and she will need to decide if this contains the masculine, or not, whether she can take him to the next stage with her – or not. 

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The Justice card on the side of the feminine is an indication of just how much the new moon in Libra will be effecting her this week..This is all about inner balance, the understanding of self, the re-writing of karma, the uniting of lovers, and achieving a steady equilibrium. She wants to do things by the book this time – in recognising her old karmic themes, she is very, very conscious this week of ensuring that things do not travel down old pathways. If she does end up accepting this gesture from the masculine, it is because she wants to, and not because she NEEDS to. She HAS been thinking of him, but he is no longer her only focus, as she becomes more concerned with asserting self sustainability, and ending the runner/chaser dynamic, through no longer running from herself, or ignoring her own intuition. ‘I do not NEED to always be chasing you. I would like to chase my dreams’.

The high priestess on the side of the masculine is symbolic, both of his thoughts of the divine feminine, and the internal alchemy that is occurring within him. He is embracing the divine feminine, this week internally, and externally, realising finally that he cannot quite escape her, or her clutches, no matter what he tries. He may see her name pop up, or synchronous reminders of her in the most seemingly random places, and something within him will tell him that this is not at all a coincidence. This is the realisation that on a deep unconscious level his soul truly wants this union, his mind is only just recently allowing itself to accept this, and catch on to its truth. 

If he is indeed still worrying about this 3rd party situation, then this week he will finally shut it down, and make a decision about things. His third eye is truly expanding, and I do feel as if this will be magnified by the appearance of the new moon, as there is a moon crescent present in the high priestess card. Not only is he recognising this week how truly powerful the feminine is, but he is also beginning to appreciate the union for what it is. His worry, and doubt over the past few weeks have simply been his resistance trying to manifest, as he became opened to a whirlpool of the spiritual, highly accelerated, and emotionally heightened world that was the divine feminine – and everything that she opened him up to. 

The justice card on the side of the feminine symbolises the balance that is being re-introduced into her life. Financially, her work is being recognised, and she is being appreciated finally for what she brings to the table. The scales are evening out, so she is learning not to give more than she receives, and simultaneously, to receive all that comes to her for her efforts. The justice card may also signify a divorce, which may represent the masculine leaving the third party situation he was previously involved in, (threes a crowd). 

She may consider moving this week for financial reasons, and perhaps this is what triggers the masculine to reach out to her. She is seeing things from a heightened perspective, and so is he, aside from he is experiencing this spiritually, and she is experiencing this materially. The world is literally her oyster. 

There is also a vital lesson in love that she is learning this week. The masculine is drawn to her, the more she is aligned to her goddess power. These were the natural roles before the interruption of polarity/patriarchal restrictions, and power struggles, feminine imbalances etc.. The feminine is the way shower. So when she directs towards herself, she also directs the masculine towards herself..

 

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Stepping out into the real world.

It is a funny thing – to have been alive for so long, yet not truly living. 

I think of my previous relationship – how scary & suffocating it is that I almost lost myself in something that was so toxic & scary & detrimental for me. And the nightmares that I often have about still being back in that place.

It’s pretty painful & awkward; because sometimes when you are in a toxic relationship – whether energetically, emotionally, physically, or psychologically, you find yourself alone – without anybody to hold your hand, or help you to see the true detriment of your ways.

I find that when you are an ‘adult’ as such in a toxic relationship, especially if this relationship is non physically abusive, for the most part, everybody will just leave you to it.. And I do not know if I particularly blame them either.

Your friends & family will stick in a few words about how you may be acting differently, may have changed & how you probably are too good for this person, (whatever that means), but they will never understand the psychological implications behind it, the trauma bonding, the fact that it is not so much your conscious awareness that chooses to see you placed in this position, but rather your subconscious manifestations & projections of displacement..

Even when you break free from this type of entanglement – even when you try to soar & your feet literally lift up from the ground, you will still be clutched, & the tips of your toes will be tugged back downwards toward the ground, by the seemingly unbearable weight of sorrow, regret, loneliness, and guilt.

I call it – relationship based PTSD. Nobody ever fully knows how deeply you wound yourself into this relationship. Because they do not recognise how far your inner child’s PTSD stretches, or how far co-dependency wove itself to be an intrinsic part of your psyche.

So, you float on – you try to live your life again. Friends congratulate you about how much happier you are seeming these days, how much brighter your smile is, & whilst it is all true, it does not take away from the fact that you are still, several months later, shaken by the entire encounter – and still just trying to find your self. Claw yourself – from the rubble of the parts of you that are left, un/given to the dependent dynamics of the former relationship.

Who are you now? You find yourself asking. You are no longer the girl who relies on somebody else for everything, even company; so honestly, who are you now?

The beauty of this question is; this is your answer to decide. You are literally in the process of creation & can become anything that you would like to become. The you that would make your childhood you most proud.

You just have to plunge yourself into the darkness from time to time – to fully make sense of why this situation had to happen to you, because trust me, there IS a reason.

And you will find your flow at the moment, though you may be much the headless chicken now — you will find your know how, after slipping up & tripping & getting it wrong oh maybe a few hundred times!

Just take your time. Nobody has to understand it, but you.

Nobody else endured it, but you.
Seek Cindy 2016 ©
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Twin Flame Weekly Reading; 12th-18th September- Restoration & creation & manifestation; Discovering the new self, leaving the past behind & breaking karmic ties.

Main theme – The emperor, what is occurring for both twins – Nine of pentacles, Masculine – Three of cups, Judgement, The magician, Feminine -Nine of cups, Ace of cups, The fool.

Numerological break down – 12th-18th (1+2) = 3. (1+8) = 9. 

3 – Creation, manifestation, expression, communication- ending the week at 9 – Resolution, completion & releasing. 

Once again, this reading is not limited to those identifying with the term ‘twin flame’ alone & should also resonate with high frequency soul mates. The terms masculine & feminine are also embodiments of energetic templates & are not necessarily restricted to gender. 

The main theme this week, arriving as the emperor is proof that sacred lovers this week once again, have their focus towards establishing order, bridging boarders, and barriers, and going the full length to create the life that they are now certain that they deserve!

This includes obliterating any past obstacles that stood in their path, whether these obstacles were external, or of the self. It does not matter, because this week, sacred lovers will stop at nothing to see the acquisition of their goals. This is the tying up of loose ends, the strategy & the implementation that is required to take mere ideas & plans, & turn them into profit & success.

Taking charge & taking control of their own finances as depicted by the 9 of pentacles. This is all about going it their own way, taking matters into their own hands & not waiting on anyone, or anything, to offer them a hand out. They are done with co-dependent ways of thinking this week, as they recognise that the only way to sustainability, is self sustainability. No longer waiting for assistance, that rarely ever comes, and only keeps them in a state of procrastination.

The 9 of pentacles is the focus on the manifestation of their goals, talents & abilities. They are working feverishly this week in order to make everything come together full circle. Something within them – likely a realisation (see general weekly reading), and they are realising this week, that there is no longer any time to waste. Perhaps, they are combing their efforts here in order to take their careers to the next level. This may not necessarily be done physically, but could be achieved energetically, through the merging of both of their worlds. 

The emperor card may also represent both lovers healing with & dealing with father issues, or karma from the masculine template. 

The masculine energy is initially provided by the father figure in a child’s life, if a child is deprived of this, (even through emotional distance), it takes manifestation in different ways.

The feminine energy will likely suffer from a lack of organisational skills, or ability to structure & depend on the self, whilst the masculine energy may over compensate his masculinity & fail to tap into his inner consciousness, or even refuse to confront internal issues, that he may perceive as too feminine for him to allow himself to address. This is being rectified this week.

Masculine – with the three of cups present, the masculine is focused on unity consciousness. This could be him looking into the future & perceiving a life together for him & the feminine, that involves a child, or children. This third energy, however may also speak of the two creating something together that is successful, & that benefits the two of them equally.

The judgement card is the masculine’s realisation of the intensity & immensity of the spiritual union that is presented to him here at this time – as a result of uniting with the feminine. This is mass karmic work occurring, he is very powerful this week & he knows that it has everything to do with this connection. It is almost as if this relationship has given him spiritual strength. 

He is engaging in the exploration of his own soul, this is comfortability in tapping into his feminine energy, and acknowledging that he too is a great creator of that which he desires. His manifestation abilities are speeding up, as depicted by the magician card. He is saying this week, ‘Look what I can do’.

Spirit is like, ‘look at the gifts that I have given to the two of you, to go out there & use, to heal, inspire & empower others’.

It is imperative this week, to use these abilities & to use this connection to give birth to a third energy, a creative life force. This may be an ‘AHA!’ Moment about the work that the two of you can do together.  The three of cups signifies the ultimate goal of divine love, (creation & manifestation). 

The masculine has reached a pinnacle, the end of a cycle for him in his life & it is calling for a rebirth/self re-evaluation. 

Maybe there were 3 people involved in the union & he has realised that he has to drop, or let down gently the other party, because there’s only room for two in a spiritual/divine Union. 

It is also possible that it is his epiphany to create children with the feminine that gives him extra added motivation to create a successful template, to ensure that all their needs will be met, and taken care of.

Judgement is the realisation that he can change the self & break the cycle of bad habits, because he now has self awareness. 

Both energies are really coming together this week & influencing one another in a very impactful way! They are building an empire, cultivating establishments & working on the realisation of their goals & dreams. Perhaps the masculine is even experiencing dreams in his sleeping state of their future together..

Feminine – with the 9 of cups introducing Itself on the side of the feminine, her dreams & wishes are actually coming true this week! I am so excited for you feminine! 

She may be receiving good news about her business/career, and the direction that she is to go in now. Somebody arrives to tell her some good news this week & the news is in relation to her being one step closer to her dreams. Two 9’s in this reading, definitely signify the completion of a cycle & the beginning of a new one for her – along with the fool card. 

She’s using painful past lessons to create something beautiful this week & it is offering her a sense of empowerment. 

The masculine also has something to do with the way that she is feeling & the luck that she is experiencing, as he has offered her something. Maybe it was a dose of masculine energy, maybe it was his belief that she could really make her dreams a reality & that she is really powerful – based on what she has shown him!

Abundance is the message & the theme for her this week, she has more than enough, even when she cannot see it transpiring, she IS divinely taken care of.

The ace of cups is this new beginning in love, (once again, we talk of new beginnings for her). This is karmic resolve on a large scale from past relationships, & this signifies new perceptions about love & the masculine. This is belief in a better tomorrow, less scepticism, less pessimissm & ironically, the abandonment of abandonment consciousness. 

She is learning how to deal with the struggle & rubble of life better. 

The fool card sees her walking away from the past & focusing on the future. She is taking helpful past lessons & experiences with her & leaving behind that which is harmful, or traumatic. Learning from past mistakes, she carefully begins the weaving of a new future this week. I sense an enthusiasm about her potential future advancements, and what is to come.

When you remove your focus from the past, you witness how life is a journey of constant initiations & profound rebirthing.

Nothing is a mistake. Nothing has gone to waste. 

You learn to take all of the useful things that you have learnt from the past, & you proceed to make the scary jump into the future.

Whatever it may bring –
Happy healing my sacred beings ~
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