Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.

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Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading; Karma, and spiritual inception.

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Main theme – Seven of wands, What both twins are experiencing – Knight of cups, Masculine – Eight of cups, Judgement, The high priestess, Feminine – Page of wands, Wheel of fortune, The sun.

Before I begin, I would just like to note once again, that this reading is not limited to those who identify with the term twin flames alone, and high level soul mates should find great solace in these readings. Once again, the terms masculine, and feminine are actually interchangeable, and not always dependent on one’s gender. A woman may identify with the masculine side, perhaps because she is the masculine energy in the relationship, and vice versa.

So, this week, the main theme that occurs in the lives of both twins, is the seven of wands. Quite an interesting card, this suggests a battle, an internal battle, or a battle on the spiritual level that both twins have had to endure. This is something that they have been fighting with all of their lives, and it has been pretty much their soul imprint, to evolve, mature, and transition in this way, on a very deep soul level. This is the battle for spirit. Will they be consumed by the depths of ego, and darkness, or will they rise up in love, and light? Either way they choose to go, both twins would have done so to extremes. This is just the magnitude of their vibration, of their gifts.

This card shows that despite everything that the sacred lovers have gone through in life, and have dealt with, they ARE going to be okay, and if there was ever a time to see that, it really would be this week.

I describe this week for sacred partners, as a week of coming outside of the other end of the tunnel. It’s like both partners were in some sort of dark tunnel, driving along on the journey of life, on a very narrow road, clouded with shadows, and darkened edges, and now, as they come out, they will see exactly what has been going on around them, and because of them.

The page of cups, what both twins are experiencing this week, is symbolic of some sort of offer, I am getting a ‘final offer’. But not really final in a sense, although for some reason, this week, it seems like a much bigger deal. The feminine could be turning away from the masculine, and his efforts of redemption, and reconciliation. He may be offering her his hand in love, in return for her forgiveness, and in doing so, he faces his own shadow self, and his own darknesses.

It is not necessarily forgiveness from the feminine that he craves, as much as he craves forgiveness from himself, for everything, but he may not recognise this on a surface level, and may just think that his pain is all about the feminine, rather than triggered by her, but implemented, by him.

The judgement card is indicative of him turning inwards, and consulting with his higher self about who he is, who he has been, and what way he will turn now. He’s got some serious sorting out, and piecing together of his life to do, and he knows this now, because he stands bare in-front of himself in a way that he never has.

The eight of cups tells us that this week he is letting go. Whatever awakening the feminine has triggered within him, is allowing him to acknowledge the thoughts, behaviours, actions, and things that no longer serve him, and he is making an active effort this week to rid himself of this type of baggage. There are a lot of things that he is karmically attached to, this is associated with his negative karmic build up. This may be certain addictions, pathological lying, avoidance personality type, or belief systems conjured by his society/community, and this week sees him assessing how many of these habits of his really serve him, and how many have led him to make the wrong decisions in life?

In many ways, this is the clearing of the soul. The high priestess represents his higher consciousness, which ironically, takes the form of the divine feminine. Much like the feminine has a divine masculine counterpart leading her to wholeness, the masculine has this wise woman (the feminine essence) guiding him toward appropriate healing, and allowing him to listen to his own subconscious, and his intuition about what is right at this time. This is the very nature of divine love, bringing one home back to one’s self.

Over on the feminine side, she is also experiencing this type of spiritual evolution, and re-generation, the only difference is, she is quite at a different stage. Everything that the masculine is currently going through, she spent much of last year doing. She has been there, and done that, and now her soul searching and purging has brought her to this current place. This is not to say that she is finished in her work, or that she is perfect, or even that she is better than the masculine. She was just triggered earlier, in the same ways that girls are said to mature faster than boys, perhaps this is more to do with one’s socialisation in listening to, and trusting the development of self.

With the wheel of fortune, karma is turning in her favour. Her life is changing in ways most profound, and she is just about to get everything that she finally deserves. Her manifestation potential is ripened, extremely, her creative senses are at their highest, and she is finally being the nurturing parent for herself that she has always needed.

The sun card in conjunction with the page of wands, who tends to be quite a young, cheerful character, indicates that she is healing her inner child, and re-connecting with this sense of innocence, and joy. She may even meet up with old childhood friends this week, all in attempts to re-kindle the lost childhood.

She has done the soul searching that is presented to the masculine in the judgement card, she has done the letting go that is presented to him in the eight of cups, and she has listened to her intuition, as suggested by the high priestess, and now, she IS her intuition. The two, are one in the same, this is what provides her with such joy, and delight at this current time. She knows, what she knows.

She has been illuminated, and it is really all systems go for her, in any, and every direction she wishes to be pushed in!

Once again, I must state that this is not about punishing the masculine, and actually I am immensely proud of BOTH twins this week, in particular the masculine. He IS going to be okay. They are both exceptionally strong spirits, he really just needs to face himself. It is time.

 

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Do you hate him? Because i, can not..

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As much as i wish to hate the narcissistic man, a part of me just cannot bring myself to loathe him in the ways that i should. A part of me sympathises with him, with a deep part of his pain that he cannot, and has not seemed to make peace with, for he knows not how.

In feeling, and thinking that his masculinity is reliant upon his denial of the issues that he has faced upon his life, he has become a mirror of his own darkness, destined to walk this earth carrying with him the very thing that he despises.

For within him, i see the empath, the empath who never got to be an empath because we belong to a society that emotionally stunts, and persecutes men. In not becoming the empath, he instead becomes the socipath, unable to heal his own pain, or even feel it in the ways that he should..Instead suppressing it, and allowing it to grow into poison.

He is cruel to the world, because he is cruel to himself.

He shows no compassion, because he has been shown none.

 

 

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A culture of love, and ill trust.

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Art credits – Kehinde Wiley.

There is a culture among men who grow up in the slums. Usually from broken families, or families who have endured a lot of trauma, they group within themselves, and set out to construct entirely  new families, based upon the other young men that reside within the confines of their block, and the areas that they will come to know, and come to feel encapsulated in. Yes, because it is a trap. Not only of economical measure, i would say, it is mostly on a mental, and energetic plane, that living in the ‘hood’ is a trap. A psychological trap. They see no place fit for themselves within the system, society makes sure of that long before they can ever understand why, or how.
So, they feel as if the only tangible, and solidified thing within their lives, is their brother hood. The cultivation of this second family that they build, the one consistency that they know. The ones who share with them, the vision, of a better world, even if they will never know how to grasp it, imagination is thick enough.
And the things that they experience together, when they set out to make money, the loyalty is the only thing that offers them solace at night, when it is quietened, and they are met with the blackened silences of their own consciousness.

But how long? Until they realise the paper thin reality of their own morality. The good that you do catches up with you, as does the bad. And alot of these men are not bad men, far from it. Many of them old, and wise souls, born from a lineage of strong African heritage, but in the western world, in the dungeons, and the crevices of the slums, they know not of such royalties – only the homage that they pay to their brethren, only such loyalties.

 

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Why the ‘nice guy’ ‘never’ gets the girl; a sociological and psychological perspective.

[indeed this article is based on generalisation of life situations, and intended hyperbole. There are plenty of cases in which emotionally open men find receptive partners].

  
Before I begin this article, I would just like to take the time to alert you to the existence of contemporary, New York based artist – Kehinde Wiley. He uses his creative outlook to produce counter imagery to the negative and degrading stereotypes that we usually view, and associate with black men. His art features a more colourful approach, to the multi dimensional world that exists within black male culture, in attempts to raise awareness to the emotional, mental, and social diversity of the group. I feel that his work is extremely important at this time, when we are welcoming back the divine feminine and seeing the ways in which patriarchal values have suppressed us all, regardless of our gender association.

One of the problems within the black community, is, and has been hyper – hyper masculinity, an exaggeration of the already chemically imbalanced term. This is for many reasons – hyper masculinity is typically born when the feminine (associated with emotional fluidity, intuition, and creative expression), has been denied. Now, feminine energy exists within us all, (initially), and is healthy for our overall balance and well being – even in men! 

After years of slavery consciousness, and colonisation consciousness, many black men have been taught, (usually by their fathers), that the ideal perception of a man is one who shows as little emotion as possible, instead show casing physical strengths. During times of racial oppression, such as these, the suppression of all emotion, and all sympathy was necessary to continue the work of exploitation.

The denial of emotion that was inherited through trauma consciousness, must cease being passed onto generational lines, and must be seen for the poison that it is.

This has also been a byproduct of inner city crime, or as it is commonly referred, ‘black on black’, the belief that it is the establishment, and assertion of male dominance, and aggression that grants one high status among society.

We need to move toward a space where we can understand the benefits of operating on a more balanced scale, allowing the young men of our society to express themselves in ways other than the methods that are propagated to them. 

Please check out this artist on Twitter as his work is featured throughout this piece – @KehindeWileyart

  
So, why does the ‘nice guy’ never get the girl?

Well, let us first view the interpretation of the ‘nice guy’. Anytime that a girl, or a group of girls are discussing the cliche nice guy, there seems to be a few recognisable traits that spring to mind.

Self uncertainty. A lot of the time you will find that the nice guy, is pretty much unsure of himself. Not only ‘nice’, but he tends to come accross as pretty nervous, and sloppy in his approach. It may appear as if women are more attracted to men who treat them badly, (and this holds truth in some cases – but I will get to that later), rather, it is that women are very attracted to men who know of their worth. 

Whether it is boarderline cockiness, or over exertion, women seem to generally be very attracted to men who dominate their own energy, who are assertive within themselves, and comfortable within their being. 

The problem with the ‘nice guy’, which actually isn’t even a problem at all, is that he is very much aware that he does not fit into the typical template of ‘manliness’. He may have also had experiences throughout his life that reinforce his belief that he is somehow unworthy. It begins as early as infancy, could be as simple as play ground bullying, or words echoed by men around him, he will have a sense of discomfort, and insecurity within his own nature.

Women who do not love themselves, are only interested in men who do not love them.

And vice versa –

Women who are insecure, will seek belief, unconsciously within their insecure thoughts, by attracting, and being attracted to men who will also assert the idea that they are not good enough, and that they are unlovable. Trust me, I speak from experience. This is how the classical empath and sociopath (narcissist), relationships continue to be born.

Unconsciously, we all seek confirmation of our thoughts, and our beliefs, whether they are negative or not – we tend to attract validation of them.

This is why you will find many women making statements such as, ‘all men are the same’. The very belief in such a concept, will cause this to be true for her, and she will collect data from women around her to support this theory.

So what happens when the good guy comes along, when he is promising affection, reciprocation, and genuineness, all at the same time?

Why, she is flabbergasted. Disregardful, uninterested, and usually quite disrespectful. She has already made her mind up about the way in which she believes men to be. Subconsciously, she may also have had a bruised relationship with her father, (perhaps physically, or emotionally distant), and will seek the men who will allow her to continuously play out this experience in her life, as her unresolved wound attempts to make sense, and make peace with it.

Remember, I said that this works both ways.

Let’s focus once again on this quote on quote nice guy.. Usually, quite uncertain in himself also, he unconsciously seeks out women who will, and do shut him down. There are plenty of grown, and nature women who are practically dying for a man who is sensitive, compassionate, and attentive, but for some reason, this nice guy, just keeps going after the very women who shut him down, and shut him out. Thus, he too perpetuates the belief that he is not good enough, that he is unworthy.

  
So what is so attractive about the bad guy persona?

Well, honestly? Not very much at all.. He is usually inconsistent in his affections, disregardful, and disrespectful of the woman that he is with. But for some reason, that just keeps the ladies coming. It is the case of ‘baby boy syndrome’. This type of man gives women who suffer low self esteem a sense of inportance. They happily assume the role of his care giver, feeling that they can change him, and nurture him, and in doing so will finally gain validation and the male acceptance that they are so desperately seeking.

This is a fool’s game. I love you women, so I will tell it to you straight. This type of man will never change under your supervision. Whilst you aid his reluctance to enter mature manhood, he will continuously hold the belief that he can do as he likes, never taking full reaponsibility.

  
This miscommunication toward both sexes, causes the already emotionally fragile, ‘nice guy’ to feel shamed in his fluid emotions, and the expressions of such. He will repeat to himself the words that he learnt along the way, that his version of manhood, is not true manhood. He will believe that women truly only appreciate men who treat them badly, and he is very likely to begin emulating that same type of behaviour – feeling that his honesty, and sensitivities are frowned upon and misinterpreted in this society.

And the worst thing about this is? He probably will find more women this way. But these women too, will be masked behind their own destructive thought patterns, and he will miss out on the ‘good woman’, the nurturing woman, with whom he can fully be himself, and nurture his inner child, instead finding himself in a game of cat, and mouse, never fully allowing himself to surrender to her feminine entirety – in fears of becoming a ‘victim’ again. 

What a vicious cycle that befalls on us. The women who have had their hearts misused by men, in order to protect themselves, will then go on to exploit, and degrade other men, (usually, the ‘nice guy’), who will in turn, become the kind of men who perpetuate this cycle of abuse.

On a side note, I would like to state that generally, the period of liking, ‘bad boys’ does subside as a woman matures, comes into her own being, finds love of self, and begins to appreciate what it truly means to be a man. To be a provider, a protector, and not an extension of her father complex. Many women after a series of bad trials, tend to settle with, ‘the nice guy’, well, at least the ones that are left. By this time, he is usually more self actualised, and has found acceptance within true core, separate from societal perception.

The idea that a man cannot be balanced, sensitive when he is in tune with the feminine, and masculine in the pursuit of his ambitions, is another product of polarity and duality within our world. The idea that you must be one, or the other, when in-fact, different situations call for different approaches.
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February 8th new moon in Aquarius, numerology, detachment, karma, twin flames, renewal, and creative activation + tarot reading.

  
  
Hi guys! 

I am so excited once again to provide you all with the low down on this months Aquarius new moon! Now there is a lot going on here, many themes, and many downloads influencing our behaviours, our thoughts, and our feelings.

Those of you who are familiar with my work, know that I like to work out the significance of the date, and the number, that these Luna cycles fall on, because I am just that much obsessed with numerology!

I’d also like to note that the theme of Valentine’s Day, and lovers is present, as we are in a (2) month, the 14th, also signifies a period of change 1+4= 5.

So, let us take a look at what the number 8 actually presents, and how this fits in with what we have been experiencing, and what we are working toward. After this, i will move on to how the energy of Aquarius is influencing us at this time. There will also be a tarot reading available at the bottom, to further offer us some clarity, and affirmation about our feelings, and emotions.

Okay, so, looking at the number 8.. 

  
In numerology, possibly the most popular explanation of the number 8, is associated with business strategy, and success. This is often viewed as the number most likely to become successful, through business enterprise, entrepreneurship, or some type of management role, the reason being, is the number 8 does not really like to be told what to do, or bossed around, they tend to come from a past/background of being repressed, or suppressed, usually in regards to finance, or social/cultural conditioning, and toward the prime years of their life set out toward sustaining autonomy, independence, and enough financial security to not fall back into deprived ways.

I find this particularly interesting, as Aquarius is also associated with individuality, and creative spontaneity. Let us consider the term, ‘age of Aquarius’ which refers to a time on our planet where numerous activated soul groups, (like myself), will reveal themselves, and do their best to shake things up! This is the very nature of Aquarian energy, and also the energy of the number 8, the mind of individuality that breaks the rules, just by being themselves.

This energy inspires us once again, to tap into our own inner knowing, the responsibility that we hold toward ourselves to be authentic, and this leads us into the theme on detachment. 

In order to be fully authentic, and present the side of ourselves unlimited by society, or restriction, we must detach from all of the persons, activities, circumstances, situations, and belief systems that keep us tied in, that keep us limited.

Because of this, you may find that lately you are struggling against persons who are so obviously stuck in 3D consciousness, and limited to the propagated images and entrapment that ego consciousness have to offer. The things, and the people that you could endure before, seem ridiculous to you now! You begin to wonder how you ever put up with this stuff, and you look back at the past you, all in horror, confusion, misunderstanding, and slight admiration.

Wow, what a strong person you were to endure all of that, you may think. The superficial, fictitious relationships, the karmic attachments that bled you dry of hope and sanity, and the nay Sayers, who kept you both in fear, and stagnation, with all of their rules, control tactics and intimidation theories.

Which brings me back on to another prominent theme for the number 8.. Karma.

I once said that wherever the number 8 is present, a spiritual/karmic lesson is sure to follow.

During a period of separation from my twin, I was so distraught that my heart began screaming out, crying out for somebody to love, and somebody to prove to me that I was worthy of such love. Twin flame love. Well, I soon came across a man. He seemed perfect on paper to me. I even began to wonder if he was my twin flame, secretly I wished that he would be, so that I could release all of the pain, the hurt, and the confusion associated with my actual twin, who I was no longer in regular contact with.

This guy was interested in spirituality, psychology, and he was a life path 8. Jackpot I thought! Or not.. 

On our first initial date, he had articulated to me that he had broken up with his last girlfriend because she was far too sensitive, too easily hurt he said, and he felt like he could not be himself, and that he had to limit himself. A nightmare, as he described it.

I was shocked. Dumb founded. Left with the wind knocked out of me. Here I was. Sat opposite him, listening to the disdain roll of his tongue as he described a lady who sounded almost exactly like me, a description that sounded almost exactly like the situation that had unfolded between me and my twin.

Needless to say, I went home later that night absolutely devastated. Somehow, I knew that it was my twin sat before me, articulating his feelings, even though it was not him in the flesh. This is not uncommon for twin flames during separation stage. In the name of karma, other souls will come along who drop you gems, information about what your twin feels, is experiencing in regards to your union. The things that they cannot verbally tell you, will find a way to reach you.

The number 8.. Karmic returns.

This is the number that will show you first hand, the active role that you play in your karma, and your karmic transactions. How your thoughts, feelings, thought patterns, and actions create your life situations, and experiences. At that time, I realised how my over-bearing nature was really pushing my twin away, and how my unresolved wounds had caused him to feel restricted, like he couldn’t be himself. This was because of my own karma – my belief system that I was not enough.

You may have found yourself in situations lately that cause you to question your nature. If you have been perpetually playing the role of the victim, or the martyr, then you are asked to witness how you aid in these circumstances. If all of your karmic attachments have mirrored one sided relationships, involving you and a narcissist, then you must asses the ways in which your own brokeness, and thoughts about yourself attracted these individuals.

In what ways have you been aiding, and allowing these karmic transactions? These individuals who do not acknowledge you in the ways that you should be acknowledged, could this be because you are failing to acknowledge yourself?

Here once again, is where detachment comes in. In order to self heal, and actualise, we must detach from the set of feelings, thoughts, and limiting beliefs that cause our dense, and heavy karma to continuously exist within us, and manifest outside of us, attracting these painful relationships.

  
Because of the influence of this number, (8), we are also very likely to be experiencing twin flame themes, and motivations. The number 8 is a twin number because it represents infinity, and as depicted by its shape, two wholes coming together to form one whole. It is more prevalent than ever to both twins that they hold a mission, and a path before them is calling them, to reveal it, to reveal themselves. 

They may be currently working toward  business goals, and financial planning that will provide longevity, stable income, and that potentially leaves a legacy.

They are aware of the existence of something within them that continuously fuels their drive, and this goal visualisation very much helps the feminine, (stayer twin), to take her focus away from the pain of the Union, and transmute it into creative energy.

This is the kind of detachment that this energy calls for. Not the bitter kind that says, ‘he/she broke my heart, and now I want nothing to do with them’, but the type that says, ‘I will focus on what I can control. I will use this passion inside of me to prove to myself what I have always known deep down, that I am worthy’.

  
Aquarius is typically depicted as pouring jugs of water. Water is representative of renewal, cleansing, growth, emotions, and intuition.

Likely, our efforts toward detachment will bring us a sense of renewal, and cleansing. When we can let go of the past, we realise how the events in our past, no longer need to influence us, and how all of our painful experiences, are only concrete if we carry them along on with us. We can no longer go back to being who we were, or doing what we used to do, not knowing what we now know. We must trust in our intuition to provide us with the knowledge of where to go, and how to create a newer version of ourselves. A version more active, and determined.

Because Aquarians are so intellectual, and tend to rationalise things, they are known for their emotional detaxhment. However, Aquarians are not cold hearted, or uncaring, they are just willing to detach from their emotions, and think from an intellectual/logical standpoint if necessary – masculine energy.

This is most important for our feminine twins to incorporate. You can no longer allow emotional intensity to deter you from moving toward who you are, and achieving all that is destined to you, unlimited abundance. 

It is your thoughts about being unworthy, and unlovable that have caused you emotional turmoil within this situation. Detachment from your former thought train will show you, that you are worthy and powerful, and no life circumstance can determine the measure of your worth. That is the type of old paradigm thinking that kept you in martyr complex.

You must divorce your old self, and deter your old ways. For they no longer serve you.

Detachment from concepts/labels.

One of the biggest detachments that I see occuring within this time, is the detachment from the label twin flame, and the stages, and promises that it represents.

The race to the finale, to surrender, to re-Union, has not served any good but to place you with greater feelings of anxiety, apprehension, and frustration.

Think about it. If you weren’t aware of any of these stages, or themes, you would be far more inclined to let your love flow naturally, fluidly, like the water that the sign of Aquarius pours from the jugs.

You would not be left so hurt, confused, or imprisoned by this Union if you didn’t hold all of your twins actions up in accordance with how far or how close you are to Union, neither would you fret over the descriptions/expectations that come with the label.

This new moon you are asked to let go, of all previous baggage that has been weighing you down, all thoughts that perpetuate a feeling of hopelessness, and the idea that you yourself, are the burden.

   
 
Aquarius represents this fresh burst of creativity! They can intellectualise, and disconnect from emotional burden when they need to. It is not that they are eternally detached, or emotionally cold. Much like masculine energies, they understand when and where there is a need for emotional expression, and often redirect these emotions in order to focus on creative, and financial proaction.

There is much pressure on the men in our society to achieve financial stability, and security, and this energy encourages all, especially the feminine to adopt this same drive, and pursuit. Number 8 is all about this drive, and pursuit for success! They may come across as cocky, or overly confident, because they are aware of their potential, and their efforts, and show their deserving of acknowledgement.

Deserving. 

You are always deserving, and you must shift your energy to manifest this. When you feel deserving of divine love, you do not focus on the shortcomings so much in your experiences, and begin to take responsibility for your karmic assistance in the matters.

Tarot reading –

(Main theme, main goal, preferred outcome, masculine, feminine).

Main theme – 

Strength. 

  
This card, is petty much self explanatory. The theme of this new moon is strength, mental, emotional, and spiritual. I feel it is significant that a woman is depicted on this card, as this is a strengthening of feminine energy, on both sides. The feminine embodiment must gain strength in her emotions, whilst the masculine must gain strength in his intuition, balance,and spirituality. 

The feminine may recently have been dealing with themes of safety. In this society we are taught that it is a man who gives us validation, and protection from potential threats. This creates a really dependent nature on the feminine toward her father, and partners, and this will often cause her to feel disappointed, or neglected. She is being asked now, to accept that she is her own strength, and her strength is in her emotions. 

Main goal –

  
Six of pentacles.

This card represents financial security, and the kind of stability that allows us to be generous, and openly giving. When we have enough, and we are full, we can offer more freely to others, without feeling tied down, or too restrained. Emotional freedom springs to mind. Many of our troubles are magnified by the feeling of being insecure, and unstable. When we can feel comfortable in our being, and rich, emotionally, spiritually, financially, and mentally, we express a deeper sense of gratitude and well being. Balance, and justice are also represented.

Preferred outcome.

  The hermit.

A time for rest where we can be granted the wisdom and answers that we seek. Much has been occuring within, and many changes have taken place. Now, we seek solitude, and the time alone to go fourth on our spiritual journey. The hermit can represent winter, and essentially a dark night of the soul. This represents wisdom gained through intense introspection, and investigation.

Masculine (main theme).

 King of pentacles. 

Just like I mentioned – finance. The King of pentacles is at the top of his game! Successful, graceful, and accomplished, he is able to express a sense of charity, counsel to others, and care giving. Because he has achieved his goals, and he feels in control of his life, he can focus on other areas, and eventually become balanced on a larger scale. Remember that the theme of this reading was strength, so this is the area in which he is gaining strength. This could also relate to how others see him, and his status within society.

Feminine (main theme).

  Knight of cups.

Emotional confirmation/validation. The knight of cups often represents somebody who is highly sensitive, ideallistic, and easily led by emotional dramas, and the fluctuation of moods.

On the plus side, this individual is very much in touch with their emotions, and the beauty of life. Because of a magical perception, and intuitive imagination, this feminine vibration can create new worlds, and paint vivid manifestations. On the down side, if they become too absorbed in their idealisms of love, they may grow depressed, upon looking to others for salvation, and failing to receive it.

It is time for her to show the world what she has got, and not what she perceives that she is lacking. Remember that the main theme of this reading was strength, and it is strength that she is finding through these intense emotions.

Intention mantra. 

I am creatively manifesting my visions.

I am in touch with my intuition, and thus my higher calling.

I am love, I am safe, and I release all resistances to this.

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Society; smoke and mirrors, the unspoken silences.

  
I say that, life is a stage+everyday we wake up+prepare to brave the outside world, we are actively taking apart in theatrics. This is the very way of society. The person that you are when you are alone w/ yourself in the evenings, is not the same person that you are when you are among your societal peers, or members of the general public. + why is this? Well, if you felt that you could be the same person that you are whilst you were home alone, then you would be that person. The very notion that we have to alter, mould+trim parts of ourselves for acceptance is indicative of the fact that we are not truly at home with ourselves in society, because society does not allow you to.

We all have our darknesses+our sadnesses, but what separates us is the way in which we deal with these traumas. Some people choose to hide behind multiple masks.The greater the facade, the lesser the chance of being identified as wounded it seems. So in order to hide the bruised soul, must become more ego, greater ego, louder ego. The soul screams, ‘I am hurt. I am unsure in myself’. The ego echoes, ‘I will buy this clothes. I will take these pictures. + the world will know of my beauty. The world will think that I am the best’. It is a viscous cycle of seclusion. We seclude the facets of ourselves that really demand our attention. We silence them+shove them into a bottomless pit day by day, gracing the world w/ expensive clothes, with laughter, with grandiose delusions.+ this creates a society who are ran by a dog eat dog mentality. If you are to be the best+the most beautiful+the most worthy, then ofcourse, you must annihilate all competition. In order to do so, to be the alpha of the pack, you step on the backs of those who you perceive to be beneath you. If they look like the fool, then you do not have to. This is how a bully’s mentality is born, another vicious cycle. ‘The bully’ archetype begins very early on, as early as nursery school. This individual experiences malicious behaviours at home from their care givers, but instead of responding to their own pains, mimics the evils that they see, + carries them out into the world.
I myself am not perfect, but nothing means more to me than being a good person..The focus shouldn’t always be on where you are, who you are, or who you have been, so much as it should be who you strive to be & the efforts that you so tirelessly lend to being that person..Day by day. Minute by minute. Hour by hour, you are creating yourself, you are creating ripples within the universe, that send ripples of equivalent energy back toward you.. The laws of change/ exchange, as above so below, the very balance that keeps existence in order. Because nobody can hope to be entirely perfect, or free from their own delusions – it is a request non fathomable, unconquerable.

Don’t let people make you feel bad because you are not perfect, or have not lived a perfect life & have behaved in less than perfect ways… This is the story of human kind – imperfect by nature, because perfection is an illusionary, elusive & rather grandiose concept if you ask me. If we want to speak of true perfection, which I perceive to be a thing without flaw, or worthy criticism, then I think of the divine.. The most high, who we are all a reflection of, but who we are NOT.

People & society in particular attempt to control you using your imperfections & your mistakes like a dark cloud looming over you.. Never allowing you to dare to dream or be more than what you are.. God forbid that you realise you are a divine sparkle of the most divine essence & energy.. No longer will you be so easily manipulated or indoctrinated by the powers that be. So they make it so that your past mistakes & your ‘karma’ will continuously be held over you, & roll off the tongues of those who speak of you.. But it is all a fallacy, because they too are filled to the brink with illegitimacy, & inherent evils of the paths on their trials..

This does not make them bad, no. This makes them human. To be human is to journey, to grow, to learn.. For the ones who are granted old age, it is in our ‘wise years’ that we grow most humble, most loving, most accepting.. It is when we are closest to reconnecting with our maker, that we realise all at once.. The only truth is love & the only gain, is knowledge.

Forgive yourself. This minute. For all of your evils – no matter how evil. Start from there.

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