General Weekly Reading – 12th-18th December 2016; Fight to the finish, future plans, and establishing healthier foundations.

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Main theme – Five of wands, Surrounding cards – King of cups, Page of pentacles, The star, Knight of pentacles. 

Numerological break down calculation – 12th – 3 ( Creation, expansion, manifestation, communication, and exploration) – 9 – ( Creativity + compassion for others, creating a new home space, Healing abandonment consciousness, resolution, completion. 

The five of wands as the main theme represents the struggle against ones self, in particular this week, one’s former self, and one’s lower self. The fight to the finish can mean a struggle against family karma, or old templates that keep us tied to a certain way of living. Because the number 5 represents change, there is a deep internal change that is trying to occur on a spiritual level, but in order for full transformation to occur, we need to establish a balance within, so this is the fight between our two selves, the higher self, and the shadow self, the masculine side, and the feminine side. 

We may find ourselves this week struggling against or challenging old triggers, particularly emotional triggers, as they attempt to regress us to a less accomplished version of ourselves. Whenever the 5 of wands appears, we seek expansion. And naturally, if you wish to come up on top, you must fight! This is the very nature of existence. The sperm that made you, had to fight to the finish line in order for you to be CREATED. In the same way, we must fight the old ways now, in order to create an entirely NEW path.. We could be fighting against in our world externally, and fighting with old friends, or seeing friction between family members, and those we once felt connected to. Do not fret if you find people from the past falling away, or your new views are being challenged by those around you – this is all being constructed to re-shape your spirit. To show you that you truly do have a warrior spirit, and even though you have already been through so much, you can handle what comes your way.. And it will mature you for the next stage of your life that you are about to enter – which will require more conviction, and dedication from you.

The page of pentacles represents us walking away at some point this week from the strenuous struggle that is the inner battle. Many of us DO defeat the doubt of our lower selves, and can walk away, preserving something that we have taken from the fight, perhaps a new perspective, plan, or piece of advise to share with others. The pentacle represents a message that we have carried from our past experiences, perhaps this is something that our inner child has learnt through self observation, and wishes to share with others. This could be an idea, a charity, or a business venture that we have been inspired to follow – relatively in its early stages, but we are showing a lot of passion towards it this week. This is the, ‘I do not wish to struggle against myself anymore. But THIS is what my struggle has taught me’. Perhaps to have a more strong work ethic, to take more chances, to take a different path, to be more organised, or to deliver a message about healing etc.

The star card is representative of us lighting a way this week. We are definitely sharing our gifts with others, which more than likely is also offering us a renewed sense of hope, passion, and purpose. This is like a rebirth of our consciousness, particularly our subconscious, to channel our emotions in a new way, to express ourselves, and to give back. Representative of the zodiac of Aquarius’ the water bearer here is the one who gives knowledge, insight, and hope to others. There is a promise of a better tomorrow, even in the spells of negativity that we experience this week, there is still the hint that things really are not as bad as they once were – because they are not.  The star card can also represent divine guidance, a divine presence that follows us, and guides what we do, and heals us in our worst moments. Do not be afraid to look for some extra help this week, or to call on more guidance if you are feeling weakened. Something as simple as saying, ‘God be with me’, ‘God protect me’, or ‘Alhamdulilah’, when your heart is heavy, may assist you with the courage needed to carry on..

The king of cups is the desire to express ourselves, and our emotions in a healthier way this week. Even if we are feeling emotionally overburdened, there is a sense that we will not resort to unhealthy tactics or means to cope. Instead, we may be extra creative at this time, allowing all of the emotion to flow to, and fro us, also gifting us with strong intuitive insight, and new ideas. The king of cups also represents a balance between our emotions, and our responsibility to others. We may be much more emotionally vigilant this week, and more responsible for the energy that we create, and the energy that we give out. A healthier form of expression is definitely pursued, as there is the sense that we are growing all too tired of the everyday battles, and contradictions.

There is an illumination of the patterns that lead to restriction, or overreaction, and the knight of pentacles represents us looking out into the future, and focused on tasks, goals, and accomplishments that we have set for ourselves, with the expanding knowledge that we can achieve, and conquer new territory. The maturity of a project, business venture, or idea is largely dependent on our healing, and the ability to develop some sort of routine thus week. 

I DO see victory ahead, but it MUST be worked toward. Self accountability, goes a LONG way this week!

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Cindy Anneh-bu 2016.

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Full moon in Gemini – December 13th – Contradictions of the mind – The conflict of emancipation.

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Numerological break down calculation – 13th – The number 13 deals with feminine energy. This is the energy of the dimension that is penetrated after we leave the physical realm. Some say this is the most sacred number because there were 13 at the table, at the last supper before Christ died.  This marks the energy of re-birth, and resurrection after death. This is the who, the why, and the how, that we are to become, and to process after the period of death that has followed us through from September.

The energy of the Gemini always brings to us dualism, & along w/ that, contradiction.
If you know a Gemini, you know that usually, there are two sides to them.One side of the Gemini may be sweet, charming, & using their intellect for higher gain, whilst the other side of them may be dark, manipulative, & often moody.

THIS particular full moon entices us to view the areas of our lives where we may be the same.
Great mental ability is an anecdote, as much as it is the sickness, & we must do our best to tap into the best of who we are, instead of falling victim always to shadow behaviours, such as jealousy, vindictive, gossip, & retaliation.

It is indeed those who are armed W/ the knowledge of their dark side, who are blessed enough to challenge it..
But simply knowing of its existence, is not always enough to achieve this.

We are asked to observe ourselves, & our changing nature, & what thoughts & triggers lead us back to a point of darkness.

W/ a highly progressive mind, most Gemini’s find themselves thinking intensely of the future & our anxieties of what this future may look like, or how we may challenge ourselves to arrive at it, may be highlighted at this time.

Gemini, ruled by Mercury, relates to our ability to communicate, and also to process the messages that are presented to us. Our communication is entirely dependent upon the ways in which we communicate with ourselves, the way we have been brought up to communicate, and our ability to be EXPRESSIVE. If there are ways that you are holding yourself back, or limiting yourself in anyway, then this will show, through the strong emergence of your shadow self – that is built upon repression, and in-expression. Get out there – and let yourself be heard! Allow your voice to be known! Make your mark on this earth. Burn a fire through your trials.

The full moon in Gemini also represents the juxtaposition, (conflict)  between our present self, and our future self. The patterns, and programs that still bind us, and the future projection of ourselves that is not weighed down by all of these outdated formulas. But this is actually pretty wonderful news! Because the battle is between the present, and the future, which means that much of our focus has shifted away from the past.

There is a fear that we may become lost in the collective sea of the matrix, if we cannot snap our minds into action – into overcoming the shadow instincts.Gemini holds higher perspective, so there is nothing more painful than seeing everything that plagues the masses, yet still becoming a product of it yourself.. This is the very real worry, or doubt for many of us right now, although, with Sagittarian energy following closely behind, we are reminded to posess an energy of enthusiasm, and to take things one step at a time. Even though Sag focuses on the bigger picture most of the time, it is the smaller, day to day victories that allow them to know that there is indeed a bigger force at hand.

Over emotionalism at this time should Be met W/ caution, as we acknowledge that it often thwarts our ability to get things done & to move forward, particularly in the working world.
There’s a strong necessity to accept the spiritual messages that are echoed to us, whilst not losing touch of the tangible world, & the clarity that they both can bring – dually.
Turn your shadow side into art, allow your darkness to bless you.
Opposing Sagittarius, the super-moon today speaks of liberation, & freedom from internal conflicts.

© Cindy Anneh-bu 2016.

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NEW moon in Scorpio, Themes of death & loss; The mother wound, the womb,depths of darkness, and what the next few days can teach us..

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In Numerology, the number 10 holds very special, and divine weight. This is the number of the all that is. God. The beginning (1), and the end (0). The masculine (1), and the feminine (0). The feminine is the darkness, the absence of light – which is also very much representative of Scorpio energy, which is all about this darkness. It is the masculine energy that brings to us the desire to create (sperm), change in our lives, the clarity, and understanding of what it is that we must do. But before the masculine principle comes through,  we need to wipe the slate ENTIRELY clean, get down to the 0, the nothingness, the silence, the emptiness, the pain.

Scorpion energy rules darkness, depth, and death. If you know any Scorpios, then you  may notice that underneath their natural charismatic persona, lies a brooding, often moody, and contemplative persona. Scorpio takes us very far into the darkness – the darkness of the womb. In the womb, we are submerged in both complete darkness, and silence, yet it is the most peaceful, most connected space for us to dwell. This very feminine energy is all about creation – what we can create from the bottom up, from the point of nothing – we may gain everything. 

The journey that we make through the birth canal, is a very traumatic one indeed. All that we have to do is think about the trauma of childbirth. The blood, the tears, the pain. Yet this is a shamanic initiation for both mother, and child. Especially the mother – who now takes on a new role of the protector, who’s emotions, intuition, and ability to love all expand. She becomes God. The ultimate creator, and watches over her child, the way the divine admires his/her own creations. The child is ripped from their comfort zone. This particular new moon, and the entire month in general have revolved around revisiting these themes of past trauma – the first ever trauma. Specifically in association with any trauma templates that have been passed down to us through the mother. This includes any abandonment by our mothers, or abandonment consciousness that is passed down to us from our mothers. This can even include a mother who was abandoned by parents, or abandoned by your father. 

Our childhood wounds are triggered heavily, possibly with words, situations, (especially in love), or memories that seem to return to us in the strangest ways, at the strangest of times. We are asked to view just how much our adult-life is influenced and impacted by our childhood experiences, particularly what our parents, and our childhoods taught us to believe about ourselves, and the world. 

Everything is affected by what we have endured in the past. Scorpio is the ultimate death. Disappearing into the darkness, and surrendering to our deepest fears. You may notice that this month in particular you may have been even more contemplative that usual – diving to a place within your mind, that only seemed to take you further into your mind. However this was not escape, this was reevaluation and revelation. 

When you are in this state – of stillness, and darkness, like I mentioned before, answers just come to you effortlessly, because you are not searching for anything in particular – you were just allowing your mind to roam, and roam it did.

The fear of being out there – out in the darkness, the abyss, with no safety, no comfort, no mother. Many who identify with the healer template have specific wounds associated with the mother//feminine energy – typically an imbalance of some sort, or a power struggle that exists internally e.g masculine vs feminine, and this often manifests within our relationships, e.g poor relationship quality. 

Scorpio brings all of these themes to the surface, and all of this information is invited to sit with us, ALL at once. This is absolutely no time to shy away from the lies that you have told yourself in order to control your urges to just fall apart. You HAVE to fall apart. Something tells me, that you have had this false notion of control, or ‘strength’ for far too long. 

Which brings me onto another theme of Scorpio energies. Control, is a HUGE factor for many of those carrying the energy of Scorpio. There is a lot of conflict between what the mind says, and what they feel intuitively, and as such, battles between what we know and can perceive in this 3d world, and the intangible things that we may KNOW, but cannot prove are plaguing us… 

For this reason, our lack of REAL, substantial control in situations will likely be triggered. The desire to control external events indicates a fear, a deep intense fear of things falling apart – as they always have, or previously have done. We can learn through situations arising at this time, that the desire to control comes ultimately through fear. Fear of loss. Fear of rejection. Fear of not being enough. Where does that emotion come from? What first made you feel that you were unworthy? And how true is it? How long will you carry this thorn? Ofcourse, it is time for burial, and that is where the death part of Scorpio comes in..

It is time to adorn yourself. Emotionally, mentally, and physically – with the thoughts, and the things that offer you fulfillment. Scorpio is all about the INNER world, it is time to work from inside, out. Only internally can you fix what is broken. Heal the mother wound. Whatever was broken inside of her, was gifted to you also. Yes – gifted. So that you could transmute these experiences. If your mother was repressed, then live a life of freedom.. If she was neglected, or abandoned, then make a CONSCIOUS habit of not abandoning yourself. Release the self blame. You could not control what happened then. There is NO control, only the illusion thereof.

The desire to have somebody CONSTANTLY prove to us that they will not abandon us, and that we are worthy of love can cause us to behave in less than desirable ways. This is also one of the ways in which we relive our trauma, because actually behaving like this, and trying to avoid this, is likely to push others away. Scorpio is very much led by this internal power struggle, and being persecuted; either for having too much power, or not having enough. The struggle of the feminine archetype. 

Too much power? And she is hunted, and persecuted, and ridiculed – to the point that her power is removed. And then? She is left defenseless. In this defenseless state? She either develops victim consciousness, or she swears never to allow herself to be vulnerable again. She as in – the feminine, not necessarily a woman!

As Scorpio also rules themes of sexuality, we are asked to see how sexuality can be used for both spiritual, and liberation purposes. Sex has been used to abuse power, and control for a long time – especially where the divine feminine is concerned. However, in metaphysics, we know that sex is healing – the vagina is healing – the woman is healing, and all this healing occurs within (the yoni), in the darkness, (the womb), so the very essence of feminine sexuality, is transmutation. Feeling sexually charged, and liberated, is actually when the divine feminine as at her best, and if she is to create the change in a new world, then she will need to be armed with some of this knowledge! This power of hers threatens the faithless, and the powerless, and has done so for many centuries, but that is no reason for her to back down now! Rather, it is time to rise up.

Persecution consciousness must be abandoned now. And the masculine needs to learn – that just because the feminine has all of these wonderful gifts, and is captivating, and sensual in this way; does not mean that she will abandon him, or leave him, as he so fears. This irrational fear may cause him to try to control the women around him, and in his life, because he fears the primal archetype  of Eve; who once deceived him in the garden of Eden, and then was exiled – leaving him feeling both betrayed, and wounded. For a long time, we thought that the feminine had the greatest of abandonment issues – but rather, it has always existed as the masculine. He just needed to go inside, (yes pun intended), to figure this all out..

 

Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy.

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General Weekly Reading 24th-30th October; Shattering child hood fears, confronting love phobias, and higher dimensional thinking.

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Main theme – Five of cups (reverse), The devil, Three of swords, Three of wands, Page of cups.

 

The past few weeks have been particularly challenging for me. I experienced what same may refer to as a spiritual crisis. A time in-between, or before a major spiritual break through, where your ego is completely shattered, and you are forced to a stand still. For many, this feels like abandonment, and in many ways it is – as the most high will remove pretty much all spiritual connection for you, and force you to face yourself – with no means of using another deity for escape, or answers. The answers that were to be found, could only be obtained through myself. But in order to get these messages, I had to sit still with myself for long enough.. And that – was the hard part.

Numerological break down calculation.

24th (6) – Childhood, past life, maternal care, parental care, abandonment consciousness – 30th (3) Magnified – Creation, manifestation, creativity, unity between the masculine, the feminine, and the shadow.

The attachments that we hold, to  negativity, and pain, and the stories of the past are highlighted to us this week, as we take an even further plunge, into the depths of our own darkness. The five of cups reminds us of the importance of presence, not existing too deeply into the future, and not to look too nostalgically towards the past – because both will cause us to only semi exist, in a bottomless abyss. The five of cups in the up right position represents our fears about moving forward, and our tendencies to dwell on the things that we have lost, or the things that we wish turned out dirrently, a long time ago. 

In reverse, this card teaches us a lesson about detachment. We are asked to practice, and acknowledge a version of love that exists without us feeling as we have to lose ourselves entirely into this love, or substitute our identity for temporary highs. Detachment love is the love of the 5th dimension. This differs from a lover who is distant, or unavailable. Detachment love releases the worries, the fears, and the inclinations that we have to control our partners, through our actions, inactions. The truth is – we cannot always predict what we know, even those of us who are highly intuitive. And the times that we find ourselves doubting love, or feeling lack, what we are really doing – is  tapping into old outdated beliefs from our childhoods, and past lives, about not being good enough, and not being worthy to receive love. This usually finds us caught in a vicious cycle – either when we accept a love that is sub-par to what we truly desire, or, when we continuously reject any displays of love – because we do not recognise them to be love.

The page of cups is a message from our inner child this weak, who exposes itself to be raw, and unfiltered. The pain of rejection, and abandonement that we feel when things do not go our way in a relationship, mirrors the self imposed abandoning that we do to our inner child, when we give all of our power away, and look to another to fulfill our wounds. 

This is a highly emotive week as the page of cups asks, ‘Here I am. Won’t you listen to me now? And pay me some of the attention that I so deserve?’ You may find your creativity at an all time high, as this is a portal of expression that allows you to translate your unspoken inner child. 

The three of swords represents the detachment from old beliefs about love, and no longer attempting to align ourselves with archaic love stories.  The devil is really our shadow self emerging, when we continuously ignore ourselves, our own signals, and our inner child. The shadow self feels starved of attention, and recognition, and worthy respect, so it acts out in less than desirable ways – and this actually pushes people away from us further, cementing the ideas we hold that we are unworthy of love. This week asks us to see how we are, or have been perpetuating this trauma within ourselves, particularly in the form of relationships.

We may indeed be feeling very tender at the heart centre this week, but I do expect that the energy will lift, and possibly be lighter than it has been in previous weeks. 

Themes of heart break, loss, and detachment are presented to us, and we are asked to let go of expectations, and attachment bondings. It goes a little something like this – the law of attraction will tell you that if you desire something, then you should simply hold on to the image of it in your mind, until quantum physics beckons it towards you, – but then other spiritual ‘truths’, will tell you that you must release all expectancy to an outcome, and allow the universe to provide for you? So which one is correct?

The law of attraction is not truly as simple as it is explained. The law of attraction is actually more of a product of the subconscious mind, than it is the conscious mind. So – when your conscious mind is holding on to the thought of a vibration, and trying to manifest this, it is really the beliefs, and the energy of the subconscious mind, (which really controls the direction of the manifestation of one’s energy), that are working to bring a truth to light. 

So, if you perceive that you are attracting a healthy, happy love, but your subconscious mind is still plagued by thoughts of not being good enough, and being undeserving, then you will attract to you a love that confirms these thoughts. The transformation of the past lies with acknowledging this, and reconciling with it.. The forgiveness is self is VERY necessary. You are not to blame for the things that have happened to you. As painful as that truth is to accept, there was an element of passivity on your part, and perhaps this is why you fear vulnerability, and the passive state so much now.. You are to take a deeper look into the stories of your past, because they hold the mark of your wounded inner child. It is time to exchange those stories – for new ones, now that you know a deeper truth. 

Many karmic attachments are shut down this week, as we begin to really listen to the demands of our soul, and the pleads for internal harmony. It is a week of walking away. And whilst some of us will be walking away from lovers, the rest of us will be walking away from the false stories that we have used to keep our shadow selves alive.

There is no awakening like a heart awakening. 

We all know this. The heart translate the souls truths – so the sting of the heart, is truly a souls cry. But, when the soul gets damaged it does a few things. It has learnt over life times to heal itself, and to protect itself, and to shift, and change, and adapt. This to you is what feels like the dark night of the soul, or the depressive period.

You will be triggered by an emotional situation this week that likely causes you to want desperately to release past baggage. Your soul almost has a feeling of being too heavy. As if it holds no more space for harsh lessons, or painful experiences. This is true. So, let it go..

Listen to me – the lessons, do not HAVE to be harsh. They are only harsh when we have been ignoring ourselves for too long. And it usually takes something to shock us out of our delusion, and drop us firmly back in the bosom of reality – or, what we may call 3D consciousness.

In 5D, all things are possible. In 4D, we begin to think about, and try about all that is possible. The problem with this is, separating ourselves from the fact that most of the people that we interact with on a day to day basis, belong to the 3rd dimension. We may indeed be in love with their higherselves. The version of themselves that exists at a higher consciousness – and we see this, and we base our dreams, and our relationships around this.

But, because of the density of this earth, and the weight of the programs that have been downloaded by many of us, most people alternate pretty swiftly from 4d, to 3d – and whilst we are in love with the 4d version of them that we have experienced, most of the time – they may still operate on a 3d level, and succumb to lower temptations, shadow natures, and egoic customs. 

It is up to you – the old soul who is so determined for self awareness, and change, to exist in 4d, whilst non detached from the experiences of 3d, whilst holding a space for others to become aware of their 4d selves. Does that make sense? Detachment love. ‘I love you up here. And I always will. But down there – you can be pretty crappy. And I do not have to put up with that. But that does not mean that I do not have to love you’.

The three of wands represents the new ships that we have called, finally pulling up to shore. We have been awaiting a new beginning for a while now, and what feels like a new dawn, and With Scorpio seasons themes of death, change, and transition, we are about to see what happens when you rapidly shift in consciousness. Your ability to see the fruits of your manifestation, and see divine messages in everything around you, is second to none! In the coming weeks, get ready to see many mirror examples of yourself, who you were, who you are, and who you could be. Elevating to 4d consciousness means seeing the unity in the disunity. 

 

Happy healing my sacred beings, and well done!

© Seek Cindy.

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General Weekly Reading 17th-23rd October 2016 – A journey into the past (Child) self, Healing messages, and openness in love.

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Main theme – six of wands, Surrounding cards – eight of wands, four of swords, the lovers, the page of cups.

Numerological break down calculation – 17th (1+7) = 8 – Karma, abundance, breaking of karmic chains, karmic realisations, and transformation – 23rd (2+3) = 5- Change, transition, freedom, breaking of bondage, liberation, adventure, and newness.

With the powerful full moon  in Aries that we experienced a few days ago, emotions, revelations, and epiphanies are still heavy in the air. This full moon saw us exploring areas of our life where we once felt challenged, particularly in the form of the shadow self, childhood aspects, and  our fears, and conditions about love.

This week, actually carries those themes through, and as we have experienced in the last few weeks, we are still dealing with very heavy karma, breaking ancient old karmic chains, and bonds, in the form of thoughts, and belief systems, AND engaging in many endings, new beginnings, and the transformation periods in between. With the six of wands as the main theme, spirit is telling us that despite whatever turmoil we are currently feeling, and experiencing, this week, will actually offer us the opportunity to shit our vibrations, and to shift what we have been feeling. The six of wands, is much like the warrior who returns from battle – usually a lengthy battle, that has seen them give their best fight, HOWEVER, they return to the village having won whatever battle they have embarked on, looking victorious, having appreciated the experience, and with much more knowledge gained, and wisdom to share. We have been through many challenges in such a short space of time, and I know that we have all felt the elevation of spirit pushing us even more than before to accelerate, awaken, heal, and progress.

Wounds that may have taken YEARS, or even months to clear before, are being thrown out of the water now in weeks, DAYS even, because of this immense potential to cleanse, and let go. The six of wands says that you WILL find your feet this week, you will actually return from battle, though it may seem as if the odds are against you. You are a worthy warrior, you have been fighting this great fight ever since you were born – so it is highly important for you to release that you are neither weakened, nor defeated. This is no different from anything that you have faced before, it only FEELS more intense because you thought you had dealt with the last of everything..But the deeper we go towards the core, the more dense our wounds are, as these are the wounds that exist on a cellular level. 

The eight of wands this week, represents how quickly our karma is transformed, as the number 8 is representative of karma, and the realisations that hit us as we make sense of our own self imposed miseries. There has been a lot of mental work this week, as in the past two weeks, except now – we are digging ourselves out of these ethereal prisons by listening to our higher selves. The eight of wands is the moment, when you’re sitting, and over thinking, and stewing in your misery, and a voice says to you – ‘This is all in your head. You only feel this way because you perceive abandonment. You only perceive abandonment because of your childhood. You do not need to act in the ways in which you have acted in the past. These ways do not serve you. You are wiser now’. Messages that come to you fast this week, are likely a form of clair-audience, when you allow yourself to be stilled, and to focus on your own internal chatter, you WILL hear the things that you need to hear. There may be a little mix this week, as you will also likely hear aspects of your shadow, but you need to pay attention to WHAT your shadow is telling you – your fears, belong to the collective, and the collective wounds. But you WILL manifest them, if you keep believing that they are real. 

You need to look AROUND you, and make sure that this week the energy that you are picking up is in-fact yours – especially if you are an empath, this may be others peoples karma, or emotions, this is a particularly karmic time right now, so you may just be feeling a little bit of everything.

With the four of swords, there is still much of the quiet introspection, that was gifted to us with the hanged man last week – except this form of rest, and reservation, focuses on the healing of wounds. We are healing our wounds this week by slowing down, and withdrawing. We need to silence our external worlds briefly so that we are not distracted by the outside version of ourselves, and who we project to the world. This is about getting to know ourselves, and our wounds on a very intimate level. Why do I feel this way? Why is this feeling so easily triggered in me? The four of swords asks for stability – no longer over looking these things that plague you, it is time to get deep. Deeper than before, and with the lovers card, it may be a love situation that is triggering us to look more deeply into our own behaviours. This may not even be our own love lives, perhaps it is the love life of our parents – if we are to understand our own relationship templates, it may help to take an honest look at the environment that we were raised in, and how this shaped our beliefs, and experiences about love.

The page of cups is this very raw, innocent, honest, vulnerable, and emotional version of ourselves. Many of us are influenced, and visited this week by our inner child, and in a MAJOR way. All of these wounds, have been kept by this inner child, all of the things that you have tried to hide, all of the things that have bruised you, have actually bruised your wounded inner child more. If you are feeling particularly tender this week, that is okay..Send your inner child some LOVE! God knows that they deserve it..Write a letter to your inner child, apologise, soothe them, get enough rest, perhaps look at old baby photos, and recapture your innocence. Do you not wish to heal for them? If not even yourself – your adult self. An honest look at your wounds, will require you to peer into the past, but this is necessary to lay some of these old lies to rest. There is past life karma associated with your childhood also, so it does help to understand some of the lessons that you incarnated to learn. Your relationship templates change, as you confront your inner child, and your wounds, with this raw honesty, and openness that you are exhibiting. Perhaps you may become more honest with your partner, let them in to your inner most worlds more, because you trust that they will no longer shatter you – because you have dispelled the myth of being unlovable. 

You do not need to chase people. You do not need to run from people. All of these expressions are symptoms of dysfunctional love attachments. You simply need to stand in your space of lovingness, and openness, and allow whatever will come to you, to come to you. And allow whatever will flow from you, to flow from you – knowing, that either way, you ARE taken care of.

Be very gentle with yourself this week. Please stay away from harsh energies, try to channel your angst into creativity as much as you can, take a walk in nature as frequently as you can, and remember that your psychic channels are highly open right now. Messages may appear to you in strange or funny ways, when you tap into the flow of your inner child, you will also notice that many ways that spirit chooses to communicate with us, is through humor. Learn not to take everything so seriously once you make it out the other side of this dark night of the soul! Laugh at yourself. Laugh at others. Laugh with your lover. Love is pure child like wonder, and imagination. Do not lose that spark because of walls, and barriers you build to protect yourself. Have fun with it.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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General Weekly Reading – 10th-16th October; Anti resistance, Karmic acceptance, Masculine Rebirth, and the ultimate surrender.

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Main theme – (The hanged man), Surrounding cards – Knight of wands, Eight of wands, Ten of cups, Knight of cups.

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

With the hanged man as the main theme this week, we are releasing control, and resistance to the things that we cannot change, and focusing on the things that we CAN change – most notably, ourselves, our way of living, our way of thinking, our way of doing, and our way of being. Before any period of change, there must be some contemplation, usually this contemplation involves what it is we need to change, how these behaviours/patterns were born in the first place, and the damage that has been done.

For a lot of us who have experienced a lot of trauma throughout our lives, resistance, and the desire to control outcomes have actually been our favourite response to dealing – or rather NOT dealing with the things that have presented themselves in our lives, following our trauma. What this means is, most of us have actually carried on living out our traumas, because we have never been still enough to truly think about what we are doing, how we are feeling, or why we are operating in these ways… Yes this is a karmic come back like no other, and a continuation of the karmic bashing that we received last week.. I feel that this week is a little more settled however, as we completely abandon the fight to our truest nature.

Resistance, and trying to control situations and outcomes, actually exhausts us further, depleting our energetic resources, and bringing us more stress, and strain. What we resist, ultimately persists..

The eight of wands, and the knight of wands signify much inspiration, and dedication towards our future plans, goals, and ideas about what we are trying to build. There are two things that you can do in the face of karmic backlash – fall apart, and stay apart. Or fall apart, and build an entirely new you.  The ten of cups is representative of our focus towards building fulfilment, and internal satisfaction – the type that does not fade no matter our external circumstances. Whatever this bashing has brought us to realise, it has taught us above all that our internal systems, and our sense of well being, should take precedence above all – no more putting ourselves, or our soul’s calls last. Presence is now required to tease out the last of our wounds, and presence is all about knowing what it is exactly that we want, and focusing on what we can build around us, that serves us  – alienating such desires to seek outside of ourselves, and to seek others for validation. 

Security and a happy, abundant family life means more than anything to us at this time, as many of us were deprived of this in our own youth – this is a desire to understand a lot about our childhood imprints, and how we can severe this for the next generation to come through us. Now may not necessarily be the time to act in terms of future aims, and ambitions, but rather collect more information, take the time to listen to what spirit is asking you to accomplish, learn, and accept things from your current position. It will surely be time to move soon, but if you are still feeling a little stuck, then this means that the ball has not dropped – and there is still something in your silent state that is waiting to reveal itself. This final puzzle piece – will set everything else in motion, believe me!

This is a continuation of last week’s intensity, however, this week, we are asked to slow it down, because so much has transpired in such a short space of time. Things have been exposed to you. Now, is your time to process them – accordingly. 

We are trying once again to balance our feminine and masculine forces, particularly with the numerology dates presented in this week.  However, judging by this very masculine looking spread, this week may prove particularly challenging for the masculine, who will have to take this time to reflect on many things, and make some decisions. 

Alot of us are tired with fighting with ourselves, and though we may feel as if we are still waiting for something, perhaps a message to come through, we are learning not to allow our emotions to be so based on external factors. You actually receive more messages that way.. When you place yourself in a meditative state.

This is time taken out to figure out what you truly want, especially in your romantic life, home life, and career path. What does successful victory look like to you? Surely, it does not consist of such struggle. So why have you been struggling so much? Contemplation of emotional/romantic situations this week may see us making a hasty exist from victim consciousness, or perpetually chasing unsuitable love. We can see change on the horizon, but we are the ONLY ones who can beckon this change, truly. The insights that arrive this week are not to be ignored, as they arrive to us through several different mediums. We just have to be receptive to the message that presents itself.  We may be facing our deepest fears – finally, abandonment, and rejection, and instead of distracting ourselves with some fleeting passions, we are so carefully listening, and unraveling. 

There may be a new love in your life, either physically, or emotionally, as you come into alignment with what you deserve, and clear the karmic debt of what no longer serves you. Messages about love, or from past loved ones may appear as you are more open to experiencing a harmonious version of love, thanks to your new anti-resistance methods.

Perhaps it was your own thoughts, mind, perceptions about love that once created so many blockages. 

If you are waiting on a particular message this week, I feel like it will come. However, the person that you are waiting on this message from, is seeking some time out to also figure out what they want, and what direction is best for them, and I suggest that you take some time to do the same. 

The upcoming full moon in Aries plays on our passions, and desires to get from point A, to point B. Fire energies are all about quick transformation – this is the antithesis of victimisation, feeling powerless, like our situation is unchanging. Perhaps it is time for a move, time to shake things up, or introduce some radical change into our ways of living.

Your romantic life, and your ambitious desires, should not be pulling you in two separate directions. The best kind of love will be a synergy between the two, and will see the two complimenting one another. If somebody is, or has been distracting your focus, perhaps now is the time to shift your consciousness, rather drawing inspiration from what/how they have allowed you to feel. Or…? Abandoning this situation all together, and seeking an internal love, that manifests an external love, that is more in harmony with your creative potential, and abilities. 

Things can change pretty rapidly, (can and will), when you figure out what spirit has been trying to tell you or so long..Karmic life times long. 

Forgiveness, is a key theme this week. Whatever you choose to relinquish, or sacrifice, please do not do so in haste – lest, the karmic bonds here will not be broken. 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy.

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Twin Flame (Divine lovers) Weekly Reading – 10th- 16th;The loyalties & disloyalty of the shadow self, abandonment consciousness, and Masculine rebirth.

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Main theme – Five of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Two of swords, Masculine – Page of swords, Knight of swords, The wheel of fortune, Feminine – The lovers, The fool, Six of pentacles. 

Numerological calculation break down – 10TH – The alpha and the omega. The beginning, and the ending of the all that is. God consciousness – unity consciousness, and the acceptance of masculine-feminine duality, conclusions, and understanding – 16th (7) – Lessons gained through spiritual hardship and karmic cycles.

The 5 of swords this week, is representative of the shadow aspects of the self. This is all about the sneaky behaviours, and selfish interests that we embody throughout our desires to escape our emotional pain, possibly through manipulation of others, victimisation of ourselves, and failure to take responsibility for what we do.

There is a LOT of mental activity occurring this week within both divine lovers minds. There is a lot of back and forth-ing, and beating themselves up over the things that they have been struggling, or previously refusing to accept within themselves. As mentioned in the general weekly reading, this is introducing a process of anti resistance; the five of swords, and the two of swords, is the process before they settle into this anti resistance method, and actually give up all of the mental chatter, and calamity that is happening for/to them.

We find ourselves going very, very deeply within this week – perhaps deeper than we would have liked to, but this is very necessary for tapping into unconscious realms of realisation. It is like a rabbit hole that we must fall into, in order to be reborn, and revived. We have to hit our lowest point, for us to accept some home truths.

The five of swords is confronting the shadow aspect of ourselves that actually enjoys, and even attracts, and welcomes drama, and conflict subconsciously. There is much about the dark side thus far that has been drawing us, and I feel that it is more to do with our separation from self, and our misunderstanding about who we truly are – and what we deserve, and what others deserve from us. This is the type of dysfunction that is often born from growing in a traumatic childhood, or experiencing some type of childhood abuse. There is usually some pushing and pulling, polarity and division consciousness that occurs within us. In reality, the feminine, and the masculine aspects of ourselves, and the higher self, and the shadow self, should be united, respectively, as one.. But certain environments, and upbringings do not allow for the nurturing, or understanding of both.. Growing up in a culture where these two roles were very much separated, and exaggerated will also cause this type of conflict – such as heavily religious backgrounds, that regarded the shadow self in shame, and rejection, or patriarchal structures, that insist on men being hyper masculine, and women being reactive, and entirely submissive.. Hopefully now – we have all learnt, that hyper masculinity is just as toxic to the person embodying the masculine energy, as excessive submission, and powerlessness is to the one embodying feminine energies. The masculine who is hyper masculine is very much disconnected from his feelings, and therefore himself, brutalising him in a sense, whilst the feminine who is hyper feminine, is stuck in victim consciousness, and therefore grows spiteful, often hateful, resentful, and vengeful – psychologically that is. 

You have to be honest with yourself this week about the relationship templates that you create. These things are not just happening to you for no reason. You are not just falling into these situations. You DO play a vital role in this. For the masculine, he may be coming into the realisation that he has been ruled by his own selfish desires, and manipulative tendencies, with the wheel of fortune on his side. This is quite a blow in the face, because he is also realising how he has actually inherited these behaviours, if not directly from his father, then from somewhere in his culture, or genetic line. Perhaps his own mother, or other women who are important to him in his life, have faced the similar fate – of the selfish actions of the masculine template, and he is realising now that he too is embodying this toxicity. His fear of being abandoned – has caused him, to become the one who does the abandoning. 

Let us take a look back – all of the way back, to the masculine archetype. This is a very primal, carnal energy.. Right, the masculine had to hunt for decades, he had to face, and brave many dangerous situations, go to wars, leaving behind his family, and detaching from his emotions in that way. This was the original wound. The separation from source, (God). In order for him to be able to commit these acts, for the most part, he had to suppress, or relinquish altogether the feminine energy that existed within him, otherwise, the pain of these acts, would be too overwhelming. At this time, sexual intercourse, was the only way that the masculine could experience tapping into this feminine/divine energy once more, or feeling close/attached to something. Because his main drive was populating the earth – his desire to do so, coupled with his detachment coping mechanisms, meant that he pretty much became ‘promiscuous’, if you would put it in such terms. 

Now, what has happened is, as we have moved into higher realms of consciousness, been exposed to the new world, and elevate as humans, we are moving away from our primal, and carnal desires, and actually becoming more centered as a civillised, and aware species, which means, we should no longer be ruled by these primitive activation codes. A lot of the masculine templates, particularly those embodying hyper masculine templates, are struggling with this elevation, particularly the re-integration of divine feminine energies – which is granting them empathy, and self awareness. Yes, THIS is what is occurring currently this week! 

The feminine – had no choice, in the olden days, but to stay with the family – unprotected, and bound to her duty as the feminine – which first bred the abandonment consciousness, and the internal resentment towards the masculine; although, these were just the cards that they were both dealt. Now this wound continuously manifested over time, creating further division, and polarity among the masses – and ‘twin flames’, or sacred lovers, as you will, incarnated with the exaggeration of both of these templates, for a reason. Only those carrying the original wound, can transform it. Now, many believe that this wound goes back to the father wound, but it actually goes even deeper – it’s the entire masculine wound; The father, is simply the main embodiment of this, or rather, the materialisation of.

The masculine is desperate for change this week – through his new found understanding, and realisation, documented by the knight of swords. Perhaps things have recently blown up in his face, and he cannot afford to be the same person anymore. The page of swords transitioning into the knight of swords shows his rapid  mental maturity. Some sort of realisation or loss has definitely kicked him into awareness, he is more aware now of what is at stake – and it really is a battle for his soul, because he will NEVER be fulfilled, unless he confronts these issues. 

With the two of swords, there may be a decision that he is making this week, possibly, based on the third party situation that was previously discussed. He will have to let some people down this week, but this means maturity, especially if one of those persons, is him. Breaking away from things & people who serve his selfish desires to feel wanted/needed. 

The knight of swords charging in could represent his fast return/message to the feminine, after he has made up his mind about what he wants. However, with the fool card present on the side of the feminine, it appears as if she too has a decision to make, and very well could be walking away from him. There is a sense here however, that she is not at a loss, because she has taken something from this situation, most likely lessons, and wisdom. She has a sense of direction now, has learned and grown from her mistakes, and is actually, no longer the fool.

The six of pentacles on her side, also calls fairness into question. Is/Was this love fair to her? Is it equal? Or was one person carrying all of the weight? Does she have enough energy/resources to put into this situation? Or is she bleeding herself dry? Perhaps there has been a part of her subconsciously, that has enjoyed victimisation in this way – because it allows her to lash out at the masculine, and demand, over, and over again that he proves his love, and devotion – further exhausting the both of them!

The lovers card also on the feminine side, is her re-assessing her past relationships. Karma rears its head again this week to say, ‘AHA! You see this pattern? This is going to keep appearing unless you do something’. Perhaps the page of swords is revealing to her that she is attracted to this baby boy syndrome, the wounded, narcissist lover who has not quite faced himself, and his issues fully – because she too is unwilling to be fully honest, and truthful with herself about some things – particularly in regards to self worth, and being deserving. It has been easy for her (her shadow self rather), to attract these types of lovers, because then she can just sit back, and fall into her victim-hood, and say, ‘You see – I knew he was a bad guy. I knew he was going to leave me’, instead of taking responsibility for her own shadow. Subconsciously, she knows that if she entered a relationship with somebody who was more balanced, they would soon notice that she was imbalanced, and she would have had to make more of an effort to heal – which her shadow self was previously unprepared to do!

There is a reversal in karmic energy this week, that is so primal, and so many centuries old, that I do not even feel like I can articulate it.. If you are feeling strange this week, it’s okay, things are being rearranged on a cellular level. Times have changed now. Spiritual consciousness has made it so that more and more of the masculine souls are becoming more in touch with their spiritual/emotional self, whilst the feminine souls are no longer bound financially, or for safety purposes, and can now walk away from a situation that depletes their soul…This shadow work, particularly of the masculine, is clearing karmic templates for the feminine, of pain, distress, helplessness, and abandonment. 

I would once again like to affirm, that forgiveness is SO key this week! Please feminine, be the strength that I know you can be..Without forgiveness, the karmic cycle will recycle itself.. And you have great work here to be done to not allow that to occur!

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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