Stepping out into the real world.

It is a funny thing – to have been alive for so long, yet not truly living. 

I think of my previous relationship – how scary & suffocating it is that I almost lost myself in something that was so toxic & scary & detrimental for me. And the nightmares that I often have about still being back in that place.

It’s pretty painful & awkward; because sometimes when you are in a toxic relationship – whether energetically, emotionally, physically, or psychologically, you find yourself alone – without anybody to hold your hand, or help you to see the true detriment of your ways.

I find that when you are an ‘adult’ as such in a toxic relationship, especially if this relationship is non physically abusive, for the most part, everybody will just leave you to it.. And I do not know if I particularly blame them either.

Your friends & family will stick in a few words about how you may be acting differently, may have changed & how you probably are too good for this person, (whatever that means), but they will never understand the psychological implications behind it, the trauma bonding, the fact that it is not so much your conscious awareness that chooses to see you placed in this position, but rather your subconscious manifestations & projections of displacement..

Even when you break free from this type of entanglement – even when you try to soar & your feet literally lift up from the ground, you will still be clutched, & the tips of your toes will be tugged back downwards toward the ground, by the seemingly unbearable weight of sorrow, regret, loneliness, and guilt.

I call it – relationship based PTSD. Nobody ever fully knows how deeply you wound yourself into this relationship. Because they do not recognise how far your inner child’s PTSD stretches, or how far co-dependency wove itself to be an intrinsic part of your psyche.

So, you float on – you try to live your life again. Friends congratulate you about how much happier you are seeming these days, how much brighter your smile is, & whilst it is all true, it does not take away from the fact that you are still, several months later, shaken by the entire encounter – and still just trying to find your self. Claw yourself – from the rubble of the parts of you that are left, un/given to the dependent dynamics of the former relationship.

Who are you now? You find yourself asking. You are no longer the girl who relies on somebody else for everything, even company; so honestly, who are you now?

The beauty of this question is; this is your answer to decide. You are literally in the process of creation & can become anything that you would like to become. The you that would make your childhood you most proud.

You just have to plunge yourself into the darkness from time to time – to fully make sense of why this situation had to happen to you, because trust me, there IS a reason.

And you will find your flow at the moment, though you may be much the headless chicken now — you will find your know how, after slipping up & tripping & getting it wrong oh maybe a few hundred times!

Just take your time. Nobody has to understand it, but you.

Nobody else endured it, but you.
Seek Cindy 2016 ©
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Energetic transferences – The truth about hyper masculinity & hyper femininity. 

So, I think it is only fair to post a response to the sheer confusion, chaos, and backlash that was born yesterday, when I tweeted that I enjoyed being in the company of men, because I identify with being highly feminine, and it Injected some logical reasoning into my conversation.. Now, the feminists who got ahold of this tweet, went absolutely ballistic – (like I probably gathered they would), instead of viewing things from a point of energetic dynamics, they simplified everything down into – men, and women ie, me meaning – women are highly illogical beings, whilst men are the only ‘sensible’ creatures.Well, I can see HOW this could be misinterpreted – however, I feel like in order to understand my stance, you WOULD need to have a clear idea of how energy works.
We are all born with a certain access/amount of masculine/feminine energy, however, in each of us, one energy tends to be dominant, whilst the other remains dormant or inactive for the most part.
In those who are hyper masculine, this energy is highly imbalanced to the point of detriment externally, whilst with hyper femininity, the feminine energy is imbalanced to the point of detriment INTERNALLY – please pay attention, this is how energetic gender templates differ.

Masculine energy is external (drive, discipline, action, motion, hunter etc),

Whilst feminine energy is internal, (emotion, channeling, extra sensory ability, receptive, expansive)..

This does not mean that neither men, nor women cannot access the templates belonging to the opposing energetic group – actually hermaphroditism is associated w/ high levels of holiness & the balance between these two energies to create a third energy (God like force), is the goal of all Mystics.. At one point, I was hyper feminine, to the point of being too passive & this served as a money blockage also. However, after spending time with many hyper masculine men (narcissists), I was able to both learn & incorporate the tricks of the trade, as they exist largely within the thought realm (logic), to avoid emotional penetration..

In no way does recognising hyper femininity as an issue that is toxic towards the carrier themselves, undermining or cancelling of hyper masculinity and the ways that it is damaging to both men, and women.

I believe that the return of feminine consciousness/the divine feminine has been perverted, and misconstrued by the powers that be to create a binary between men, and women, and further separation and DIVISIONIST tactics. 

The goal should not be to separate ourselves, or scorn at our differences, or even try to make our differences disappear, rather, the end goal of all trauma should be reconciliation, and resolution. Why are so many of us picking at the scabs of our wound, and choosing to remain apart of our karma, trauma, and victim consciousness? 

And no, this is not ‘victim blaming’, or any other term that has been invented to deter the process of growth.

It is imperative that we grow outside of our wounds, and not remain entrapped in the trauma that was born of them.

Hating men, or even choosing to deny the benefits that masculine energy brings to our lives, is not a health response to trauma whatsoever.

Understanding and separating hyper- masculinity in itself, from ‘men’, as a gender IS a healthy response to trauma.

Not all men believe that women are subservient, and actually, there are a few men who suffer from hyper femininity themselves, and turn to hyper masculinity later in life, because they have come across individuals who take advantage of, and manipulate their former intense passivity.

These energetic templates should be made aware of, so that others can effectively learn to balance, re-write, and correct their imbalances, and karmic traces.

This also, is very directly linked to the eternal attraction of the empath, and the narcissist – and their subconscious, psychological desire to attain balance.

Once again, I know that not everyone will understand, or resonate with this post, but for the ones that do, endless blessings upon you..

And know, that there is nothing about your internal make-up, that you cannot tweak.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016

Friction and opposition; The necessary stages of healing. 

It appears almost as if a cruel twist of fate.. The moment that you find yourself in a state of spiritual, emotional, mental, and psychological elevation & inspiration, is the moment that you will rub up against those who seem to be at the mouth gate of the complete opposite.

Resistance, friction – an opportunity to test, are you truly ready to move to the next level? Are you really ready to fight for yourself? To love yourself more? And to excel in ways you previously never have before?

Okay, then I will send you this test, this test that once used to rock you & shake you at the knees… And now you will see, how you handle this.. How well you fare against the kind of strife that once paralysed you.
The entities that exist as low vibration cess pits in others will recognise when your own vibration is uplifting, they will recognise the resistance that you pose to whom you once were & out of bitterness & spite, they will do everything within their power to attempt to bring you back to a place where you recognise them…

Demonic entities (low vibrational beings) absolutely HATE to be ignored, it remains them that they are unloved, not of the light & not apart of God’s graces, & they confuse the vessel that they possess that it is rather they who are unlovable.

Do not be so shaken dear one. Know that this too is apart of the process… This too is healing, challenging & changing you at the most molecular, biochemical level.


You know that you are healing, when your arguments now turn into psychological expressions of communication, and resolution.

I have absolute zero interest these days in engaging in heated disputes with anybody.. My inner child is currently dancing happily, and she seriously has no intention of being unnecessarily wounded. My shadow self is also currently doing cute things, like parenting my inner child & enduring a process of self analysation & introspection, so anybody after anything else, needs to fall all the way back, have several seats & go get a coffee with kermit & them…

As a highly sensitive person, I find that engaging in any type of back & fourth is incredibly draining & this is why so many empaths seem to avoid confrontation…

The energetic back lash after is NOT worth it..

I find the inner parent in myself now reaching out to others who try to cause conflict & trying to parent them.

I mean, there is clearly an inner child present who does not know how to appropriately & articulately express itself…

And I am tempted to ask?

‘What is it at this time that you require?’

‘What causes you such dissatisfaction that you feel the need to misconstrue my words & energy in such a manor?’

The energy of resolution, is entirely separate from the energy of conflict.

Nobody is out to get you amor, I promise you that much. Well, unless indeed you do perceive things to be this way.

And it is the enemy within, the one who has a chronic dissatisfaction with self, that perceives itself to be a target, that determines that everybody is somehow out to harm it..

Gradually, as we heal, the sometimes timid, often defeatist voice within our head that lacks reason, will cease to think that all others have an agenda, particularly energetically vampiric souls.

There is not much that you can do outside of yourself, you cannot control others, you cannot control who they are, what they do, nor their emotional reactions & responses toward you – all that you can do is attune yourself, so that you experience internal harmony.

Realise that the actions of others are a reflection of their own perception & THEIR reality, similarly, your experiences, actions, and conclusions are relative to your own perceptions and narratives.

You can CHOOSE to buy into an experience if it resonates w/ you.

If it does not? Then you can choose to drop it from your auric field. As simple as you nearly picked it up.

Each day, make a conscious decision of that which you wish to indulge in.

However, in the end, regardless of all of our dealings, of those who cause us friction, of those who rub up against the unhealed parts within us, it is important with our labelling of others, not to write them off, or paint them as the perpetual bad guys – for this creates more separation and bitterness.

Our time & experience upon this earth is limited. Why are we so disregardful & disrespectful towards others? Do we know when will be the last time that we will be given the opportunity to see them? Surely, we do not wish for our last ever words to them to have been filled with malice.

To lose somebody unexpectedly places a shift upon the ways in which you view death, loss & life.

At any moment, one can become lost to the infinite cycle that is.

This is why human life is so precious! Why we should try to rise above our own petty differences & see the beauty of humanity for what it is.. All humans are sacred. Yes even those whom we dub ‘energetic vampires’, toxic, or emotionally & energetically draining…

Even they too are sacred.

I am not under any circumstance suggesting that one should put up with their bullshit, but rather, even in establishing & strengthening boundaries, we should try to speak to the inner child in them, the wounded one that is.

Harbouring any type of hate, resentment, or ill feeling towards others burns away deeply at us, more than it affects any other..

Go to sleep every night with forgiveness on your mind, understanding that we are all human, we are all learning, we are all growing, and we all make mistakes on this path…

Hate nobody. Express grief over their actions, but please do not ever carry hate in your heart for them… Especially those who abuse you, as this prolongs the process of abuse.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016.

Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 15th-21st August; Closing chapters, ending narratives.

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Main theme – Eight of swords, What is occurring for both twins – Queen of wands, Masculine – Four of swords, The devil, The chariot, Feminine – The emperor, Three of swords, Knight of swords.


This week, we are dealing with a lot of themes that were conjured, and brought to us through childhood experiences. This is our fight or flight, survival mode. The 8 of swords represents how we can become stuck within our minds, due to past painful experiences, and continue to resurrect these beliefs and ideas within our minds – until they become apart of our reality, and entrap us within painful cycles. 

Both sacred lovers have issues at times with thinking the worst, expecting the worst, and considering that life will always play out in the ways that it did in the past – which to them, means more pain, confusion, and loss. 

This week, is all about us freeing our limiting perceptions, and beliefs in love. The queen of wands represents the awakened divine feminine, but not only WITHIN the divine feminine, but also within the divine masculine. This sees him getting back in touch with his intuitive side, his emotional side, and feeling a sense of comfort within this place, even a sense of empowerment. This is really big for both lovers, because previously, it has been the suppression of the divine feminine within the masculine that has caused him to act in less than desirable ways, toward both himself, and past relationship experiences. 

There previously has existed two primary behavioural modes/templates within the divine masculine, because of issues to do with conditioning, hyper masculinity, and other ‘rules’, and regulations regarding what he should be. All of these behaviours were dangerous, and were brought on by a fear of the divine feminine, and a fear of her actualising her full potential, and being too much for him, and perceiving him as not enough. Contrary to popular belief, the masculine template is far more fragile than we are led to believe..

One of the traditional masculine modes/templates of feminine approach/interaction, has been forcefulness, and aggression, in order to capture her, keep her, and ensure that she does not grow too much, or too far from him. This included dimming her essence, and putting her down, until her magic was unfathomable even to her – this very mentality and template leads to such tragedies against the divine feminine, as rape, domestic violence, abuse, sexual violence… Etc..A lot of which we see all over the world today.

The second traditional masculine mode/template of feminine approach, has been detachment, avoidance, and passivity. This is a form of control in which the masculine behaves as if he does not care at all for the feminine, appearing non -chalant and withholding his affections, and attentions. This is done in a direct attempt to manipulate still, and control her love, and her desire to remain with him. ‘If i act like I do not care, the she will come to me, then she will want me even more’. This has previously caused the feminine to believe that she had to prove herself, and prove her worth, and in the past, this was her script. 

The awakening of the feminine, as depicted by the queen of wands, relates to her remembering how powerful she is, and how fluid, and electric her feminine energies truly are. She does not have to shrink herself, not for anybody, not for love, and the masculine is finding self love within himself, so he is no longer feeling or thinking as if he has to treat or manipulate her in these ways. Last week, she saw her shadow self, and i feel as if this week he is witnessing his own…

This is articulated on the side of the masculine with the presence of the devil card, and the four of swords. The four of swords is representative of the healing of the psyche, this period of rest, contemplation, and resolution, after thinking, and feeling a certain way for so long – directly tied into hypermasculinity, feelings of insecurity, inferiority, and a skewed/tarnished relationship with the divine feminine, that re-lived itself in all his romantic interactions. This is healing the DARK side of the masculine, the side attached to being sinister to get what he wants. This was all about his lower self, the part of him that felt he had to play by the book, or do things by the rule, likely by what the males around him advised him to do, or to be like. This was not truthful or natural to his nature, but he adopted these beliefs, and actions, because he believed that they were necessary to get him, ‘women’.

He might even be going through physical changes this week, physical exhaustion, or illness, as his upgrades take a toll on his overall health. He needs to accept this week, that he is not invincible, and this is OKAY…His invincibility lies with accepting vulnerability. He cannot hide away anymore from the part of him that IS vulnerable. This is the part of him that craves love, and craves it in its entirety. No more games, no more conjuring philosophies about women, and men, and what he needs to do, and not do, and dogmas about appearing falsely strong, or unshakable. 

The chariot is all about him balancing his masculine and feminine nature, and taking charge forward. Armed with the new knowledge that it is okay to be a little bit vulnerable, and it is okay to be individualistic, he can now move forward with his plans to woo the feminine, and to prove to her, that he truly is different. He has more direction this week, after he has accepted his new roles, he has a focus, he knows where he is going, he is more sure about who he is, he has broken free from self imposed chains, and he is on his way to his beloved. If soul mates or divine lovers are currently separated, then this card indicates a swift arrival back into your life. Maybe just a message, or maybe, this masculine will actually turn up at your door, or take that leap forward to get your attention. If you are already in union, this describes his desire to fight for you, to provide for you, to be open, and honest with you, and more forthcoming about his emotions. As he learns to love himself, he learns to put himself at risk a little more, because he does not always anticipate pain, or rejection back anymore.

Over on the feminine side, his new found  determination, and resilience toward sabotage, is making itself apparent with the emperor. This could also relate to the father figure, and healing issues that started with the masculine line in her family, particularly with her father. Maybe he was absent, emotionally distant, and this taught her to lack structure, discipline, and stability within her life. The classic template of men, who would come, and go. Because of this, she built certain beliefs around who, and what men should be, but now, the divine masculine IS effectively challenging this, and posing a threat to her worrisome thoughts. The three of swords is all about the pain that she has endured, and continues to endure when she deems herself unlovable, and unworthy. Still fearful of abandonment, she actually has day dreams about ways in which she may be abandoned, and kind of fantasizes sadistically about how this would take place. Her psyche has this very weird obsession with being left, and she places so much energy towards thinking about this. The queen of wands shows that she is SO powerful, and has SO much to offer, there is absolutely no reason for her to continue reliving this narrative, and she needs to take the time to breathe, and to talk herself down when she starts fathoming all of these fears again, because honestly, they are not real. 

She fears, that the masculine will always leave, and she will always be abandoned, neglected, but this is only her karma, if she keeps feeding into this theory. If she just frees her mind enough to realise that these thoughts arise from the past, and hold no concrete truths in reality, she can see the value of her worth. Other people surprisingly enough are seeing this worth of hers this week, and she certainly has a lot of admirers. As she clears her energies, she becomes more attractive to others, especially the divine masculine, and i see a lot of suitors coming up to give her offers of love this week..This is definitely going to help her ease up a little, and realise, that her fears about worth, and lack, are really just rooted in the past. 

The knight of swords sees the divine masculine charging through with a determination, and a clarity that cannot be ignored. Far from the templates of the past, he is not about to take no for an answer, or let her slip from his grips. He definitely knows what he wants, and as with the chariot, he is doing a lot of forward thinking, and forward movement, fighting for what he wants. He has had time to think, and he knows what he wants, and he knows what it is worth. He is determined to clear the air, to break through all of her barriers, and expectations, and everything that she thought love was associated with. He is one man on a mission this week. This also signifies that she may be protected by different men in her life this week, brothers, fathers, uncles, etc, as her perception about the masculine shifts, this manifests in real life also. The queen inbetween the chariot, and the knight of swords, both displaying strong male characters, is indicative of this type of protection. This knight is handing her his sword, that is why it is drawn forward, he is rushing to pass it to her. This is very much the ACE of swords, a new perception, new beginning in thought, and  a clarity of mind. Ripping her away from the eight of swords, creating painful karma by believing false truths about her worth..

We have a lot of work this week, a lot is going on within, and without us, and we have a strong responsibility towards breaking our karmic bonds. It will not be an easy week, and we will likely be triggered a few times, but it is all about re-focusing our attentions, and talking to our shadow selves, and our egoic selves, the most fearful part of us. We need to keep reminding ourselves that we ARE worthy of love, that we are love, and that there is no reason WHATSOEVER why we should be abandoned, or rejected.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading. 8th-14th August; Creation, destruction, and truthful Revelations.

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Main theme – Empress, What is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – Page of pentacles, Page of cups, Wheel of fortune, Feminine – The fool, Five of wands, King of wands. 

This week, with the main theme being the empress, we are dealing with energies of creation, and birthing. There is  alot of newness going on, we are dealing with very fertile soils, the ability to make almost anything, and everything manifest. What both twins are experiencing being the king of pentacles, shows some success for us in financial areas, and matters of abundance. Together, these two energies are symbolic of the divine feminine, and the divine masculine working together to create something new – like the big bang theory. There is a balancing of both energies going on within, although I feel as if the masculine is going through this transition, MUCH smoother than the feminine, who is being a little bit messy this week if I am quite honest!

This week, both sacred lovers are focusing on building, building themselves, building who they are, their self perception, and working to bring their talents out into the world. This is truly a week of self determination, and actualisation, but for some reason, it seems as if the feminine is a little bit threatened by the masculine’s desire to expand and explore. This is probably touching on a core wound that she has to do with abandonment, and she is being asked to look deeply into this wound as it is attached to one of the reasons that a lot of her past relationships have not worked out.

The fool card suggests a willful ignorance on her part. She is walking away from the masculine who seems to be walking in the other direction towards financial, and career opportunities. On his end, he is like ? ‘What’s going on? What are you talking about? What have I done wrong? I am just doing my own thing, I am just making some money. I am trying to change my fate, our destiny’ – as depicted by the wheel of fortune, and really, and truly things ARE changing for him, and the feminine should be proud of him, and happy for him, but she is quite threatened by his elevation. A part of her thinks, ‘will he still choose me?’ .. This is much more to do with her insecurities than anything, and this week we take a harsh look at the divine feminine, for her not so pretty side, and how she herself blocks union, SO much more than the concept of the masculine being the runner. In truth, she has existed as the runner for so long..

She’s like this week, ‘I’m going to go this week, and I’m going to do my own thing. Because you are not behaving in accordance with the way that I desire, and this is not making ME feel good’. Me, me me, this is her song, her battle cry.. Can you please see this week feminine, how toxic, and borderline abusive that is? Nobody lives to serve you entirely, relationships are a partnership, not just about somebody making you feel good. What about the other person?

Manifestation is at an ALL time high right now, so it is important to watch one’s thoughts, particularly for the feminine, her mind is so powerful that anything that she conjures (even the negative), will manifest, and take root – and this is what has been occurring for her for so long.

The five of wands is representative of this inner conflict within herself. Everytime that she conjures up an irrelevant argument, everytime that she is passive aggressive, what she is truly doing, is fighting herself, and manifesting this struggle outward. She needs to learn how to deal with her own emotions, or she will always drive people away from her. This is a huge lesson in love, and over coming blockages. I do not understand this week, the need for her to have so many fears, because the empress card shows that her empire too is being built, and things are also shifting for her – but alas, we get down to the nitty gritty of the problem – the feminine FEARS happiness, she FEARS change, and she FEARS success, and she is doing everything possible to make sure that she can somehow sabotage it.

However, the king of wands on the feminine side, is very strong, very determined masculine energy. Where previous partners have fallen, this masculine, is not about to take her shit lying down. He is not going to get up and desert her, because despite the abuse, he is actually far more secure, and settled within himself now. He has taken one of the wands that she is using in conflict, and set it down in the ground, and is saying, ‘I am here. I am not going anywhere’, but the real danger is…Nobody can put up with this type of behaviour, and abuse forever, and this is a call, for the divine feminine to change – to awaken.

Over on the masculine side, he comes with an offer of love, the page of cups sees him confirming, and yielding his love in his hands. There is an innocence about him, that should not be abused, he is exposing himself..He is really here saying, ‘Here, this is the love that I have to give you. Maybe it is not much, but it is what I have. I do not understand the need to fight, or argue, and it does upset me’.. Whilst he is dealing with his issues by surrendering, the feminine is FIGHTING for dear life. Perhaps centuries of the feminine template being associated with victimisation, and persecution is coming up in a major way, for release.

This is encouraging him to step up in some ways however, and to refine himself, because this woman is crazy (lol), and if he wants to be with her, he is going to need to learn some proper expression techniques, because clearly, she takes his silence for neglect, and abandonment. It is very important for her to acknowledge this week how she sets herself up for pre-meditated conflict.

Her insecurities are ravenous, and this week, she needs to turn ‘Alllllll the way, down!’.

This is a perfect opportunity however to finally identify, and bring about an end to these karmic struggles that have been occurring for as long as she can remember. This fight, exists within herself, and she needs to deal with this – not berate, and infringe upon others.

 

Happy healing my sacred beings ~

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Twin Flame Weekly Reading; 20th-26th June – Powerful healing and acknowledgement.

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Main theme – Four of cups, What both twins are going through – Eight of cups, Masculine – Eight of wands, King of wands, Seven of cups, Feminine – Two of cups, The star, The chariot.

Before I begin, I would just like to note once again, that this reading is not limited to those who identify with the term twin flames alone, and high level soul mates should find great solace in these readings. Once again, the terms masculine, and feminine are actually interchangeable, and not always dependent on one’s gender. A woman may identify with the masculine side, perhaps because she is the masculine energy in the relationship, and vice versa.

This week, both twins find themselves delving a little bit deeper into themselves, still. The four of cups is all about this period of self assessment, and self analysis. This is tuning out of the world, and dialling into one’s self. If the twins have previously been running from themselves, and running from their truth, then this week, is the week that they will finally face their own selves, their selves in totality – their darkness, their demons, and their light. This is no longer focusing on one aspect of the self, but rather the full version of the soul, and all of the things that the soul comes with. This is getting to know themselves on the most intimate level, so thankfully – this is the one thing that will bring them healing. Deep contemplation WILL bring overall understanding.

Such deep contemplation, and focus on the shadow aspects will lead both twins this week to mentally and emotionally sort through everything that no longer serves them, enabling them to let go. The eight of cups is the process of abandoning everything that is energetically binding, for negative reasons. The twins CAN see a new dawn on the horizon right now, and nothing is about to stop them from achieving this. They both want freedom at this point, and freedom looks like leaving the BS behind, and after everything they have been through? They are more than ready, and willing to do this – to go to battle FOR themselves.

The masculine this week has SO much information, and news rushing to him – this is all as a result of his self reflection, and self studying. He is beginning to piece together the bigger picture, the huge puzzle – why things have been as they are, and what he needs to do to get himself into the role of the king of wands. He is beginning to believe in himself again, and awakening to the reality of his spiritual heritage. The seven of cups is all about his spiritual process of finding, and identifying with himself. Delving deep into the self, and realising that he is pretty powerful all in his own right. The king of wands is awakening of the chakras, and aligning of each chakra. His sexual centres, are merging with his heart centre, (masculine, and feminine balance), and he is realising that this integration is most vital to his healing process, and also very vital in terms of his career.

Over on the feminine side, we can see with the presence of the two of cups that she is ALSO this week balancing her masculine side, with her feminine side, for a long time she has been what we would call hyper feminine, and this actually kept her from actualising her goals, and becoming the best version of herself, particularly career, and self image wise.

It was the masculine who triggered this balance, and awakening within her, but she is now becoming a power house all on her own, and taking that drive, and determination to be better, to the next level. She knows what she has to do now, and the chariot asks her to go RIGHT ahead, there is nothing holding her back anymore, not even herself, so with the chariot by her side, she is in control of her life now, she is in the steering seat, and she can go anywhere, accomplish anything, and make of her dreams what SHE wants. Yes, this is a very powerful position that she finds herself in this week, and I have never been happier for her..

The star card symbolises her sense of renewed hope. Things no longer appear so bleak, so cloudy, and so out of reach. She can see now that this was all a product of her mental state, and the limitations that she was placing upon herself. This is about breaking free from anxiety, and ACTUALLY challenging depression and low vibrational energies, as opposed to just allowing them to seep through, and merge with her..

 

Happy healing my sacred beings!

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The dark side of spirituality..

shadow

 

Alot of meta-physicians, and energy workers tend to focus on ‘the light’, and ‘positivity’ within their brand of teaching, and often stray away from the topics that constitute to one needing to fathom light, and positivity.

In one particular brand of shamanism, a person cannot become an initiate until they have graduated from a certain level/depth of suffering.
In other spiritual philosophies, we call this, ‘the dark night of the soul’.

This is an intense period right before the break through of spiritual elevation and evolution, and can last any time in-between a few days, a few months, and a few years.
It all depends on the ability of the initiate to travel deeply into their own unconscious darkness, and retrieve the lost fragments of their soul.
In other words, to heal, to understand, and the revive an anecdote for healing, to be shared with the rest of the community.

I believe that i endured this same period when I was going through what i would call the most intense moments of my depression.
What felt like depression, and was actually described as such by Western medics, was in my now opinion, the offset of a triggering.
A spiritual triggering, that could no longer cope with my blatant disregard of my spiritual abilities.

I had also absorbed much of the energy of my community, family, and society, which was associated with stagnant, pollutant, and toxic energies.
All of this boiling to the brink inside of me caused something similar to a psychological break down.
I did not feel at home in my own body, for i was not.
I had company.
I was being invaded.

Some people may refer to this as dark spirits/dark energy.
And one night in-fact, when my cousin who is a regular attendant of the Christian church came to check how i was doing, she actually brought a ministry along with her, who did declare that i was suffering from some sort of ‘possession’.
Though not the type that you see perhaps on ‘The Amityville horror’, or, ‘The conjuring’..

 

 

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