Twin flames; Week of shadows and mirrors.

  
Hello once again all of my soulful, and beautiful twin flame companions! As per usual, I would just like to note that although this article is directed toward twin flames, highly sensitive, highly empathic, old soul-ed healers will also benefit from this!

Now, before I begin, I would just like to once again touch up on the fact that in the days leading up to a full moon, those most sensitive to earthly and planetary sensations, (most notably empaths) will be aware of the emotional, and mental effects.

Full moons are a very luminous time in our lives where light is constantly being shined on all of the darkness that remains in our soul. For those of us who are, ‘called’, this is most notably the inbuilt fear systems that we are still holding onto, and any energetic blockages of that kind, that keep us in a denser energy. 

Each full moon, and each major numerological/astrological event has brought us closer this year towards purging, and cleansing, and you could say that everything going on in the world right now is pointing to old systems of power and corruption erupting, and a people losing faith in a failing system.

Yes, I am quite sure that you would have noticed, even those whom you once thought would never see the light of day, are finally awakening to minor truths about the way that we see things, and the world that we live in. It won’t be long until they realise the extent to which the wall has been pulled over the eyes, and once they do, this sets the plan in motion for an absolute epidemic, and pandemic of a revolution of consciousness.

So much is going on behind the scenes, we have seen fear tactics being used heavily by the media in recent days to try and manipulate the energy flow of the collective conscious, and turn us away from the light codes that are being downloaded upon us. Everywhere we look, we are to be victims of callous energy, and division/ separation consciousness, which is exactly what we have been trying to Pull away from! 

So what does this mean for twin flames and old soul-ed healers? Well, since they are all so very receptive to universal energies, right now, their own fears of separation and division are being magnified, and amplified. Much like they are among the collective consciousness.

You are separate from your fellow brother. You must fear attack, defeat, and betrayal, are all of the messages being subliminally fed to the earth right now… And in return, twin flames and healers everywhere would have experienced intense moments of doubting, and judging themselves.

Who is the self? 

Is the shadow the self?

Is there truly any light at the end of the tunnel?

These are all of the doubts that have been made apparent. More so than ever, as they find themselves on the brink of destruction, and creation, these beautiful souls are taking one last glimpse into the past, and pondering the possibility of a new future. They know they are on the edge, but they just do not know what of. 

Your lover, is your mirror.

  

So, you wonder why your twin flame or soul connection does not make contact? Does not attempt to ‘fix’ or ‘patch’ things up, even considering the distance..

Well what are you doing? What are you feeling? And what are you experiencing? 

Do you still suffer from feelings of low self worth? If you have the crippling fear that your love may be uninterested in you because they have found somebody who makes them happier, then perhaps you are still feeding into the notion that you are somehow inferior. In which case, it is very likely that your twin can not bet on long lasting Union, because they also are experiencing feelings of inferiority. Typically, the runner twin subconsciously feels as if they are not good enough for the remaining twin. 

So if you find that during this time your shadow self is ravenous, so is that of your twin flames.

Always listen to the messages that your soul are trying to bring to you. Try to look deeply within, and never without.

Letting go, death and the ego.

  
As this full moon looms, and asks us to think about our feelings, it also asks us to truly consider the feelings that we have for our twin. Do we still find ourselves in a deep state of misery, fury, anxiety, and loneliness? This Union was never intended to be punishment. The universe would never send you a piece of your life lesson in order for you to remain in a place of excruciating pain. Be very weary of twin flame advice that tries to paint the pain of this Union as, ‘just another part of the process’. Whilst it very much is, this pain is not intended to remain festering as pain, but rather to draw your heart toward God, yourself, and wholeness consciousness.

The only reason this Union and longing will still feel excruciating, is if you are still hanging on to ideals about what love should be like, and what you need to experience to make you feel loved, or worthy. 

Do not go through your pain, grow through your pain.

Let Go.

Let God.

You do not have to let go of your love to practice non attachment, or to experience the death/rebirth process. 

You simply just have to let go. 

Stop taking everything so seriously. 

Stop worrying so much about the past, just let go and see what happens.

As we prepare to enter the zodiac of Sagittarius/Ophiuchus, we are asked to use the wisdom attained to illuminate our path, and use our pain to teach others. We are asked to look deeper within, as we journey toward the bigger questions, who are we? 

Why are we here?
Blessed be, Cindy ~

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Twin Flame, Karmic Attachment, and co-dependency? How not to get taken advantage of in love. 

  
Twin flames, and karmic attachments are both soul mirrors to us, in a sense. Both unions provide the opportunity for us to see any emotional/energetic blockages that have been stored within us, as well as useful, and not so useful patterns that we have developed from our parents, cultures, and societies.

Now of course twin flames are the ultimate mirror, and ultimate emphasiser of what goes on underneath, and what parts of us are destructive, and what need healing, but karmic attachments also attempt to point us in these directions toward wholeness, by typically mirroring back to us the worst kind of relationship that we could EVER imagine!

If you are caught in a karmic attachment, then you are fully aware that something does NOT feel right, and it never has. You frequently find yourself feel anxious, depressed, unworthy, and almost as if you have to constantly, and consistently earn your partners affections. When I myself was caught in a karmic attachment, I became even more mentally unwell than I already was. Days were spent crying over my loves lack of affection, and BLATENT lack of interest, and then I would switch in between messaging him excessively, and trying to pour my heart out to him, in order to gain some sort of sub par response – which I barely ever did.  

  
The point I want to make here is, none of this ever stopped me. None of the tears over being unappreciated, or his re-affirmation to me continuously that he did not want a relationship, and did not want to be committed to me, ever stopped me from running after him, continually expressing my love for him, and giving myself to him fully.

I did not care that he was not in love with me. As long as he gave me something that remotely resembled love. I did not care that he did not want a relationship. (As long as he occasionally fathomed interest, even if it was only of the sexual kind). I did not care that he would go hours, upon hours before responding to any of my messages, (though my intuition always told me that he had seen them before hand), as long as he eventually did reply. 

And sure enough, there I would be, phone in hand, waiting anxiously for his arrival, for a notification that he had actually remembered and acknowledged my existence. That was enough to satisfy my heart into thinking that I was relevant. 

This was possibly one of the worst forms of abuse that I had ever endured. And what made it so terrible? Was that it was self inflicted. I did not have to keep chasing after him. I did not have to keep allowing myself to be treated this way. At any time that I wanted to, I could have cut contact, told him that I wanted nothing more to do with him, and that I deserved better. But the key point here, is that I did not. 

Somewhere buried deep within me, perhaps not as deep as I thought, existed the belief that I was deserving of this kind of treatment. That I was deserving of minimal displays of love, and that I was worthy of being ignored, repeatedly. I know now that this is because I was not fully showing up as myself. So how could I ever expect that somebody else would show up for me? How could I expect to have somebody who was fully open, and available to me, when I was not even fully open and available to myself? I was avoiding myself, desperately. I was so in need of me, so in need of ‘fixing’, and I tried to avoid this responsibility, by passing it on to somebody else to follow. Somebody who, through no disrespect, was never the man for the job. 

  
So, why did I put up with so much of this unnecessary pain when it was as simple as getting up and leaving? Announcing that I deserved more, and then proceeding to go and actually find more? 

And the simplest answer? I absolutely loathed myself. Yes, I did. The way that I was treating myself, reflected the way that he had been treating me, and the way that I had once been treated in childhood, so this feeling was familiar, so I did not see too much need to fight it, nor rock the boat.

This was a man who was emotionally Unavailable, shut down, and unable to utter any words, or actions that mimicked commitment, or intimacy. Yet here I was, a hopeless romantic, with an expansive heart chakra, holding onto him with everything that I had, and refusing to go anywhere! Honestly, I was borderline obsessive, and I thought that this was love. I thought that the momentary high that I received when he showed me the slightest bit of recognition was worth all of the lows. I thought that it was happiness. And all because I was holding onto all of these patterns, inherited from generations before me, and all of these beliefs attached to low self esteem, and the attraction of pain.

  
Remember that thing that I said about mirrors? About how these types of unions show us the parts of ourselves that desire recognition? Well yes, I did not love myself, or appreciate myself, neither did I want to commit to myself, so I attracted this soul who manifested these very same issues. 

Now, this is the objective of karmic attachments. I like to view them as sort of, a curse, let me explain this. This does not mean to say that these types of unions are inherently bad, or evil, because if you view them in this way, then you will never heal or move on from them. 

A curse is something unpleasant that can remain trapped within somebody, or within a particular line of people, occurring over, and over again, in a loop, until it is broken. This is exactly what a karmic attachment is. The particular attachment that I am describing lasted just over 3 years, but trust me, I know people who have been stuck in these types of unions for 7+ years, they are THAT addictive, especially when you just cannot pry your eyes, and your mind to see beyond what is directly infront of you.

If only we could all look a little bit deeper into ourselves, if only, we would find the world existing only as we are, and then we would realise how to overcome our negative experiences, and use them for outward healing purposes.

What is co-dependency and anxious attachment style?

Co dependency and anxious attachment style in psychology, are the exact reasons that so many empaths, healers, or light workers, tend to experience so many karmic attachments throughout their lives, and many eventually, also the twin flame union. 

These are terms that describe the behaviours of somebody who is so fixated on attaining love, and feeling wanted, and needed, that they continuously neglect themselves. The behaviours that we associate with these terms are needy, clingy, obsessive, and draining. Though they may not mean to behave in these ways, these souls are so bruised, they are always searching for cues that their beloved will leave them, and will resort to extreme, and manipulative tactics to stop this from happening. 

Doesn’t sound much like a healer?

Do not forget all about the birth of a healer. Before a healer steps into their rightful position as a healer, they are practically injected with all of these pains, all of these emotional, energetic, and generational downloads, that they must transmute, and release. This is not an easy task, particularly for the healer who does not know that they are a healer, and is just trying to live a ‘normal’, and neat life. 

The abuse of self will continue in these unions, until the empath learns that this is not love, this is dysfunction, and the only way out, is in, within ones self. 

Twin flames, and the terrible tales.

Because of all of the false information depicted about twin flames on the internet, many people have adopted the belief that twin flame unions are these happy, hippy dippy perfect relationships, where everything runs smoothly, and perfectly. This is so far from the truth. Those of us who are actually apart of, or have experienced a twin flame Union, will know how difficult, confusing, and painful that this Union can be. 

This is the ULTIMATE mirror relationship, and every single drop of your emotional, mental, and spiritual baggage, will be dragged to the surface, and you will BOTH have to deal with them. 

For this reason, it is a misconception that the twin flame Union can be void of ill treatment. Yes, your twin flame can still be disrespectful, unappreciative, and inconsiderate towards you. Remember, that they are also now dealing with many life times of baggage, and unwanted realisations. This can make a person incredibly selfish, confused, and depressed. (However, there is always a line, and you should be able to decipher when, and whether somebody is being outwardly abusive. Abusive relationships are NOT to be confused with this dynamic).

And this does not mean that you have to take it, nor that you have to accept it, under the guise of ‘divine love’, divine love feels divine. And does not feel like neglect.

This is the main reason why I say that this Union is all about you, designed to heal you, and bring you back to you. This is to break the chain of co-dependent, and self defeating relationships that you have endured, not exhasperate them. Your twin flame arrived as a lesson to you, not to just see you doing all of the same things, that you have always done. Remember that concept of the curse that I was telling you about?

Work on yourself. Break this chain. Allow your twin/karmic attachment to work on themselves. You can still hold unconditional love for them in your heart, whilst believing in, and exercising your right for self love and self respect. 

Many healers, and intuitives dare not say this, but what the hell, I am a little ris-que, don’t you dare be afraid to date soul mates during the ‘separation stage’. Don’t you dare be afraid to live, to feel, to explore love… But don’t you dare forget to heal either! 

This was your great awakening, do not let it be your great death.

Blessed be, Cindy ~ 

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