To love one; who belongs to another..

I still find myself being too drunk on love – the one thing that is never enough, that there is never enough of.

And I do not want to lose myself, to the many hells that we call vulnerability, but somehow, on some level, I know that it is not meant to be – I know that it could never just be you, and me.

We are so young, so rebellious… We have the entire world ahead of us;

Inconsistencies, at our disposal.

Love, good love – I did not want to fall in love when I met you; I wish that you would not have come too soon, for my heart; it is so harsh,

It is so greedy, so needy, and now that I have clutched you in my seems, I should want to make dreams of you… But you leave, because you have an entire world outside of us – and you will never be for us… The God Lord, he prophesied his belief in the holy trinity, man, wife, and child – nowhere in there, did he speak of infidelity…

We are scorned, before our love is even born. – Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy.

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Energetic transferences – The truth about hyper masculinity & hyper femininity. 

So, I think it is only fair to post a response to the sheer confusion, chaos, and backlash that was born yesterday, when I tweeted that I enjoyed being in the company of men, because I identify with being highly feminine, and it Injected some logical reasoning into my conversation.. Now, the feminists who got ahold of this tweet, went absolutely ballistic – (like I probably gathered they would), instead of viewing things from a point of energetic dynamics, they simplified everything down into – men, and women ie, me meaning – women are highly illogical beings, whilst men are the only ‘sensible’ creatures.Well, I can see HOW this could be misinterpreted – however, I feel like in order to understand my stance, you WOULD need to have a clear idea of how energy works.
We are all born with a certain access/amount of masculine/feminine energy, however, in each of us, one energy tends to be dominant, whilst the other remains dormant or inactive for the most part.
In those who are hyper masculine, this energy is highly imbalanced to the point of detriment externally, whilst with hyper femininity, the feminine energy is imbalanced to the point of detriment INTERNALLY – please pay attention, this is how energetic gender templates differ.

Masculine energy is external (drive, discipline, action, motion, hunter etc),

Whilst feminine energy is internal, (emotion, channeling, extra sensory ability, receptive, expansive)..

This does not mean that neither men, nor women cannot access the templates belonging to the opposing energetic group – actually hermaphroditism is associated w/ high levels of holiness & the balance between these two energies to create a third energy (God like force), is the goal of all Mystics.. At one point, I was hyper feminine, to the point of being too passive & this served as a money blockage also. However, after spending time with many hyper masculine men (narcissists), I was able to both learn & incorporate the tricks of the trade, as they exist largely within the thought realm (logic), to avoid emotional penetration..

In no way does recognising hyper femininity as an issue that is toxic towards the carrier themselves, undermining or cancelling of hyper masculinity and the ways that it is damaging to both men, and women.

I believe that the return of feminine consciousness/the divine feminine has been perverted, and misconstrued by the powers that be to create a binary between men, and women, and further separation and DIVISIONIST tactics. 

The goal should not be to separate ourselves, or scorn at our differences, or even try to make our differences disappear, rather, the end goal of all trauma should be reconciliation, and resolution. Why are so many of us picking at the scabs of our wound, and choosing to remain apart of our karma, trauma, and victim consciousness? 

And no, this is not ‘victim blaming’, or any other term that has been invented to deter the process of growth.

It is imperative that we grow outside of our wounds, and not remain entrapped in the trauma that was born of them.

Hating men, or even choosing to deny the benefits that masculine energy brings to our lives, is not a health response to trauma whatsoever.

Understanding and separating hyper- masculinity in itself, from ‘men’, as a gender IS a healthy response to trauma.

Not all men believe that women are subservient, and actually, there are a few men who suffer from hyper femininity themselves, and turn to hyper masculinity later in life, because they have come across individuals who take advantage of, and manipulate their former intense passivity.

These energetic templates should be made aware of, so that others can effectively learn to balance, re-write, and correct their imbalances, and karmic traces.

This also, is very directly linked to the eternal attraction of the empath, and the narcissist – and their subconscious, psychological desire to attain balance.

Once again, I know that not everyone will understand, or resonate with this post, but for the ones that do, endless blessings upon you..

And know, that there is nothing about your internal make-up, that you cannot tweak.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016

New Moon in Virgo; September – Solar eclipse; a glimpse – into the darkness, via the light. 


The new moon in Virgo arrives to us, to deliver us the message of productivity, strategy, and purposefulness. This is, the full understanding of what we are to accomplish on our path, what is it that is expected of us at this time, and HOW it is that we are going to achieve our necessary goals.

It is not nearly enough to know your purpose in this world, or what pulls you toward your passions, but one must have a direct, and fairly scripted idea of how they are going to accomplish all of their ambitions, with practicality, and realistic goals.

It is time to put your money where your mouth is. You know that you are capable, everybody knows that you are capable, but what are you going to do about it?

Are you waking up early enough in the day to get all of the tasks in your planner done? Do you even have a planner? Do you have a clear structure, and do you have a pathway that you can enter to bring you to where you need to go?

Do you have that individual to design your website? Do you have the necessary materials to publish your book? Have you researched your business field? Do you have the contact of a good provider? Do you know how to use Final Cut Pro? 

All of the practical processes that you require to further your career and ambitions at this time are called into question. 

This is no longer a time for emotional overflow, or emotional entrapment. We are not suppressing our emotions, or denying their importance, we are simply recognising that financial longevity and security is an absolutely fundamental aspect of healing, liberation, and independence consciousness. 

We have done so much work with the divine feminine, and feminine energy, we have explored her in her entirety, but it is the masculine energy – of thoughtfulness, honing the ability to use mental strength resilience, and focus to over come even the biggest hurdles, that will take us toward the process of creation. 

Ideas hold no value//weight.

It is the implementation of these ideas into action, and profit that holds value//weight.

Now is the time for action, and deligence. Your emotions are powerful, and potent IF channelled into constructive passion, if not given any direction, they run the risk of running your life, and running you into the ground. 

The Integration, of ones spiritual purpose, and financial accomplishments are being married with this new moon. It is possible for one to be both of service, and to be serviced, all at the same time.

The perpetual balance, 

Give and take – 

What it means to be at the right place, at the right time. Working with divine timing, by manipulating your own time in the right ways.

Your earthly responsibilities are called into focus. A glimpse into the darkness, means a glimpse into the psyche, where we will find ideas, philosophies, and unorthodox inventions, based on our own personal experiences, however, it is the process of creating light from our darkness, and the confines of our subconscious, that creates the genius template. Adding structure to your madness. A rhyme and a rhythm, to your eccentricities. This takes you from being the crazy bum on the street, shouting about the apocalypse, to Richard Branson, in his office, who took a crazy idea, structured it, and gave birth to a self regulating multi ranking franchise. 

This calls for the building stage. Relinquishing victim consciousness and dependency, means we are ready to be fighters for ourselves. Nobody else is going to do this, nobody else is going to go the full journey for us, but us.

It is only self dependency that grants true freedom from emotional entrapment – feeling helpless, feeling like we cannot trust ourselves to JUST be enough. 

Which brings me to the lovers card. I only chose to pick one card for this new moon reading, as I feel that intuitively, many of us already know exactly what is going on. 


This card symbolises to us, the process of falling in love with ourselves, and creating a third party energy through ourselves. The new moon periodically is a time of birthing something new, and allowing seeds to be harvested into something we wish to have manifest. The lovers represents the merging, integration, and harmonisation of two opposing aspects – how can we use all experiences, even those negative to keep us on track on our paths? How can we marry our creativity, with our practicality, to ensure that we do not inherit ‘scattered’ brain, or excessive, aimless day dreaming like many creatives do.

Are we still dependent upon love to save us? Do we still fall apart when our love lives go array because we have nothing left to be passionate about?

This is the energy of inspiration; there is nothing more inspirational than love, and the eternal dance between loss, and gain. Everything must be used up in the journey to success. Nothing is to go to waste, we must take all with us – the good, and the bad. 
Happy healing my sacred beings ~ 

© Seek Cindy 2016

Twin Flame weekly reading – 29th August-4th September; The balancing; of romance, and earthly duty. 

Main theme – Ace of swords, what is occurring for both twins – King of pentacles, Masculine – two of pentacles, queen of cups, the world, Feminine – six of wands, the lovers, ten of cups. 

Numerological breakdown – 29th (11 day) revelations, spiritual realisations, and lessons – 4th (organisation, hard work, structure, and stability. 

The main theme being the ace of swords shows that both twins this week, are experiencing a mental break through, a process of mental clarity, the likes of which have not been seen in a long while. This is a 360 transition of the psyche. A shift in perception, and perspective thinking. Things are revealed to them through internal knowing, without much conscious effort – this could be the work of a spirit guide, or strong intuitive ability growth. They are bursting with ideas this week. This is, ideas about ways to build new finance, and generate income also, as shown by the King of pentacles, which was also present in the general weekly reading.

It seems both twins are desperate for financial freedom this week through purposefulness, and serving their purpose, although for slightly different reasons. I feel like this quest for financial expansion is not at all selfish, or just for materialistic gain, they truly see how this masculine component, (money), to paramount internal healing, and United consciousness

Progress within their respective fields, and dedication toward work, and growth shows just why these divine lovers, were hand picked by the divine to go out there and do the work that they are doing, to spread the message, to care for the masses. They are both responsible and this week, they are only growing in responsibility as they recognise the weight of their mission, and why they must keep going with it.

This means breaking free from poverty consciousness, and dispelling myths about timidity or limitations. These divine lovers are destined to do work that expands world wide, they have these huge destinies, and their consciousness this week is echoing, ‘I want more for myself, because I want more for others’. 

Realisations, epiphanies, revelations will arrive to them this week, ‘THIS is what it was all about all along. Me. Me and my purpose’. 

The feminine this week, is breaking free and breaking out of co dependency, whilst the masculine, is recognising that it is okay to mean on somebody, and to be a little emotionally vulnerable, and emotionally open. This is where the two of pentacles comes in, balancing his work life/duty, with, his queen of cups, he thinks to himself, ‘If and when I have enough, when there is no lack, I can provide more resources, not only for myself, but for others. And this is my purpose, and this is my place’.

He is stepping into his role this week, of the provider, and the protector, and the care giver. Balancing his finances with his earthly duties, and his responsibilities is very important to him this week, and it is equally important for him NOT to feel like the entire world is on his shoulders. He may need the emotional support, and reassurance from the feminine, and with the lovers card on her side, it seems as if she is willing on some level to provide this, even though her focuses are currently on building her own empire.

He is opening up emotionally bevause of how open and vulnerable the feminine has been with him. He sees her as this delicate creature, emotional, sensitive, nurturing, and maternal – the archetype of the wife, and the daughter (simultaneously). 

This is a huge shift in consciousness, because the feminine instead of being just focused on him, and love, and relationships, as she once was, now, she is focused on her own victories, with the six of wands, she is looking toward financial gains, Recognition within her field, and getting what she deserves, by learning the vital lesson, that it is indeed what she deserves. 

She is falling in love with her work, and her purpose again. Romantic Love is important, and will always play a major role within her life, but, she is realising, that if she wants healthy love, non attachment love, then she needs to have her ‘own’. And this is not the only type of love..

Her own energetic pool of resources, a love outside of love, a thriving career, a steady life, good friends, emotional equilibrium. She needs to be balanced before everything can come together full circle – as with theten  of cups. Emotional fulfilment is at her door, knocking, she can have it if she wants. She is worthy of love, she is love. And if there was ever a doubt about this within her mind, this week will dispel this myth. 

The way that the masculine views the feminine is changing. In the world card, it appears as if the feminine figure is almost giving birth to the earth, and to a new world. This is the gratitude in him for what the feminine represents – conjuring, birthing, maternal, eternal love. This is placing an end to separation consciousness, within, and without him. Inspiring him Not to abuse his power, because this is a sensitive, beautiful, and vulnerable soul – much like he himself is.


Happy healing my sacred beings ~ 

© Seek Cindy 2016.

General weekly reading – 29th August-4th September; New month, new me. 

Main theme – King of pentacles, Surrounding cards – strength, three of pentacles, justice, King of wands.

With the main theme being the King of pentacles this week, we are deciding to get very serious, and very practical about our finances, ambitions, and career path. No matter what has happened in the past, we realise now, that self sustainability, and self responsibility is at the core of taking us on the next step of our healing journey.

It is all about the money honey. Okay, well not really, not ALL about, but it is coming to our attention that a certain level of autonomy is needed in order to maintain our progress and internal work. Maybe we need that money to move out of our family home because our family are still just too triggering, maybe there are places that we long to go, and things that we long to do to aid our growth that require financial improvement. 

We understand this week the immensity of the importance of our life’s work. The justice card suggests that our life’s work may be in tandem with offering a service to humanity in some way, something that heals, nurtures, or balanced the course of the destiny of others, you must know, that when you heal others, you heal a part of yourself in the process. This is universal reward.

Your inner core is changing this week. You understand that right and wrong is less about what happens TO you, and more about how you REACT to what happens to you. Things will always go wrong, I mentioned this in my retrograde article, but it is essential for highly sensitives to build up a strengthened inner core, so that we are not so easily offended. This is where the strength card comes in. 

Strength comes this week from the purposefulness of our passions and future directions. We have big goals, we have a large calling as depicted by the three of pentacles. Maybe we do not necessarily know what this calling is to be EXACT, but we have felt the pull our entire lives. This is enough reason to no longer play small. We need to gather our ideas, because THIS, this passion, purpose, ambition, drive, is going to be what actually, and finally liberates us from our past, and our limitation consciousness. 

We are balancing our masculine nature with two King archetypes. The king of wands is this acceleration, and bursting free of our creative and sexual chi. We may be feeling hyper sexual this week, we may be exploring, experimenting, because we are no longer feeling shameful, and like we have to hide ourselves. 

For my feminine enchiladas, this may mean a lot of male attention for us this week, OR a special male in particular who steps in to show his dominance, among the pack.

Tapping into creativity to make a new alchemical solution out of our past pains, tearing ourselves open to new heights, manifesting admiration for our work, and accolades, sees us reminded this week, that the BIGGER picture, is worth more than ALL of the bullshit, that we have had to endure..

You are a BOSS this week! People are like, ‘look at that boss, with all of that courage’, and you are to step into this role with confidence. Take control over your life. The victim mentality gets nothing accomplished, but keeping you stuck within your wound. This week, is about stepping into your light, it’s the, ‘what happens next?’ How can you take all of your experiences, and lessons, and abilities, and bring them, and yourself OUTWARD into the world.

I am so proud of you guys this week!
Happy healing, my sacred beings ~

© Seek Cindy 2016.

Excessive fatigue, and ascension. 

Honestly, I have been so incredibly exhausted with all of these shifts in consciousness, and reality occurring. It has definitely been a time of rapid change, and switching different dimensional timelines, and un-doing past life karma – enough to make anybody exhausted!

Pay particular attention to dreams during this time, especially dreams about death, as they articulate to us what we are letting go of subconsciously, energetically & etherically. 

Dreams about death do not pertain to physical death in a sense, but rather a death of the things that these persons are associated with.

Our cells are rejuvenated whilst we sleep, new brain connections are made, as old ones die. And sleep is the cousin of death, so you can be sure that all of the sleep that you are catching up on at this time is bringing you renewal, and rebirth.

You may even be experiencing psychological and physical regression – looking younger & fresher as a result of dropping harmful energies from your auric field.. This is a time of letting go, and allowing so much that has been stored within us to fall to dust. I highly suggest a heavy physical cleansing in preparation for this full moon. Cleaning the house, that attic/storage room that you dump old, irrelevant rubbish in – yes even that too must now be cleansed! Re-arrange the placement of your room, change your bed covers, dust for cobwebs – this is all related to the condition of yourself internally. Your home is an extension of yourself.
Happy clearing my babies…

Ashe.


© Seek Cindy 2016. 

Friction and opposition; The necessary stages of healing. 

It appears almost as if a cruel twist of fate.. The moment that you find yourself in a state of spiritual, emotional, mental, and psychological elevation & inspiration, is the moment that you will rub up against those who seem to be at the mouth gate of the complete opposite.

Resistance, friction – an opportunity to test, are you truly ready to move to the next level? Are you really ready to fight for yourself? To love yourself more? And to excel in ways you previously never have before?

Okay, then I will send you this test, this test that once used to rock you & shake you at the knees… And now you will see, how you handle this.. How well you fare against the kind of strife that once paralysed you.
The entities that exist as low vibration cess pits in others will recognise when your own vibration is uplifting, they will recognise the resistance that you pose to whom you once were & out of bitterness & spite, they will do everything within their power to attempt to bring you back to a place where you recognise them…

Demonic entities (low vibrational beings) absolutely HATE to be ignored, it remains them that they are unloved, not of the light & not apart of God’s graces, & they confuse the vessel that they possess that it is rather they who are unlovable.

Do not be so shaken dear one. Know that this too is apart of the process… This too is healing, challenging & changing you at the most molecular, biochemical level.


You know that you are healing, when your arguments now turn into psychological expressions of communication, and resolution.

I have absolute zero interest these days in engaging in heated disputes with anybody.. My inner child is currently dancing happily, and she seriously has no intention of being unnecessarily wounded. My shadow self is also currently doing cute things, like parenting my inner child & enduring a process of self analysation & introspection, so anybody after anything else, needs to fall all the way back, have several seats & go get a coffee with kermit & them…

As a highly sensitive person, I find that engaging in any type of back & fourth is incredibly draining & this is why so many empaths seem to avoid confrontation…

The energetic back lash after is NOT worth it..

I find the inner parent in myself now reaching out to others who try to cause conflict & trying to parent them.

I mean, there is clearly an inner child present who does not know how to appropriately & articulately express itself…

And I am tempted to ask?

‘What is it at this time that you require?’

‘What causes you such dissatisfaction that you feel the need to misconstrue my words & energy in such a manor?’

The energy of resolution, is entirely separate from the energy of conflict.

Nobody is out to get you amor, I promise you that much. Well, unless indeed you do perceive things to be this way.

And it is the enemy within, the one who has a chronic dissatisfaction with self, that perceives itself to be a target, that determines that everybody is somehow out to harm it..

Gradually, as we heal, the sometimes timid, often defeatist voice within our head that lacks reason, will cease to think that all others have an agenda, particularly energetically vampiric souls.

There is not much that you can do outside of yourself, you cannot control others, you cannot control who they are, what they do, nor their emotional reactions & responses toward you – all that you can do is attune yourself, so that you experience internal harmony.

Realise that the actions of others are a reflection of their own perception & THEIR reality, similarly, your experiences, actions, and conclusions are relative to your own perceptions and narratives.

You can CHOOSE to buy into an experience if it resonates w/ you.

If it does not? Then you can choose to drop it from your auric field. As simple as you nearly picked it up.

Each day, make a conscious decision of that which you wish to indulge in.

However, in the end, regardless of all of our dealings, of those who cause us friction, of those who rub up against the unhealed parts within us, it is important with our labelling of others, not to write them off, or paint them as the perpetual bad guys – for this creates more separation and bitterness.

Our time & experience upon this earth is limited. Why are we so disregardful & disrespectful towards others? Do we know when will be the last time that we will be given the opportunity to see them? Surely, we do not wish for our last ever words to them to have been filled with malice.

To lose somebody unexpectedly places a shift upon the ways in which you view death, loss & life.

At any moment, one can become lost to the infinite cycle that is.

This is why human life is so precious! Why we should try to rise above our own petty differences & see the beauty of humanity for what it is.. All humans are sacred. Yes even those whom we dub ‘energetic vampires’, toxic, or emotionally & energetically draining…

Even they too are sacred.

I am not under any circumstance suggesting that one should put up with their bullshit, but rather, even in establishing & strengthening boundaries, we should try to speak to the inner child in them, the wounded one that is.

Harbouring any type of hate, resentment, or ill feeling towards others burns away deeply at us, more than it affects any other..

Go to sleep every night with forgiveness on your mind, understanding that we are all human, we are all learning, we are all growing, and we all make mistakes on this path…

Hate nobody. Express grief over their actions, but please do not ever carry hate in your heart for them… Especially those who abuse you, as this prolongs the process of abuse.

Cindy Anneh-bu

© Seek Cindy 2016.